Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ In an Instant ❯ Duo pov ( Chapter 2 )

Title: In an Instant (2/2) Duo pov
Author: Hells-angel8
Pairing: 1x2x1
Rating: R
Warnings: suggested lime and language, Angst, lots and lots of it.
Archive: Hellfire_angel LJ, 1x2ML, gw_safehouse, mediaminer

 

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I never really appreciated Mother Nature until Heero and I moved to Earth. The sights, the sounds, and smells of the great planet assailed my senses and made me wonder how much more I had been missing.

 

 

It seems funny now, thinking back, about how when the war finally ended I had wanted to go back to the scrap yard so badly, just because it was the only sort of home I had. Even if I stayed with the Sweepers that would have been a kind of home that was familiar, but still not a real one.

 

 

No, my real home, the one I had found to be the one I had longed for all along, was with Heero.

 

 

I met Heero first out of all the gundam pilots and I think that is why the bonds we formed were so strong. Sure, I annoyed the hell out of Heero when we first met, but after he got used to me hanging around, he grew on me and I tried to open him up the best that I knew how. We shared a home together and so what if it was a crappy apartment!

 

 

It was the first real home I had that I could honestly say was mine. Both Heero and my name were on the lease and I could show anyone who questioned that and shove it in their faces.

 

 

Heero had changed so much after the war was over. He disappeared for a while but whenever he was needed he would show his face again. Preventer was something we both looked into when we found out we needed jobs to support ourselves and we both agreed that we couldn't trust anyone else to watch our backs. We both knew there wasn't anyone else on Earth or in the Colonies who could keep up with us if we were forced apart, but luckily we weren't.

 

 

Our partnership has always been friendly and comfortable. I think it's one of the reasons why I never told him I held feelings for him until that night he took advantage of me.

 

 

No! That's wrong!

 

 

I wanted it too! If I could just could wrap my head around what was happening at the time.

 

 

Heero has never been open with affection. That's probably why I was shocked stiff by has lustful advances towards me. I could have stopped him and I know that now. It was just in that one instant I wanted to feel helpless. I wanted him to do all those loving things to me and actually mean it. But when it was all over, I panicked and I blamed him for everything and demanded he prove his love to me.

 

 

I am such an ass!

 

 

Not only did I make and ass out of Heero and myself, I probably made Heero never want to come near me again.

 

 

Argh! I'm so angry I could just pull my hair out!

 

 

"Duo? What are doing in here?" I turn an see my caring blond host stare at me with a questioning look in his eye.

 

 

"Just thinking." I don't want to tell him the real reason why I'm sitting here in the dark. I just don't want anyone to see me right now.

 

 

"You're still thinking about what happened between you and Heero." Damn that space heart of his! Dammit!

 

 

"Are you always this perceptive with your house guests?" I growl under my breath and I see the smirk tugging the corners of his mouth up into a small smile.

 

 

"Only if those guests are my close friends who are trying to figure things out that are the most obvious to others."

 

 

"And by obvious you mean... what exactly?" I'm a little lost where this conversation is going but, I'm sure he'll explain it to me. Hopefully.

 

 

He took a minute to just look at me. Just look and stared into my eyes for almost a minute before looking away and sighing to himself. "Can you honestly tell me you don't love Heero?" I started to open my mouth but Quatre raised his hand and cut me off. "The Duo Maxwell I know, doesn't lie to anyone. Not even to himself. So I want you to think about what happened a few nights ago and tell me if you really think you could live with yourself and never see Heero again."

 

 

"I can't do that. I asked Sally if there were any side effects in our meds and she said their were some anti-depressants as well as a traquilizer in them, which might effect certain people more strongly than others. They weren't strong enough to impair our judgment though. So maybe Heero was effected worse than me and the anti-depressants made him feel good enough to actually put the moves on me only in the literal sense." I grinned at the last part. Even though Heero's actions were a total shock to me he was good at what he had been doing.

 

 

"Does this mean you might consider talking to him tomorrow?" I looked at him and smiled, nodding my acceptance to contacting him. "Good. I'll let him know you're up to talking to him then. He's been calling every day to apologize to you by the way."

 

 

"He has?" Quatre nodded. "Then why didn't you tell me it was him calling I would have..."

 

 

"Reamed him out and called him a lot of things that would have only added to his already guilty conscious. You weren't ready to hear what he had to say and Trowa told him to always call back the next day. Tomorrow, we'll let you answer the phone. Good night Duo. I hope the storm doesn't keep you up."

 

 

"Night Quat!" He shut the door quietly behind him and I finally turned back to the window I had been looking out of.

 

 

The storm had started brewing while we were talking. Thunder rumbled and shook the glass mere inches from my face and lightning danced across the heavens. It's strange how Mother Nature is so beautiful yet so deadly.

 

 

The jagged bolts of light quickly jumped from cloud to cloud and lit up the night sky so I could see the hills and homes in the distance. I wonder if Heero is watching this storm now. He loves the weather on Earth, so different from the colonies where the weather systems are told to the citizens. When it's going to rain or when the temperature will be set higher than the day prior is always announced so they have time to prepare.

 

 

Maybe that's why Heero enjoys it. The thrill of being caught in the rain without and umbrella or watching a sun storm creep up on us while we visit the park.

