Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ Anything You Want ❯ Under The Pressure ( Chapter 2 )
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By: kiba kai 
Their conclusion.. Duo was calling for Heero.. What did Wufei supposed to feel
Anime/Manga: Gundam Wing Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance | Type: Other | Uploaded On: 09.01.2001 | Pages: 2 | Words: 2.3K | Visits: 396 | Status: Completed
Their conclusion.. Duo was calling for Heero.. What did Wufei supposed to feel
Anime/Manga: Gundam Wing Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance | Type: Other | Uploaded On: 09.01.2001 | Pages: 2 | Words: 2.3K | Visits: 396 | Status: Completed
Disclaimer : I don't own them, no... thanks Sunrise
Warning : Yaoi, angst, 2+5
Note: This is a sequel to 'Anything you want'
=============================================================== -Under the Pressure-
By Kai
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"I love you"
The words still echoed in Wufei's brain. Many long tormenting hours passed. Wufei couldn't even think of sleep, he just sat there beside Duo. He never thought the silence of this braided pilot could make him lose his mind this much. He looked at him, the pale bruised skin in the moonlight. No doubt that when he woke up the physical pain from them would hurt him.
He cursed himself for his stupidity, because he can do nothing more than touch Duo's hand, just to make sure he's still here. And then, he saw Duo say something in his sleep under the oxygen mask. He checked his respiration counter. It read 'normal', so he removed the mask and leaned closer to listen.
"Hee..ro, Heero, help..me , don't leave me alone.."
Wufei was shocked. Why Heero? Even in his fatal state, all he could think of was Heero? He suddenly felt stupid, He thought Duo liked him but it just misreading...
Duo still said those words over and over, in Wufei eyes, that reflected nothing more than Duo's feeling for Heero. He always thought he was compatible for no one since Meiran died, but he just made up his mind. He wanted to risk everything with Duo when he woke up. His pride, his honor, his feelings...but maybe it was too late. Just the words 'I love you' and all the rest of time in his life wasn't enough compared to all the bad things he had done. He couldn't revoke anything..
"Heero, Heero.."
He couldn't hold back his tears anymore. He let them fall down in his eyes. He reached out his hand to Duo's forehead and soothed him gently.
"Duo, it's me 'Heero'. I'm here with you. You don't have to worry about a thing. You're gonna be fine, Duo...you hear me?...Promise me one thing, Duo. Let me see your smile once more..."
He barely said those words, and it hurted him so much. He removed his hand from Duo's forehead and replaced it with the light kiss, whispered the words 'I love you' for Heero and 'good bye' for himself. Wufei retreated to outside of the room, sobbing with no one but the cold wall before him. He heard the footstep behind him, 'that should be Quatre's'. He turned to him, wearing nicely the mask 'Heartless Bastard'.
"Where have you been Winner? I'm very tired" he called.
"I helped Heero and Trowa checked on Deathscythe, it's heavily damaged..."
"Whatever, I'm going home" he said and walked out.
"But Wufei, what about Duo? He needs you..." Wufei stopped at Quatre's words but didn't turn back
"He didn't need me, Winner, he didn't..."
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"Tell me about you and Duo" Trowa asked when they finish listed all the broken parts of Deathscythe.
"There's no 'I and Duo'"
"Come on Heero, don't lie to me"
Heero let a small sigh and said "I don't know either, he's my friend but..."
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After Quatre came in Duo's room, he quickly checked all the status: heartbeat, respiration, blood pressure. Relief that Duo was safe now, thank Allah. Their gundam pilot had trained hard enough and didn't die easily. Duo, just sleeping and ready to wake up at anytime. But something stalked Quatre's mind. 'Why did Wufei say that?' He decided to ask Duo about this. He had wanted to make things clear for Duo and Wufei for long time. It's no fun at all to watch them both torment each other with unspoken feelings...
"Quatre?"
"Oh! Duo, you're awake!!!!! I'm so glad!!!!!! How do you feel?"
