Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ One Step Forward, Two Steps Back ❯ On the Same Day ( Chapter 12 )

One Step Forward, Two Steps Back

Author: Kimpisces

Rating: T

Summary: "Love can die but a dance can last forever. You may not be happy but at least you'll never feel the pain of betrayal."
Heero Yuy is a boy who has never believed in love
Duo Maxwell is a boy who has never felt its touch.
What happens when these two boys meet and Heero's belief that a relationship should be based around the other is put to the test against Duo's belief that love conquers all?
Who will win? Come and watch the dance.

Warnings: Angst, AU, slight OOC, Yaoi/Shonen-Ai, Relena Bashing and Language

 

Chapter Twelve: On the Same Day

 

 

Duo stood at the door of Heero's house, his hand poised to knock on the door. He paused though, only centimetres from the hard wood and wondered if this was really a good idea. He was treating Heero almost as a yo-yo: one minute he was telling him that he didn't like him at all and now he was trying planning on telling Heero the exact opposite.

Duo closed his eyes and tried to picture Heero angry at him. He couldn't do it. Was it because Heero wouldn't get mad at him or because Duo just didn't have a very good imagination?

Re-opening his eyes, Duo looked at the door. He was going to do this. He had to do this. They liked each other and therefore deserved to have a try at this relationship. If it didn't work, then at least they could say that they tried.

With that thought in mind, Duo knocked on the door. It took a few minutes but then someone came to the door and opened it. Duo took in the almost formal clothing that he was wearing and assumed it to be the butler.

Duo was actually surprised when it came to the physique of the butler. When Duo normally imagined butlers, they were usually short, had perfect posture and talked with an accent. This butler did none of that. He was six feet tall, at least, and he hunched over, just a little bit, and didn't look to have any more of an accent than Duo did.

“Can I help you?” A harsh, growling voice asked. Yes, Duo was right. This guy did not have an accent at all.

“Um, do you know if Heero's in?” Duo kicked himself in the back mentally as he said it. Obviously this guy would know if Heero was in, after all, he is the butler.

“Master Heero is in.” The butler replied roughly. “Do you want me to go get him? He is in the pool right now.”

“Could I go and surprise him?” Duo asked hurriedly. The butler blinked and Duo blushed. “I mean, could I just go and talk to him without you announcing me or anything?”

“Of course,” the butler replied and stepped aside. “You're Duo, are you not?”

“Yes, I am.”

“Heero talks about you a lot,” the butler said with a smile. “I'm sure that he will be pleased to know that you're here looking for him.”

“Thank you.” Duo stepped into the mansion and looked around. He would never get over how big it looked. It was just so huge.

“Don't worry, you'll get over it eventually,” the butler said simply and then bowed his head to Duo. “I will get back to my work if you don't have any thing else you need.”

“No, I'm fine. Thank you very much.” Duo bowed his head back and then headed back to where he now knew that Heero was located.

Duo took a deep breath as he got to the door that led to the pool. He checked his braid to make sure that it was still in place and then stepped out and glanced around to find Heero.

Heero was standing in the rays of the light and he looked magnificent. Duo almost got weak in the knees from just seeing him and stepped forward hesitantly to approach him.

He paused, however, when he realized that Relena was standing only a few feet away from Heero.

Duo was in shock. Why on earth was she there? What was going on? Did the bitch follow Heero home?

Then Heero moved forward and captured Relena in an embrace, pressing his lips to hers in a passionate kiss that Duo thought Heero would reserve only for him. Tears sprung to Duo's eyes and he tried to blink them away.

Duo's hopes and dreams crashed around him at that point and he couldn't help but bring a hand up to his face to wipe away a spray tear. Heero had said that he cared for him and not for Relena and yet here he was, kissing her the way he had kissed Duo.

“You're not Duo,” Heero said softly as he pushed Relena away finally. Then Heero turned around and looked directly into Duo's eyes.

Duo stood there frozen, unable to move at all. Heero looked shocked to see him there but Duo didn't know if it was because he was there or just because Duo had caught him with Relena.

“Duo,” Heero whispered and then took a step forward.

Duo couldn't stand it anymore and he turned around, running back through the house and then out the front door. Duo could hear the pounding of footsteps behind him and he knew that Heero had given chase but he didn't stop. He didn't want to talk to Heero. Duo didn't want to hear Heero's excuse. He didn't want to feel Heero's arms around him. Duo did not want to have to pretend to listen to a lie.

“Duo, stop please!” Heero exclaimed as he followed him down the road. “It's not what you think!”

Duo didn't reply. He didn't have the words too. He felt the tears run hot down his cheeks and he didn't even slow down to wipe them away.

Why did this have to happen today? Why did it have to happen when he finally realized that he wanted Heero the way that Heero had said that he wanted him? Why did it have to happen when he finally realized that he wanted to walk anywhere he needed to go with his hand in Heero's? Why did it have to happen when he finally realized that he wanted to be able to lean over at any time and kiss Heero's lips?

Why?

Duo didn't see a crack in the sidewalk and he tripped as his foot got stuck in it. He tumbled down and could feel his knees tear and begin to bleed. Duo curled up in a ball and started to rock himself back and forth.

Heero slid down and wrapped his arms around him. Duo tried to pull away but he wasn't strong enough. Heero held on tight and started to rock back and forth with Duo's movements.

They sat there in silence for a while, ignoring all of the people that passed them.

