Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ Inner Torment ❯ One Step Closer ( Chapter 2 )

One Step Closer

lyrics: LINKIN PARK

story written by: Tiasha

Disclaimer: I DO NOT OWN ANY OF THESE CHARACTERS!!!! Except for Richard Morii. Please ask to borrow should you wish to. Do not sue me for anything but my imagination, which will probably not get you very far in the courtroom anyway.

//I cannot take this anymore

I'm saying everything I've said before

All these words they make no sense//

Relena stared blankly at Richard as he spoke to her. They wanted her to cancel the meeting for tomorrow? She couldn't! If she did then...then...

What would happen? No one could claim that she had reached a decision and neither side could cause harm to the other without feeling the wrath of the Preventer organization and the sharp reprimand she would give. No, she would NOT cancel the meeting. How many times did she have to say it?

"No, the meeting will continue on as scheduled," she said softly, averting her gaze to the bay window that lead out to her balcony. The place where they had found her in a heap, crying and shouting a mere half-hour ago.

"Vice Foreign Minister, I would think it best if you took tomorrow to relax," Preventer Richard Morii insisted, ebony eyes pleading her to agree.

//I find bliss in ignorance

Less I hear the less you'll say

But you'll find that out anyway

Just like before...//

Relena shook her head ignoring any of the protests he dished out. She would not cancel her meeting.

"Miss, please, I'm really worried about you. You haven't seemed yourself lately. Is there anything I should know about?" he asked.

She looked at him and saw SINCERE concern in his ebony eyes, genuine worry. This was so rare nowadays...for someone to be sincere...to her. She stared at Richard in slight awe.

//Everything you say to me//

"Miss, has there been a threat that the Preventers weren't aware of?"

She continued to stare at him, confusion taking over her previous awe.

//Takes me one step closer to the edge

And I'm about to break//

She moved to sit on the bed and Richard followed, standing at the edge, watching her for an answer. Relena merely stared into space.

//I need a little room to breathe

'Cause I'm one step closer to the edge

And I'm about to break//

It was when Richard sighed and sat next to her on the bed, that Relena realized he was a bit closer than she would have wanted. She still loved Heero and in vulnerable moments like these, Relena preferred to be as far from a male as possible. She had long ago stopped bothering to find Heero; however, it just seemed that her heart would not let him go. That also added to her frustration at the moment and Relena unconsciously balled her fists.

//I find the answers aren't so clear

Wish I could find a way to disappear//

"Miss, I beg you to take tomorrow off. I promise that the next time I suggest canceling a meeting for other than safety reasons, you can refuse."

Relena looked at him, her throat constricting at seeing the way he looked at her. Compassion, admiration, worry, concern, and love...in a protective way.

The way Milliardo looks at me...

"I just want a place to rest...to disappear..." she whispered, watching as he thought this over.

//All these thoughts they make no sense

I find bliss in ignorance//

Relena wondered if she really wanted to hear his opinion on her disappearing and decided against.

As they always say ignorance is bliss...

//Nothing seems to go away

Over and over again

Just like before...//

It must be bliss...Heero, you never realized how I cared about you...did you? Relena blinked furiously as she attempted to keep her tears inside. She failed and a tear trailed down her cheek...then another...and another...and another. Over and over they fell.

"Miss Relena, please...don't cry...I'm sorry..." she heard Richard say as he repeatedly apologized.

//Everything you say to me

Takes me one step closer to the edge

And I'm about to break//

"Hold me...please.......just hold me.............." Relena heard herself whisper and watched as Richard hesitantly opened his arms and wrapped them around her. Relena leaned against him and cried. Cried for being so stupid, cried for being so naive, cried for not being strong, cried for having been accused, cried for everything she could not ignore.

//I need a little room to breathe

'Cause I'm one step closer to the edge

And I'm about to break//

Relena pulled away from him when he started to rub her back in a soothing motion. She stared at him in surprise, tears still running down face. He grimaced and repeatedly apologized, standing and ignoring her when she opened her mouth to protest his apologies.

//Shut up when I'm talking to you!//

"Richard, would you please shut your mouth for a second?" she said in frustration.

He had ceased apologizing but she hardly noticed; she was so upset at this point that she had not noticed him staring at her in surprise.

//SHUT UP!

SHUT UP!

SHUT UP!

SHUT UP WHEN I'M TALKING TO YOU!//

"Just shut up! The meeting will proceed! I don't need your apologies for something I asked of you!" she shouted at him. Tears of frustration poured down her slender, feminine face as he opened his mouth somewhat hesitantly.

"But Miss..."

//SHUT UP!

SHUT UP!

SHUT UP!

SHUT UP!

I'M ABOUT TO BREAK!//

"NO! Don't say a thing! That is the way it's going to be!"

//Everything you say to me

Takes me one step closer to the edge

And I'm about to break//

"Miss Relena--"

"No! That is an order! Please don't make me contact Lady Une and ask her to send a replacement! You're my friend and I really don't wanna have to do that!" her voice cracked, sore from her crying and previous shouting with the moon as her witness.

//I need a little room to breathe

'Cause I'm one step closer to the edge

And I'm about to break//

"I'd like some time alone now, please. I really need to get a hold of myself, Richard...please," she whispered, her eyes pleading for him to understand.

Relena watched him leave and shakily sighed, lying down to go to sleep. She closed her eyes, calmed her raging thoughts and counted to ten.

"Now...breathe slow, steady breaths......just breathe......." she commanded herself. "That's all I needed....just a bit....of room.......to breathe............."

Owari (The End)

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