"Jeez, it hurts like hell. What happened?"
"Rifle beam from Aires hit you. Thank Allah, you're still alive!!!!!"
"Yeah, looks like my ribs are broken..."
"Yes, some of them. And your leg and an arm..."
"Huh, let's talk about that later. At least I'm still alive, like you said" He tried to be cheerful, he didn't want his friend to worry too much about him
"What about the others?" he asked pointlessly.
"Trowa and Heero should be done with your Deathscythe. I think they will be here soon and..."
-Knock knock- He was interupted by the nurse
"Oh, my, you woke up too fast!!! Wait a sec, I'll call the doctor!!"
"And what, Quatre?" Duo was hoping he'll talk about Wufei
"Wufei, he's.."
-Knock knock- the nurse return with the doctor
"Mr. Maxwell, this is unbelievable that you've gainned consciousness this fast!!!!! Sorry to say it straightaway, but at first even I thought you weren't gonna make it"
Duo smiled bitterly at the doctor "Thanks."
"Now, let me check on you." The doctor turned to Quatre "I'll wait outside."
Quatre walked out just in time. Trowa and Heero had arrived.
"What about him?" Heero asked
"Don't worry Heero, he already woke up!!! The doctor is taking care of him."
"Where's Wufei?" Trowa asked while looking around.
"He left before Duo woke up. I don't know what happened."
"That bastard!" Heero hissed and punched his other palm "I think I'll deal with him, myself!!! You two stay here"
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At their safe house, Wufei was standing at the stain glass door frame that lead to the wide open wood behind the house. He looked up at the sky. Bright sunlight welcomed him to the real world. After the longest night of dreaming, dreaming of something that wasn't his, he didn't think he could face Duo anymore. And the best way for him to do so was to leave and get away from their life; Duo and Heero, they should be good lovers...without him.. He didn't know where to go. To hell with that, he'll decide later. Now he just wanted to cool himself down from irrational thought. He stepped out the door, his bare feet walked on the cold grass that was still damp from the morning dew.
He just walked and walked, not knowing where to stop or why he should stop. His pace increased mindlessly, each footstep turned out to be a run. And he kept running. Faster and faster. Until he missed his step and stumbled, rolling on the ground. He faced the bright sky. He couldn't stop thinking of Duo, not even for a single minute. The sunlight, just like Duo's smile. Both too bright for him. He must keep that in mind from now on. Duo's smile will be for Heero; only for Heero...
He brought one hand to his chest where his heart is, where it used to be. He wanted to feel if it still beat or not. Unfortunately, it still beat and didn't seem to stop. But even that, why he felt pain, it came right from his heart. Every beat of it cost so much pain.
'Stop, please stop...' he begged to no one but his shattered mind.
----------------------------------------------------------------< br> When Heero first entered the house, there was no sign of anybody. Then he walked to Wufei's room, knocked lightly and said, "Wufei, are you inside? I need to talk to you."
But no one replied. He knocked again and turned the doorknob. Wufei wasn't in the room. Heero made a mental note that it was in very bad shape. Almost all the books on the shelf were scattered on the floor mixed with the pieces of broken mirror. Pillow and blanket were piled at the corner of the room and the painted vase was rolling, its water soaked the carpet. But one thing that he noticed was the bag near the door. It was well packed and untouched. He could guess that it was treated with the different temper of its owner.
"Why are you here, Yuy?" Wufei's voice came from behind, startling him. He couldn't manage to react
"I think we should talk." The two boys glared at each other silently and Wufei retreated and lead their way to living room. Wufei let his body fall down on the sofa, trying not to think about what Heero wanted him to discuss. Heero followed him and just stood before him, looking at him pitifully.
"Why did you leave him?" Heero started.
Wufei looked back, anger rising. How can he ask him like this? "Why?" he laughed bitterly "There's no need for me to be there"
"What are you talking about? You should have taken care of him till he woke up!"
"Why me, Yuy? Why not you!" Wufei stood up and started yelling back
"What are you trying to say, Wufei?"
