Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ Requiescere Sanus ❯ A strange realisation. ( Chapter 2 )

Chapter 2 - A strange realisation.

Yarri waited outside room 88 for a minute until he heard movement inside. Then, he knocked on the door and stepped back, the knife in his sleeve ready to be dropped if the boy inside tried anything.

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I heard the soft tap on my door and looked round cursing to myself quietly, who was it? Were they on to me? I didn't know but I quickly shut my laptop the screen lying over the keys continuing to receive information. I walked to the door and pressed my back to it my eyes narrowing slightly. I put my hand over the knob, be normal I told myself. I opened my door and there he was, that boy again, he was about my age, hair of pure white and one steely ice blue eye looking at me intently, I sensed he was worried of my actions, his muscles tense on his arm where I suspected he carried a knife, I wondered whether he meant to attack me but if he did he'd surely be mistaken to do so? I couldn't bring myself to formalities or even feigning warmth, why be something I'm not? I didn't think it was necessary to be polite; this was who I was and why give him the impression I was otherwise? So rather hostilely I spat out "Who are you and what do you want?"

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Yarri tensed. "I'm Yarbarah Sadi... I just wanted to introduce myself because you're new here. And you are?" He, of course, already knew the boy's name, but he couldn't know that. -Up close, his eyes are even more striking...- He forced himself to relax, Heero hadn't pulled a gun on him yet.

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I looked at him, he seemed tense like he knew that I was a dangerous person, good I thought to myself, maybe if he's afraid of me he wont bother to try and get close like Maxwell, Maxwell...so cold Heero I chided myself before correcting myself, rather like Duo...he got too close but now he as well had had to move on elsewhere for the sake of the missions...those eyes violent...perfect reflected me in them after I had sat down numb and cold after all the death and then he kissed me...Unknowingly I lifted my hand over my lips remembering then snapped back to my surroundings. "I have no name, but if you must call me something call me Heero, Heero Yuy. It's a pleasure I'm sure." There I thought that might be enough to satisfy his curiosity. I turned my back to him and walked to my bed and sat down leaving the door ajar surely he wouldn't follow me in, and if he did he was either more brave or more stupid than I had imagined.

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Yarri didn't follow Heero into the room. He leaned in the doorframe, still close enough to the hall to escape if needs be, but close enough to find out more about the Prussian-eyed enigma. -So it's not his real name... fine. I didn't think it was, but it'll do. - "So... Yuy... you're a fighter, aren't you." His voice was controlled, low and almost gravely, but not harsh. "And you're a good hacker. If I hadn't seen you leaving the mainframe I never would have known you had been in it." -Pushing it, Yarri...-

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I looked up and masked the shock and horror I felt, sudden calm, it was ok...so far he only knew I could fight and hack, so did that make me unusual? It seemed by my research most people here could fight and/or hack. I replied in my monotone voice as ever not showing emotion "Yes, I can fight and hack, but why prey tell did you know I'd been in the mainframe, have you been following me?" My cobalt eyes watched into his eye to ascertain his response then I glanced down at his sheath "You seem to be a fighter yourself, maybe one day we will have the pleasure of a spar, but perhaps until then we should try perhaps to be ourselves." I watched him quietly neither threatened or threatening for the moment, yet I knew even if I did long for his friendship that I'd have to scare him away, it was my curse, my mission and my character, or was it? Was I really this cold...the blood had stained me so much I didn't even know who I was anymore. "Of course, I am not a safe person to be around Yarbarah, so if I were you I'd keep my distance, there seem to be an unfortunate occurrence that when someone gets to close to me they end up mysteriously dead or missing, not to worry you or anything." I looked up my eyes narrowing perceivably then I feigned a smile, though I must admit I looked rather sinister.

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Yarri smiled coldly. "I'm not afraid of dying, Yuy. I was trained from birth for the blade and the battle. Then I lost my eye and some other blonde brat took over what I was to do. You can keep your distance all you like, Yuy. I'll do what I please." He smirked. "And by the way, I don't follow people. I was looking for information about the new student. The mainframe isn't exactly a challenge."

