Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ Dear Sally ❯ Dear Sally 13/14+Epilogue ( Chapter 13 )

Disclaimer: I do not own the Gundam boys or any other character from the series.

Warnings: Angst, foul language

Pairings: 1+2,1x1, 2x2, 2+H, 1+R, 3x4, 5xS, 6xN, HxR, 1x2x1.

(Authors note If you notice a change in pairing I have changed it from DxR to HxR not even I can bring myself to put Dorothy with Relena. Dorothy creeps me out)

Rating: NC17 Occasional fluff.

Author: Ryouga.

Authors note: Time jump of four months inserted. Words in ` ' denotes thoughts

Authors special note of thanks: To ShenLong for helping me bounce ideas around for this chapter.

Title: Dear Sally

Dear Sally 13/?

~Four months later~

Duo woke with the early morning sunlight sneaking into the room through the small slit between the curtains and glanced across to the opposite side of the bed. Slowly his hand reached out touching the soft outstretched arm of another.

He sat up, a smile sneaking up over his face as he whipped the blankets off the other sleeping form. "Morning Koi!!"

Heero mumbled something under his breath and pulled the blankets back over him completely covering his head as well.

"What? I didn't hear a word of that. " Duo laughed pulling down the blankets for a second time.

"I said..." the half asleep boy growled, " Omae wo korosu! Now let me sleep in peace Maxwell!"

Duo looked at his lover with harbored frustration. "Damn it Heero! All we've done is blowjobs and foreplay since we got together. We never make love!! Why can't we make love? You said that today you and I could... "

Heero's reply was silent and he glared icily at Duo as he got up from the bed heading towards the bathroom, slamming the door behind him.

Duo frowned. "Four months; and he's_still as god damn cold as ever!"

~*~

Heero leant by the bathroom door a look of hardened anguish on his face. Duo wasn't the problem. He knew that. He knew that it was his lack of self-belief, the lack of self-confidence to even accept that he could be everything that Duo needed him to be as a lover and sexual partner. It wasn't really his fault either though. No one had prepared him for this type of life.

Old but familiar scenes ran through his mind of many years of training and hardships under Dr J. This thing called *love* hadn't been part of his training. The many years of emotional reconditioning had been taking its toll on him; and his self-confidence in the love department was way below the emotional poverty line.

The water ran into the shower recess as Heero turned the taps on and slowly moved underneath the turbulent sprinkles of water. His last letter to the 'Dear Sally column' had been one of a cry for strength as well as one for help.

'Dear Sally

It's becoming hard to avoid my lover and his advances towards me sexually. I know he loves me and wants to show me how much and I want to show him too, but I'm concerned that I may not be able to comply with his wishes at this time. I feel I need more time still, because I am still afraid of what I am I feeling and I firmly believe that I lack the emotional capabilities to endure the amount of love he wants us to share... '

The words of that letter played over and over in his mind as he remembered the last few words he'd written.

'...And I also feel, without laying blame on either of us, that this relationship may already be over* before* it really begins.

Signed

Overwhelmed and unsure.'

As of yet there had been no reply.

The droplets of water from the shower pelted down onto Heero's face mercilessly as he looked upward towards the ceiling. Closing his eyes, a deep and drawn out sigh escaped his lips as an unfamiliar taste washed over them.

~*~

Dressed only in his boxers, Duo stood looking out of the bedroom window. The bathroom door behind him opened and Heero, fully dressed, slowly emerged. A serious look embedded on his face." Duo we need to talk"

"Yeah, you're right. We do need to talk Yuy." Duo butted in. "About why the_fuck you're doing this to me!"

"Doing what?"

Duo walked up to the ever firm-standing Heero Yuy and looked the ex-01 pilot right in the Prussian blue eyes." Why the fuck you're being such a bastard tease?"

"I do no such thing Duo Maxwell" Heero firmly replied." You are the one pushing the issue of this whole thing."

The violet-eyed Shinigami glared hard back at the other boy." The *issue* here, is that we're_supposed to be lovers, but I'm doing all the loving damn you! Every time I get close enough to you, to make love to you, you say *I'm tired* or *not now, tomorrow* or some other excuse just happens to crop up."

Heero's eyes fixated on the violet eyes of the youth directly in front of him. " Duo. I just need more time. That's all."

