Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ Perfectly Broken ❯ Chapter 8 ( Chapter 8 )

Chapter 8

 

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A few weeks past and for the first time in my life, I was actually happy and content with my life. During the day, I helped do every day chores with Quatre and Duo. Whether it was doing everyone's laundry or washing the dishes, I had helped them out to the best of my abilities. I even found that I liked staying with them better than being alone all the time. Most nights were the same, Duo would get home first and then Quatre would come in an hour later. Sometimes I would cook dinner for them since I had nothing better to do, but most of the time I helped Duo or Quatre make something.

 

Duo and Quatre both had jobs, Duo's I already knew about, but Quatre's was a bit more complicated. He was the head of a major corporation and was often out the door before Duo and I woke up. It was a bit odd the first time I noticed it and Duo was quick to reassure me Quatre's absence was due to his job. Later, I found out that Quatre's job was family related. Quatre had the final say in everything in the company since he was the only male in his family out of the twenty-nine sisters he had.

 

That revelation stunned me a little, but Duo just laughed and joked about how it was a good thing Quatre had money. When I asked him why, he said they owned a ton of houses and mansions and thankfully everyone had their own place, otherwise they would have the largest record of bathrooms in one house. With twenty-nine sister, I could see why Quatre would like males more. He was around too many females when he was younger, so it would make some sense why he was attracted to men more. It was an odd way to look at it, but when I told Duo this, he just agreed with me and startled me more when Quatre had said the same thing.

 

Duo let me join him when he went to work and I even helped him make deliveries. His boss and friend, Howard, offered me to work with Duo if I wanted to. I was a little hesitant to accept, but when Duo pouted at me and asked me to himself, I just couldn't say no. Duo and I were a team when we went out and dropped off the packages to their respective locations and soon many people came to recognize me as Duo's silent helper. I didn't mind working with Duo, not at all, but I feared that the people were insinuating something more than what we were.

 

I was partially disturbed the one day when we had to deliver pet supplies to this one lady and she made a comment about how it was nice of him to take a quiet, pretty girl like me out. When Duo explained to her I just didn't like to talk that much and I was his partner, she told him to take his time and I would open up eventually. Duo laughed and said he would not even bothering to mention I was a guy and walked back over to me where I was waiting in the truck. We drove off and Duo laughed as he drove us back to the docking bay to pick up more supplies.

 

"What so funny about what she said?" I demanded finally, having overheard their conversation. Duo stopped laughing and only giggled from time to time as he told me.

 

"She thought that you were a pretty girl, Heero and a shy one at that!" I scowled at him and then turned away to look out the window.

 

"Why'd she think I was a girl?" I asked quietly.

 

"Probably because the only other person whose been in the car with me has been Hilde. She's a real spitfire when she wants to be. I haven't seen her in ages though. Maybe I'll give her a call tonight. I think you would like her if you met her, Heero. She's really sweet when she wants to be. Unfortunately, most of the time she's swearing like a truck driver and working at the scrapyard." Duo laughed a bit and I laughed too, even though it felt like there was an ice pit forming in my stomach.

 

I didn't know who this Hilde person was, but Duo seemed to like her. Maybe they were like Quatre and Trowa. If Duo wanted her back in his life maybe I should leave. Every night I would sleep snuggled into Duo and every day we would do things together, but he never tried to kiss me or do anything like Quatre and Trowa did. I almost envied them at times, because I wanted to do those things with Duo. I just didn't know how to start doing them.

 

When we got back to the apartment Quatre was there, which was a surprise in itself, since he had been busy all week, but he was making us dinner and I gave him a hand as Duo excused himself. Duo took the phone with him and went into his bedroom and shut the door, I watched him go as I stirred the sauce for the pasta Quatre was making. I couldn't help but feel a little depressed that Duo didn't want us to hear his conversation, but there was nothing I could do about it.

 

"Heero, can you pass me the salt?" Quatre asked and held out his hand.

 

"Sure." I grabbed the salt shaker and watched as he add a few sprinkles to the pasta as he stirred it up and let it boil. I stirred the sauce and watched the bubbles come to the surface to break before reducing the heat and covering it to keep it warm. Quatre diced up some celery and I chopped some lettuce for the salad. We shared a quiet companionship for a few minutes until I couldn't take it any more.

 

"Quatre, who's Hilde?" I blurted it out and I must have shocked Quatre for a moment, for he just blinked at me for a second before shaking himself and smiling at me.

 

"Um, Hilde's a friend of Duo's back when we were in high school. She used walk through the halls like a hippie with all her styles and short indigo hair. She would make her own clothes and have fashion shows during school spirit week. Duo used to hang out with her a lot when I wasn't around. Why do you ask?"

