Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ Perfectly Broken ❯ Chapter 6 ( Chapter 6 )

Chapter 6

 

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I couldn't even begin to describe what I felt in the morning as I woke up next to Duo. The sun was streaming through the tightly closed blinds, but still a few rays managed to filter through. Duo's body was so warm and his arms held me gently while I curled up against his shoulder. His heartbeat lullied me to sleep last night and his soft breathing helped me calm my own breath. I was still a bit shocked that he allowed me to stay, but it was his choice to make, not mine.

 

The cocoon of warmth that surrounded me was too tempting to leave and I feared that if I did, Duo would certainly wake up. My body didn't really want to get up any way and after I wrapped my arms a bit tighter around Duo, I allowed myself to just close my eyes and go back to sleep.

 

I didn't get up until some time later and a glance at the clock told me a lot of time had past since I had first woken up. For starters, Duo was no longer in bed with me, but instead was sitting in a chair watching me. My heart jump started when I figured out he was there and he was quick to apologize for scarying me.

 

"Sorry Heero. I didn't mean to give you a heart attack so early in the... uh... afternoon?" Duo looked a bit sheepish and I felt even worse when I took a good look at the clock once more. It was nearly 3:30 in the afternoon.

 

"You should have woken me up." I told him as I pushed the blankets off my body so they were exposed to the chill air of the room. Duo must've seen me shiver because he pushed them back over me and I instantly felt warm again.

 

"Nah, you looked cute while you were sleeping and besides, you need the rest. Stay in there while I get you a robe." Duo walked over to his closet and started searching for one while I sat in the warm bed. "Ah, here's one. Put this on until I find you some warm clothes."

 

"You don't have to-"

 

"I want to and you need them. The power went out this morning so the apartment's freezing. I don't want you to catch a cold as well." Now that I looked at Duo more clearly, I could see that he was wearing pair of sweats and he had gloves on his hands. Duo came over and wrapped me up in the fleece robe and put my arms through the sleeves for me. I felt as if he was treating me like a child, but maybe he was just worried about me.

 

"Your clock still has the right time though."

 

"It's battery powered, so it won't be wrong, but the heat's off and it's rather chilly outside. Winter's coming in pretty fast and it sucks that we have no electricity."

 

"How'd the power go out?" I asked as I pulled the robe closer to my body and snuggled into the sheets. Duo came and sat on the edge of the bed next to me. His close pressence somehow made me feel a bit warmer than I had been a second before.

 

"Well, Quatre and Trowa both think someone hit a pole and knocked the power lines down again. It's been known to happen this time of year the most. But other than that, I thought maybe a squirrel got into on of the transformers and fried the curcuits. It's happened before." Duo said with a slight grimance. [1]

 

I was a little disturbed by that idea and felt bad for the squirrel that had been fried. The room was definitely colder than it was last night. A shiver ran up my spine and caused my hands to shake a bit. Duo noticed and took my hands in his. The warmth of them was amazing and I found myself snuggling into Duo before I really thought about what my actions might mean.

 

I started to pull back after I felt Duo's heart beating rapidly underneath my ear. Duo stopped me however and climbed into bed with me a moment later and cuddled me to him. The heat that emenated from him felt so good that I pressed closer to him still, hoping he didn't mind. He must not have because he pulled the blankets up to our necks and pressed my head underneath his chin and stroked my hair gently.

 

"You can go back to sleep if you want. I'll keep you warm, Heero." I rubbed my nose against his neck as I made myself comfortable and tried not to squish Duo too much. "Heh, even your nose is cold."

 

"Sorry." I apologized and moved my nose away from his bare skin.

 

"Don't be. The power outage isn't your fault so just try to stay warm." He assured me, but those fingers in my hair didn't stop their caress.

"Don't you have to go to work?" I asked. I wasn't tired anymore so sleep was not going to come to me easily, so I started to question Duo to pass the time. Then as an after thought, I asked another question before he could answer the first one. "Do you mind if I ask you some questions?"

 

"Nah, I don't mind you asking me questions. I just hope I can give you some good answers, but no, I don't have to go in for work today, since the power's out. The computers are probably all down at work any way. There's no way to double check the orders if the computers aren't running."

