Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ Here I am ❯ Chapter 1

[ T - Teen: Not suitable for readers under 13 ]

Disclaimer: I don’t not own any of the Gundam wing characters.Note: this is the product of listening to Kelly Clarkson-Behind these Hazel Eyes, over and over again. You will find that the story has no real connection with the song at all. But the lyrics are in there any way. I guess you can say it does have some things in the story to connect them. It’s depends on how you see it.
Thunder rolled and clapped, angry storm clouds gathered, threatening a heavy down pour. That was always the good thing about earth. The weather, always the weather. In the slightest shift it would change, that was something you could never get in the colonies. No, not up in space, it was always the same there. Always so cold and empty.
Seems like just yesterdayYou were a part of meI used to stand so tallI used to be so strongYour arms around me tightEverything felt so rightUnbreakable, like nothing could go wrong
Wufei tilted his face toward the sky, letting the fat rain drops fall on his face and body, soaking him to the bone. Some where in the distance someone called his name, a high desperate voice. Heavy foot steps pounded by, underneath him. The frantic cries came closer, until they were right underneath him, then they moved away again. Wufei remain still on his high perch, not a sound coming from his trembling lips. All he wanted was to be alone right now. Not to be pitied and coddled by his friend’s, and told every thing would be alright. Another clap of thunder roared near by, indicating that the thunder was much closer now. He still didn’t move, only looked at the grey cloudy sky, wondering when his life went straight to hell.
no I can't breathe, I can't sleepI'm barely hangin' on
It was a little funny how he didn’t see it coming. He had hoped so hard that it was real, that he had found the one this time. Alright, there was the fact that he was the man that killed his wife, and was in they both on two different sides of the war. But he over looked that, if just for that one time. He really thought it was love, that it would be ok, this time. Memory’s of a large canopied bed covered in silk, and being cradled to a strong chest filled his mind. Thoughts of tender kisses, and loving embraces, just wouldn’t leave him alone. Every day it was getting harder and harder to get out of bed.
Here I amonce againI'm torn into piecescan't deny it, can't pretendjust thought you were the onebroken up, deep insidebut you wont get to see the tears I crybehind these hazel eyes
But who was he trying to kid right. He was Wufei Chang. The ice prince, the loner. Destiny had never meant for him to be with someone. For him to be happy. Just look at him. An ugly scrawny little kid, with too big eyes, and a little rats tail for a hairstyle. Always walking around with a sour look on his face, and snapping at everyone. Why would anybody want to be with him, when they could have a beautiful tall, blonde Adonis. Yes, that exactly right, he had chosen him over Wufei. That was how he found them. Making love on the bed, on the same bed he an Treize had been on that morning. That had been almost 2 weeks ago. It was kind of like a blur since that night. Wufei vaguely remembered, going to there new safe house, Quatre’s concerned voice, and Heero trying to make him talk. He had completely blocked them out and went straight to him room, locking the door behind him. Then stripping out of all his cloth’s and hoping into the shower, scrubbing himself until his skin was bright red and raw. That night he had tried to get every trace of Treize off his body, his hair, his mouth, everywhere. He’d been trying to get him out of his head since then, he’d poured all there was in him into that man. Had left nothing behind, trusted him with heart, his soul, even went as far as to give him his innocence.
I told you everythingopened up and let you inyou made me feel alrightfor once in my lifenow all that's left of meis what I pretend to besewed together but so broken up inside
But he wouldn’t cry. He would never cry on the outside, not for him, or anyone. Instead he curled up in a ball, in the middle of his cold empty bed. All alone again, like it was meant to be. If he closed his eyes and thought hard enough, he could almost smell him. The soft scent of roses and musk, underlined with something else, that was not Treize. It smelled like Zechs. Every time he would rush to the bathroom, gagging, and dry heaving, like he could almost smell Treize and Zechs together. At some point he thought he was going insane, but brushed it off. He was already crazy as hell, so it didn’t matter. Another set of foot steps pounded by, followed by his name being called in a frantic scream. The thunder was right above his head now, rain came down like a waterfall, muffling ever sound. Making it almost impossible to hear over it.