 

"Duo brought her up when this lady mistook me for a girl and told me Hilde was the only one who ever rode in the car besides him. He didn't really tell me who she was." I told him.

 

"Well... Duo gets off track sometimes and doesn't go into details about things he rambles on about. Don't worry too much about it. He probably just thought of her since the lady said something. Oh!" Quatre quickly got up and turned off the stove. The paste was boiling over onto the stove. "Shit!" He took the pot off the burner with a pair of oven mittens and put the pot on a hot pad to cool. "Heero, can you go get Duo and tell him it's time to eat, please?"

 

"Of course." I got up and went to knock on Duo's door. I didn't get an answer, so I opened the door and peered in. Duo lay flat on his back laughing and talking on the phone. Unable to help myself, I slowed my breathing and listened to him talk.

 

"Yeah, I know I should, but I just can't help it.... I know. Hahaha, very funny. So do you want to go out for dinner this week?"

 

Go out to dinner? With her? I blinked a few times and looked at how relaxed Duo was. He was smiling a lot too. My heart began to ache and I couldn't understand why. I knew I shouldn't be listening to his conversation, but I couldn't help myself.

 

"Your call, where do you want to meet? At the park? Awesome. Okay, well I better go. Quatre is probably busting his cute little blond head of his over dinner. He's such a sweet heart... Yeah, I know he does. His face gets this cute little pout on it when he thinks about him... I'm serious... No, I won't do that to him. Not even for you... Okay maybe for you. I gotta go. Talk to you later. Bye."

 

I snuck back out the door and knocked on it, pretending to just be coming in. "Duo supper's ready."

 

"Okay, Kat didn't make a mess did he?" I shook my head. He sniffed the air a little. "Smells delicious." He remarked and rolled off the bed. We headed back down the hallway just in time to see Quatre start dishing out the pasta.

 

"Enjoy your phone call?" Quatre asked as he passed Duo a plate filled with spaghetti.

 

"Yeah. Hilde's still a doll and a hippie through and through." He laughed as he twirled some pasta on his fork. "I'm going to go out to dinner with her tomorrow night, so don't wait up for me. I'll make sure to drop you off here before I go out, Heero."

 

"Okay." I replied as I dug into my own pasta and began to nibble on it. I didn't really feel like eating, but Duo would ask me if something was wrong if I didn't eat anything. I made myself clean my plates and act like nothing was bothering me, but inside, I was falling apart.

 

Duo did the dishes himself since Quatre cooked. I watched the news with Quatre while Duo put the dishes away and then came to join us on the couch, and sat right next to me. We watch the world news and half way through it Quatre got up and went to his room. When he comes out he's dressed in a light blue button down shirt and black slacks that look good on him.

 

"Whoa Kat. Do you have a hot date?" Duo whistles and Quatre just rolls his eyes.

 

"I have to go to that gallery opening tonight. Trowa will be here any minute." As soon as he finishes the sentence there's a knock on the door. "And there he is, told you." Duo sticks his tongue out at him as Quatre rushes to get the door. Trowa stands in the doorway as it opens, dressed in an emerald green silk shirt and black dress pants. He hold out a box to Quatre who accepts it with a blush on his cheeks.

 

"I thought a sterling rose would look nice on you. It brings out your eyes." Trowa says in that deep smooth voice of his. He opens the box and put the lapel on Quatre's shirt then leans in for a quick kiss.

 

"How thoughtful of you. It's beautiful and you look absolutely stunning." Quatre's eyes trail down his lover's form and he smiles, pleased with Trowa's appearance. They're so in love with one another and this is one of the times I'm jealous of what they share.

 

"Ready to go?" Trowa asks and holds out his arm to Quatre who accepts it and puts his own arm through Trowa's.

 

"Fine guys don't say hello or anything!" Duo shouts. Trowa just smiles at us and nods as if that is his greeting.

 

"Hello Duo and hello to you as well Heero. We won't be back for a while so don't wait up. I might not bring him back here tonight." Trowa smirks and Quatre lays his head on his tall lover's shoulder.

 

"Fine fine. You better take care of him Tro. I'm warning you!" Duo threats, but it is only jokingly since he and I both know Trowa would never hurt Quatre. If anything, Trowa would be the one to hurt anyone who came too close to Quatre if they intended to harm him in any way.

 

"Goodnight guys!" Quatre yells as they head out and shut the door behind them.

