Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ Love Among the Ruins ❯ Rebellious Bird ( Chapter 6 )
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By: Sailor Celaeno 
Duo confronts Hilde. Trowa and Quatre have women trouble too? Sounds like the makings of another story!
Anime/Manga: Gundam Wing Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Angst / Drama / / Romance | Type: Songfic | Uploaded On: 11.21.2003 | Pages: 2 | Words: 2.1K | Visits: 191 | Status: Completed
Duo confronts Hilde. Trowa and Quatre have women trouble too? Sounds like the makings of another story!
Anime/Manga: Gundam Wing Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Angst / Drama / / Romance | Type: Songfic | Uploaded On: 11.21.2003 | Pages: 2 | Words: 2.1K | Visits: 191 | Status: Completed
Disclaimer: I never have and I never will own Gundam Wing. I’m not that fortunate. :P And of course, the “negative content” in this story isn’t too much different from PG-13 movies.
Pairings: 1xR? 2xH? 1xH? This will be a mystery to the end. ^_^
Surprises: There are some. That’s all there is to it. ^_^
Genres: Drama, angst, some fluff, and other delightful things.
Warnings: Since this is an operafic, my characters will be even more emotional than they would be as in the original series, so they might be OOC. Also there’s a pissed off Duo, so there’s some cursing.
AN: A shout out to my beta Daniel, and everyone else who reviewed my fics. Thanks for the love. ^_^ The brackets indicates opera libretto.
Gundam Wing: Love Among the Ruins
Act 6: Rebellious Bird
By Sailor Celaeno
Hilde noticed the time. “Another hour…” She stared at her hands and began speaking again. “You know, doctor, I sometimes wonder why life does the things it does. It brings joy and then it takes it all away.” Hilde leaned into her seat. “I wanted to make things better. I had hopes that Duo would understand and maybe we could move past the moment that I made a foolish mistake. But I was wrong. I had killed Duo.”
*****
[And in that kiss is death]
Hilde walked into the apartment she shared with Duo. It was dark in the apartment, but she knew he was there. It had been two days after the ball and Hilde grew more and more concerned with the passing hours. What would he do? She turned on the lights ,and she saw he was just sitting there in the corner. The silence frightened her. The apathy on his face made her worried. Duo was not someone to hold back his feelings. “D… Duo?”
The silence truly made him the god of Death. He just sat there watching her as though he was deciding what to do next. As she watched him, she could see he didn’t get much sleep.
“Duo! Just say something!” Hilde screamed as her whole body began shaking with emotion.
And then he stood up.
[While taken with delirium, I no longer know what it is that I say, or what it is I am doing]
“Like what?”
Hilde started crying. “Please… just…”
Duo had a patronizing gleam in his eyes. “Poor, helpless Hilde… all alone without Duo around.” He held her in his arms. Just as suddenly he grabbed her hair and pulled her up to stare at the apathetic, violet eyes. “Who the fuck do you think you are?”
[Woman is fickle, like a feather in the wind]
“I suppose…” he gripped tightly on her hair. “I’m supposed to feel sorry that you have conflicting emotions, aren’t I?”
Hilde groaned at the pain she felt. There was almost a sadistically pleased sparkle in his eyes. She groaned in the agony she was feeling. “Was this the pain in his heart?” she wondered silently.
“You don’t have to say a word. I know you love me,” he released the tortuous grip he had on Hilde. “But… you seem to love Heero.” He didn’t look at her. He stared out the window into the lonely night. “It’s a selfish thing to make a woman choose which man she loves more.” He whipped around and showed her a mocking expression on his face. “I think my poor Hilde is far too swept up with love to know what the fuck she really wants.”
[She changes the tone of her voice, and her thoughts]
Hilde couldn’t keep silent. “Just what’s that supposed to mean?”
Duo laughed sarcastically. “At last, the lady speaks again.” He continued his bitter, mocking tone. “You should see the look on your face… so serious and angry. You look like you have a reason to be mad,” he continued laughing at her.
