Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ Lost ❯ Friendship ( Chapter 1 )

[ Y - Young Adult: Not suitable for readers under 16 ]

 

"Say Duo what's with Heero?''

"What do you mean?" Asked Duo cautiously, looking at Quatra.

"Well he didn't do anything in class except stare at the black board and he hasn't said anything to anyone since you introduced us.'

"I really don't know Quat, I mean he only told me his name last night and that was it."

Their conversation was interrupted by a loud squeal as Relena spotted Heero entering the Cafeteria.

"HEEROOOOO" rushing forward Relena went to latch onto him.

 

Hearing his name called, and seeing Relana rushing towards him (whom he unfortunately met in English) he froze.

What do I do? I really really don't want her clinging to me and she does not seem to understand that I don't want to be touched.

 

He was saved however, as Trowa walked in front of him to divert Relena's advance.

"Relena, may I speak with you a minute?" Trowa asked as he proceeded to lead her back in the direction she came from.

 

Letting out a sigh of relief, Heero headed towards the table that he saw Duo and Quatra seated at.

"What was that all about Heero? Why was Relena after you."

"I don't know. I ignored her all though English but she will not leave me alone."

Wow. He actually spoke a full sentence.

With a sigh Duo looked up at Heero, "Sorry man, but we can't help you there. When Relena sets her mind on something, nothing can stop her."

"Hn"

Sitting down, Heero proceeded to unpack his lunch.

"So Heero, how has your first day been?" Quatra asked trying to break the uncomfortable silence that had descended at the table.

"Ok"

"Hi guys," Wufie greeted them as he sat down for lunch, "Where's Trowa?"

"Right here"

"Hey, where were you?"

"Getting rid of Relena for Heero, she was pestering him all through English"

"Oh"

What's with these people, they don't know me, so why are they going out of their way to help me? I have ignored them most of the day and yet they still try to reach out to me. I don't deserve their friendship, can't they see that?

Duo sat watching Heero as the rest filled each other in about their weekend.

Why does Heero keep people at such a distance? He's tense again and he will only speak to us if we start the conversation and half the time not even then. Why is it that he never shows any type of emotion to anyone? It's almost as if he hates being around people.

 

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Please no…don't hurt me please...

NNOOOOOO, leave me, don't hurt me please.....

 

Duo woke up confused for a second and tried to figure out what he was hearing. Again a pleading whimper came from the other side of the room.

Heero

Getting up Duo quickly went to his friends' bed.

Who could have hurt him so badly that he has nightmares this bad?

Gently placing a hand on Heero's shoulder Duo tried to break though Heero's dream

No., why, why, leave me alone

"Shush Heero, no one is hurting you, come on buddy wake up, your safe. Heero please settle down, it's ok."

Duo carried on like that for a while, softly speaking to Heero until the teen gradually settled down into a more peaceful sleep. After sitting by Heero's bed for a couple more minutes Duo went back to bed again wondering what had happened to the other teen.

 

Duo decided that he was going to eventually break through Heero's barriers. I just need to come up with a way to get him to relax around me and open up a bit. But how? He doesn't' t stay in the same room as me for too long and he barely speaks to the others at school.

 

 

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Heero sat at his desk trying to type up an essay for school, which was becoming increasingly difficult to do with Duo's constant talking.

"Hey, are ya even listening to me? Heero? Shesh, you try to talk to a guy and all he does is give ya the cold shoulder"

"Hn"

"And what's that mean? The least you could do is acknowledge another person when they're talking to you. But noooo, all you ever manage to say is "hn" and that's it."

"Sorry Duo, but I am trying to do my homework."

"Fine. I'll shut up if that's what you want." Duo sighed "I'll leave you alone Heero, but when are you going to understand that you don't have to keep everything to yourself? We are your friends ya know."

Duo then turned dejectedly back to his bed.

At least he is not as tense with me in the room, but he still won't completely relax in another's presence.

 

Heero continued to work on his lab top till midnight, not really pausing to do anything else. What Duo had said earlier before going to bed kept running through his head.

