Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ I'd Love You To Love Me ❯ Breaking Point ( Chapter 2 )

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I'd Love You To Love Me

By: Lara Winner

Fly with me

I can't quite make it alone

Trying to make this life my own-

Foo Fighters

I spend the next two weeks observing Duo and teasing him. I make sure he's behind me when I bend over, I casually find some way to brush up against him when he's standing close enough, I'll let him catch me looking at him but instead looking away I just grin challenging him to do something about it. All this teasing is doing a number on me, but damn it to hell, I can't tell if I'm getting to him or not. Relena says she catches him watching me and Heero told her that Duo asked if I was single. I guess that's a good sign.

Tonight, however, I'm running an ice cube over my neck because I'm burning up. It's steaming hot back here in the kitchen and I don't get off for another hour. Relena and Joey just left. It's only Tony and me, that is … until Duo comes back from his last delivery.

I usually hate working till close but this is the first time I've been here with just Duo. I don't move from my spot against freezer door as he heads straight to the register with the money. "You still here? I thought you were leaving with Lena." He asks me over his shoulder.

"No. I have my car tonight." I say closing my eyes and running the ice cube further down my throat. Even with the first few buttons of my shirt open it's suddenly hotter in here and it's not from the wall-length oven across the room.

"Where's the boss man?" Duo asks curiously.

"I dunno; he disappeared on me." I reply, opening my eyes to find myself staring directly into dark, stormy purple ones. I almost gasp at the unexpected closeness of his body. He conveniently has me pinned against the freezer with his arms blocking both sides of me. Hehehe… as if I'm going anywhere.

"So that leaves you and me." He breathes softly. His eyes roam down to my open shirt and he grins evilly. Ever so slowly, he begins to trail his index finger along my exposed skin and over the curve of my breast, following the lace of my bra were its peeking out of my shirt. "I hope you intend to finish what you started babe."

Determined to keep my cool despite my weak knees and fluttering stomach, I slip from beneath his arm and take a step away. Cocking my head to the side, I smile innocently. "Tony could come back at any second."

Duo responds by grabbing my wrist and pulling me into the storage closet only a foot away. Before I can even blink, he has the door closed and me backed up against it, his body pressing into mine. I feel like my heart is gonna beat right out of my chest. I don't think I've ever been this turned on. "Are you crazy?"

"Honey, you asked for it." He replies harshly before crushing my mouth under his. He forces my lips open, his tongue slipping inside my mouth to taste me. I can't resist him. There's something terribly erotic about knowing that we could get caught. The way he's just taking what he wants makes me putty in his hands. I like a guy who can take control. He's not even being the least bit gentle… but then again, neither am I.

Frantically, I start pulling his shirt from his pants, my hands slipping under the material and running up his back, marking him with my nails. His hands are roaming too, one jerking up my skirt as the other squeezes my breast through my shirt. He breaks the kiss, gasping for air as he lifts me against the door. I wrap my legs around his waist pulling him against me. He's hard; I can feel him through his jeans. I push my hips forward impatiently, eager to have him inside me. I can't take it.

I grab hold of his braid kissing him again. I moan into his mouth as his grip settles on my hips ripping my panties with barely a tug. Taking his hand, I guide his fingers against me. His lips curve against mine as he feels how wet I am. He strokes me once more before pulling down his zipper and freeing his hard cock. I can't stop the soft growl I give as he thrusts into me, filling me as far as he can go. It feels so good, better than I could have ever imagined. I push down on him urging him to pull out and then enter me again. He pumps me hard and fast as I attempt to ride him the best I can wedged between his hot body and the door. His lips are leaving a hot trial down my neck as I whimper with pleasure. Then his wet kisses move down further, over the lace of my bra, when he scrapes his teeth over my skin biting me.

I'm clawing the fuck out of his back as the pain and pleasure mix almost unbearably. Hot sparks are shooting through my body each time he slams into me and I can't take it. I push down on him, my head falling back and my body trembling as ecstasy floods my system for one heart stopping moment. He groans against my neck he cums right along with me and I can feel the repeating spurts of warmth deep inside me.