Hilde rolled her hands into fists. “Do you think it’s easy to feel the things that I do?”
Duo shook his head. “What a typical thing for a person in your place to say. ‘I can’t help feeling what I’m feeling.’ And… ‘I love him, but I love you too.’ That about sums it up, doesn’t it?”
Hilde just watched him unsure of what to say.
“You know that just makes you sound so fickle.” Duo casually played with his braid.
“Fickle? Fickle!” Hilde raced over to look into a tight hug. “I’ve always loved you. How can you treat me this way?”
[in tears or in laughter, is always lying]
Duo growled and roughly ripped away from her embrace. “I’m not some idiot that’ll turn to putty just because you say you’re sorry.” The mocking jokester was no longer there. He was the fierce god of death, ready to crush her fickle heart. “Don’t you think you can sweet talk me!” Duo began erupted into fierce, bitter laugh as though the entire conversation was another sad joke played on him. “The thing that just gets me is Relena.”
“Relena…?” Hilde asked softly.
“Yeah, you know… the other girl in love with Heero. You should have seen the look on her face after she saw you two alone together. It was the saddest thing you could have ever seen on a girl’s face. But you know what amazed me the most?”
“What’s that?” Hilde stuttered as though afraid to hear his words.
“She forgives you. She forgives the both of you. In spite of your romantic back-stabbing, she forgives you.” Duo glared at her.
“Relena…” Hilde quivered with emotion at the revelations Duo was telling her.
“Don’t get your hopes up, Hilde. She’ll forgive you, but don’t think that she’ll really put aside hard feelings. She’s forgiving, but she’s no fool. I almost wish she and I were together. Maybe we could have comforted each other, but I’m not so sure that it would make anything go away.” He said out of spite. “I suppose I had this coming. I thought you and I were perfect because we love life and we look at life the same way. But I guess you got bored with all that. Heero is, I’ll admit, the kind of guy that attracts women because he’s so noble, and willing to do anything if it meant saving the world.”
“But that’s not…” Hilde began.
Duo had an angry look on his face. “Don’t think that I really care why you love him! I don’t need to hear anything. You think that explaining yourself changes anything? You’re fooling yourself if you expect a hurt person to feel sorry for the one who hurt them…” He stormed past her into their bedroom and soon reappeared with one of his suitcases. “If you feel lonely, I’m sure Heero would be able to keep you company!” He slammed the front door in her face as she tried to reason with him.
*****
Duo arrived at the apartment door. He knocked and as the door opened, a familiar man appeared. He wore a baggy pull-over shirt with striped boxers. “Come in, Duo.”
“Thanks Trowa,” Duo walked in. Duo had to admit, that Trowa had a nice place. “Nice bachelor pad.”
Trowa had a slight smile. “No problem, Duo. I moved some stuff out of the guest bedroom. Cathy’s the only one that uses it usually.”
“I appreciate this.”
There was another knock at the door. “You’re not the only one with women troubles.” Trowa answered the door and there was Quatre. He wore a baggy, hooded sweatshirt with the hood on his head.
Duo smiled. It was funny. If he wasn’t angry at Heero, and Wufei was there, they’d have a really nice time right now. But that wasn’t to be.
The three ex-Gundam pilots began telling their tales of romantic woes. Quatre was having a huge problem with Dorothy. He thought he was making her happy, but there she went off and set to marry someone that she didn’t really care about. It was rather ironic that he and Dorothy tried to be a couple. Even Quatre didn’t see that coming, but he always wondered what became of her, and when he did, he found himself caring more and more about what happened to her.
Trowa found a beautiful blond chick from his past. She was no longer the kind-hearted girl whose desperation made her do terrible things. She was spy, a woman living an unpredictable life, like a gypsy. There was little feeling left in her as she slowly lost her grip on humanity. It was ironic as well for him. Trowa finally reconnected with his humanity, and this spy was losing hers.
Duo told his tale of betrayal at the hand of their friend, which was rather pathetic as well. Dependable Heero stole his girl.
