Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ Perfectly Broken ❯ Chapter 5 ( Chapter 5 )

Chapter 5

 

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"Come on Heero, my apartment won't bite you I promise. Now come on and get out of the car." Duo called to me while I sat and looked up at the building before me. It was an older building with slightly peeling paint and a sort of old style feel to it, kind of like what my house looked like. I couldn't believe that Duo wanted to take me in. Well, actually he just wanted to make sure I was eating properly so I wouldn't make myself sick again. I still felt that I needed to repay him for his kindness, but I didn't know how.

 

I finally let Duo drag me out of the car and into his apartment complex. His apartment, he told me, was on the second floor and we wouldn't have that many steps to go up. The hospital released me to Duo's care only because he found me and I guessed they thought he was my friend or brother or something. I have never had a friend and Duo is pretty much the only friend I have right now so I guess I'll just have to have him show me what a friend does. He told me that he considered me his friend so I might as well think of him the same.

 

Duo told me before we arrived, that his apartment was probably smaller than what I was used to, but I just shrugged and let him talk while he drove us here. I was still a little shocked as we walked up the steps. Duo lead me by my wrist and pulled me along when I stopped every couple of feet to take in my surroundings. The dim lighting wasn't really helping my opinion of the place either. It didn't look very...appealing on the outside, but it didn't look unwelcoming either. The hall reminded me of the way J always kept the house when he was still alive. That thought ran through my head as we walked passed a few doors and then stopped at the last one at the end of the hallway.

 

Duo took out his keys and deftly picked out one and unlocked the door. I watched it swing open and reveal a bright room with the sun streaming through the windows. "Brighter than out there right? If it's blinding I'll pull the blinds, but I think a little sunlight will do you some good."

 

"Duo is that you?" A voice called out. I couldn't help myself and ducked behind Duo as I heard approaching footsteps.

 

"Yeah it's me. Who else would it be? I brought a guest with me too, Kat!" Duo yelled back to the voice.

 

"Really." A short blond boy stepped out of the room he was just in and tilted his head as he tried to look at me. I tried to hide behind Duo, but he moved out of the way and ducked behind me and held my shoulders as he presented me to the boy.

 

"This is Heero Yuy and he's going to be staying here a little while until he gets better. Heero this is Quatre, Kat for short and he lives here too. He's a real great guy and I hope you can become friends with him."

 

"It's a pleasure to meet you Heero." Quatre stepped forward and held out his hand to me. I stared at it waiting for him to do something with it. The blond just smiled at me hopefully and I still didn't know what he wanted from me.

 

"Heero, Kat just wants to shake your hand." Duo whispered in my ear.

 

"Oh , s-sorry." I quickly put out my own hand and felt Quatre's warm fingers wrap around mine. His shake was strong and firm, but I couldn't help noticing how soft his hands were. Delicately smooth and free of calluses, which was a surprise to me. I couldn't help but be ashamed at the condition of my own hands as I drew mine away from his.

 

"It's alright. I'm sure we can become good friends in the near future." He smiled at me then turned his attention to Duo. "Trowa's coming over in a little while, just to warn you."

 

"Oh is he? He didn't have enough quality time with you while I was with Heero at the hospital?" Duo arched one of his eyebrows at Quatre which caused the blond to shrug his shoulders.

 

"I don't mind the extra attention and besides. It's not like you have to watch us Duo. You have your own room."

 

"That I do and Heero will be sleeping in it tonight, far away from you lust crazed harpies. Aren't you ever tired?"

 

"Only after a good work out." Quatre smirked and headed back into the room he came from.

 

"Oh boy, I didn't really need to know that Kat. It was a retorical question." Duo sighed and slapped a hand over his eyes then slid it down his face.

 

"You asked it, so there." Quatre popped his head out a stuck out his tongue at Duo then went back in. Duo just rolled his eyes and turned to me.

 

"So, do you want the tour?" He asked and I simply nodded. Duo took me through the apartment and showed me everything he thought I needed to see, then took me into his room and took out some clothes for me to change in. He left to go start supper and I quickly discarded the clothes I was wearing and pulled on the new ones. They fit well considering Duo was taller than me, but I didn't mind. It was nice to have Duo's scent surround me. I couldn't help but bring the shirt up to my nose and breath in deeply. I felt content, somewhat at peace and for one moment, I felt like someone truly cared about me, but then I realized I couldn't really repay Duo unless it was in cash or in the way J usually liked to take me.

 

I pushed those thoughts to the back of my mind and went out to see what Duo was doing. As I entered the kitchen I saw that there were now two people at the table and one more that I didn't recognize. He was a thin, brown haired boy whose hair covered half his face, but the one eye that peeked out was a striking green and stared at me until I thought my heart might stop with that heavy gaze.

 

"Heero, this is Trowa, Quatre's boyfriend and sometimes house guest." Duo introduced me as I stepped closer to him.

 

"Most of the time, he's a full time house guest." Quatre told me and leaned on Trowa's shoulder with a content look on his face. I looked at the two of them together and determined that Quatre was pretty much Trowa's partner or slave. Trowa just looked powerful and more dominant than Quatre did. I couldn't really picture Quatre taking Trowa. The image just wouldn't work out right.