Finally Duo couldn't stand the silence anymore and he whispered, hurt, “why did you have to be with Relena? Why?”

“I thought she was you when I kissed her,” Heero said softly. “I was delusional. I don't know what I was thinking. I'm so sorry.” Heero kissed the top of his head gently.

Duo pushed him away finally and turned to him. “What do you mean, you were delusional? You weren't delusional when you took her to your house. She shouldn't have been there at all if you didn't want to be with her. If you want me so bad, why were you with her?”

“I don't know.” Heero admitted as he looked down on the ground. “I guess I thought that maybe if you heard I was with her, you would come and admit to caring for me.”

“That's stupid Heero,” Duo cried out and he glared hard at Heero but was sure that it didn't have the same impact with tear stains down his cheek. “Why couldn't you just wait until I came around?”

“I don't know,” Heero repeated. “I just wasn't thinking.” Heero leaned forward to touch Duo's face but Duo pulled away.

“Don't touch me!” Duo stood up and brushed himself off, ignoring the blood on his legs. “Don't touch me again!”

“Duo?” Heero's hurt voice almost broke Duo's heart but he refused to break his resolve.

“If you really cared about me, you wouldn't have tried to trick me into getting back with you,” Duo said slowly. “You would have been content with waiting for me. You don't love me Heero, you just think you do. So why don't you just go back to Relena. I'm sure she'll forget about this soon enough.”

Duo, I don't want to go back to Relena.” Heero stood up and reached for Duo only to have him pull away once again.

“Go,” Duo demanded. “Relena will know how to be all of the things that I can't be.”

“I can teach you.”

“No, you can't.” Duo laughed. “You can change me to be someone like that. I'm not going to be a person that you can take to a premier. I won't fit into your world, so just stay with Relena.”

`I don't want someone who can fit into my world,” Heero exclaimed. “I want you!”

“No, you don't.” Duo repeated slowly and then reached up to caress the side of Heero's face. “You really don't.”

“Yes, I do.” Heero said and grabbed Duo harshly and pressed their mouths together. Duo almost cried from the sheer pleasure of the kiss but he had to be strong and he managed to push Heero away again.

“No Heero,” Duo said sadly and shook his head. “Go back to Relena.”

“Duo. . . “

“Heero, get out of here!” Duo pushed Heero backwards, hard, and Heero fell down. “I don't want you anymore.”

“Yes you do Duo,” Heero replied. “You want me just as bad as I want you.”

“I don't want anyone who can get over me that quickly. I don't want anyone who can kiss someone else in their backyard just days after we stop talking.” Duo knew that he had made a point when Heero winced. “Now, get away from me.”

Heero stood up and sighed. “You're making a big mistake Duo.”

`No, I'm not.”

Heero bowed his head, hiding his eyes behind his bangs. “Fine, but you know where to find me when you change your mind.”

“I won't change my mind.” Duo said with strength that he didn't know he still possessed. He knew that this was the right thing to do. Heero was a bad person to get involved with. He was an actress' son, he didn't know what it was like to have to work to keep something, and he just figured that eventually things would come back to him. Duo was too much work for someone like that.

“I hope you do,” Heero replied and then he turned around. Without looking back, Heero walked back to his house where Relena was waiting. Relena chided him for a minute and then laughed, wrapping her arms around Heero's neck. Heero didn't do anything to stop her and she followed him back into their house.

Duo turned and headed to his own house where he ran to his room and finally collapsed on his bed.

Why, on the same day, did he have to realize that he loved someone and yet, send them away?

 

The dance was endless and so appeared she

At least until I heard of thee

 

Staring out his window at the Winner Estate, Trowa wondered what was going on. Quatre hadn't been to class for a few days now which didn't make any sense. They had just started to realize their feelings for each other were not unrequited. Wouldn't that make Quatre want to be with him more, not less? Unless Quatre changed his mind but that didn't make sense. The kiss they shared did not seem to be from someone who was unsure about whether or not he wanted Trowa.

Trowa wondered if there was something else going on in the Winner Estate but that didn't make much sense. Then again, Quatre's father was known for his homophobic behaviour but he wasn't in town so he couldn't be doing anything to Quatre.

Biting his lip, Trowa contemplated going over to Quatre's house to check on him. That wouldn't hurt, would it? His uncle would just think that Trowa was a concerned friend and if Trowa brought over some homework, they wouldn't think anything of it. Surely it would at least give him a chance to check on Quatre's condition and to see if Quatre really was avoiding him or not.

With that in mind, Trowa gathered up a couple of the homework assignments that he was supposed to be doing and then headed towards the Winner Estate. It was pitch black and there seemed to be no lights on in the mansion. Trowa speculated whether or not there actually was anyone home.

Maybe Quatre had to fly to his father for the week or something. He was a business man's son. It could have easily been something like that. Trowa was about to turn around and leave when he heard strange noises coming from a window at the base of the house.

Trowa crept over to it and he heard the unmistakable sound of flesh smacking someone else's flesh.

“Are you ready to give up your faggot ways?” Someone yelled and another smack was heard. “Are you ready to find yourself a nice young girl?”

“I'm not going to submit to you,” Quatre's voice growled.

Trowa's heart sunk. Quatre was being abused. He had to do something about it but what?

“Well then you're going to stay there until you do.” The voice argued back and then a door slammed.

Trowa heard Quatre start to sob and he gritted his teeth. He was going to need help if he was going to rescue Quatre and he knew just who to phone.

Trowa headed back to his house to make a phone call.