Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ Beauty and the Cunning Beast ❯ Beauty and the cunning Beast ( Chapter 2 )

Chapter 2

I ran into the bathroom as fast as I could. To escape and do my normal routine before I had to do my job. Hyperventilating, I shook from the top of my head to the tip of my toes. Doing a breathing technique to slow my rapid heartbeat and the nausea rising in my throat. I thought about their conversation in the hall. He was so charming with her. I could still hear them greeting each other, like long lost friends.

// Here I stand before myself //

"How are you feeling tonight, dear?" He said as he walked into the house, dropping the bag he held, and grasping her hands in his while looking deep into her eyes.

"I'm still mad. Last night was so upsetting. Are you sure he can do better tonight?" She had whined to him, instantly.

"He will be brilliant tonight or you can use a few of the toys in my bag of tricks. I have a strap-on dildo and a couple of whips for you to choose from. All free of charge." He said as he picked up the bag that he had dropped. They had moved into the sitting room together. Going for a drink before the entertainment began.

// I see something's out of place //

I never wanted to here another conversation between those two ever again. He was so charming to everyone but me. He used to be so sweet to me, but now he was just downright evil. The Charming Duo was just a facade, inside him, lies a Sadist that would make the Marque de Sade cower in fear. He has told me that in the beginning it was the challenge of my emotionlessness that drew him to me. Then by being loving and fun and even playing the submissive he was unrelenting in pursing me. I held out for months, then I was finally worn down by all that love, I relented. I became involved with him because he was safe.

// You tasted all my purity

Now there's nothing left to waste //

He knew my biggest secret and he openly said he loved me and so I fell in love with him. The day I confessed my love for him, were the day things started to change. He asked first if he could try being seme. He said that he had never been anything but uke. I know now that it was one of his many lies.

// The feeling gets so in my way

It's getting lost in my delivery

The feeling gets so in my way

I'm getting lost in your periphery //

I confessed to my lover that night, that Dr. J had abused me during my training. He had told me that it was part of my endurance training. He said that it was to keep me from spilling secrets if I ever was captured and tortured. Rape was the final humiliating experience to break a man's spirit. I didn't realize it then but Duo was actually intrigued by my 'training exercises' with Dr. J. He let it go that night and comforted me with a shower of love.

//And you sold me up the river, yeah

(I don't want to be open)

And you made me start it over again

(I don't want to be open) //

He brought it up again a few weeks later. He said it was a way for me to 'show' him that I truly loved him. He told me he would be gentle and that it would erase the hell that I went through during my training. I finally let him after he coxed for hours. He was so gentle that first time, the memory of it still brings tears to my eyes. I used that memory of his loving embrace, when I'm whoring and lately, when he rapes me.

// And you moved me, and you sued me, and you fucked me

(I don't want to be open)

And you left me wondering what the hell

What is wrong with me? //

He expects me to respond to him as if it was consensual. He beats me after he is done, if I don't enjoy his brutal assault on my body. I know a woman could fake an orgasm but for men it is not that easy. I know that he is shorter than me, but he makes that up in the sheer size of more important parts of his body.

// I never felt like I had felt

Until the day you came undone

I never felt like I was lost

Until the day you killed me again //

After that first time of my being uke, I went out of my way to make all of his fantasy come true. I used my money to buy him little things and he seemed to appreciate them. My Gundam at that time was in peek condition so I used that money to buy him fancy dinners at expensive restaurants. We were so in love in the beginning or so I thought. I kept using my Gundam money even though I needed it for upkeep and repairs.

// The feeling gets so in my way

It's getting lost in my delivery

The feeling gets so in my way

I'm getting lost in your periphery//

The more I gave, the more he demanded. He was systematically wearing down my self-confidences, I was only good at being a solder and a slave. His slave. Then the beatings started and finally the raping, this went on for over two months. It was his idea for me to earn my keep since I was such a failure at love, I was to go out whoring and he arranged the first time to be with Relena, the woman I despised most on earth.

//And you sold me up the river, yeah

(I don't want to be open)

And you made me start it over again

(I don't want to be open) //

"Well you know he is becoming the school's bicycle, you know, everyone has had a ride." Relena sneered.

"Well, everyone that can afford to, has taken a ride." Duo said, and they laughed together.

// And you moved me, and you sued me, and you fucked me

(I don't want to be open)

And you left me wondering what the hell

What is wrong with me? //

Hearing those laughing voices coming from the bedroom, I came back to the present with a bang.

// Are you stronger

For cutting me open //

I hurriedly took my shower with the noxious shampoo and body gel she provided for me. Evidently my natural scent and my mild deodorant, offended her rich bitch nose. I quickly dried off and slapped on some of the cologne that matched the bath products. She liked me smelling strongly of the expensive crap she provided. She once said that my deodorant offended her. The next time I was over she demanded I take a shower using what she provided for me.

// Are you stronger

For leaving me broken //

Then standing nude with my eyes closed I jerked myself to standing attention.

//And you sold me up the river, yeah

(I don't want to be open)

And you made me start it over again

(I don't want to be open) //

I knew from experience that if I was not already hard going into her all pink bedroom, that I wouldn't get hard all night. I was terrified of what would happen if I could not preform tonight.

// And you moved me, and you sued me, and you fucked me

(I don't want to be open)

And you left me wondering what the hell

What is wrong with me? //

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SOLD ME was preformed by: Seether, () means words are rapped or spoken