"TIME!!...That was what you said two months ago too... I need more time Duo, I 'm not ready, and I can't do this just yet. And before you say it Heero Yuy ... it has nothing to do with the fact that I just want_sex. I want to make love to you. I want to show you what I have to give you.. Not just with my heart Heero, but with my whole being."

Heero sighed. " Duo, I..."

"Is it me? Am I not doing something right?" he pleaded with the other boy ." Just tell me and I'll fix it Heero. Please!"

"It's not you and it's not me but, I do need more time Duo!!"

"God damn it Heero Yuy. I'm_ not here just to be used as a cock sucker for a cock tease!!!"

Heero stared at the boy, his heart caught up in his throat, not knowing what else he could do or say to make the boy understand. Duo 's intentions of wanting to prove his full love were real enough, but his last few words tore apart the only little piece of soul that Heero had managed to find the past few months. "Is that what you really think Duo?" he calmly and unemotionally asked him.

The boy refused to reply.

Heero glanced out of the window. "Then you leave me no choice. Duo. I'm going to go out for a drive. When I get back, if you still feel the same way, then, it's over..."

Duo gasped, a hurt and saddened look in his eyes, but Heero refused to let him speak

" If you love me enough to want to show me how much you love me, then show me by giving me a few more weeks." he begged of the violet-eyed Shinigami.

"You'll only ask for more again Heero.." Duo spat coldly." It's what you've done from the beginning.

"Then there's maybe no hope for us at all Duo." There was a slight hint of emotion in his voice " I'll be back in an hour. It's all up to you." Heero said as he walked silently out of the bedroom.

~*~

A few minutes later Duo heard the familiar sound of his car pulling out of the drive way and he raced outside in time to see Heero take off down the road in his car.

"Fucking bastard!! You could've taken your own!" Duo sniffled as a tear rolled down his cheek.

~*~

Heero drove around aimlessly for the first half hour, just thinking things through in his head. Maybe Duo was right. What if even the next few weeks weren't enough, maybe he should just go home and apologise, get it over with and let Duo show him how to love. Or maybe... He stopped the car suddenly and looked up.... Some how he'd managed to find himself back outside the pet store that he and Duo had picked up Hee-bunny from.

"Hee-bunny... " Heero found himself with a grin on his face. " ..that idiot named it Hee-bunny. " He got out of the car and locked it up, heading into the store.

~*~

One hour passed; and then another and another. It was getting close to midday now and still Heero hadn't returned.

Duo collected the paper from outside looking down the road wondering if Heero had stopped off to see some of the others, wondering if maybe, he needed more time to think too. 'Well let him think then' Duo sighed to himself a he went back inside.

He threw himself down onto the couch and opened the paper. He flicked straight to Sally's column and started to read the entries.

Then he saw_it ...

'Dear Sally

It's becoming hard to avoid my lover and his advances towards me sexually. I know he loves me and wants to show me how much and I want to show him too, but I'm concerned that I may not be able to comply with his wishes at this time. I feel I need more time still, because I am still afraid of what I am I feeling and I firmly believe that I lack the emotionally capabilities to endure the amount of love he wants us to share... '

Duo suddenly felt a horrible wave of guilt wash over him as he continued to read.

'...And I also feel, without laying blame on either of us, that this relationship may already be over* before* it really begins.

Signed

Overwhelmed and unsure.'

"Fuck!" Was all Duo could manage to say. Not bothering to read the reply he got up and headed for the phone in the kitchen. It was time to make a few calls, he had to find Heero and apologize for his stupidity before it was too late.

~*~

After an hour of ringing around Duo still couldn't find Hilde, Relena, Sally or Wufei at home and he resigned himself to the fact that Heero must have been with either of those couples. He trudged back towards the couch, glancing back at the clock on the wall in the kitchen briefly.

1.45pm.

Duo sighed. As he threw himself back down on the couch and flicked on the TV set with the remote. He flicked through the channels and then stopped as he caught the news channel in a middle of a broadcast.

"A medical team is at the scene of the accident. One driver is dead the other unconscious. We don't know how bad the other driver's injuries are just yet. The fire team is trying to free the other driver from the other wreck as we speak "

Duo shook his head "Freaking idiots are on the road where ever you go these day you'll always find 'em." he mumbled to himself ...