 

Duo slides back down in his seat and relaxes once more and focuses on the screen. Now that I'm alone with him, I don't know what to say or do. I stare at the TV as well, but I don't really see anything. After a few moments I excuse myself and tell Duo I'm going to take a shower. He tells me to enjoy it and I quickly gather some clothes to wear to bed and then go run the water so it gets hot.

 

I strip my clothes off and pile them on the floor then take a good look at myself in the mirror over the sink. I look healthier than I ever have since I started living here. With Duo and Quatre's help and friendship, I started to eat better and not wear myself out so soon, but the whole thing with Hilde, and Duo knowing and liking this... girl, has me worried.

 

What if Duo doesn't want me in his bed anymore after he sees her tomorrow? What will happen if he finally realizes that I'm just a waste of space? A nobody. A nothing. Will he make me leave and go back to the way things were?

 

I really don't want to go back to that. I don't think I could if I tried.

 

Duo is the only friend I ever made. My first friend. If I lose him, I'll lose Quatre and Trowa and even though I don't know them as well as I do Duo, they're still my friends too.

 

I lean heavily on the sink before turning away and getting into the shower. The warm water is heaven against my flesh and I just spend a few moments reveling in the heat of the water sprinkling down on me. When I get out, I feel better, cleaner and warmer than I was when I was sitting on the couch. My skin is tinged pink from the hot water but I'll only feel cold again once I step out of this room. My clothes are folded on the toilet lid and I'm still only wrapped in a towel. Just standing there a few minutes I allow myself to breathe, calm my raging mind and relax my body before Duo notices I'm so tense.

 

I drop the towel and pull on a pair of boxers and a tee shirt. The towel I hang up over the shower door and turn on the fan to disperse the steam that has fogged up the bathroom. As soon as I opened the door, I felt the cooler air of the hall caress my face.

 

"Heero?" Duo called my name and after depositing my dirty clothes in the hamper, I went out to see what he wanted. Duo smiled up at me where he was leaning against the arm of the couch. "Come join me."

 

"I'm- I'm actually tired Duo. I think I'll go to bed early." I said. I wasn't really tired, but I didn't want to bother Duo with my negative thoughts either.

 

"Oh come on. It's a good movie, Trowa picked it up yesterday and I have to take it back to the store in a few days, so why not come and watch it with me now. I promise, if you fall asleep I'll wake you up and put you to bed, okay?" Duo asked, eyes pleading with mine until I gave in. I swear Quatre taught him how to do those puppy eyes perfectly. I just couldn't say no to him when he used them on me. "You'll enjoy it, come here."

 

Walking over to the couch, I felt a bit odd because Duo was stretched out across most of the couch. There was a bit of room at the very end of it, but I didn't want Duo to think I was putting space between us. Of course, I didn't really have a choice either, so I sat on the bit of couch that wasn't occupied by Duo's body and watch the previews. Duo noticed my location and obviously felt bad about it.

 

"Sorry Heero, I'm taking up a lot of room." He pouted then smiled just as fast. "I have an idea. Come and sit in between my legs."

 

"What?" I snapped my head towards him so fast it made a cracking sound.

 

"Come sit between my legs, you'll be more comfortable."

 

"Duo, I don't think I'll be more comfortable." That suggestion made me nervous more than anything. Duo sat up a little bit more, propped up by pillows behind his head and then leaned over and hooked his hands underneath my armpits and dragged me up the couch in between his thighs.

 

"Just lean back and rest your head on my chest." I tried and laid until my head was touching him. "Relax Heero. You're so tense." Duo wrapped his arms around me so I had no choice but to rest my entire torso on him. He didn't seem to mind one bit. After all, it was his idea in the first place. "Comfy?" I nodded, surprised that I was comfortable in this position.

 

"What about you? I'm going to squish you." I told him and I felt his chest vibrate under me as he laughed.

 

"No you won't. Just relax and enjoy the movie. If you feel like your going to fall asleep, just sleep. I'll wake you up when the movie's over." Duo told me and ran his fingers through my hair. The caress was so gentle, and soft that my eyes felt heavy already.

 

I did get to watch some of the movie, but fell asleep only a quarter way through it I later found out. When I woke up, I was in bed with Duo and I had my head pillowed on his chest. I didn't even feel him move me.

 

Sunlight was peeking through the window, just the barest breaking of the dawn. Duo still slept soundly and the rhythmic beating of his heart and breath was tempting me to go back to sleep. But something felt different. I looked down at Duo's chest and realized what it was. Duo didn't have a shirt on. My cheek was resting on him without the barrier of clothes.