 

I extended my hand to him and he took it briefly before releasing it. I went to stand next to Duo, but he encouraged me to sit down in a chair. I didn't really want to sit, but a part of me knew Duo wouldn't let anything happen to me. A silence fell on us and Duo just smirked at everyone before bouncing in his chair. "So who wants dinner?"

 

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Duo made a pizza, at least that's what he called it. Pizza was made of dough and some kind of sauce that consisted of tomatoes and spices that were blended together and had cheese on top of it. I was surprised by it's taste, which was quite enjoyable, except the amount of cheese on it almost made me choke. My stomach rumbled loudly while I ate and I couldn't help but be embarassed. Quatre excused me and told me that it probably felt good to eat again. Duo must have told him about my self inflicted starvation diet, but I couldn't really be upset with Duo. He was... my friend after all.

 

I helped Trowa do the dishes, he washed and I dried them with a dish towel. Duo showed me where they went and told me that it was better to learn things like that right away while I stayed here. The counters and table top were wiped down and then the four of us went to the living room. There was a movie on Duo and Quatre wanted to see, so they sat themselves on the couch and turned it on waiting for the commercials to end.

 

Trowa sat down next to Quatre and I saw him whisper something in his ear before Quatre shivered in response. The entire scene made me feel like even more of an outsider and I debated on whether I should ask Duo if I should just leave so he could get back to his normal life. My pressence was just going to burden them and as the movie started I tried to quietly exit the room.

 

I got as far as the hallway when Duo called out to me.

 

"Heero come sit by me. There's plently of room on the couch. Com'ere." My legs must have gotten a mind of their own because I was walking towards him in a matter of seconds. "Come on, sit down. We won't bite." I sat myself next to Duo, our thighs touching. A part of me wondered if I should move away from him, but if I did that I'd be touching Trowa, which wouldn't be good either. Duo must have seen my dilemma and wrapped an arm around my shoulders and pulled me closer to him still, so that I was resting my head on his shoulder.

 

The heat and scent of his skin made my stomach jump with excitement, but I still couldn't stop the feelings of embarassment at not knowing what to do next. We watched the movie and during the middle of it Trowa said something to Quatre again and they got up and went to Quatre's room. I wondered about that briefly before turning back to the movie and relaxing against Duo's shoulder.

 

A few minutes later I heard a rhythmic pounding start up and I couldn't figure out what was making the sound until the voices started up. A low moan came from the room where Trowa and Quatre had went. My heart clenched as I tried to figure out what Quatre had done wrong to make Trowa treat him like that. The noises were getting louder by the minute and Duo responded by turning up the volume until the awful sounds were drowned out.

 

Some part of me wondered why Duo wasn't stopping it from happening. Unless he wanted to do the same thing to me after the movie was finished. I went limp at the thought of it. I hadn't been in that kind of pain in a while, but if that's what Duo wanted to do to me, who was I to stop it. Maybe it would be better with Duo. He wasn't like J and he was much more attractive than J was. Perhaps he wouldn't hurt me as much, maybe it might even... feel good.

 

I hoped that was the case as the ending credits rolled and an advertisement for the new Dodge truck came on. Duo unwrapped his arm from around my shoulders and stretched his body. A few pops sounded when he stretched his arms over his head and then he got up while switching the TV off.

 

I sat there waiting for him to decide what we were going to do next. He groaned as he popped his spine and then smirked at me. I allowed a tiny smile to spread on my lips as Duo held out a hand to me. I took it and he gently pulled me off the couch and we headed down the hall. We stopped at the bathroom where Duo grabbed a towel and handed it to me.

 

"You probably want to shower, so use that towel to dry off when you get out and you can use my soap and shampoo. They're already in there on the shelf so take you're time. I'll be waiting for you when you get out." Duo shut the door behind him and I stood there a minute to get my bearings before begining to undress. I couldn't make myself understand what Duo meant by his words so I just hopped into the shower and turned on the water.

 

The water was warm and felt good on my skin. I stood there with my face up to the shower head and let the water pour over me, doucing me clean of everything. Duo's shampoo was an herbal medley of lavender and rose musk. It smelled nice and I made sure to suds it up well before washing it out of my hair. The soap also smelled like lavender and I used a washcloth to make the lather thick before soaping my limbs and chest.

 

I washed every crevice my body possessed, even the cleft that lead to my entrance. I washed there as well, knowing that Duo wanted that to be clean as well. My genitals were throughly cleaned and I felt no arousal when I soaped my penis and testicles. Dr. J forbade my from masturbating so I had never thought to try it even now. When he took me back then, my cock always remained limp and J made certain it stayed that way. I found myself wondering if Duo would want me to be like that as well.

 

After making sure all the soap was rinsed from my skin, I turned off the taps and stepped out onto the bath mat laid out on the floor and quickly dried myself off. My hair was still dripping water on the floor and I tried to towel it dry the best I could before wrapping the towel around my waist and picking up my discarded clothes.

