Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ Tears Of Blood ❯ Admissions, Part I ( Chapter 2 )

Teardrops of Blood

Written by: Sakura Harusame

Summary: AU, Quatre PoV, yaoi, angst. Quatre Raberba Winner grew up in a world where he was unable to cry. You see, if he cries, it's not water… its blood. Surrounded by friends and family, he's been sheltered from the pains of the world. What happens when he discovers the greatest pain of all- love? (Mult. paring fic centered on the 3x4 paring)

Rating: R to NC-17, but more towards R for now…

Parings: 1+2, eventual 3x4 and 1+2+5/1x2x5, past 13x5, present 13+Une

Warnings: Not much here, just language… I think.

Disclaimer: I don't own GW, or the idea for this story. I got the idea from my friend, Dani Yuy at Fanfiction.net, who gave me the OK for it.

A/N: Okay, this fic is totally separate from my other two fics. But that shouldn't stop you from reading it, or the other two for that matter. I promise, it's happier then it sounds.

~*Chapter 2: Admissions, Part I*~

(Quatre PoV)

Allah, it's good to be home! You'd think so too after being stuck in a hospital bed for three days. There's only one problem as to coming home: school. I go back today. What fun! (And yes, that was sarcasm…) I'm kind of looking forward to school today, sad as that is. I miss my friends.

I miss my music classes too. I haven't been able to pick up my violin for about a week… Duo swears it's the most beautiful thing he's ever heard, except when I play with Trowa. Then it's more beautiful. He plays the, all right - don't laugh, the flute. You're laughing aren't you? I knew it… The boy is a football player and he's a flutist. Sensitive but strong… Okay, I'm swooning, so sue me!

Speaking of Trowa, it's 7:22. He's usually here by now. I wonder what could be taking him so long... He must be giving Heero and Duo a ride as well. Someone's knocking. Oh! That must be him!

"Bye sis! All of you!" I could hear the chorus of 'Bye Quatre!' as I walked out the door.

"Morning, Quat!" It was Duo. Of course, I should have known Trowa wouldn't get out of his car...

"Good morning Duo." I said as cheerfully as possible, walking slowly towards the car.

"Not lookin forward to classes, huh? Or is it you were expecting Trowa to come to the door for you?" I looked at him like he was crazy. "Don't give me that look, Q-ball. We all know you like Trowa, except the boy in question here! Why don't you make your move?"

"The same reason you haven't jumped Wufei yet." Now he was looking at me like I was a ghost or something.

"You mean you have someone?!" Oh Allah, I didn't mean that...

"No, no! I mean, because of the fear of rejection!" I slapped myself in the forehead. It's going to be a long day, I can tell already...

"Oh! Well, that and I don't think Hee-chan would much appreciate me jumpin another guy." He grinned. Does he always have to do that?! That grin just screams 'I'm up to something!'

"Duo, what are you planning?"

"Nothing, Q-man. Nothing at all..." Duo said in a not-quite-so-innocent voice. And he says he never lies!

"I thought you didn't lie Duo." I said as we approached the car.

"Hey! I'm not lyin'!" He opened the front door of the car for me then went to the door behind me and got in.

"Su~re Duo, whatever you say..." I said as I climbed into the car. I turned to say good morning to Heero, but saw Wufei there instead. "Where's Heero?"

"Relena dragged him off this morning..." Trowa said, nearly spitting 'Relena' as if it were poison.

"Oh... well, Morning Wufei. Trowa." Wow, Relena drug him off... again. This was what, the fourth time in the past week?

"Morning Little one." Trowa responded while backing out. He's the only person I've ever called me something like that. I love it; it makes me feel like he cares for me as more then just a friend would...

"Good morning Quatre." Wufei said, glancing at Duo out of the corner of his eye. Maybe I should... No, that would get me into trouble. That, or compel them to say something to Trowa. Not good.

"Wufei, are you ever going to take care of that thing we were talking about the other night?" I couldn't stop myself, I have to know! Oh great, now I sound like Suzumi (one of my sisters) when she's trying to get gossip out of her friends...

"I-I'm not sure. Do you think I should?" Wufei, stuttering? He must have a bigger crush then I thought!

"Well ya, why shouldn't you?" I look into the rearview mirror to see a blushing Wufei and a very confused Duo.