 

 

On Earth, it's so much better to watch spontaneous storms blow in and watch the amazing feats they do while their existence is needed. I watch the lightning bugs pop up out of the grass below and fly towards the sky that random flashes with light. The two forces of nature calling out to one another and seeming to dance with beauty and grace as I watch them play within the scope of my vision. My eyes feel heavier as I continue trying to predict where the next lightning bolt will strike from and soon I find myself nodding off to dreamland with the rumble of thunder as my companion into sleep.

 

:Ring!::

 

"Huh?" I can hear something rattling near my head and reach out blindly to stop the noise.

 

::RING!::

 

"Dammit!" I realize belatedly it's the phone and begin to wonder why Trowa or Quatre hasn't answer it already.

 

::RING::

 

"All right already!" I snatch the annoying thing up and bring it to my ear. "Hello." I mumble into it. My eyes don't want to open just yet and if it's some sales guy I'm going to throw the phone against the wall.

 

There's silence on the other end and I'm getting more irritated by the minute. Then I hear a faint voice speak into my ear.

 

"Duo?" I recognize that voice.

 

"Yeah, it's me. What's up?" I hear the person's breath hitch before the sobbing comes. It shocks me and I no longer have any doubt in my mind who this is.

 

"Duo, I'm so sorry! I don't know what got into me and I can't express to you how sorry I am. I-I j-just w-wanted you. I kn-know I wrecked e-everything b-but can you p-please come home. Please! Please come back!"

My heart feels like it's breaking apart. He sounds so hurt so... vulnerable.

 

"Heero." I hear him sob as if he thinks I'm going to hang up on him. "Heero? Just do me a favor."

 

"Anything." I smirk to myself even though this is no time for jokes I just can't help myself.

 

"Have breakfast ready when I get there?" He breathes a sigh of relief and I have to smile. "I'll be there in a few minutes."

 

"Okay. How about some pancakes and bacon?"

 

"I would love some. I'll see you soon."

 

"See you." He softly hangs up and put the phone down next to me. Any thought of throwing it somewhere does feel right any more. My eyes feel gritty as I open them, and as I try to rub the gunk out of them I realize I have to get out of here soon.

 

Racing to the bathroom, I scrub my face as best I can and get most of the crud out of my eyes. I look up at myself and as disheveled as look right now, I can't really care a less. I grab a shirt and pants out of the dresser and pull them on. I can change when I get back to the apartment. Gathering up my keys and wallet I head out the door and run into Quatre on my way.

 

"Your car's out front." He says and grins at me.

 

"Thanks Quat. I'll bring the clothes I borrowed back." He waves his hand in the air as if wiping my words away.

 

"Don't worry about them. Keep them and make sure you and Heero sort everything out."

 

"We will." I grab him in a hug and then race out the door.

 

The drive to the apartment takes longer than I remember, but I get there as fast as I can without breaking any laws. Heero's car is where it always is and I park next to him like always then make my way up to the apartment. The door is open and I make sure not to make a sound as I walk in.

 

Heero is standing at the stove flipping some pancakes in the pan and looking very serious. As I look at him a bit closer, I can see the dark circles beneath his eyes and the tremble in his hands as he holds the spatula.

 

Quietly, I shut the door and make my way over to him until I am directly behind him and reach my arms around him. He jumps in my arms and drops the spatula as I tighten my arms and hug him to me.

 

"Those pancakes look and smell delicious Heero, but..." Slowly, I ease forward and kiss the nape of his neck lightly. "You taste better." His breath hitches again and he begins to shake in my arms. I reach around him and shut off the stove and put the pan on another burner before guiding him away from the stove and onto a chair.

 

Heero lets me guide him and sinks willingly into a chair but won't look at me. My right leg still protests against me so kneeling in front of him is out of the question, so I sit on the table and lift up his chin to look at him. His eyes aren't open and I know he'll resist me if he thinks I'm attempting something. With this in mind I slip off the table and straddle his thighs. His eyes open like I knew they would and he's stunned, looking at me straight in the eye.

 

"It's about time we had that talk, Heero." But before I even let him start to talk I duck my head in and kiss him full on the mouth and slip my tongue along his lips before kissing him gently again. His arms come around me and I feel his hands trembling against me.

 

Slowly I withdraw, but only enough to look into his eyes. "I'm sorry. I shouldn't have run off like I did, but I was so confused by what you were doing to me that I couldn't think straight. I never meant to make you think I hated you."

 

"You have every right to hate me for what I did-" I kiss him again to shut him up and dig my fingers into his thick hair. Caressing him, feeling him, breathing him in, I know now I want to be here, with him and no one else.

 

"I don't hate you. I love you, Heero. I love you." I say it. Finally, I get to say it. Heero doesn't look like he can believe me so I kiss him some more until he finally begins to kiss me back. When we break apart, I know he's speechless and just can't help but hug him.

 

"You're all I need Heero. You're my home, the one I always return to when I've left for so long. You don't have to prove to me you love me, because I can see it with my own two eyes. Does it go both ways?"

 

"Yes, it does. I love you Duo and I just can't help but think I would've lost you because of that one instant that I was reckless."

 

"Shh, don't talk anymore, just hold me." I think Heero and I will be all right. We still have to work a lot of things out but as long as he's there I'll always have a home. My home, my life is with Heero.

 

 

XXX

 

End.