Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ Tears Of Blood ❯ Admissions, part III ( Chapter 4 )

Teardrops of Blood

Written by: Sakura Harusame

Summary: AU, Quatre PoV, yaoi, angst. Quatre Raberba Winner grew up in a world where he was unable to cry. You see, if he cries, it's not water… its blood. Surrounded by friends and family, he's been sheltered from the pains of the world. What happens when he discovers the greatest pain of all- love? (Mult. paring fic centered on the 3x4 paring)

Rating: R to NC-17, but more towards NC-17 this chapter…

Parings: eventual 3x4, 1+2+5/1x2x5, past 13x5, present 13+Une

Warnings: Language… again.

Disclaimer: I don't own GW, or the idea for this story. I got the idea from my friend, Dani Yuy at Fanfiction.net, who gave me the OK for it.

A/N: Okay, this fic is totally separate from my other two fics. But that shouldn't stop you from reading it, or the other two for that matter. I promise, it's happier then it sounds.

~*Chapter 4: Admissions, Part III*~

(Quatre PoV)

"HELP ME GUYS! PLEASE, IF ANY OF YOU CARE, GET HER AWAY!!!" Yep, that's me screaming. We're over at Heero and Trowa's house, getting ready to go to Duo's for 'guys night'. Unfortunately, Relena, Hilde, and Dorothy were there. Dorothy is currently chasing me around the back yard...

"No way Quat! This is way too entertaining!" Duo was sitting on the hood of Trowa's car, which was causing him to get growled at.

"Mind getting off my car Duo?" I barely heard Trowa growl.

"Yes, I do. But I will anyway..." He hopped off, something I only caught because I was running by.

"Quatre, stop! Please sweetheart!" Oh Allah, Suzumi calls me that!

"Get away Dorothy!" I took off in a sprint, gaining ground towards the house where I know there are locks to keep her out...

"Surely you don't mean that!" Oh for the love of- does she not get it!? No wonder her and Relena are related…

I was so close to the door I could touch it. That is, until Wufei tripped me. I would have hit the ground- if Trowa hadn't been in the way, that is. I landed on him, thanking whatever deity was listening that our lips didn't collide. Which was probably the whole point of this anyway...

"Oooo! That's so cute!!" Hilde squealed. Did I ever tell you she's a yaoi fangirl? Well, she is. That's what makes her so comfortable with Duo and Heero's relationship.

"No it's not!" The twins, Dorothy and Relena, replied with a huff.

"No no, she's right you two." Duo was grinning. That's never good. It's also really bad when he agrees with Hilde. It's bad when any set of ex's agree on something...

"W-what are you talking about?!" Dorothy cried.

"Those two, lying there like that. It's a really cute picture." Wufei answered. Ah, I see where this is going... And it's nowhere good.

"You know what, your right koi." Heero agreed. Wufei blushed at his new title. A week later and he's still not used to it…

"Stop it you guys." I got up, and walked off.

I could feel the tears in my eyes. I blinked hard to keep them back. I stood out on the porch in the front of the house. I could feel a drop of blood roll down my cheek. I didn't take my antidepressant... I guess I should have. I let the silence sit there for a few minutes, just how long I'm not sure.

"I know you guys are just trying to help... but it's making it worse. I can't sleep; I'm not eating very much- all because I'm so worried about you telling him. I can't do it. I know there's no way Trowa could ever return my feelings, so I'd rather not face the rejection. I want to keep my dreams myself... and to my journal. I wonder if you got it back Duo." I stood there talking to myself, choking back a sob every once in a while.

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(Normal PoV)

Trowa got up shortly after Quatre did. "I wonder what that was all about..."

"Jesus Christ, Barton. Not even I'm that stupid." Hilde chided.

"And what's that suppose to mean Hilde?" Trowa turned to her, his eyes blazing with mixed emotions.

"If you're too blind to see it, you don't disserve to know! Maybe if you got your bangs cut, you'd be able to see better…" Everyone was silent. All of them knew, except for Dorothy of course. But Hilde was the first one to do something other then drop hints…

Trowa was silent. Normally that wouldn't be strange for him, but this was. He had always stood up for himself. But this time, he couldn't. `I should know what it is… I'm just to blind to see it! What is it!?'

"C'mon girls, lets go. I think stupid over here needs sometime to think." Relena grabbed her sister and Hilde and led them off to her Barbie pink car. (A/N: Ahhhh! The pink; it burns!!!)

"Tro? You ok?" Duo placed a hand on his shoulder, his normal jester's grin gone at the moment.

"No, I'm not Duo… Maybe we should call guys night off." Trowa refused to look up.

"No way, there are a few things I want to tell you guys." Wufei piped up.

"And I have a gift for Quatre. Go talk to him. Make him better, you always do. We'll get things ready for guy's night." Heero was walking towards Wufei's motorcycle as he spoke.

Trowa nodded. Wufei helped him up, seeing as Duo was already walking toward Heero. With a small smile, Wufei walked towards his boyfriends. Trowa forced a smile as he waved goodbye to them. He walked around the house to find Quatre, and found him on the porch.