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I looked up, so he neither feared death, I wondered faintly if he too had tried to take his life like I had on numerous occasions, but had never succeeded, I'd blown myself up, jumped out of a building and down a cliff, I'd even tried to drown myself, but nothing seemed to work, it frustrated me, it seemed to be the only mission I couldn't complete. I remained calm, he wasn't irritating me he really wasn't...he was much alike to me, except I still fought where he could not, I almost pitied him, pity? I had emotions after all? It wasn't like me; it wasn't like me at all. "I'm sorry that you seem so bereft about no longer being able to fight, for me it would be a small mercy." I heard myself say, ha I thought if only he knew how many times I've tried to stop myself fighting by attempting suicide, but then I was like some heinous bouncy ball, which kept coming back, and never dying. "Indeed the mainframe isn't a challenge at all, but I had some things to sort out, as you probably already know..." He held all the cards, I hated that, I hated it so much.... I didn't know how much he knew about me, he knew my name, my room number and two of my abilities, he wasn't a mind reader...yet, thank you for small mercies I thought. I shrugged my shoulders loosely and looks own at the bed playing a pencil between my fingers feeling it's sleek wood tenuously stroking it. "So, was the new student you were seeking information on me or someone else?" I tried to sound casual as to find out how much he knew without seeming threatening.

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"I'm sorry that you have to." Something connected in Yarri's mind. "Wait... you fight, and you hack, and Heero Yuy... that can't possibly be your real name... You don't know the Winner brat, do you?" Shit, if this was a pilot...

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"Winner, Quatre Rabera Winner?" I questioned, then shocked I put my hand over my mouth but feigned yawning to hide my disbelief that I'd actually let something slip, I'd spoken hastily, then things connected in my mind...the blonde brat who'd taken his job? Could that be.... could that be sweet innocent seeming Quatre? I looked up a little startled and mumbled "But Heero Yuy is the only name I have... it is my real name..." Hn, damnit he knew more than I thought, he knew Quatre...so was it possible he also knew Duo, Trowa and Wufei, and if he did, did he really know that I was...that I am...that I have always been 01 - Heero Yuy - the perfect solider Pilot of the Wing Zero...no he couldn't do I'd been careful...but then Duo...and the others...they were not as careful as me they had made allowances and sought others company, sometimes I envied them, Trowa and Quatre so close and happy together, quite the happy couple and Duo, so full of life and hope, and Wufei so proud and noble, and me, always the quiet dark mysterious one who threatened to kill anyone who got close, especially that Relena girl, though I must admit it had made me almost laugh at the look in her eyes the first time I'd told her I'd kill her, she'd looked so shocked, but still that onna had followed me. So I looked at him innocently as I could my Prussian eyes peeking out from below my long straggly bangs of hair as I attempted to lie to him, my voice as slow methodical and monotone as ever. "I don't know a Quatre? I mean Winner..." I looked down, something about him was making me foul up, I was fouling up so damn bad...the pencil snapped between my fingers a few splinters sharding off, one going into my thumb. I clinically observed it then detachedly pulled it out. I was embarrassed I'd let so much slip, and then I realised...he could be an Oz spy...and if he got in my way or knew too much I'd have to kill him, just how trustworthy was he? That was something I had to find out.

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Yarri nodded. "Yeah, Quatre. Innocent, cute little Quatre took over scary, mean Yarri's job." He looked at Heero. "No, I never met any of the others, if that's what you're wondering. I know you exist, but you're the first I've met. The rich boy took over before I got sent out. And I'm most definitely not and Ozzie." He let the dagger slip from its sheath, not caring if Heero saw it any more. He knew it was there. Yarri turned it in his fingers, balanced the blade on one fingertip. "I envy you all, you know. You get to be out there, fighting, making a difference. I'm stuck at this school because I lost an eye. I can see perfectly." His eye focused on something on the wall behind Heero. "Duck." Heero ducked and Yarri threw the knife... pinning a fly.

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I looked up, he knew a lot, he knew too much. I drew my gun and pointed it between his eyes "how much do you know about me and my...colleagues?" I was back in control it seemed, he had only his sword that I could see, and he'd be dead before he unsheathed it if he tried anything, the silencer on my gun clicked into place as my finger rested on the trigger. He was sad he couldn't fight? I was out there making a difference. "No, you don't understand. I kill I don't want to fight but it's my orders to fight and I've known nothing else, I've seen the eyes of a dying man and looked death in the face, I hate it but if you push me and lie you will die." I felt a little remorse cross me as I remember the deaths and blood and fear I had caused yet still I glared at him my Prussian orbs fierce and unyielding. "You best sit down and start talking mr." I didn't blink when he threw the dagger I just moved my head slightly as it past my head, I didn't fear death it would have been a blessing if he'd managed to have killed me right then. I guessed he'd been watching the gundams perhaps on the news, and he didn't know for sure if I was a pilot, there still might be a chance...slim as it was maybe I could bluff that I wasn't but then he seemed to know too much already. I grimaced the gun still levelled at his head awaiting his story.

