Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ In an Instant ❯ Heero pov ( Chapter 1 )

Title: In an Instant (1 of 2)

Author: Hells-angel8

Pairing: 1x2x1

Rating: R

Warnings: suggested lime and language, Angst, lots and lots of it.

Archive: Hellfire_angel LJ, 1x2ML, gw_safehouse, mediaminer

For the Lusty Month of May at the GW_Safehouse

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I never realized how much a life could change in one moment. How one little incident could impact the lives that surrounded me so much.

 

Or more precisely the one person I cared for the most.

 

It all started when Duo and I got back from a mission well done. Une got the information she wanted, the bad guys had been arrested, and the two of us needed some well deserved time off due to the injuries we received at one nasty bombing mishap.

 

The sad part of it all was it was one of Duo's bombs. Somehow our target found the stashed supplies we left hidden in place if our retreat was compromised. Unfortunately, it was and we were injured from our own weapons. Duo apologized over and over our folly, but when we analyzed the situation further it just really wasn't his fault. I felt bad for my partner and as soon as it was possible I got us both out of the hospital with the promise of taking our meds and getting some actual rest.

 

The shrapnel from the explosion was gently taken out of our hides but some of the pieces pierced deeper than just being annoying. It was more along the lines of intense agony and wanting tear your own skin off just to stop the pain from making its presence known every time I moved. I got the worst of it when I tried to protect Duo and ended up getting showered by the metal misfits all along my left hand side and back. Most of the pieces had been removed but Sally said there still could be pieces that weren't visible and if I had weird pains that seemed to have no source for it, I probably had to have more shit dug out of my flesh.

 

Duo's worst problem was his right leg and arm that got a few of the larger pieces of metal and they had gone through one side and popped out of the other. Sally had no problem removing it but the muscles in Duo's limbs needed time to heal and even with stitches it could take up to three months to heal completely.

 

With all these lovely holes in our skins it was no wonder why we were put on a high dosage of pain killers, which both of us took dutifully. Duo spent most of his days in his room or on the sofa in the living room. I did the same and sometimes we would read each other the news if we found something interesting that the other might like to hear. We lived like this for most of the first week until I began to get headaches every time I took the meds. I wrote it off as one of the side effects because of the dosage, but what was even more strange was the stirring in my loins.

 

Duo and I had been living together since we both signed up for the Preventors, neither of us liked the idea of living alone and we both liked the companionship of being together on the job and off. However, neither dated anyone else or one another. Not that I didn't want to. I did. I have always admired Duo and it didn't take me that long to actually think about loving him. I could admit to myself that I cared about him more than anyone else. None of our friends, co-workers, not even Relena had an effect on me the way Duo did and always had on me. The only thing preventing me from telling him how I felt was the reaction I feared I would get.

 

I didn't know if he'd return my feelings or dismiss them completely, but I knew I just couldn't take that risk. But as fate would have it, the gods just weren't listening to me or the way I had ever always planned on never telling Duo. Or showing him how I felt either.

 

One day, my headaches got so bad that I couldn't think straight. I tried to concentrate, but my mind just wouldn't focus. It also happened that Duo took the most inopportune time to come out of the shower with just a towel wrapped around his hips. The sight of him mostly nude, still covered in water droplets, and his wet hair gently curling around him was just too much for my mind to handle. Just by looking at him got my nether regions stirring to life and before I even knew it I had walked across the room and kissed him full on the mouth.

 

"Heero, what the hell are you...mmf!" He tried to break away from me, but I couldn't let him go. I held him tightly with one arm while the other rid him of his towel. He gasped in surprised, but practically squeaked when I shoved my thigh against his crotch and rubbed against him as sinuously as a cat.

 

"Heero, what's gotten into you? Why are you doing this?"

 

"You're so beautiful, Duo. I want you to be mine. I can't let anyone else have you!" I growled to him before seizing his mouth for another kiss. He tasted so good, and there wasn't anything to mar it. Just him. His scent surrounded me and as I kept rubbing against him I felt his own cock stir to hardness. He gripped me arms in those strong, capable hands of his and held onto me, moaning and gasping in abandon.

