Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ I Feel So Alone ❯ something happened ( Chapter 4 )

Disclaimer: I do not own gundam wing

(Begin)

If time could rewind, I would rewind time up to stop you from doing this to yourself.

You once told me that you did not care about other people.

Having watched you from afar, I will disagree with that.

You are the most sensitive one out of all of us.

If we have done something wrong, I really wish you would have said something.

I have been here all day, next to your bed in the hospital.

I feel that if I leave then something bad will happen to you.

I watch the heart monitor every once in awhile.

I forget who told me that you had always regretted your first kill.

If I had known you back then, maybe I could have helped you.

If a heart that is so big that it can become broken like yours, then why was your heart allowed to be that way?

I hope someday I can understand everything you have gone through.

If you will allow me to get to know you better, then I will want to know about your entire past and the way you think it should have been.

My friend, I really hate what you did to yourself.

How dare you not think about the rest of us?

Did you think we would not have found you in the morning?

I thought that we all agreed not to do stupid things.

I need to leave the room for awhile.

It is not fair to either one of us for me to yell at you.

As I walk out of the room, the nurse looks at me and tells me that it is nothing to be ashamed of.

I tell her that I just yelled and told off me friend who currently laying unconscious in a hospital bed and that I should never have done that.

I walk as fast as I can out of the medical intensive care unit.

I meet one of our friends and he takes one look at my face and asks me what is wrong.

I shake my head because I can not trust my voice right now.

He takes me down to the cafeteria and points to a table and two chairs.

He walks over and grabs two cups of tea and two cups of hot chocolate.

He brings them back over and splits the cups between us.

I sit there staring at the cups and he finally asks me what I did to make myself so upset.

I tell him that I let my anger get the best of me and that I told you off.

He gave a small smile and said that he would have done the same thing later on.

I can not believe that he just said that.

If I was already able to tell you off, what about the rest of our friends, would they tell you off also like I did.

I can not take him looking at me like I did something right.

I tell him to stop looking at me because what I did was wrong.

He takes my chin in his hands and pulls my head around to look at him.

He looks me right in the eye and tells me that one of us was going to tell you off while you are in the stupid coma.

He then told me it was better that it was your best friend to tell you off then for one of the others who are not so close to you.

I asked him if maybe what went through your head was a psychological problem and that maybe seeing a therapist would be helpful.

He said that a therapist will more then likely be helpful after you wake up and come home, but not before then.

My eyes started to water up again, so I put my arms on the table and laid my head down.

I just started to cry again and I do not think that it is fair.

If I am doing all of this crying, why do I not feel better yet.

He gets up out of his chair and walks over behind me.

He rubs my back and that helps relieves some of the tension in me.

After a few minutes I stand up and tell him that it is time to get back to you.

He agrees and we walk back to your room, where the others are waiting for us.

Those two take one look at my face and ask if I told you off.

Just as I was about to answer, a siren like sound went off.

Nurses and Doctors rush into your room and start working on you.

A nurse looks at the four of us and tells us to get out of the room.

We leave the room fast and a curtain is pulled.

All we can do is stand outside of your room and wait for information.

I hope that you will be alright and that nothing is seriously wrong.

A nurse and doctor come out of your room and ask if we will go to the waiting room and for us not to worry about you.

The doctor said that you are stabilized for now.

That does not sound good and the doctor said he will talk to us a bit later after some tests are done on you.

(Finished)

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