Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ Perfectly Broken ❯ Chapter 21 ( Chapter 21 )

Chapter 21

 

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Warning: This chapter is violent, has NCS, and is not for the weak hearted! Proceed at your own risk! Don't say I didn't warn you!

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I woke up some time later with wires, IV's, and scan pads hooked up to all kinds of monitors that displayed my vital signs. Whoever had captured me still had me strapped down so I couldn't move at all, no matter how much I tried. I wondered as I laid there, what they wanted with me. I had no clue who they were or what they wanted. What could they possibly need with me?

 

“I see that you're still struggling to get out of those, but you won't be able to do it. Those have been reinforced several times over and were made just for you. J really did a number on your DNA. I walking work of art, yet not used to the standards you were supposed to be.”

 

“You knew J?” I asked as I took the man in. He was older with a nasal voice and had a mask that covered his nose and part of his mouth. He sneered at me while he thought up his answer.

 

“Of course I knew J. I was his colleague for so many years until he stole parts of my work to create you! You, who he kept all to himself and made you his personal whore! You don't look so broken in now, but perhaps we can change that.”

 

I felt my body tighten at his words. I didn't want to go back to that. Didn't want anything that J had done to me repeated again. Not when I had Duo. DUO!

 

If they knew about Duo would they do things like that to him? NO! I wouldn't let them! Their hands couldn't be allowed to touch him. He was too beautiful. He was mine!

 

“You look like you want to rip my throat out for saying that. Don't worry your head off just yet. I have so much better things to try out on you first.” I glared at him as he picked up a pad and noted my vitals, then went over to a tray that I hadn't noticed until he picked up a syringe. “You might find this to be an eye opener, or the source of losing your mind. But I can't be sure until it's tested and you're the perfect specimen to try it out on.”

 

He stepped closer and tapped the vein in my arm until it rose for him then looked me in the eye. “It's not every day that the Heero becomes my ZERO!” Then he injected me with whatever was in the syringe and laughed as my body began to twitch. The injection site burned and as the serum worked its way in my veins it burned a trail of fire that I had never felt. My skin felt like it was a blaze and my stomach clenched as I struggled to free myself. The bindings cutting into my arms, legs, and chest as I thrashed, wanting to get free! Needing to get out of where ever I was being kept. My ears started to hurt and ring as I moved, then my head filled with all these thoughts and theories.

 

Things I didn't understand.

 

They didn't make any sense to me at all.

 

But nothing was worse until my vision went white then deepened into dark crimson red. Blood red. It was then that the visions started. I need to call them visions because no where in my mind are images that horrible.

 

There were bodies surrounding me. Their limbs were missing and their throats cut open. Some of them had their bellies sliced where I could see all their entrails spilling out onto the floor before me. They were everywhere, both sexes, men, women, and children all slaughtered before me. There were women laying down and clutching their stomachs where tiny babies could be seen. Their spines revealed and severed. They were stillborn, never allowed to develop or live even as their mothers cried for them and screamed with agony that I had never heard be uttered by human lips.

 

It was sick and twisted and yet I couldn't look away. I couldn't escape and when I tried to cover my eyes, I saw the blood that covered my hands. My hands that weren't really mine, yet they were attached to me. With those hands I had killed everyone that covered the floor. I could turn into this monster that killed the innocent and hacked all their limbs off. I could have done this terrible deed and not realized it.

 

My body shivered as I sank to my knees. The voices inside my head screaming at me that I had done this. It was all my fault they had to die. I was the only one to blame, because I was created to do this.

 

If I had just come when I was needed and did all that was asked of me this wouldn't have had to happen. It was my fault that everyone was dead. My hands had done this to them. I killed them. I had destroyed their lives and ended ones that barely began.

 

I was a monster. My soul was stained black and no one could want me now. Not even Duo.

 

Zechs had been right! I was hideous! Who could ever want me? Surely not Duo. Duo who was light where I was darkness. There was nothing to be desired in me. I was a black sheep. I was forsaken by everyone. Not even those who said they were my friends could mean it. My purpose was to be used. To be a weapon that destroyed the evils before they could do their deeds. It made me less of a monster if I did all that I was told. If I really wanted to make the world a better place.

 

I would lose Duo though. He couldn't be around me. He couldn't love me, the monster. It was a mistake. A mistake that I needed to fix by leaving him. By making myself repulsive to him. Instructions filled my head then, telling me what to do so I was no longer desirable.

 

I shook my head not wanting to listen, but then a softer voice came. One that was sweeter and was comforting. I didn't know the voice but its tone made me listen to it.

 

It told me that if I wanted to stop all this I would have to listen to it. I really didn't want to, but I did it all the same. The voice told me to hunt down those that hurt others. They were the ones that made people hurt and betray the ones they loved. They were the ones who needed to pay with their lives. It told me what to do. It told me who to find and what to do. I listened as it told me and as I did, I could hear other voices around me.

 

“Is it working?”

 

“When he comes out of the training, we'll know for sure.”

 

“But how will we know if the drug manipulation has taken full effect?”

 

“Voice coding will make him do what we want, but I think we should test it before we let the specimen go out to do our work.”

 

“How will we do that?”