 

"But you will go in tomorrow won't you?"

 

"Sure, if we have power again, which I hope we do. Oh, if you want you can come along too, if you want to that is."

 

I pondered it for a minute then nodded against Duo's chest. "I would like that."

 

"It's a date then." Duo replied, his hand doing its magic in my hair.

 

"A date? What's that?" I asked, wondering why Duo would note a state of time.

 

"Oh, well a date is when you take someone you care about out." That answer confused me more.

 

"Take that person out? Where? Outside?" Why would you just take a person outdoors?

 

"No, to take someone out, means you take them somewhere, like the movies, or to the park, even the other person's apartment sometimes if the person is really special." Duo elaborated his answer and it became a bit clearer to me. Although, now I wondered if Duo had taken me on a date already without me knowing it.

 

"You brought me to your apartment." I stated and Duo's eyes suddenly became wide.

 

"Well, yeah I did. But we aren't dating yet."

 

"But you just said it's a date." I tried to clarify. "So when you take me out tomorrow is it a date or isn't it?"

 

"Only if you want it to be a date it will be. Heero both people have to agree to it. If you want it to be a date then it will be one, alright?" I nodded feeling a bit better, but I still had some doubts.

 

"Duo, what do people do on dates?" I asked, slightly worried about the answer.

 

"Usually, it's up to the people. Some people go out to the movies and have dinner. Others go out to eat and then go back to the person's place who's been invited to come on the date and they both get more comfortable with each other. They can talk about themselves and what they like to do in their spare time. Normal everyday things if that's all they know."

 

"Like we are?" Duo's hand paused in my hair for a moment but then continued it's soothing pattern.

 

"Sometimes if that's all they want to do. Although usually the power isn't off when you go over the other person's apartment or house. Usually the people just talk about anything they feel comfortable saying to the other person. Sometimes they'll just go home to kiss and cuddle with one another and later on in the relationship they take the final step when they are ready for it."

 

"But what is that final step, Duo?" I had to know. I wanted to know what these dates were based on to their full extent and Duo's answer shocked me.

 

"It's when they're ready to make love." My mouth went dry and my breathing increased with that last phrase.

 

"Like-like what Trowa was doing to Quatre?" My voice was trembling and I knew it, I couldn't help it though.

 

"Yes. Trowa and Quatre make love and sometimes Quatre makes love to Trowa and vice versa." Duo admitted to me. A part of me want to tell him he was lying, but I knew Duo was very honest and wouldn't lie to me. Would he?

 

"Doesn't it hurt?" I knew the answer, but I wanted Duo to say it, so I would know it to be the truth.

 

Duo was quiet for a few minutes, not saying anything or moving away from me. He turned to look down at me and I raised my head to look at him. I stared into those beautiful violet eyes he alone posessed and waited for his reply.

 

"It can hurt if the people are in a hurry to get it done and over with, but it shouldn't hurt at all if it's done the right way. At least that's the way I know the difference between making love and having sex. When you make love with someone, you care about the person you're making love to and you don't want to hurt them so you make sure to take things slow. If you don't and rush things, that person is just using you for sex and it isn't love at all. I used to love someone a long time ago and he showed me the difference and made me see how it was supposed to be. If you love someone, you make sure they are taken care of and make them feel special."

 

Duo's explanations struck home in my heart. If I loved someone, I wouldn't let them take advantage of me. If that person truly cared, he would cuddle and kiss me and love me for what I was and not some sex toy.

 

J had used me.

 

J had fucked me.

 

J made me feel pain and agony and left me in unending misery, but Duo hadn't.

 

Duo said 'hi' to me and talked to me like a person when J only treated me like a servant.

 

Duo took care of me and had taken me to the hospital so I could begin to heal and be well again.

 

J would leave me where he left me and kick me out of his way if he needed to get by.

 

Duo took me home. Fed me his food, introduced me to his friends and gave me his things to use without a second thought.

 

J wanted me to wait on him hand and foot. Didn't care if I starved or bled to death. Kept me isolated from everyone else and hid me from the world.

 

Duo let me sleep in his bed, cuddled with me and kept me warm.

 

Duo was my first and only friend when he met me.

 

Duo actually cared about what I thought, felt, and wanted.