"Because of the relationship of the matter." He stressed 'relationship', implying to me he's afraid of ruining things between Heero and Duo if he tried anything.

"It will only strengthen it. I believe they would love to have you, Wufei. Both of them." I could tell Trowa was biting the inside of his cheek to stifle his laughter.

"Alright, I'll make you a deal Quatre. I'll go through with my plans if you'll finally ask out that person you like. Or at least make your feelings known..." Wufei's eyes were twinkling; he had me cornered! Damn you Wufei!

"Then no deal. I'll let that person know when I'm ready to tell them." Ha! In your face 'Fei!

"I think Wufei's right, Quatre. You should tell her that you like her." Duo started to crack up. Did I neglect to mention I never told Trowa I'm gay? Well, I did. I was afraid of how he was going to take it...

"Him, Trowa." I whispered, but somehow he heard me because he hit his brakes- hard.

"W-what?" Oh Allah, he'd disgusted with me now...

"I said it's a him Trowa, not a her. I'm gay." I looked away, too afraid to look him in the face.

"Wow, I-I, did you two know?" Trowa turned to Duo and Wufei.

"Ya, we knew. Quat told me." Duo replied with a grin.

"And I ended up figuring it out on my own. So did Heero." Wufei quipped. Damn you both!

"Why didn't you ever tell us Quatre?" Trowa asked me, and I could tell by the tone in his voice he was hurt. Hurt that I had kept something this big from him...

"I-I wasn't sure how you guys would take it. Then after Heero and Duo started dating, I figured you guys wouldn't care if I was or not. I just... never got up the nerve to tell you."

I felt his hand on my chin, trying to turn my face. I let him but still didn't look up. "Little one, look at me." I did. "I don't think any differently of you, so don't worry alright?"

Allah has answered one of my prayers! (Finally!) He doesn't think less of me because I like men! I couldn't stop the smile that crept upon my face. "Alright."

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I don't think today could have gone better. I finally admitted to my friends that I am, in fact, gay. (I guess growing up in a world of women will do that to you) Wufei had a confession of his own to make today: he admitted to being bi. He like both sexes, but prefers men to women- at least, that's how he told us.

Duo and Heero both looked ecstatic at that little bit of info. Needless to say, lunch was fun. (In case you didn't realize, that's when all this transpired.) It was... entertaining, to say the least, when Duo decided to tease Wufei. It went all little like this...

~*Flashback*~

" 'Fei-'Fei." Duo purred. We all knew where this was leading... But today was going to be worse now that Wufei has admitted to liking men.

"What Maxwell?" Wufei asked, not looking away from his book. He always has a book!

Duo scooted closer to Wufei, nearly sitting on his lap. I had to bite my cheek to stop myself from laughing. "I'm bo~red."

"Why are you whining to me? Have Heero entertain you." His voice was a little sharper then usual.

"Because, I want *you* to entertain me Wu..." Duo is still purring. I swear that boy is part cat!

Wufei swallowed audibly. Then, surprising us all, Wufei did something unexpected. He started flirting back! "I don't think your boyfriend would like that, do you?"

"Ooo, crafty 'Fei." Duo said with a small laugh.

"Unless, that is, you want him to join us..." Wufei replied suggestively. That was about when Heero jumped up from the table and ran out the doors of the cafeteria with his hands over his nose and mouth.

~*End Flashback*~

"So Heero, why did you run out of cafeteria so fast at lunch?" Trowa asked innocently.

"Shut up Barton!" Heero only calls his brother by his last name when he's embarrassed. That's the only reminder to us that those two are only half-brothers.

"Hey, *Yuy* watch it." Trowa growled. He hated that constant reminder that those two weren't full brothers; Trowa had always wanted a brother.

"Both of you, stop it. Please?" I asked kindly, praying that neither of them got mad at me.

"Alright." Trowa and Heero muttered.

"Heero," He looked down at me (yes, I'm that short!). "Do you like the idea of being with Wufei *and* Duo?"

"N-nani?!" Oops, maybe I shouldn't have asked... Oh well, might as well go on!

