Series: Gundam Wing

Inner Torment: Listen to the Rain

Lyrics by: Evanescence

Story written by: Tiasha

Disclaimers: standard disclaimers apply. In other words: I DO NOT OWN ANY OF THESE CHARACTERS!!! Except Richard Morii and Delegate Patterson, and any other character unfamiliar to the show. Do not sue me for anything but my imagination, which will not get you far in the courtroom. If there are any similarities between my story and another, I apologize but all I have to say is, I guess great minds think alike after all. Ja na! Enjoy!

//(Rain)//

That was the first thing she heard as she slowly drifted back to consciousness. That beautiful melody of droplets on a glass pane. Oh it was such a beautiful sound. The rain droplets on the windowpane always soothed her…she didn't really know why. Others had always found it odd…

Once when she was younger and she and Milliardo would go to play with the children from the neighboring village (albeit without permission at times), it had started to rain and the other children had wanted to go inside. But Relena being the young optimistic person that she was had questioned them.

The answer had been said as if it was obvious… "It's no fun playing in the rain!" "The rain is so sad, who would want to play out in it?" "Nothing good ever comes from rain."

She had challenged that by saying that she didn't find the rain to be sad, she said that it made her feel safe. After all, she had been born on a rainy day, so she felt that it was a special connection. But not everyone thought it special, least not in the way she had. One of the older boys had said she was a bad omen and one of his friends had said that she was tainted or cursed since she liked the rain…

She had felt tears prick her eyes and she had brought her hands up to her cherub face to cry. She wanted to call them stupid and mean but she knew that it was no use… She hadn't wanted to be like them…calling others mean things… She just concluded that boys were just stupid that day…

And Milliardo had received his first black eye and cut lip that day trying to make those older boys apologize to her…

A faint smiled touched Relena's lips at the bittersweet memory of her past; why was she suddenly remembering this now though? She had never recalled this memory before? But she had locked away many childhood memories just because of the trauma the fire had been to her at her young age.

//Listen listen
Listen listen
Listen listen
Listen listen
Listen (listen) listen (listen)
Listen (listen) listen (listen)
Listen (listen) listen (listen)
Listen listen//

Relena continued to lay there, listening to the rain droplets; something was telling her to listen, something from within her soul… So she laid there and allowed the droplets of the storm unlock forgotten memories…

//Listen to each drop of rain (listen listen)
Aaah
Whispering secrets in rain (listen listen)
Aaah
Magically searching for someone to hear
That story be more than it hides
Each droplet long gone?
Can't we stay for a while?
It's just too hard to say goodbye
Listen to the rain//

It was as if each droplet was telling her a story…only that story was a memory, an event from her past. Some were happy, some were sad, some were bittersweet and some were painful... Like the day of the fire when she sat under the table crying her eyes out because of all the smoke…and her mother had then come rushing in, calling out for her…

'No…I don't want to see this…please……I don't want to see her die……not again…' Relena thought to herself when she realized that she couldn't stop the memories from playing in her head. She couldn't stop them, as if someone was playing them for her…as if the raindrops had lost their hold on the story and someone else had taken over and wasn't going to let her go without seeing it one more time.

'No…please, no more……' Relena silently pleaded with herself.

…she had then crawled out from under the table, crying for her mother who then cuddled her close, carrying her off somewhere… She could hear the roaring of the fire all around them mingling with the screams of servants as people rushed past them… She didn't understand why her eyes stung so badly, or why her mother seemed to frightened…

"Mother!Mother!" a boy's voice had called and her mother had stopped running, turning frantically and calling out "Milliardo! Where are you?! Milliardo?!"

She had seen her brother approach them, clutching the skirt of their mother's dress once he was near her… It had been the first time she had ever really seen her brother scared… But her mother had then shoved them through the doors of a hallway, tripping as on something as she went…

"Milli!" She had cried out, clinging to her mother… Her mother wasn't trying to run…why? Why hadn't her mother tried to run?