It takes a moment before we can move. He slowly lets me slide to the ground. I hold onto him as my legs wobble. Holy shit that was fucking incredible. I can't stop the lazy smirk that crosses my lips as I ask, "Satisfied?"

He looks at me for a moment before saying softly, "For now."

I don't miss that note of promise in his voice as I pull my skirt back down as far as it will go. I adjust my shirt doing up the buttons knowing that its hopeless, I look like a complete mess. Mess or not that was the best sex I think I've ever had. But, in the damn storage room for pity's sake? I mean I know I've done some crazy shit but this takes the cake. I am officially one kinky little girl.

I pick up the tattered remains of my underwear and place them in his hand. Why do I want them back, he ruined them. I press a quick little peck to his lips and giggle, "Thanks, I needed that." And I slip out the room leaving him standing there adjusting his pants. Thank God Tony is nowhere around, I really don't think I can handle explaining what I was doing in there or why I have this ridiculous grin on my face…

So I started the game. Now, I know the rules and I know when to break them. But you have to be careful when you break the rules because that's when you get hurt, and that I learned the hard way. See, I knew what I had been getting into with James, he had a girlfriend and just wanted sex. That was the rule, just sex. Everything went fine till we tried to make it work. He broke it off with Karen and our relationship went down hill from there. I'm still trying to pick my shattered emotions up off the ground from that one.

With this in mind, I'm determined not to break the rules with Duo. Sex was great and I'll gladly fuck him again but anything more than that is out of the question. This is just sex. That's why I didn't tell Relena about the other night. I mean, everything is fine between Duo and me. Nothing has changed, except sometimes when no one is looking he'll sneak a kiss or a pat on the ass. I know he hasn't told Heero anything and its kind of like an unspoken agreement with us, why get anyone else involved when its just fun.

Hell, I must have been crazy to think that once with Duo would be enough. I'm itching to get my hands on him again. And now he's the one doing the teasing and I'm going nuts here. Tonight it's the four of us, Lena and Heero, Duo and yours truly. Earlier we went to the movies to see this really cheesy horror flick, ya know the ones where its so predictable you what the killer is going to do next. Well usually I find these movies funny but tonight didn't watch much of the movie. Relena and Heero were too busy cuddling and making out to really know what was happening on screen or in the two seats right next to theirs.

I was being good. I was contentedly watching the movie, curiously waiting to see if the masked guy was going to attack the big-busted blonde, when Duo's hand ever so casually made its way to my knee. I glanced at him but he didn't look at me, he just kept his eyes on the screen and started rubbing my knee absently. We were sitting in the last row and there was no one near us but our occupied friends. I let it slide. What harm could it do? If he wanted to touch me I wasn't about to object.

It takes me a full minute to realize that he's very, very slowly inching is way higher up my leg. I squirm a little at the sudden flush that takes hold of my body. I think I can see his lips curve slightly in darkness but I can't be sure. I'm too busy trying not to draw attention to myself as my grip tightens on the arm-rests.

Finally, after what seemed like forever, he shows me a little mercy as his fingers slip down to tease the inside of my thigh, almost moving under my skirt. He knows what he's doing to me. This time there is no mistaking the wicked curve to his lips. I closed my eyes shifting my hips closer. He'll be sorry for teasing me like this. The next time I get him alone, he's in for it because he's the only guy that's ever made me feel like this. I'm so tempted to grab his hand and put it where I want it but I can't move. I'm not in control here and that's part of what has me so attracted to him.

I feel him lean closer and I shiver as he nips at my ear. Little tremors run down my spine and I feel myself getting growing wetter. At this point, I don't really care if anyone catches on to what we're doing. "Please."

I breathe the words so softy I'm surprised he hears me and I'm even more surprised when he complies. He slips his fingers inside the damp material of my panties and I arch into his touch, squeezing my eyes shut to keep from crying out in pleasure. He rubs me with agonizing slowness and I spread my legs a little wider. Every fiber in my body is focused on the fire radiating from his touch. I can't help it; I put my hand over his forcing him to move faster. Then his fingers slip inside me and my hips lift off the seat as my body explodes in a thousand different directions.