 

Does he want me to feel the same about him?

 

I hope so because I think I already do.

 

I curled into Duo again and placed my head back down on his chest. My breathing slowed down and my heart rate went back to normal as I tried to find my voice and when I did, my words still came out as a whisper.

 

"Do you think you could ever love me, Duo?"

 

"I think there's a good possibility of it. What about you? Could you ever date me and fall in love with me?"I could hear the smile in his words.

 

"We are already dating starting tomorrow." I reminded him softly.

 

"And after that? Do you think you could ever fall in love with me?" He asked softly.

 

"If I knew what love is I think maybe I can. Will you teach me, Duo?"

 

"I promise you, I'll try."

 

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Duo and I laid in bed a few more minutes before my stomach decided to interupt.

 

"Looks like your stomach wants to be fed. Although it has to be something cold I'm afraid." Duo climbed out of the bed and stood beside it waiting for me to join him. The biting cold air nipped at my feet and Duo decided that the robe wasn't going to be enough. He went over to his things and was already getting a pair of heavy wool socks out of the drawer before I knew it.

 

I wrapped the robe around me a little tighter as Duo put together a warm outfit for me to change into. He urged me to put on the socks before going down the hallway to the bathroom. I really had to pee and Duo probably knew that too. The hallway was dim since the doors were shut except for the one that opened to the bathroom. Duo handed me a flashlight and left me alone to do my business. My bladder felt better now that it was emptied, but there was no way I could flush it. It seemed rather rude and I didn't want something so simple as flushing a toilet be the cause of why Quatre would be irritated with me later. I put the seat down and went back to Duo's room and told him about it.

 

"Don't sweat it. There's nothing you can do about it. I'll warn Quatre about it if that'll make you feel better." I thanked him and sat on the bed as Duo went to tell Quatre. He returned a minute later and smiled.

 

"You can change in here, before you eat. I'll just be in the kitchen if you need me." Duo closed the door behind him as I nodded my thanks. As quickly as I could, I took off the robe and the tee shirt and short and pulled on the sweat pants, and sweater Duo had set for me.

 

The sweater was thick and heavy and was a beautiful pine green color. The sweats were black and felt warm against my legs. I couldn't help but feel bad for not having any underwear on while I was in Duo's clothes. That was going to definitely be on the list of things I needed to get from the house.

 

I walked out to the kitchen and saw that Duo had a bowl of cereal and a glass of orange juice on the table for me. I sat down next to him and glanced at it. Puffed rice. I took a few spoonfuls and found the taste to be pleasing. it was sweet but not unbearably so, just pleasant.

 

Duo glanced at me from time to time but mostly read the paper he had in front of him. I finished the cereal and drank some orange juice, as Duo put his paper down and smiled at me.

 

"Do you want anymore?" The question startled me.

 

"What?" I couldn't help but ask him.

 

"I said, do you want anymore? You have to eat Heero. Do you feel like a second helping or do you want to want and see if a restaurant still can cook after we go to your house?"

 

"Um... I think I'll wait." I couldn't help but stamer out as Duo neatly folded his paper and then grabbed my bowl and put it in the sink. I drank the last of my orange juice and put the now empty glass in the sink as well and turned to Duo.

 

"So you feel like heading out now?" I nodded. "Okay then. Grab that coat over there and make sure you have your keys." I did as he asked and showed him my keys. "Alright then let's go."

 

And we did.

 

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TBC...

 

[1] While I was in sculpture class, the power did go out due to a squirrel electrocuting itself in the power transformers. The dust collecting system blew a fuse and me and Annie-chan had to do our work outside in the snow because it smelled so bad in the studio. True story and one I really will never liked to repeat. Especially not in the winter which when the kamikaze squirrel decided to strike! My life is never dull it seems. Even more so when I was living in the dorms. {~*sigh*~}

 

Another chapter is in the works and will be out soon. Now if only I had more ideas for my other fics. I'm open to suggestions, since it seems I'm just focused on this one and TSYA so far. I apologize to anyone who is reading the other fics that I have been neglecting. It's not intential, I swear. I just have been stuck on this fic and TSYA right now. Hopefully my mind will want to work on the others soon as well.

 

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