"I'll leave you alone Heero but when are you going to understand that you don't have to keep everything to your self, we are your friends ya know." Do I really want him to leave me alone? He is the only one that has ever showed any interest in me that didn't expect any sort of payment for that interest. He wasn't beaten every time Duo paid attention to him, and he wasn't forced to do anything against his will. But how could they consider themselves my friends? They don't know anything about me except that my parents are dead and that I live in the same orphanage that Duo does. What should I do? I know that Duo is reaching out to me, but I'm scared I don't know what he really wants and I...”

 

The sound of Duo getting out of bed broke through Heero's thoughts." Why are you still awake Heero? Don't you think you should have been in bed by now I mean it's pretty late."
Heero turned around startled, finding Duo staring at him. "Probably" said Heero shutting down his lab top, and getting into bed.

 

Duo watched Heero as he got into bed, and took a better look at him. Heero's eyes looked as blank as usual, but he could have sworn he saw confusion and some other deeper emotion flashing in his eyes a minute ago. "Hey" Duo called to him softly. "What's wrong”?

"Nothing"

"Don't lie to me Heero. I know something's bothering you, or you would have been in bed earlier and you wouldn't have you back to me"

"Leave me be Duo"

"Fine"

Duo let out an exasperated sigh. When is he going to let out some of his emotions?

Heero watched silently as Duo again settled in for the night. Why can't I let him past my shields? All he has ever done was try to be my friend.

 

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Heero noticed a change in Duo's attitude towards him after the other night's argument. Duo still talked constantly but his voice was softer when he spoke to him. He never made sudden movements that could be taken as a threat, but touched him every so often with a soft caress, nothing more just a light touch, letting Heero adjust to the fact that he wasn't going to get hurt every time someone touched him.

At first Heero was nervous and tensed up whenever Duo was near him, but he gradually learned to relax a bit and actually look forward to the light touches Duo gave him. He couldn't remember a time when anyone ever touched him with such care.

Why, Duo, why do you try to get past my walls? Don't you realize that if I let you in I'll only get hurt? Why can't you understand that I need to keep my distance from others? I'll make a mistake and you and the others will turn against me. I can't do anything else right. What makes you think that I could reach out and be friends when it will only turn into hatred?

Sighing in defeat Heero got up from the windowsill he has been perched on.

I can't do this any more I need to know how he really feels, I need to know that he cares and that I can trust him.

 

Later that night Heero shyly asked Duo if he would come outside and sit with him.

Duo just stared at him in shock. He's actually willing to be with me without me forcing it on him.

I knew this couldn't be real, why did I believe that he would be any different.

'You don't have to you know, it's not that big a deal" Heero said in an emotionless voice as he turned away, not wanting to see the rejection on Duo's face. He was stopped however with a light touch on his shoulder.

"Heero. I didn't say that I wouldn't join you, ok?” Dou told him, noticing the way Heero tensed up as if expecting him to lash out against him.” I was just surprised. I mean, it was the fist the first time you came to me for company."

Duo said softly, and he was really happy when Heero eyes light up with happiness, even if the walls did come back down a second later.

Turning back to the door Heero led the way out side.

They sat quietly under the same tree Heero fell asleep under during his first night at the orphanage, each wondering what they would do next.

 

“ You know Heero, I meant what I said when we met. I don't lie. I know you don't trust people, but you need to rely on someone other then yourself. You can't continue as you have been, hiding what you feel and keeping yourself isolated from the others. I really don't want to make you uncomfortable, but it upsets me to see you so closed off.”

Throughout Duo's speech Heero sat with his hands clasped tightly together on his lap, the only sign that showed his nervousness.

“I…”Heero paused, uncertain of what he should say.

Duo turned so that he was facing his friend and gently placed his hands on top of Heero's. “It's ok, Heero, I'm not going to force you into anything. I just wanted you to understand that you don't have to be alone.”

“Thank you “

Heero said, almost inaudibly before leaning back against the tree, Duo's hands still resting on top of his.