"I'm serious. I think you like Wufei just as much as you like Duo. And have you ever seen Duo flirt with Wufei? It's not like his playful flirting with me or Trowa, it's more like how he flirted with you before the two of you got together." Oh Allah, let this work!

"You think Duo likes Wufei?" Uh oh... that can be translated wrong.

"He likes both you *and* Wufei. Talk to Duo about it tonight. Then once you two get things worked out, talk to Wufei." I think I'm turning into a matchmaker... First, I got Heero and Duo together, now I'm trying to get Wufei thrown into the mix!

"Are you going to tell that guy you like that you, well, like him?" Heero asked, obviously trying to get off of this subject.

"No." I said simply.

"Why not Quatre? I think he may like you in return... I mean how can he not?" Wufei walked up, further adding to my embarrassment. Today may have gone well, but tonight won't I just know.

"Because, I don't want to ruin our friendship. I'd rather be just his friend for the rest of our lives then tell him I lo- like him and him never speak to me again." I almost said love! Damnit, they caught it too!

"You love him? Aw!" Duo glomped me, causing me and him to fall to the ground. I wasn't expecting to be glomped, especially by Duo seeing as he wasn't there about two seconds ago.

"Duo!"

"Yes Quat?" He grinned innocently. Innocent my ass! I'm the most innocent one in our little group of friends and that's only because I'm a virgin! Oops, said too much again…

"First off, I said I *like* the guy. And second, get off me!" I pushed him off. I may not look it, but I'm pretty strong. The doctors say I need to work out to strengthen my lungs.

"Ya, ya." He stood up pointing at me as she spoke while Trowa offered a hand to help me up. "You only said you like him because you stopped yourself from saying love."

I took Trowa's hand without thinking and stood up. I got right in Duo's face and started yelling before I could stop myself. "So what? Why does it matter if I love him? He'll never love me back, so he'll never know! I cannot risk it! Telling him could kill me, damnit Duo!"

"No, telling him could lead you to happiness we all know you disserve." Duo spoke in a normal even tone I couldn't hope to achieve at the moment.

"No! Telling him will only lead to heartache. Heartache will lead to tears. You know the rest." I felt someone squeeze my hand. Oops, forgot everyone else was still here... including Trowa, who was still holding my hand.

"Quatre, listen to yourself! Would you rather spend the rest of your life wondering of what could be?!" Heero half-yelled at me. Did I ever tell you I don't like people yelling at me?

"Just like you, Wufei, and Duo? Yes. Rather that then die of a brokenheart." My voiced dropped about half and octave. They (Heero, Duo, Trowa, and Wufei that is) say this is my 'Zero' mode. I get like this when I'm really upset. Better that then crying, I suppose...

"What makes you think you would?" Trowa asked, gently squeezing my hand.

"Because... the relationship I have with this guy is more like brothers. Or at least, that's the way he seems to see it." My voice went back to normal. No matter how hysterical I get, I will never admit to Trowa I love him. I just can't.

"Why is it I get the feeling I'm the only one here who doesn't know who this guys is?" Duo, Heero, and Wufei just laughed nervously. That was a dead give away that Trowa's suspicions were true... "I see. And why is it that I haven't been told?"

Now it was my turn to laugh nervously. I let go of his hand and ran off down the road. "Bye guys! I'm heading home!"

"Wait Quatre! Trowa's giving us a ride, like usual! Remember?" Wufei called, but I didn't listen. I just ran as fast as I could.

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(Normal PoV)

"What was that all about?" Trowa asked, rounding on the other three. "I may be oblivious to things, but I'm not stupid. Why did he take off like that?"

"Um, sorry Tro. I'd rather not put up with a pissed off Q-man." Duo shuttered as he walked by Trowa and towards the taller boy's car. "He's scary when he's gone Zero..."

"Hell even I'm scared of him." Heero admitted as he followed his koiboto.

"That makes three of us then..." Wufei commented, catching up with the other two. The tree of them got into the car, but Duo made sure Wufei didn't shut his door all the way so they could hear Trowa ranting.

"Damn it! Why is it that I'm the only one he doesn't tell?! First it's the fact he's gay, then there's the fact that he has a crush on some guy, then I find out that he loves the guy! I don't get it... why would he keep things like this from me? I love him, but he'll never get to know. He's in love with someone else. How can I tell him now?"