"I'm not a fool, Yuy. My emotions may be good toys for both of you to play with, but I have feelings and I get hurt!" Heero frowned, he didn't understand at all what Wufei was saying. So he didn't deny a thing. Wufei continued. "How can you do that Heero? You let Duo play around with me all the time and you let me stay there with him, aren't you jealous?"
"Jealous? Of what?!"
"Don't play dumb, Yuy; it won't work. Don't tell me you don't like him and don't tell me you didn't know that he liked you!"
"I'm not! Where did you get that idea from?"
"Where?! From my own eyes and my own ears! You may feel uneasy when I'm still around here, but not for long, Yuy. I will not bother you again!" Wufei said and turned to his room but Heero pulled his arm back and punched him heavily in the face. Wufei fell to the floor. His anger was gone. He felt defeated and didn't attempt to fight back. In his mind, Heero had 'won'.
"Come on, Wufei, fight back! You don't give up this easily, do you?"
"I give up." He glared at Heero wearily "I said, I give up. I want to be alone, please..." He pulled his knees to his chest and hid his face from Heero. His hands covered both his ears, and his world become narrowed just to his curled body.
Heero almost didn't believe his eyes. What in the world could make this arrogant chinese pilot turn out to be like this? It was no use to say anything else, and Heero wasn't the type of person that could handle this situation easily like Quatre. He left Wufei like that and headed to the hospital.
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Heero arrived at the hospital and found Trowa and Quatre sitting next to Duo's bed. Duo was sleeping peacefully.
"Is he ok?" Heero asked.
"Yes, just sleeping. What about Wufei?"
"He won't listen to anything. He said he's going to leave us-"
"What?! He can't leave!" Quatre said.
"Duo still needs to sleep, please lower your voice." Trowa warned him when Duo shifted to the other side. But quiet couldn't help anymore. Duo was half awake.
"Mmm, morning everyone, is there something wrong? I heard that someone is going to leave?"
"Wake up and listen Duo. Wufei is going to leave" Heero pulled him up by grabbing his gown roughly but the thing that woke him fully awake wasn't Heero action but his sentence...
Before he could find any other question to asked, the door was knocked and opened hesitatingly. Wufei was standing there. Three of them knew what they should do. They all moved to the door, walked pass Wufei without saying a word.
"Looks like you're doing fine..." Wufei began his sentence when the footsteps faded out
"Yes"
Wufei bit down his lip and tried to speak "I'm here to say good bye."
Duo was shocked. What went wrong while he slept? Did he do something wrong?
"Why, Wufei?"
"Because I can't stay here with all of you...with you anymore..."
"Wufei..."
"Duo, I know I'm making things worse, but...but I'm sorry Duo...I..." he tried very hard to stare into those violet eyes. At least he wanted to face him when he said, "I love you.."
Duo's mouth hung opened. What was this? Wufei loved him, but why he must leave...
His head was still hazy from the sleeping pills, so he didn't react fast. But, 'Wufei's going to leave...' he couldn't force his mind to find the words, but his body, his broken body wouldn't allow Wufei to walk away. He stood up and reached for him
"Wu..."
Wufei heard Duo and turned back. Duo was about to fall to the floor, but Wufei caught him just in time. Wufei craddled him in his embrace. Duo couldn't stand straightaway so he used his only good arm to draw Wufei closer.
"Don't go, Wufei, I love you, too"
Wufei wasn't sure if he had heard clearly. He turned to look deep into the violet eyes, seeking the truth. "But...what about Heero? Don't you love him?"
"Heero?, No, Why do you think I love him?"
"You, you called him in your sleep, you told him not to leave you..."
Duo thought about that and his eyes widened. It must have been in his dream. "I get it, you want to know why I said that?" Wufei nodded doubtfully "Because he's the only one I told about you...and he helped me through the bad time you gave me. He's my best friend."