 

"Heero, why are you doing this to me?" He asked and I could hear something in his voice that made me pause for a moment before lifting him up off his feet and having him grab onto me in surprise.

 

I moved us to my room and shucked out of my clothes, but all the while staying in touch with him. I couldn't keep my hands off of him for a second and before I even realized it I was preparing him to receive me. I had never done anything like it before, but I had researched it often out of curiosity and for when the time came for me to hone on the information I gathered. I often pictured Duo as being the one I would do it to first, but I had only dreamed of it becoming a reality.

 

When I deemed him good and ready I entered him and was shocked when I heard him scream. My first instinct was to stop what I was doing to him, I had entered him so abruptly that I would've hurt him, but another part of me pipped up and said I would make him feel better in a short amount of time so it was all right. I listened to that voice and filled him again and again. Duo's screams soon turned into moans and when his climax came it shook us both and caused my own to follow.

 

As we both came down, my headache fled and I felt warm and comfortable. I wrapped Duo in my arms and curled up against his back. It was then that I noticed that Duo wasn't just gasping for the much needed air from the exertion.

 

No, it wasn't that at all. He was sobbing.

 

Tears were running down both of his cheeks and he was trying to muffle the sounds by clamping a hand over his mouth. As I reached up and tired to dry his tears away, he broke away from me and dashed out of the room. I sat there dazed and confused by his actions. What had him so upset?

 

It took me an embarrassing amount of time to figure out what we had just done. A quick glance out my door confirmed what I already knew. Duo was in his room crying his eyes out and I was no longer the one who could comfort him.

 

All night long I sat on the edge of my bed and listened to the sounds that came from Duo's room. He was pacing back and forth for the past hour and a half and not once did it break from the pattern. He would walk six steps then turn and walk six steps back only to continue again. Then at around three am his door creaked open, I took my chance and grabbed it before he could react.

 

"No, let go! You fucker let go!" He screamed, but I quickly entered his room and grabbed him. "Get off me you sick bastard! Get off!" What in he world...? I wrapped him up tightly against my chest and brought us over to his bed so I could wrap my legs around his before he tried to kick me.

 

"DUO! Calm down!" I shouted.

 

"Calm down? CALM DOWN! HOW THE FUCK DO YOU EXPECT ME TO CALM DOWN AFTER WHAT YOU DID TO ME?!" He tried to break free of me, but I knew he couldn't. I was still stronger then he was and he was cursing that disadvantage now.

 

"Duo. I love you. I'm sorry I don't know what got into me. The meds Sally gave us have been giving me headaches lately and when I saw you get out of the shower, I couldn't stop myself. I had to show you how much I loved you."

 

"Is that you call it? You didn't ask me if I wanted your cock up my ass? You never said anything before! Not until you were fucking me!!!"

 

"I know. I've always wanted to tell you how I felt, but I wasn't brave enough to say anything." I whispered into his still damp hair.

 

"So what? Are you telling me you just had to act on what you felt? You couldn't just tell me? You are a coward! And for what's it's worth now, I thought I loved you too until you did what you just did." My body went limp at his words. Everything that I feared and hoped for confirmed by his words and his last statement shot through the deep recesses of my heart.

 

"You're saying you can't love me now because of what I did."

 

"No Heero. I'm saying I don't know if I can trust you anymore or if my love for you can hold up to what you did. You took my goddamn virginity away from me and I... I-I just don't know if I can stay here with you anymore." He whispered the last part out and I realized he was now sitting in the chair at his desk further from my reach and near the knives I knew he kept within the drawers.

 

"If your saying you need some space for a while..." Duo nodded and I knew I didn't need to finish my sentence.

 

"I think I'll go visit Quatre and Trowa for a bit. Maybe after a while I'll be able to come home again." I nodded knowing that this was all my fault.

 

"How long will you stay?"

 

"Until you give me a good enough reason to coming back." With those words I knew I had to do everything I could to make up for what I had done.

 

If only I knew where to start.

 

TBC...