 

“Just watch. ZERO, get out of the chair.” The new voice told me my order as the softer voice told me it was okay. I should listen to this new voice and do everything. “Listen to me. Your friend who you came to my house with is no longer your friend. Sever ties with him and ditch the van you came in then come back here. Do as I say and you won't be punished.”

 

“Yes.” I said and did as the voice said and stood up out of the chair and walked through the house. Everything I took in with my eyes calculated and analyzed. Nothing was a threat to me at the moment as I went outside, got in the van and made my way towards Duo. It was dark outside now as I pulled into a parking space and shut the van off. I would leave it here. Duo would need it, I no longer had any use for it.

 

As I made my way up the stairs, I listened for voices. There were none. I pulled out my key and unlocked the door, stepping into the kitchen and looking around to see any activity that might be going on. My surroundings told me this was where I needed to be. I needed to sever my ties here and leave.

 

As I made my way through the house, I looked over the magazines strewn about, the empty tea cups left on the coffee table. I took them into the kitchen, cleaning the living room up a bit like I would have, then made my way to Duo's room. I opened the door and saw him sleeping in the bed. He looked so peaceful. I wanted to join him and snuggle up with him. I needed to touch him, feel him, maybe even... be in him.

 

I stepped closer to him, his scent was heavy in my nose telling me he didn't shower today and also that he was very weak. That thought excited me for some reason. Why would it? I loved Duo, so why would I...

 

Take him... He wants your touch... He needs your touch... Feel him... Taste him... Rape him...

 

My hand ripped away the blankets by itself as my eyes took in the fact that Duo hadn't worn anything to sleep in.

 

See how he teases you... You should take him... He's probably all ready for you... All prepared for you, just for you...

 

I parted his legs and found his opening. It looked like it glistened just like the rest of him. His body covered in a light sheen of sweat. It made him so very tempting.

 

“Heero? What are you doing?” Duo asked me in a raspy voice. I looked up at him and he looked ready for me. Ready for me to make him scream.

 

“I'm taking you.” I told him matter-of-factly. His eyes widened and his jaw dropped a little.

 

“Heero, I'm sick. I can't tonight.” He told me shaking his head a bit, but the voice told me he was playing hard to get.

 

“You're ready for me. Don't lie.” I told him and shoved two of my fingers in his heat. He felt so soft, so warm.

 

“Heero,” he gasped. “That hurts. Stop!” I could barely hear him as the voice got louder and louder inside my head.

 

See how he resists you? The little cock tease, how dare he deny you. You have every right to take him. He's yours, prove that to him. Don't listen to his screams... He wants it. Give it to him!

 

I listened to the voice's encouragement even as I watched Duo's face scrunch up in agony. I was hurting him I needed to stop, but my fingers kept pounding into him, kept stretching him wide, my nails scratching up his insides.

 

“Heero please! Please stop! It hurts! You're hurting me!”

 

Cover his mouth so no one can hear you and take him already!

 

I did as the voice said and spread Duo's legs wider, removed my fingers, unzipped my pants and thrust home. I buried deep inside him hard and fast, feeling his warmth, loving his inner heat and feeling what it was like for the first time. It was amazing! It felt incredible.

 

So why was it that Duo had tears streaming down his face? Why did he look like he was sobbing? Why was he trying to push me off of him rather than pull me close? Why did this feel so wrong even as I came to orgasm and shoved myself deep inside him?

 

As I caught my breath and pulled out of him Duo curled into a ball and laid on his side. I could see the semen leaking out of him, but mixed in it was blood. His blood!

 

He's truly yours now. His blood is on you and you claimed him like he needed to be claimed. He's such a whore! Tell him that.

 

I shook my head to clear it, but the voice insisted. Duo wasn't a whore! He was mine!

 

NO! He's a whore! Forget about him! You did what needed to be done now leave him! He is not in your mission. He no longer matters any more!

 

But he does! I wanted to scream back at the voice. I wanted to stop hearing it! 'I won't listen.' I yelled to it, and it went silent. I breathed a sigh of relief.

 

I thought it was gone.

 

Until pain like I had never felt ran through my body and made me double over and clutch my belly and chest. It felt like my heart was going to explode. My stomach churned and made me feel like I was going to throw up and the voice came back and screamed at me.

 

TELL HIM HE'S A WHORE! TELL HIM HE IS NOTHING TO YOU ANYMORE AND LEAVE HIM! YOU DON'T NEED HIM ANY LONGER..YOU DON'T WANT HIM ANYLONGER AND YOU'RE GOING TO LEAVE HIM. SO SAY GOODBYE!

 

I said it all to him. I said it and I turned to leave, the pain easing, but my heart felt like it was breaking. The last thing I saw as I left the room was Duo staring at me in disbelief and pain. A pain that I had caused him, that probably would never heal.

 

I walked back to the doctors and told them of my mission. They commended me on a job well done and sent me off to a room that had been made up for me. As I lay on the cot, I thought back to Duo's face. The sight of him, brought on pain, but in my heart I knew I had hurt him worse than anyone ever had.

 

As I curled up tight in my bed, I thought to myself, was this really what I was supposed to become? And even as the voice whispered how good I was, I couldn't agree, because my heart ached and there was no way to fix it.

 

TBC...

 

A very dark chapter indeed. For those of you who could bare to read it, I just want you to know it's a part of the journey and must be said. Not everything in life is kind and this story is not all about love and kindness. I hope you stick around and please review!