no I can't breathe, no I can't sleepI'm barely hangin' on
It was the main reason, Wufei had gotten out of bed. When the lightest of drizzles began to fall from the sky. Standing had been a little hard at first. Muscles had become tense and cramped up from nearly a week of ill-use. Large windows leading to a high balcony had been unceremoniously thrown open. Letting rain soak the curtain and carpet completely. Wufei crawled out the window, his eyes glazed and unseeing. All he wanted to do was feel the rain, he loved the rain. He stood there in a daze, watching lightning split the sky, making it look so beautiful. He decided the balcony wasn’t a good place, it didn’t let the ran fall on him completely. So he moved, climbing over the edge of ledge, and down the rain pipe. Straight into the forest, in nothing but an over sized tee-shirt. No doubt he would freeze to death, but he didn’t feel the cold, only the rain. A giant oak was the perfect tree. Slowly he began to climb it, scrapping the tender flesh on his legs and arms, splinters embedded them selves in his palms. He felt none of this, his mind set completely on reaching the highest branch. One part of the tree bent and curved, forming a kind of pocket, big enough to fit 3 people. It was perfect. The rain had collected and formed a kind of pool in the pocket, so when Wufei sat down, his entire lower half up to his waist was submerged on water. He’s been sitting there ever since, his head tilted toward the sky. Letting the rain pound down on him.
Here I amonce againi'm torn into piecescan't deny it, can't pretendjust thought you were the onebroken up, deep insidebut you wont get to see the tears I crybehind these hazel eyes
Trowa ran back into the house, looking from left to right frantically. Heero rushed passed him up the stairs, to recheck all the rooms, for the 5th time. There was no point in doing so, but he did anyway. With all his person, he prayed that they had simply missed him. That he was in one of the rooms the entire time. All of them had feared this moment, since Wufei had come home that night. They had made a routine of checking up on him every hour. In hopes of avoiding something like this. Duo’s desperate shriek could barley be heard over the rain, as he rain into the forest, weaving in and out if tree’s in blind panic. Quatre circled the house, his eyes red rimmed, the tears on his face mixing with the rain water, that soaked him to the bone. He was just about to turn and look behind the house. When a screamed ripped through the air. Temporarily over powering the sound of pounding rain. All four boys ran toward it, as fast as they could.
swallow me then spit me outfor hating you I blame myselfseeing you, it kills me nowthough I don’t cry on the outside anymoreanymore
His slim body arced upward, head thrown backward, mouth wide open, screaming for all it was worth. It seemed to come from the deepest part of his soul, like a wild animal, clawing it’s way up his throat, past his lips, right into the world. Sounding so pain filled, desperate, and raw. Wufei screamed until he couldn’t scream anymore. Slowly he let his head fall forward against his chest, his petite body shook uncontrollably. Cold finally made it’s presents known, as it bit into his flesh like a thousand knives. Blue tinted lips quivered as, Wufei swam in and out of conscienceness. The last thing he remembered was falling into a hard solid chest, and strong arms wrapping around him protectively.
Here I amonce againI'm torn into piecescan't deny it, can't pretendjust thought you were the onebroken up, deep insidebut you wont get to see the tears I crybehind these hazel eyes
Machines beeped, in the back round. The clean sterile smell of bleach filled the air, outside the room, the shuffling of feet could be heard. As people rushed by in search of their own loved ones. Wufei lay in an all white hospital room. Almost 4 tubs were connected to his arms, including the heart monitor machine. A tired looking doctor checked Wufei’ s chart quickly before leaving the room. Wanting to be as far away from the 4 men in the room as possible. Ever since they had come into the hospital 2 days ago, they had been nothing but a bother. It was understandable for them to be concerned for their little friend. But pointing a gun in a nurses face was a bit much. Back in the room, Duo sat by the bed holding one of Wufei’s limp hands in his own. Whispering meaningless but comforting words in Wufei’s ear. Trowa did the same on his right, as he murmured soft french endearments into Wufei’s small shell like ear. The other 2 stayed by the foot of the bed. Heero’s head was laying on Wufei’s cloth covered belly, while Quatre rubbed soothing circles on his back. Trowa had been the one to get to Wufei first. He had climbed the tree, and caught Wufei right before he fell. Wufei hadn’t woken up since they dragged him out the rain. From staying in the rain so long, he had gotten Hypothermia. They had warmed him up quickly so it wasn’t to severe, but he still managed to catch a cold. The doctors said there was nothing wrong with him, besides a little malnourishment. That the only reason he was still asleep was because his mind was telling him to rest. So they needed to be patient and wait for him to wake up on his own. And they would wait. For as long as it took.
Here I amonce againI'm torn into piecescan't deny it, can't pretendjust thought you were the onebroken up, deep insidebut you wont get to see the tears I crybehind these hazel eyes
DestineysMistake: I have no idea were this came from. It has nothing to do with this song. Oh well stone me later. Please read and review.