At least that was what it felt like. I didn't even get to see the end of the movie, but I'm certainly not complaining. I'm still tingling. We just arrived at Lena's house and we are no sooner in the door when she pulls me aside.

"De, um... would you do me a really big favor. Now that you and Duo seem to be getting along okay, um…" She bites her lip, giving me her big pleading blue eyes at full force, "Would you mind giving him a ride home? Heero's was going to but he's staying here tonight, he just doesn't know it yet."

I try to keep a straight face. Fate couldn't have planned this any better. "How in the world are you going to pull that off?"

Lena smirks, "Once my parents go to bed it's a piece of cake. I'll just tell them he left and what they won't know won't hurt them."

"I guess I can bring Duo home." I sigh.

"Oh thank you, Hilde. You're the best, I mean it."

Believe it or not, I do feel bad for not telling her about Duo and me. She's my best friend and I want to tell her but I can't. I don't know what Duo thinks about us. There really is no us. So instead, I tell her no problem and we hang out in her basement watching the guys duke it out over some play station game.

It's going on eleven when Duo and I call it a night. We get in my battered p.o.s. Crown Victoria and I take out a cigarette but when I go to light it Duo brushes my hand away and lights if for me. I give him a curious look wondering why, now that we're alone, he's being so polite.

He lights his own cigarette ignoring me, staring out the window as I drive. Suddenly, he grins, "Ya know, we don't have to go home. Of course, if you want to that's fine but the night is still young." He says suggestively.

I smile to myself following his train of thought. "So what do you suggest we do?"

Duo turns to me and asks, "Ever been to Potters Point?"

"No. What is it?" I question more than a little interested now that he mentioned it.

"You'll see." He smirks.

I pout as I follow his directions heading up into the hills that out-skirt the city. I haven't been up this way since I was child and my Dad took me hiking. Its dark and the roads are filled with sharp curves but before I know it I pull the car into this clearing. We get out, walking to where the ground drops off abruptly and I'm amazed at the view of the city below. The lights are a glow making the city look smaller, a little more insignificant than I can ever remember it. Its pretty and I just stand there looking down knowing I've never seen anything so breathtaking.

I walk back to the car and stuff my hands in my pockets shivering as the cool wind blows. Despite it being mid July it's cold up here. Duo steps up behind me and pulls me back till I'm in his lap, then wraps his arms me. I curl up against him, borrowing some of his warmth as we sit on the hood of my car looking down on the city. I don't ask what's going on, I don't even waist time questioning. I'm not sure I want to know.

"Funny, I've lived here all my life and I never knew this place existed." I whisper softly.

"Most people don't. My uncle took me camping up here once when I was like ten or eleven. I always liked this place. It's great when you need to get way from everything. I think that's the reason my old man and I haven't killed each other yet. If I couldn't come here, all hell would break loose." He replies with a sigh, resting his chin on my shoulder.

"You guys don't get along?" I ask with out thinking and I'm surprised when he answers.

"Yeah and no." Duo says, letting go of me just long enough to light a cigarette, "Everything changed after my Mom died. I guess we were never close, and he never made time for me. He's not exactly father material. I can't blame him though. It's not like he asked to get stuck with me."

I listen to him, contemplating what he says. I never would have thought Duo, happy go lucky Duo Maxwell, would have problems. He's always goofing off, he never comes to work pissed or moody. Even when we were back in school, he always had a smile and a prank to pull. I never thought he had it hard with anything.

"I'm sorry." I cover his hand with my own not really sure about what else to say.

He laughs, the hint of bitterness evident in his voice, "It's nothing I can't handle."

I snuggle back against him raising my eyes to the starry sky. "I know what you mean, getting away isn't a bad idea. Sometimes I wish I could leave. Just throw all my shit into my car and drive as far as a tank of gas will get me. My friends are the only things keeping me here. My Dad is okay, he's just completely pussy whipped and thinks I'm still five years old. And my step-mother, I hope that bitch rots in hell."

Duo chuckles, "She's that bad?"