Wufei couldn't decide what to do first between apologize to Duo or curse himself for his craziness, but they were all forgotten by the sweet kiss that Duo gave him.
fin~
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Kai: angst, angst and angst, ho' ho', for this fic, thanks to Chi Chan for saying 'Anything you want' should has a sequel, and this is what I made them turn out to be
please please, I need feedback good or bad are welcome (*^_^*)
Edited by: Becky Chan!!! ::kiss::
Warning : Yaoi, angst, 2+5
Note: This is a sequel to 'Anything you want'
=============================================================== -Under the Pressure-
By Kai
===============================================================
"I love you"
The words still echoed in Wufei's brain. Many long tormenting hours passed. Wufei couldn't even think of sleep, he just sat there beside Duo. He never thought the silence of this braided pilot could make him lose his mind this much. He looked at him, the pale bruised skin in the moonlight. No doubt that when he woke up the physical pain from them would hurt him.
He cursed himself for his stupidity, because he can do nothing more than touch Duo's hand, just to make sure he's still here. And then, he saw Duo say something in his sleep under the oxygen mask. He checked his respiration counter. It read 'normal', so he removed the mask and leaned closer to listen.
"Hee..ro, Heero, help..me , don't leave me alone.."
Wufei was shocked. Why Heero? Even in his fatal state, all he could think of was Heero? He suddenly felt stupid, He thought Duo liked him but it just misreading...
Duo still said those words over and over, in Wufei eyes, that reflected nothing more than Duo's feeling for Heero. He always thought he was compatible for no one since Meiran died, but he just made up his mind. He wanted to risk everything with Duo when he woke up. His pride, his honor, his feelings...but maybe it was too late. Just the words 'I love you' and all the rest of time in his life wasn't enough compared to all the bad things he had done. He couldn't revoke anything..
"Heero, Heero.."
He couldn't hold back his tears anymore. He let them fall down in his eyes. He reached out his hand to Duo's forehead and soothed him gently.
"Duo, it's me 'Heero'. I'm here with you. You don't have to worry about a thing. You're gonna be fine, Duo...you hear me?...Promise me one thing, Duo. Let me see your smile once more..."
He barely said those words, and it hurted him so much. He removed his hand from Duo's forehead and replaced it with the light kiss, whispered the words 'I love you' for Heero and 'good bye' for himself. Wufei retreated to outside of the room, sobbing with no one but the cold wall before him. He heard the footstep behind him, 'that should be Quatre's'. He turned to him, wearing nicely the mask 'Heartless Bastard'.
"Where have you been Winner? I'm very tired" he called.
"I helped Heero and Trowa checked on Deathscythe, it's heavily damaged..."
"Whatever, I'm going home" he said and walked out.
"But Wufei, what about Duo? He needs you..." Wufei stopped at Quatre's words but didn't turn back
"He didn't need me, Winner, he didn't..."
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"Tell me about you and Duo" Trowa asked when they finish listed all the broken parts of Deathscythe.
"There's no 'I and Duo'"
"Come on Heero, don't lie to me"
Heero let a small sigh and said "I don't know either, he's my friend but..."
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After Quatre came in Duo's room, he quickly checked all the status: heartbeat, respiration, blood pressure. Relief that Duo was safe now, thank Allah. Their gundam pilot had trained hard enough and didn't die easily. Duo, just sleeping and ready to wake up at anytime. But something stalked Quatre's mind. 'Why did Wufei say that?' He decided to ask Duo about this. He had wanted to make things clear for Duo and Wufei for long time. It's no fun at all to watch them both torment each other with unspoken feelings...
"Quatre?"
"Oh! Duo, you're awake!!!!! I'm so glad!!!!!! How do you feel?"
"Jeez, it hurts like hell. What happened?"
"Rifle beam from Aires hit you. Thank Allah, you're still alive!!!!!"
"Yeah, looks like my ribs are broken..."
"Yes, some of them. And your leg and an arm..."
"Huh, let's talk about that later. At least I'm still alive, like you said" He tried to be cheerful, he didn't want his friend to worry too much about him
"What about the others?" he asked pointlessly.