 

For a few moments I didn't move, then slowly I got up and leaned on one elbow since I didn't want to wake him. I stared down at Duo's serene face and then trailed my eyes lower to the lovely sight of Duo's chest. The soft fair skin, tanned but only to give it some color without taking away his natural beauty. He was well muscled, lean and wiry and two pink nipples rose up from his chest. Tentatively, I stretched out my hand and brushed one of the small pink nubs. Duo moaned and I snatched my hand back, shocked at my boldness.

 

Duo didn't wake up, but moved a bit, snuggling into the pillows more. To see him like this, so relaxed and warm, made my heart flutter in my chest and made me want to just see how his skin tasted. Maybe he wouldn't feel it if I kissed his chest.

 

I wanted to be with Duo and I was surprised that I wanted him, desired him even with all I had been through. I was about to bend down and kiss him when Quatre banged on the door.

 

"Guys you better get up, I made breakfast!" He knocked on the door again and Duo sat straight up and smacked his forehead right into mine.

 

"OW!" We both yelled out at the same time.

 

"Geez, what the hell did I hit? Heero?" He rubbed his forehead a bit and looked down at me. The sudden shock of Duo waking up caused me to fall back down on the bed.

 

"Sorry Duo." I rubbed my own head where it was throbbing. Served me right for trying to kiss him.

 

"Are you okay?" He asked concerned and leaned over me.

 

"Yeah, I'm fine. How about you?"

 

"Peachy. You have one hard head. Talk about a wake up call with a splitting headache." He sat up and stretched a bit then, his bones cracking. "We better go and see what Kat cooked us." He ruffled my messy hair then got out of bed and went out the door, leaving me still sitting in bed.

 

Quatre called again and I got out and headed for the kitchen trying to salvage the morning.

 

We left like usual and did our job. Duo and I talked and laughed throughout the day, but it seemed to go by faster than I wanted it to. And before I knew it, Duo and I came back home and he got ready to pick up Hilde.

 

"I don't know how late we're going to be out, so don't wait up for me." He called just before he went out the door. The slam of the door seemed to echo in my head and it took all I had not to run out the door and beg him to stay. I couldn't do that any way without revealing everything, so I stayed quiet and made dinner for just Quatre and me.

 

Quatre got home around six and was exhausted. He told me about his day and I listened to him as he described how the company had to take care of this division chair that was as stubborn as a mule. They were planning to fire him since he had zero tolerance for people who were different than him and Quatre knew for a fact the man hated him. Quatre settled down after that and asked how the deliveries went, I told him about it, even though nothing of interest happened.

 

Sometimes I wished I could see what Quatre did all day, when I told him, he said I could come with him one day just to see what it was like. I thanked him and we went back to eating.

 

We finished our dinner in peace and then Trowa came over a little while later. We played some card games and then they excused themselves as they went to bed. I sat and watched TV for a while by myself, I couldn't help but feel lonely and noticed how quiet it was without Duo in the house.

 

I took my shower and went to bed early, but found I couldn't sleep. The noises coming from Quatre's room didn't keep me up since if I didn't know what they were doing I probably wouldn't have been listening in the first place. I just wasn't tired and found myself missing Duo. I had grown so used to having his arms around me at night and his scent filling my nose, that I couldn't sleep without him.

 

Hours must have passed and finally at three in the morning I heard the bedroom door open. Duo was silent as he moved around the room and undressed in the dark. I watched him strip down to his boxers then he turned and looked at me, as if he knew I was still awake.

 

"Hey." He whispered.

 

"Hey."

 

"I thought I said not to wait up for me." He crossed the room and sat on the bed looking down at me.

 

"I couldn't sleep." I wanted to say 'because you weren't in here with me', but I stopped myself before it tumbled out.

 

"Well, I'm here now. So don't worry and get some sleep." I nodded and waited as Duo peeled off his socks then lifted the blankets and got in. I couldn't help myself and wrapped my arms around him tightly as he laid down.

 

"You missed me didn't you?" He whispered to me. I nodded once then laid my head on his chest, right over his heart and listened to it beating beneath my ear. Duo stroked my hair and then did something surprising, he kissed the top of my head. The action startled me, but I didn't show it. "I missed you too, Heero."

 

I relaxed against him and closed my eyes, I finally felt warm again and it flooded through my entire body.

 

I dreamed that night, everything that I had wished for and I lived it through my dream. Although, when I woke up, I was still in Duo's arms, but I knew my dreams would have to wait. Duo wasn't ready to hear them and I wasn't ready to speak them, but some day I would tell him, even if he pushed me away. He would know how I felt and then I could die happily.

 

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TBC...

 

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