He was about to turn the channel over when the phone rang...Opting to leave it until he got back he kept one eye on the TV and grabbed the phone. "Yo, Duo's imperial .."

"Shut up and listen Duo!" Wu Fei's voice came across as urgent and serious.

" I've been trying to ring you." He interrupted the Chinese youth as he watched a scene from the accident unfold.

"As I have you, for the past hour..."

"Shit! Where are you? There's a lot of noise in the back ground. I can barely hear you!" he commented as the interviewer on TV turned his attention to a woman, from what was obviously the medical team.

"I'm down town ..Listen Duo I .."

"Shit! Hey Wu Fei, Sally's on TV." the boy rambled on to his friend." There's this accident and .."

"DUO, for the sake of NATAKU would you just shut up!!" the boy yelled into the mouthpiece, shocking the braided baka into immediate silence. He'd never, ever heard Wu Fei use his goddess's name in that way before ..."You stupid fool." the Chinese youth continued. "That's what I'm trying to tell you .That's where we are now ..The accident... Duo, one of the drivers it, it's... it's Heero."

There was an extremely long pause and Wu Fei swallowed nervously. "Duo?"

"I'm on my way." the unnaturally calm voice replied.

~*~

Wu Fei stood watching as the second medical team arrived to remove the other drivers body from the wreck of the other car.

Finally Duo arrived at the scene. He was looking around trying to catch sight of familiar faces but he felt sick and nauseated as he saw the mangled body of the driver of a now unrecognizable make of yellow vehicle removed from under a truck and placed into a body bag. He'd seen so much death during the war but this... this was just too much. He turned away, a terrified look adorning his face.

The calmness that had engulfed him became a nightmarish gut wrenching panic as he saw Heero dragged from what was left of his car.

"Oh Fuck!" Duo started running out toward the wreck. "HEEERRRROOO!!" came the heart wrenching thunderous cry. Suddenly he was grabbed from behind and two of the safety team had him pinned. "Let me go you, you! He needs me." The boy struggled aimlessly for a few minutes, watching as Heero was placed on a stretcher and the other medical team headed by Sally, raced over to see to him.

"I'm sorry, this area is restricted. It's too dangerous for civilians. If that petrol tanker blows .." one of the safety officers began.

."Blow_this you freaking bastards." Duo twisted suddenly and lashed out with his fists, freeing himself from the restraining arms of the safety officers.

It took him less than ten seconds to reach the stretcher where Heero lay unconscious.

Duo knelt by Heero, next to Sally, who was trying to find a pulse. Heero was a little bruised and had a cut on his forehead and Duo watched as the boy was hooked up to a heart monitor by Sally.

She glanced over at him." You made it ! "

"Is he gonna be ok?... Is he all right?.... What happened?"

"He got out lucky as far as I can see, that's just outwardly. Though if he has internal or head injuries, we won't know until we get him to the hospital." She finished attaching the heart monitor. A faint bleeping noise started to come through on the heart monitor and an IV had been set up in his arm." We've got a beat!!" she called out.

"Heero?" Duo almost begged the other boy. "Heero please.... C'mon buddy answer me." A tear ran down his cheek. "C'mon please... Wake up.... Glare at me or something, please?"

"What the hell is this?" One of the medics on Sally's team questioned, looking over a blue leather band of some sort. "Hee-bunny?" the puzzled medic spouted off. "What the hell is a Hee-bunny?"

Duo snatched it out of his hands. "Where did you get this from?" he demanded to know.

"It was clutched in his hand. I just took it off him then." the medic informed the concerned boy.

Duo held up the item in question. "Oh my god!!" he said guiltily. It was a collar and tag. The tag had been engraved with Hee-bunny's name on one side and 'I'm sorry' on the back of it. Duo felt a lump forming in his throat." You goddamned son of a two bit Gundam..... When you get up I'm gonna..."

Bleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep...

"What the fuck?!!!" Duo yelled as he watched the wavy line on the monitor turn into a straight line.

"OH NO!" Sally shouted. "CODE RED!!! STAT!!! WE HAVE A FLAT LINE!!" she yelled out at the top of her lungs as the heart monitor registered no heart beat for Heero.

"HEERO!!" Duo yelled as the rest of the medic team headed over with the emergency equipment.

"We're losing him Duo." Sally warned the boy in advance. Beginning emergency procedures. "We're losing him!"

TBC..