"In her opinion, my Mom did a horrible job of raising me so now that I'm capable of making my own decisions everything I do or say is wrong. She'll find some way to fight me or call me down or insinuate that I can't do something. To her, I will never be good enough and I will never meet her standards so now I've stopped trying. Not too long ago I told her to go fuck herself and we've actually given up on talking to each other altogether now. That is pretty bad if you ask me."

"Why don't you live with your Mom?" He asks innocently.

It's a question I used to dread but now it doesn't bother me. I still can't believe we're talking like this and despite everything I'm glad because he was right, I really didn't know him at all. "My Mother is an alcoholic and she lost custody of me when I was thirteen. She disappeared for a whole week. My uncle found her in some bar, out cold. After that my Dad didn't want me living with her. I haven't spoken to her in three years. I don't even know where she is now."

"Wow. That's some harsh shit babe." He says against my neck.

I nod closing my eyes. Duo's still holding me tightly and I'm really afraid that if I think too much this will disappear and I'll be having some really cruel dream. I could get used to this and that's not good. I don't want this, but lord help me, I need it. And that scares me so much. I can't let myself depend on Duo or become attached to him. It's too dangerous for me. And James, I can't just forget about him, and what he put me through. It was a hard lesson but I won't forget it.

Thinking about all of this, the peace I found being in Duo's arms starts to fade and I feel myself stiffening up, wanting to pull away. He feels it too and he loosens his hold giving me my space. I start to step away from him but he grabs my hand turning me to face him.

"What's wrong?"

His voice is so soft and deep; his eyes are so intense, even in the moonlight. I want to give him the honest answer but I don't want to fuck up what we do have between us. I could tell him that if we get too close, to open I could fall hard for him but I can't tell him that. I think a part of me doesn't even want to acknowledge it. I thought I was stronger than this, that I could handle being alone. I mean it's nothing new so how hard could it be, right? But if this were real… I can see why people keep falling in love and risking getting hurt over and over, because for that little while that it's good, it's heaven.

"Hilde?"

I let him pull me close again till I'm standing between his knees. Swallowing hard I try to smile, "I like getting to know you. I don't usually talk to people like this but you make it easy." I know I'm blushing, wishing I had never opened my mouth but instead I just hurry up and get it over with, "Promise me that no matter what we'll stay friends, okay?"

He smiles slightly vowing, "Friends, I promise."

To my relief, he doesn't elaborate or ask why. I know if I say anymore, I'll say too much. So instead of talking I just follow my instincts and wrap my arms around his neck. I need something, even if it is only temporary insanity. And again Duo obliges with out question, putting his arms around me holding me tightly. I feel so safe here with him. It's something I haven't felt in a long time, something I never felt with James. This is what's going to get me in trouble. This fine line between our newfound friendship and our kinky sexual appetite is going to blur and mix and at some point I won't be able to tell where one ends and the other begins. I shouldn't be doing this.

I'll be damned if I can let go though.

We remain that way as Duo starts talking again telling about his plans for college. He wants to go out of state and he's going to major in Avionics Engineering. So I tell him that I'm going out of state too and I have no idea what I'll major in but it will probably deal with computers since I have a knack with them. Then he tells me that if there were one thing he could ever get to do in his life it would be to go to Outer Space. He says he's an astronomy nut and to prove it he gives me a brief lesson on all the constellations, pointing out stars left and right. I'm a little surprised when he says he believes aliens exist but it figures he'd say something like that.

I don't know how long we sit here trading information about ourselves. It's really weird how Duo doesn't even have to pry it out of me. I'm willing to tell him what ever he wants to know. I don't usually even open up to Relena this easily and she's my best friend in the whole world. I think it might be the way he keeps me distracted. Every now and then he's placing little kisses on my neck and one of his hands had strayed under my shirt and is resting on my lower back just above my jeans. He kisses me again and I shiver, I can't help it.

"You cold?"

I shrug in response. "A little."

"I could always warm you up." He whispers.

"I bet you could." I laugh.

His lips are soft and warm as he places another kiss just below my ear. "Is that an invitation?"