“I’d never think of Heero doing a thing like that. But I guess we all changed a lot since the war,” Trowa commented over the beer he had served himself and Duo. Quatre chose not to have any.
“I feel sorry for Miss Relena. She has feelings for Heero and all that business on Mars. She’s in dire trouble, and I really wish I could help her,” sighed Quatre.
“I tried to do what I could to help Princess, but there’s just so much I can do you know? I’m just a Preventer. I’m here to save the world from it’s enemies, not from itself,” Duo said as he took another swig of his drink.
[All I can see is two beautiful dark eyes…]
Duo sighed as the beer flowed down his throat. He couldn’t understand it. That one day Hilde found someone else. Would she say the same things to Heero as she did to him? The very idea made him shudder in his heart.
[Gone is my dream of love]
The dark thoughts rousing and praying on his mind just made him want beer more and more as the clock on the wall softly ticked. Just what was it about getting drunk that makes you notice all those stupid things so much? “This has got to stop!” he smacked his hand on the table and he stood up.
“Duo?” Quatre looked over at his friend. Trowa also had a concerned look on his face.
“Gents?” he raised his can up in the air.
Quatre and Trowa shared a look and did as Duo asked.
“To… a life free from women that hurt us!”
[Your toast, I can give it to you!]
“Here! Here!” They all toasted and took a gulp of their respective drinks.
*****
“So this was in Duo’s log?” asked Dr. Carlyle.
Hilde nodded. “He wrote about it because he was going to spend the rest of his life forgetting me. I don’t blame him. I wounded him and he should hate me. I wish I could have said how much I’d still love him.”
“Hilde… don’t keep hurting yourself like this. You can’t keep hating yourself like this. It’s not healthy,” Carlyle responded with concern.
“Things just went worse. I can’t sum it up any better. I drove Duo into death’s path. I killed him twice, Doc. I killed him twice.”
Carlyle was silent. “So was that why Duo was so eager for the mission that killed him?” he thought silently.
AN:
1) “La Mamma Morta” from “Andrea Chenier” by Umberto Giordano
2) “Vesti La Giubba” from “I Pagliacci” by Ruggero Leoncavallo
3) “La Donna e Mobile” from “Rigoletto” by Giuseppe Verdi
4) “O Mimi tu piu non Torni” from “La Boheme by Giacomo Puccini
5) “E Lucevan le stelle” from “Tosca” by Giacomo Puccini
6) “Votre toast, je peux vous le render” from “Carmen” by Georges Bizet
Pairings: 1xR? 2xH? 1xH? This will be a mystery to the end. ^_^
Surprises: There are some. That’s all there is to it. ^_^
Genres: Drama, angst, some fluff, and other delightful things.
Warnings: Since this is an operafic, my characters will be even more emotional than they would be as in the original series, so they might be OOC. Also there’s a pissed off Duo, so there’s some cursing.
AN: A shout out to my beta Daniel, and everyone else who reviewed my fics. Thanks for the love. ^_^ The brackets indicates opera libretto.
Gundam Wing: Love Among the Ruins
Act 6: Rebellious Bird
By Sailor Celaeno
Hilde noticed the time. “Another hour…” She stared at her hands and began speaking again. “You know, doctor, I sometimes wonder why life does the things it does. It brings joy and then it takes it all away.” Hilde leaned into her seat. “I wanted to make things better. I had hopes that Duo would understand and maybe we could move past the moment that I made a foolish mistake. But I was wrong. I had killed Duo.”
*****
[And in that kiss is death]
Hilde walked into the apartment she shared with Duo. It was dark in the apartment, but she knew he was there. It had been two days after the ball and Hilde grew more and more concerned with the passing hours. What would he do? She turned on the lights ,and she saw he was just sitting there in the corner. The silence frightened her. The apathy on his face made her worried. Duo was not someone to hold back his feelings. “D… Duo?”
The silence truly made him the god of Death. He just sat there watching her as though he was deciding what to do next. As she watched him, she could see he didn’t get much sleep.
