Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ Coming Home ❯ Chapter 10

I couldn't believe that I had been blind to it for so long. Heero and I had always worked so well together. We didn't get along all the time, but we were very compatible. I could be serious around him; he could lighten up around me. But we'd never tested the boundaries of our friendship before this week. I'd never tasted this side of Heero before. I felt so familiar and at ease with him. And last night, when I kissed him, it felt like … it felt like coming home.

God, I loved Heero.

The question was, would Heero believe me?

He was hurt by the thought that I had been with someone else. Heero, believing that sex was something you saved for the one you loved, assumed that I loved another.

Oh God! And I made that comment about how my relationship with Hilde was just casual sex … so he thought that was all that he was to me. What could I do to convince Heero that I cared? I didn't have any experience with this. I'd never been in love before. I didn't know what to say to him.

And I was going to have to figure it out fast, because he had just walked into the room. He froze when he saw me, and I got up quickly, saying "Don't leave." He lingered a moment but his body was leaning toward the door. I knew I would have to explain quickly. ""Wait," I blurted out. "Heero, I … I shouldn't have kept that from you, and I'm sorry. I don't love her! And what I feel for you is anything but casual!" I took a deep breath.

"All I want is you. I want to love you, Heero, I want only you."

He looked at me with doubt in his eyes.

Was it hard for him to believe that I meant these words? There were probably a lot of words he never expected to hear me use. A few days ago I would have agreed with him too. I'd never thought much about the words that were now flitting through my mind. Words like love - monogamy - commitment - marriage. Did I dare?

"Please Heero. Believe me. I love you." It felt wonderful saying those words. I wanted to say them over and over again. I looked him in the eyes and smiled. "I do. I love you."

He took a step toward me, wavering, and I rushed to close the distance between us. I wrapped my arms around him and held him to my chest, burying my face in his hair. "Heero," I whispered, "all I want for Christmas is you."

And I knew, in a flash, that it was all I wanted for every Christmas to come. "Marry me," I whispered. "Marry me." My heart was pounding wildly in my chest as I waited for his reply.

"Yes," he whispered. I thought my heart would burst. I hugged him hard, taken over by the rush of happiness that one little word had created in me.

He pulled back a little, laughing, smiling that gorgeous smile. "Where's my ring?" He demanded breathlessly. I pulled the elastic band from the end of my braid, and wrapped it loosely around his ring finger before taking his lips in an ecstatic kiss.

It was a memory I would cherish forever. This would be our first Christmas.