Shifting my weight, I settle more comfortably in his lap, teasing him by walking my fingers down his fly. "If you're up for it." I grin. Like saying the magic words, I feel him getting hard as I wiggle around practically sitting on him…

It was a quarter to four when I finally got home. My dad was pissed, he said I was grounded for a week. Yeah, as if I've ever listened to him before. Ever since that night, I've been thinking about everything Duo and I said. We have so much more in common than I ever thought possible. When I was talking to him at moments it seemed like I was talking to myself. Who would have ever thought that Duo, of all my friends, would be the one I could relate to? Certainly not me.

I guess maybe it isn't so strange, we're not little kids anymore and I think I like the adult I see in him. Correction, I know I like the adult I see in him and that's my present problem. Everyday it's getting harder to keep my distance. I know that this is just suppose to be sex but I think my heart is getting involved anyway and I'm at a loss on how to stop it. I see him at work almost everyday. He has my phone number now and he's called me a few times, hell we even had phone sex one night. I've given him rides to work a few times cuz his car finally bit the dust a few weeks back. There is no way I can get away from him. He's always there and that's the way I want it despite knowing I'm going to get hurt. It can't be that bad pretending, right?

Yes it can. I have to remember that. But it's so hard when I see him, touch him and when I look in his eyes, heaven help me I'm lost. It's like I can't fight the pull he has on me. But the really tough part is knowing that I don't phase him this way. I'm not on his mind 24/7. He's not loosing sleep at night wishing I was there with him. He's not worried that at some point this will have to end. But I am.

To Duo, I'm a convenient fuck. I'm around when he needs to get off and it gives us mutual gratification. As long as he keeps me satisfied, then he's done his part. And let me tell you, the boy knows how to keep me satisfied. We've been fucking like rabbits lately. I even went down on him outside the restaurant the other night just for the hell of it. He was bringing out the trash and I jumped his ass with out warning. I know he likes my spontaneous whims but it's still only sex.

This is what has been going through my mind day in day out and it's driving me crazy. Take right now for instance, I'm at work and I almost cut my finger off twice while slicing these mushrooms because I can't concentrate on what I'm doing. It wasn't supposed to be like this. God, I don't know what to do.

Giving up on butchering myself, I ask Tony if I can take a break. He gives the okay so I go out back and light up a cigarette. It's the only thing that calms me these days. Relena knows some things up with me. I keep telling her that I'm just bugged school is starting in two weeks but I don't think she's buying it anymore. She's knows me too well; and it's a blessing and a curse. I know what I have to do. For my own piece of mind I have to stop it. If I had any guts I'd walk in there right now and pull Duo aside and flat out tell him. It probably wouldn't bother him in the least. I think that's what I'm afraid of finding out. But it doesn't matter, this is getting out of hand. It's starting to effect too much of my life beyond us. I obviously can't handle this and it needs to stop now.

This is the last option I want, but I feel a little calmer having decided what I'm going to do. I go back inside ready to force myself to get back to work when Relena comes up and grabs my arm saying, "Bad news De."

"What?" I ask alarmed.

"Look to your left." She mutters.

I look and my heart drops to the floor. It's James, and he's standing at the register. His newest bimbo is attached to his arm as he hands Duo the money for their meal. I think her name is Libby, I don't know; I didn't stay to find out when I caught them naked together in his bed. I'm really not ready for this. I know I'm over him, I don't need him, but it doesn't change the fact that when I see him it hurts. It hurts a lot.

I feel the tears just fighting to fall, my vision is all blurry and it's a little hard to breathe. The two of them move to a table and sit down out of my view but it doesn't matter, the damage is already done. I nod numbly hearing Relena asking if I'm okay. Duo puts his hand on my shoulder, squeezing it in silent support. And in this moment, this moment that holds the most pain I think I've ever felt in my life, I realize with stunning clarity that love can go to hell…

A.N.- Sorry, I forgot to leave an authors note last time. Thank you to my reviewers, I luv you guys. There is only one more chapter to go and I will have it posted as soon a I get it beta read. I hope the sex was satisfactory. I could made it even more graphic but the story was so damn long already…