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Yarri didn't even flinch when Heero pulled his gun. "You can't scare me like that. I told you, I don't fear death. If you think I'm a hazard to whatever mission you're on, then by all means, shoot me now. But if you want to know how I know about you and the others... I was trained to be a pilot... I was the original choice for L4, but I lost my eye when I challenged an older man to a fight to avenge my sister's honour. He beat me and took my eye. The doctor decided I couldn't fight any more and gave it to the Winner brat, pretending he had been the first choice the whole time. They sent me to school so I couldn't tell the secrets, like I would." He glared at Heero. "I'm not going to tell any one about you, Yuy. Don't worry."

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I looked at him, he seemed to be telling the truth, but I was still sceptical, he had the same cool and lack of the fear of death that the other pilots and myself had had, but yet none of us wished to fight did we, then again Duo seemed to enjoy the battles and even called himself shinginami, so perhaps his story checked out. Anyway I could always check his story out, a little looking into the files at L4 would confirm or disprove it. My eyes softened slightly from their cold death glare then I lowered my gun. "Alright, maybe what you say is true, and if you were intended to be a gundam Pilot then you will know how important my missions are to me and you wont get in the way, and if you do, you know I will kill you without thinking twice. I placed the gun back in its holster and placed my hand out to him the soft white cotton shirt I was wearing ruffling slightly as I moved, my cobalt eyes softer than they had been all day a little sorrow and companionship beginning to seep through for him, he was just like me yet he was frustrated by inaction, maybe he wasn't all that bad...Stop it Heero, you can't think like that, before you know it you'll become soft like Quatre, wear pink shirts and cry every time you shoot someone, you just can't be like that. "Maybe we should start over again. I am Heero Yuy, I've just come here, pleasure I'm sure."

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Yarri took the hand offered to him. "Pleasure to meet you. I'm Yarbarah Sadi. Please, call me Yarri." Heero's hand was strong and calloused... like his own. "I'd be glad to show you around, even if just for show. This school can be confusing for new comers, and it would seem odd if you knew your way around better than even some of the teachers."

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I felt the warmth and rough texture of his hand meet mine then I nodded slightly "You're right I know no one here besides you Yarri and every staff member, I pulled up their profiles and records." I smiled softly at that thought and realised I knew everything about this school besides the students. "I agree though it'll look less suspicious if you show me around though." Since when have I accepted anyone else's companionship and help? I didn't know but here he was now offering to help me fit in, but did I want to fit in? I liked being mysterious and suspicious, it kept people away from me, maybe this was Doctor J's intention to send me to meet this young man and find out more about myself, the none killing Heero Yuy, the Heero Yuy that looked at Quatre and Trowa together and felt pain and sadness and thought of Duo, the part of Heero Yuy that was human and longed for release from the hell of death and pain and war, the Heero Yuy that still had a soul. I looked into his icy blue eye "So where to we start?" I stood slowly the bed covers wrinkled where I had been and appraised him before walking to the wall and pulling his dagger from it the fly falling to the floor and walked back to him handing it him back my hand brushing past his as I did so. What am I thinking? I questioned myself, why do I feel semi safe around him? I made up my mind there and then to not let myself become more trusting of him otherwise terrible things would happen and mistakes would be made in my mission due to personal emotions, and I couldn't let that happen, there was no room for mistake on my missions, none at all.

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Yarri took the knife from Heero. He smiled inwardly at the brush of fingers. "It'll be best if we start with classrooms. You did pull up your schedule, right? What am I asking, of course you did... Come on, the classes are this way." He walked out of the door and waited for Heero to follow. -Stop trusting him. Stop feeling safer around him. Stop feeling. You'll mess up his mission. Do not get close to him. Can't help it...- Ruthlessly, Yarri shoved the inner turmoil to the back of his mind. Heero stepped out of the door. "You know, if you want to fit in, I shouldn't be the one showing you around- I'm one of the least popular people in school. Every one is afraid of me." -No emotions. Remember. Do not like Yuy. I'm failing... -

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