"Trowa and Heero should be done with your Deathscythe. I think they will be here soon and..."
-Knock knock- He was interupted by the nurse
"Oh, my, you woke up too fast!!! Wait a sec, I'll call the doctor!!"
"And what, Quatre?" Duo was hoping he'll talk about Wufei
"Wufei, he's.."
-Knock knock- the nurse return with the doctor
"Mr. Maxwell, this is unbelievable that you've gainned consciousness this fast!!!!! Sorry to say it straightaway, but at first even I thought you weren't gonna make it"
Duo smiled bitterly at the doctor "Thanks."
"Now, let me check on you." The doctor turned to Quatre "I'll wait outside."
Quatre walked out just in time. Trowa and Heero had arrived.
"What about him?" Heero asked
"Don't worry Heero, he already woke up!!! The doctor is taking care of him."
"Where's Wufei?" Trowa asked while looking around.
"He left before Duo woke up. I don't know what happened."
"That bastard!" Heero hissed and punched his other palm "I think I'll deal with him, myself!!! You two stay here"
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At their safe house, Wufei was standing at the stain glass door frame that lead to the wide open wood behind the house. He looked up at the sky. Bright sunlight welcomed him to the real world. After the longest night of dreaming, dreaming of something that wasn't his, he didn't think he could face Duo anymore. And the best way for him to do so was to leave and get away from their life; Duo and Heero, they should be good lovers...without him.. He didn't know where to go. To hell with that, he'll decide later. Now he just wanted to cool himself down from irrational thought. He stepped out the door, his bare feet walked on the cold grass that was still damp from the morning dew.
He just walked and walked, not knowing where to stop or why he should stop. His pace increased mindlessly, each footstep turned out to be a run. And he kept running. Faster and faster. Until he missed his step and stumbled, rolling on the ground. He faced the bright sky. He couldn't stop thinking of Duo, not even for a single minute. The sunlight, just like Duo's smile. Both too bright for him. He must keep that in mind from now on. Duo's smile will be for Heero; only for Heero...
He brought one hand to his chest where his heart is, where it used to be. He wanted to feel if it still beat or not. Unfortunately, it still beat and didn't seem to stop. But even that, why he felt pain, it came right from his heart. Every beat of it cost so much pain.
'Stop, please stop...' he begged to no one but his shattered mind.
----------------------------------------------------------------< br> When Heero first entered the house, there was no sign of anybody. Then he walked to Wufei's room, knocked lightly and said, "Wufei, are you inside? I need to talk to you."
But no one replied. He knocked again and turned the doorknob. Wufei wasn't in the room. Heero made a mental note that it was in very bad shape. Almost all the books on the shelf were scattered on the floor mixed with the pieces of broken mirror. Pillow and blanket were piled at the corner of the room and the painted vase was rolling, its water soaked the carpet. But one thing that he noticed was the bag near the door. It was well packed and untouched. He could guess that it was treated with the different temper of its owner.
"Why are you here, Yuy?" Wufei's voice came from behind, startling him. He couldn't manage to react
"I think we should talk." The two boys glared at each other silently and Wufei retreated and lead their way to living room. Wufei let his body fall down on the sofa, trying not to think about what Heero wanted him to discuss. Heero followed him and just stood before him, looking at him pitifully.
"Why did you leave him?" Heero started.
Wufei looked back, anger rising. How can he ask him like this? "Why?" he laughed bitterly "There's no need for me to be there"
"What are you talking about? You should have taken care of him till he woke up!"
"Why me, Yuy? Why not you!" Wufei stood up and started yelling back
"What are you trying to say, Wufei?"
"I'm not a fool, Yuy. My emotions may be good toys for both of you to play with, but I have feelings and I get hurt!" Heero frowned, he didn't understand at all what Wufei was saying. So he didn't deny a thing. Wufei continued. "How can you do that Heero? You let Duo play around with me all the time and you let me stay there with him, aren't you jealous?"
