Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ Another view ❯ Chapter 2 ( Chapter 2 )

Title: Another view

Author: Noir

Anime: Gundam Wing

Parings:

Warnings: AU, lemon, yaoi, attempt to suicide? angst, bad spelling and stuff like that... Enjoy!

Disclaimers: I don't own Gundam Wings and none of its characters... bla, bla, bla

Chapter 2

Warnings for this chapter: angst, yaoi, lime? death? Oh and drama, lots of tears! *looks with teary eyes*

*Duo POV*

I didn't let anybody get in. I raise my head and I can't believe my eyes. It's the one whom I've never expected to see. I rub my eyes, but I don't bother to wipe my tears. He comes by my side, we're the same height. He wipes my tears, but they still come, I can't believe my prayers were listened, he's here, he's finally here, my angel, my… "Heero", I whisper, he smiles.

Oh, how I missed that smile, how I missed that face. He takes my hand and frowns at the blood, but does nothing, just leads me to the couch, we sit and I can see he wants to talk. "I'm…", we both start to say at the same time, but we trailed of and laughed. "I'm sorry Duo that I acted the way I did. I didn't mean to… make you feel bad. I'm sorry I broke your heart. It's just that… well it was the first thing that popped into my head… and since I didn't know what to do, I left." he said looking in his lap. "It's ok." I say putting my hand on his thigh and he flicked away, his gaze rising fast, his eyes wide. I pull my hand away like burned; I didn't want to scare him.

"I'm sorry", I babbled, his gaze hitting his lap again. "It's ok", he whispered and puts his hand on mine. Wake up Maxwell he's here to say he's sorry, not that he loves you. "So I guess you've been living with Relena", I continue trying to hide the pain in my words, but fail badly, but he's oblivious after the way he answers "Yes", he said blushing, a small smile flowering at the corner of his mouth. "I-I've been meaning to tell you", he said, his voice a whisper. Please don't let it be what I think it is. If he's going to say he's in love with her I'm going to kill myself, slash my wrists, whatever just to get away from this world.

"I think I'm in love", he says his face reddens again. Oh, god no! Tears find their way back down my cheeks, I can't take this just I can't. I get on my feet, I barely notice his gaze lifting to meet mine, my vision is blurry and I run. I run as fast as I can, I run away, outside it's pouring rain, but I don't care I run, I run away from the truth, just like I always do, I can't leave in a lie anymore, I just can't!

I vaguely I hear his voice calling me "Duo, Duo watch out!" all I can hear are cars and than I feel something hit me and I fall, it's like I fall forever, my body aches, but my heart and my soul have deeper wounds, I blackout.

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I wake up in a white room, there's something on my face, a mask? Where am I? It looks like a hospital. What happened? The last thing I remember was that I was running when something heat me. I wanted to raise myself into a sitting position, but my body ached, that's when I felt wires connected to my arms. No, I didn't want to survive, I didn't want to live to see Heero with Relena, I couldn't stand to know they were together.

I pull desperately at the wires and I pull the mask off my face, tears stroking my cheeks again, I want to die, I want to yell, but it's like I forgot words, I can only make sounds, sounds of desperation, desperation to die.

I feel a hand stopping me, and the same soft voice that melts my heart. "Stop it Duo, please", his voice was soft, full of concern. Concern for whom? For me? No, it couldn't be, I'm just imagining this, there must be someone else hurt, another person for whom he's concerning. "Please don't", his voice is full of… tears? Heero Yuy, The Perfect Soldier, was crying?

I feel my hand lifted and pressed against his velvet cheek, he kisses it over and over again "Please don't leave me, please…" his voice shaky from tears. I couldn't even think it was like my mind stopped. What was Heero doing? Didn't he know how much it hurts to hear him say those words? I cry harder, but it wasn't my sobs filling the room, it was his.

"Please Duo, please stop crying you'll hurt yourself… I need you so much, I love you Duo, please stop crying… I love you," he said whispering. Did I hear right? Did Heero just confess his love? Towards me? Did I die and go to heaven? It couldn't be, maybe I didn't hear it right. But why now? Is he saying it just because he pities me? I don't want his pity!

But it feels so good to hear those words even if they're lies. I'm not afraid of death, I am Shinigami after all…, but what if he does love me? I mean what if… no, I shouldn't! I shouldn't fool myself! "Please Duo, don't die, I promise never to leave you again. I'm sorry, I know I was stupid, but I was afraid of my feelings, I know I'm an idiot and there is no way I could turn back time and tell you the same, tell you I love you with all my heart and soul, like I do. It took me a month to realize it. It's all thanks to Relena, she helped me realize my true feelings towards you…"

I was stunned, so maybe he wasn't lying after all, maybe he did love me, but suddenly I felt like falling, falling deep, his voice fading, until I couldn't hear him anymore and I couldn't even feel my tears or hear his sobs, I felt cold. I felt so sleepy…

I knew it than. It was all over, I was dieing, but I was dieing happy. Heero loved me he really loved me. I try to fight back, but I was so sleepy, maybe it was time to rest, rest forever, but before I go I need to let him know how much I love him. I gathered my entire straight and opened my eyes again. He was kneeling beside my bed with my hand to his cheek, he was so warm. I wanted to say I love him and that I'll always do, but something else came out of my mouth.

"Kiss me", I whispered, my voice `rusty'. This was the only way I could find out if he means it. He raised his gaze, cheeks tainted with tears. I couldn't get over the fact that he was crying, he never cried, not even when Relena almost died. He raised himself, sniffing and sobbing lightly, his eyes closed half way and he bend towards my mouth. He kisses me; his kiss was soft but firm over my bruised lips. He stands like that for a moment and we part, he pulls away.

He loves me. Now I know he loves me! But now I wanted to live, now I wanted a second chance, I wanted to be happy by his side, but it faded all too soon. I force myself to say goodbye "I love you too, Heero. Always and forever", I whisper. I close my eyes and I sigh. A tear dribbles down my cheek and it all gets dark. The last word I hear it was him calling my name.

"Duo", a whisper followed by eternal silence.

Owari? Tbc?

Author's note: Well, well looks like Maxwell died after all. Or did he? Well I don't know yet, anyway there's another chapter so… Well maybe I'll let you decide. Write me and tell me what you think. Well until next time… RxR