Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ Lingering Hearts ❯ Chapter One ( Chapter 1 )

Lingering Hearts

Chapter one.

Duo

I find I compare all my boyfriends to my first love. Even though we are done and over with, sometimes I can't help but wonder why? Why didn't we make it? Why do I still have feelings for someone so long gone? I still miss him. I still live my life, but I have never really gotten over him. Not really. When you find that one person, that person who makes your whole life worth living, you know that whomever life throws at you, wherever it takes you, you'll always come to the same realization. You'll always know that that one person was the one you were meant to love forever and always with everything you have. He is your soul mate, your life, and your love, your everything. You wonder what cruel fate would take that away. And again I've reached the beginning and what I want to know is why? Why didn't we make it? Why isn't he still here beside me like he should be? Why is fate so cruel? Why? Why? Why?

Heero

It's the little things I've noticed lately that have me missing him again. The way we held hands. It was always so natural and comforting. With my current boyfriend it's not anything like that. It's so, so, out of place. I feel so awkward with my hand in his. His touch was so soft, gentle, warming and my boyfriend is nothing like that. I think I miss it. I miss the way he kissed me. It was so tender. His eyes, they were so full of love. Love for life, love for the world, love for everyone. But what I always saw the most was a love for me. That's how I always new he was the one, the one to make me happy the rest of my life. When he looked into my eyes, it was like he was looking through to my soul. I really like my boyfriend I'm with right now, it's just that, well, it's not nearly the same level I love him. It never will be.

Duo

Yesterday Alec (1) and I went out for pizza. We decided to go to Leon's Pizza Oven. We walked in and sat down. I wasn't even thinking about him. My mind, it was totally on Alec. That is until he took my hand. Then I immediately though of the way he always did that. He always kissed my hand when he took it. He'd look in my eyes as he did it. It was like seeing into each other's souls when that happened. When Alec takes my hand, its rough, like Alec's personality. Alec's not really into the romance stuff. I guess I'm lucky he even will take my hand. I can't stop thinking about him. I wish I could talk to him. It's been two years since we've spoken but I've seen him so many times. I constantly run into him. He just never sees me. Alec is talking about something; I'm not paying him much attention. This is wrong. Alec is my boyfriend not him. My thoughts should be on Alec. But can't help wonder what I'd see if I looked into Alec's eyes the way I did with him. I can always try. I ask Alec to look into my eyes for a minute. I stare deeply into his eyes for a minute until Alec finally asked me what I'm doing. I say nothing and we go back to eating. I happen to look away to the door. I see the back of his messy head and tight pants. I'd know him anywhere. At any angle. Is that weird? He was walking through the door, leaving with Dustin, hand in hand. I've lost him for good. I know it. He looked really content. And what's worse is I'm not in love with Alec. I know that. I realized it just now when I was looking in Alec's eyes. He is gone with Dustin. But I don't care. There has to be a reason I see him so much. Our destiny is to be together. I know Alec will be gone before long. When I looked into his eyes, they were empty of emotion. That was one thing his eyes always had when we looked into each other's eyes. Heero's eyes were always filled with love for me.

Heero

I saw him yesterday. Dustin(2) and I were getting ready to leave Leon's Pizza Oven. Dustin was speaking to an old couple in the booth next to us. He new their son from St. Francis, a boarding school for boys in Michigan or somewhere like that. I was putting my coat on as he walked by across the room. I couldn't believe I'd run into him again. This was the 3rd time in a week, though I never said anything to him, and he never saw me, it was just strange. It's as if fate is trying to pull us back together. Then I take a second look. No. Fate is just laughing in my face. He was just sitting down at a table with Alec. He's taken. He looked happy; then again, he always was happy, at least on the outside. That's something most don't know, he can be a very serious person. Dustin was still talking so I just watched him for a few minutes. He is such an angel with his long beautiful brown braid, violet eyes, and his energetic smile. They were holding hands across the table. Looking deep into each other's eyes. I know we are over. I know I have Dustin even though Dustin will never be like Dou. He will never be able to make me laugh. He will never be able to do to me in a lifetime what Dou could do in a single look. I know all that. And I still miss him even more. I still love him. No matter what, I always will. I have to get out of here before he sees me. I can't take being this close, yet so far away. And I need to stop comparing them. It's not fare to Dustin. I think Dustin will be out of the picture soon. He always seems to come out on the bottom when I do that. I ask Dustin if he is ready. He is and we are off. Walking out he takes my hand. It's cold. Duo's hand was never cold.