"Jealous? Of what?!"
"Don't play dumb, Yuy; it won't work. Don't tell me you don't like him and don't tell me you didn't know that he liked you!"
"I'm not! Where did you get that idea from?"
"Where?! From my own eyes and my own ears! You may feel uneasy when I'm still around here, but not for long, Yuy. I will not bother you again!" Wufei said and turned to his room but Heero pulled his arm back and punched him heavily in the face. Wufei fell to the floor. His anger was gone. He felt defeated and didn't attempt to fight back. In his mind, Heero had 'won'.
"Come on, Wufei, fight back! You don't give up this easily, do you?"
"I give up." He glared at Heero wearily "I said, I give up. I want to be alone, please..." He pulled his knees to his chest and hid his face from Heero. His hands covered both his ears, and his world become narrowed just to his curled body.
Heero almost didn't believe his eyes. What in the world could make this arrogant chinese pilot turn out to be like this? It was no use to say anything else, and Heero wasn't the type of person that could handle this situation easily like Quatre. He left Wufei like that and headed to the hospital.
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Heero arrived at the hospital and found Trowa and Quatre sitting next to Duo's bed. Duo was sleeping peacefully.
"Is he ok?" Heero asked.
"Yes, just sleeping. What about Wufei?"
"He won't listen to anything. He said he's going to leave us-"
"What?! He can't leave!" Quatre said.
"Duo still needs to sleep, please lower your voice." Trowa warned him when Duo shifted to the other side. But quiet couldn't help anymore. Duo was half awake.
"Mmm, morning everyone, is there something wrong? I heard that someone is going to leave?"
"Wake up and listen Duo. Wufei is going to leave" Heero pulled him up by grabbing his gown roughly but the thing that woke him fully awake wasn't Heero action but his sentence...
Before he could find any other question to asked, the door was knocked and opened hesitatingly. Wufei was standing there. Three of them knew what they should do. They all moved to the door, walked pass Wufei without saying a word.
"Looks like you're doing fine..." Wufei began his sentence when the footsteps faded out
"Yes"
Wufei bit down his lip and tried to speak "I'm here to say good bye."
Duo was shocked. What went wrong while he slept? Did he do something wrong?
"Why, Wufei?"
"Because I can't stay here with all of you...with you anymore..."
"Wufei..."
"Duo, I know I'm making things worse, but...but I'm sorry Duo...I..." he tried very hard to stare into those violet eyes. At least he wanted to face him when he said, "I love you.."
Duo's mouth hung opened. What was this? Wufei loved him, but why he must leave...
His head was still hazy from the sleeping pills, so he didn't react fast. But, 'Wufei's going to leave...' he couldn't force his mind to find the words, but his body, his broken body wouldn't allow Wufei to walk away. He stood up and reached for him
"Wu..."
Wufei heard Duo and turned back. Duo was about to fall to the floor, but Wufei caught him just in time. Wufei craddled him in his embrace. Duo couldn't stand straightaway so he used his only good arm to draw Wufei closer.
"Don't go, Wufei, I love you, too"
Wufei wasn't sure if he had heard clearly. He turned to look deep into the violet eyes, seeking the truth. "But...what about Heero? Don't you love him?"
"Heero?, No, Why do you think I love him?"
"You, you called him in your sleep, you told him not to leave you..."
Duo thought about that and his eyes widened. It must have been in his dream. "I get it, you want to know why I said that?" Wufei nodded doubtfully "Because he's the only one I told about you...and he helped me through the bad time you gave me. He's my best friend."
Wufei couldn't decide what to do first between apologize to Duo or curse himself for his craziness, but they were all forgotten by the sweet kiss that Duo gave him.
fin~
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Kai: angst, angst and angst, ho' ho', for this fic, thanks to Chi Chan for saying 'Anything you want' should has a sequel, and this is what I made them turn out to be
please please, I need feedback good or bad are welcome (*^_^*)
Edited by: Becky Chan!!! ::kiss::