“Duo! Just say something!” Hilde screamed as her whole body began shaking with emotion.
And then he stood up.
[While taken with delirium, I no longer know what it is that I say, or what it is I am doing]
“Like what?”
Hilde started crying. “Please… just…”
Duo had a patronizing gleam in his eyes. “Poor, helpless Hilde… all alone without Duo around.” He held her in his arms. Just as suddenly he grabbed her hair and pulled her up to stare at the apathetic, violet eyes. “Who the fuck do you think you are?”
[Woman is fickle, like a feather in the wind]
“I suppose…” he gripped tightly on her hair. “I’m supposed to feel sorry that you have conflicting emotions, aren’t I?”
Hilde groaned at the pain she felt. There was almost a sadistically pleased sparkle in his eyes. She groaned in the agony she was feeling. “Was this the pain in his heart?” she wondered silently.
“You don’t have to say a word. I know you love me,” he released the tortuous grip he had on Hilde. “But… you seem to love Heero.” He didn’t look at her. He stared out the window into the lonely night. “It’s a selfish thing to make a woman choose which man she loves more.” He whipped around and showed her a mocking expression on his face. “I think my poor Hilde is far too swept up with love to know what the fuck she really wants.”
[She changes the tone of her voice, and her thoughts]
Hilde couldn’t keep silent. “Just what’s that supposed to mean?”
Duo laughed sarcastically. “At last, the lady speaks again.” He continued his bitter, mocking tone. “You should see the look on your face… so serious and angry. You look like you have a reason to be mad,” he continued laughing at her.
Hilde rolled her hands into fists. “Do you think it’s easy to feel the things that I do?”
Duo shook his head. “What a typical thing for a person in your place to say. ‘I can’t help feeling what I’m feeling.’ And… ‘I love him, but I love you too.’ That about sums it up, doesn’t it?”
Hilde just watched him unsure of what to say.
“You know that just makes you sound so fickle.” Duo casually played with his braid.
“Fickle? Fickle!” Hilde raced over to look into a tight hug. “I’ve always loved you. How can you treat me this way?”
[in tears or in laughter, is always lying]
Duo growled and roughly ripped away from her embrace. “I’m not some idiot that’ll turn to putty just because you say you’re sorry.” The mocking jokester was no longer there. He was the fierce god of death, ready to crush her fickle heart. “Don’t you think you can sweet talk me!” Duo began erupted into fierce, bitter laugh as though the entire conversation was another sad joke played on him. “The thing that just gets me is Relena.”
“Relena…?” Hilde asked softly.
“Yeah, you know… the other girl in love with Heero. You should have seen the look on her face after she saw you two alone together. It was the saddest thing you could have ever seen on a girl’s face. But you know what amazed me the most?”
“What’s that?” Hilde stuttered as though afraid to hear his words.
“She forgives you. She forgives the both of you. In spite of your romantic back-stabbing, she forgives you.” Duo glared at her.
“Relena…” Hilde quivered with emotion at the revelations Duo was telling her.
“Don’t get your hopes up, Hilde. She’ll forgive you, but don’t think that she’ll really put aside hard feelings. She’s forgiving, but she’s no fool. I almost wish she and I were together. Maybe we could have comforted each other, but I’m not so sure that it would make anything go away.” He said out of spite. “I suppose I had this coming. I thought you and I were perfect because we love life and we look at life the same way. But I guess you got bored with all that. Heero is, I’ll admit, the kind of guy that attracts women because he’s so noble, and willing to do anything if it meant saving the world.”
“But that’s not…” Hilde began.
Duo had an angry look on his face. “Don’t think that I really care why you love him! I don’t need to hear anything. You think that explaining yourself changes anything? You’re fooling yourself if you expect a hurt person to feel sorry for the one who hurt them…” He stormed past her into their bedroom and soon reappeared with one of his suitcases. “If you feel lonely, I’m sure Heero would be able to keep you company!” He slammed the front door in her face as she tried to reason with him.