 

The hallway was dark as I exited the bathroom and walked to Duo's room whose door was open and light poured into the hallway from it. I peeked in and saw Duo opening up some dresser drawers and going through the contents before shutting it and going into the next one until he pulled out a white tee shirt and a pair of black shorts.

 

He turned towards the door and spotted me standing there. "Hey, you're done pretty fast. Feel better?" He asked me.

 

"Yes, thank you for letting me use your things." I told him softly.

 

"No problem that's what friends are for. Did you see the tooth brush I left out for you?" I shook my head. I hadn't seen one. "Huh. That's weird, unless Trowa took it by mistake. Maybe that's where it went, although he usually uses Quatre's. Well in any case you can use mine if you want until I find another one for you to use."

 

Duo took my clothes from me and put them in the hamper, then grabbed my hand and tugged me to the bathroom. "Mine's the black and green one, here." I took it from him after he put some toothpaste on it for me, I brushed my teeth after Duo left me. Somehow I didn't mind sharing a toothbrush with Duo, it was like he was showing me that he wanted to share. Hell, he was going to share his bed with me tonight if not... something else as well.

 

I spit out the excess toothpaste in the sink and rinsed my mouth out with some water. Duo came back in and rinsed off the brush and brushed his own teeth as I wiped my mouth off. He doesn't take long and rinses as well, then turns to me and hands me the tee shirt and shorts I saw him pull out of the drawer a few moments ago. I'm a bit stunned.

 

"Here, you can wear these to sleep in." He places them in my arms and tells me to change. "Come to bed when you're ready." He tells me then leaves me alone. I can't help the shock I feel from Duo's generosity, so I let the towel fall and quickly pull on the clothes.

 

Duo pulls back the covers and slides in underneath them. I stand against the doorframe watching him get comfortable then his eyes find me. He smiles at me before patting the space next to him. "Get in Heero." I obey him and do so. My heart is beating rapidly in my chest and I'm waiting for Duo to tell me what to do. I lay as still as possible and wait for any kind of sign that Duo wants me to get out and strip for him.

 

He must have sensed something's wrong because before I know what's happening, Duo is pulling me close to him and wrapping his arms around me. "Heero what's wrong?" His warm breath tickles my ear and I shiver. "Heero tell me what's bothering you, please?" I can't lie to him and I can't just stay quiet, so I finally turn to face him.

 

"How can I repay you?" I whisper to him.

 

"What?" Duo's eyes grow wide and concern for me is etched in his face. He moves away from me as if I had stung him.

 

"How can I pay you back for your kindness? Do you want money, or some kind of reward? Or do you want me?"

 

A look of horror is drawn in Duo's eyes as I ask him what he wants. I can't help but be blunt. I'm hoping he doesn't want the last one, although I'm prepared to give it. Duo visibly swallows before opening his month again as he sits up and looks down at me. "What do you mean by 'or do you want me,' Heero?"

 

"I mean do you want me for sexual gratification. I heard Quatre giving it to Trowa before when we were watching the movie. That's why they left isn't it? Trowa wanted to fuck Quatre into some kind of submission-"

 

"Heero stop. Just please, stop." Duo took a few deep breaths before speaking again. "Heero, Trowa is not using Quatre for... sexual gratifiction as you put it. Although I'm sure they were having sex, it isn't just sex to them, it's making love. They love each other and respect each other. They aren't using each other if that's what you're thinking. But it is isn't it?"

 

I lower my head and nod. The covers have become of interest and I wait for Duo to speak again. Maybe he'll change his mind about having me as a friend.

 

"Heero, did someone... use you like that?" I can't lie to him and nod once more. I hear Duo gasp and I just can't bear to look at him. He continues after a moment. "Did you- did you think I wanted that from you?" He asks me quietly.

 

"I expected you might want it." I reply just as quietly. "I'll leave if you want me too." I offer, finally bringing my eyes up to look at Duo. He looks sad, anguished even, and I can't blame him. Slowly, I begin to get out of bed only to find that I can't move away.

 

"Stay, Heero. You don't have to leave and I'm not the type that would do that, just so you know." His arms are wrapped around my waist and his warmth is so inviting. Should I dare to hope that I'm still wanted here?

 

"Do you want me to stay?" I ask fearfully.

 

"Yes. Of course I do, you're my friend. So will you stay and go to sleep?" I nod and turn in his arms and wrap my own around him. He kisses my forehead and settles himself once more before covering us both up with a blanket. "You need to get better Heero. I'll take you home tomorrow so we can get some of your things so you can stay here and get well again."

 

"You still want to make me better?"

 

"I'm your friend aren't I?"

 

"Yes, you are. And you're mine." I smile as I rest my head on his shoulder and listen to his beating heart.

 

"Then goodnight and we'll talk more in the morning." I nod and let my eyes close, the rhythmic beating of Duo's heart lulling me to sleep.

 

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TBC...

 

 

Thank you to all my reviewers, you always cheer me up and I always welcome your feedback. I'm beging the next chapter of TSYA now that I'm off for the summer. My other fics will be updated soon as well, I just have to get the inspiration to write them. @_@'