"No more," Relena choked out, squeezing her eyes shut as she tried to banish the memory… "Please…no more…no more pain……I don't want to remember………"

"Milliardo!Take Relena and run!" their mother had cried, thrusting her into her brother's arms.

"But-!" he had tried to protest, grappling her to him as they stared at their mother in surprise and fear. What had she been suggesting?

//Aa...ah
Listen listen listen

Listen listen listen to the rain
Weeping
Oo...ooh oooh ooh oo...ooh
Oo...ooh oooh oh oh//

"Now!Remember our rules? Don't talk back! It's for your own safety! Run! Take her and run!!!" their mother had shouted and she had cried out for her mother as Milliardo had turned and ran down the corridor. He hadn't even looked back…why? She had looked up at his face then…only to have seen tears falling in massive amounts down his face; sobs had racked his body as he had stumbled on out of the palace, bumping into a servant once or twice…

Finally, a servant had grabbed them and dragged them to a hidden escape route in the wall of one of the rooms… And they had lost the beautiful woman too, while they had been crawling through the dark tunnel…her scream for them to run echoing throughout the tunnel……

"No," Relena cried out softly. "I don't want to remember anymore…"

//Listen (listen) listen (listen)
Listen (listen) listen//

Relena didn't want to listen to the stories the rain had to tell anymore…she didn't want to remember…she didn't want to feel…

No, that was a lie…she did want to feel…she was just so tired of all the pain…

//I stand alone in the storm (listen listen)
Suddenly sweet I say no
(Listen listen)
Couldn't they stay for you haven't much time
Open your eyes to the love around you
You can feel you're alone
But I'm here still with you
You can do what you dream
Just remember to listen to the rain//

She wasn't sure when or how she had gotten out here, but the droplets tasted so sweet as she stood on the balcony, sitting on the rail, head tilted back as to catch the rain. Oh they tasted so sweet…

"Miss Relena? What are you doing out here? Come back inside," she heard a male voice say from behind her. It took her a moment to register that it was Richard, her bodyguard. She glanced over her shoulder at him, giving him a curious look.

She then smiled, saying as innocent and childishly possible, "No…"

"Nani?" he questioned her, coming out into the rain to approach her, gaze wary.

"I said no…"

"I know that…why?"

"I want to leave…"

"Leave? But-"

"I don't belong here anymore…I'm alone and…I think it's time the world got on without Relena Dorlain to coddle it…"

"But-Miss, you can't do that-"

Why couldn't she? Wasn't he listening to the rain? It was telling her that it was time to leave…it was time……but Richard was not meant to come with her… That was what the rain was saying… Couldn't he hear it? Wasn't he listening at all?

She gave a heavy sigh, turning to place her feet on the concrete of the balcony and push herself off the railing. Relena gave him a soft smile, nodding her head.

"You're right…I-I-I just want to get away so badly…"

"It's understandable, miss. Perhaps you could think of this as a vacation?"

//oo...ooh oh oh oh oh
ooh ooh oh oh oooh
Listen//

Vacation? Oh no, not a vacation…she was leaving…… But he was not meant to come…no one was…

The rain was telling her to leave…telling her it was time to leave……she would wait and plan her 'escape' since that was what it would be with Heero Yuy in the vicinity.

She sighed again at that thought… And then felt a pang of guilt at the look Richard wore, the trust and belief he had in her… She was lying to him and she felt bad; Richard trusted her but-but he just didn't know how to listen…

None of them knew how to listen to what the rain was saying, not the way she could… She'd come back when they knew how to listen……

Author's note: Heylas! This is kind of a filler song! Sorry! It should get better later on! Promise! In any case enjoy! Oh and if you aren't familiar with some of the Evanescence songs I use, don't feel bad. Some of them I hadn't heard of 'til I read the lyrics. Newayz! Review please!