*****
Duo arrived at the apartment door. He knocked and as the door opened, a familiar man appeared. He wore a baggy pull-over shirt with striped boxers. “Come in, Duo.”
“Thanks Trowa,” Duo walked in. Duo had to admit, that Trowa had a nice place. “Nice bachelor pad.”
Trowa had a slight smile. “No problem, Duo. I moved some stuff out of the guest bedroom. Cathy’s the only one that uses it usually.”
“I appreciate this.”
There was another knock at the door. “You’re not the only one with women troubles.” Trowa answered the door and there was Quatre. He wore a baggy, hooded sweatshirt with the hood on his head.
Duo smiled. It was funny. If he wasn’t angry at Heero, and Wufei was there, they’d have a really nice time right now. But that wasn’t to be.
The three ex-Gundam pilots began telling their tales of romantic woes. Quatre was having a huge problem with Dorothy. He thought he was making her happy, but there she went off and set to marry someone that she didn’t really care about. It was rather ironic that he and Dorothy tried to be a couple. Even Quatre didn’t see that coming, but he always wondered what became of her, and when he did, he found himself caring more and more about what happened to her.
Trowa found a beautiful blond chick from his past. She was no longer the kind-hearted girl whose desperation made her do terrible things. She was spy, a woman living an unpredictable life, like a gypsy. There was little feeling left in her as she slowly lost her grip on humanity. It was ironic as well for him. Trowa finally reconnected with his humanity, and this spy was losing hers.
Duo told his tale of betrayal at the hand of their friend, which was rather pathetic as well. Dependable Heero stole his girl.
“I’d never think of Heero doing a thing like that. But I guess we all changed a lot since the war,” Trowa commented over the beer he had served himself and Duo. Quatre chose not to have any.
“I feel sorry for Miss Relena. She has feelings for Heero and all that business on Mars. She’s in dire trouble, and I really wish I could help her,” sighed Quatre.
“I tried to do what I could to help Princess, but there’s just so much I can do you know? I’m just a Preventer. I’m here to save the world from it’s enemies, not from itself,” Duo said as he took another swig of his drink.
[All I can see is two beautiful dark eyes…]
Duo sighed as the beer flowed down his throat. He couldn’t understand it. That one day Hilde found someone else. Would she say the same things to Heero as she did to him? The very idea made him shudder in his heart.
[Gone is my dream of love]
The dark thoughts rousing and praying on his mind just made him want beer more and more as the clock on the wall softly ticked. Just what was it about getting drunk that makes you notice all those stupid things so much? “This has got to stop!” he smacked his hand on the table and he stood up.
“Duo?” Quatre looked over at his friend. Trowa also had a concerned look on his face.
“Gents?” he raised his can up in the air.
Quatre and Trowa shared a look and did as Duo asked.
“To… a life free from women that hurt us!”
[Your toast, I can give it to you!]
“Here! Here!” They all toasted and took a gulp of their respective drinks.
*****
“So this was in Duo’s log?” asked Dr. Carlyle.
Hilde nodded. “He wrote about it because he was going to spend the rest of his life forgetting me. I don’t blame him. I wounded him and he should hate me. I wish I could have said how much I’d still love him.”
“Hilde… don’t keep hurting yourself like this. You can’t keep hating yourself like this. It’s not healthy,” Carlyle responded with concern.
“Things just went worse. I can’t sum it up any better. I drove Duo into death’s path. I killed him twice, Doc. I killed him twice.”
Carlyle was silent. “So was that why Duo was so eager for the mission that killed him?” he thought silently.
AN:
1) “La Mamma Morta” from “Andrea Chenier” by Umberto Giordano
2) “Vesti La Giubba” from “I Pagliacci” by Ruggero Leoncavallo
3) “La Donna e Mobile” from “Rigoletto” by Giuseppe Verdi
4) “O Mimi tu piu non Torni” from “La Boheme by Giacomo Puccini
5) “E Lucevan le stelle” from “Tosca” by Giacomo Puccini
6) “Votre toast, je peux vous le render” from “Carmen” by Georges Bizet