"…I can't do it. I know there's no way Trowa could ever return my feelings, so I'd rather not face the rejection. I want to keep my dreams myself... and to my journal. I wonder if you got it back Duo. Or Heero…" Quatre choked back a sob as he finished talking.

Trowa stood there in awe. `Quatre… loves me? But, how? When? God, I really am as dense as the guys say! But that doesn't matter now, he loves me!'

(Quatre PoV)

I wiped my eyes and sat down, looking up at the sunset. "I wonder why none of them came after me…"

"Little one?" Oh shit, if Trowa sees that I've been crying… Thank Allah it wasn't very hard, which is really strange…

"I'm on the porch." I grabbed my jacket sleeve, thanking Allah that our uniforms were a dark color, and wiped my cheeks off.

"Are you alright?" He sat down next to me and put an arm around my shoulder. It was meant to be comforting, I know, but I was ecstatic. He was touching me!

"Ya, I'm fine. Why?"

"You took off pretty quick."

"Oh that, I was just hoping to get away from Dorothy." I'm going to Hell for this, I know it… I really need to stop lying to him…

"If you say so… C'mon, lets get to Duo's. Him and his lovers are at his place setting things up." He sat there, looking like he was pondering something. "But, maybe we shouldn't after all… I'd be afraid of walking in on them."

I laughed. Trowa could always make me laugh, always make everything better. "You perv…"

"You can't tell me there's no way I'm not right for thinking like that. Duo's got way too healthy of a libido for someone who's only seventeen…" He grinned as he helped me to stand up, leading me to his car.

"True. I think Duo's been taking Zechs' Viagra…" Trowa nearly choked on the air he was breathing.

"Are you kidding?! Milli's only 29!"

"Of course I'm kidding, you dork!"

"Good, `cause I sure as Hell don't wanna be like that in ten years…" Trowa commented offhandedly, grinning.

I just laughed as I got into the passenger seat of his car. He got in after shutting my door. The short ride to Duo's was a silent one. We pulled into the driveway, noting Noin's car was running. I went to get out but Trowa grabbed my hand.

"Hold on a sec." He brought his other hand up to my cheek and wiped a blood streak off my face. "Alright."

"T-thanks Trowa." A blush quickly replaced the blood he just wiped off my face.

"Your welcome, now lets go before we piss off the lovely couple. Oops, I mean, trio." Trowa opened his door then nearly ran to get mine for me. I broke out into a huge smile.

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"Trowa, I think you were right when you said…"

"Ya, I know." Trowa's eyes were wide from shock. We should have knocked on Duo's bedroom door before we went in.

"Oh Kisama, harder Duo!" We both blushed and laughed as we heard Wufei's muffled voice.

"Talk to Heero, oooooh God! Heero!, about that!" Apparently, Heero was screwing them both… Well that was pretty apparent when we walked in.

"I think if we stand here much longer, I'm going to get a nosebleed Trowa…" Trowa just laughed at my comment and lead me into the kitchen where Noin and Zechs were sitting.

"Hey boys, sorry we didn't warn you…" Noin said with a small chuckled when she saw my face.

"Ya, ya. Get out of here, go on your date or whatever it is the two of you have planned." Trowa said as he went for the fridge.

"Read your mind, Trowa." Came Zechs' reply.

I looked over to Trowa with every intent to say something. Really, I was going to! I swear! But Trowa was bent over reaching for a soda, which gave me a wonderful view of his ass. Did I ever tell you he has the most perfect ass ever? Well he does. I just sat there and stared. That is, until Zechs tapped my shoulder.

"You may want to wipe the drool off you chin." I snapped out of my daze only to have Noin and Zechs laugh at me.

"That's not funny you two!" I growled halfheartedly.

"Yes it is. Reminds me of Milli over here when we first started dating. He used to stare at my- MFF!" I put my hand over her mouth. Women! Great, now I'm starting to sound like Wufei…

"Shhhh!!" She nodded and I moved my hand.

"Hey Lu-Lu! Are Tro and Quat here yet?" Duo yelled down the stairs.

"First of all, how many times do I have to tell you not to call me that Duo! And second, ya there here…" Noin hated Duo's little nickname for her.

"Hey Quatre…" Trowa had finally gotten his soda. Damn… "Viagra."

I nearly fell over laughing. No one had heard what Trowa had said seeing as he whispered it in my ear. Noin and Zechs were looking at me as if I had gone insane. Duo heard my hysterical laughter so he came running down the stairs.

"What's so funny?" He looked utterly confused. Seeing him caused my laughter to double, seeing as Trowa comment was about him anyway…

"Just an inside joke between the two of us." Trowa was trying not to laugh too.

By the time I finally calmed down, Wufei and Heero had made their way downstairs as well.

"Um, mind filling us in Duo?" Heero asked.

"I would if I knew. Ask Trowa."

"Hey bro, mind sharing?"

"Ya, actually I do." He shot his brother a feral grin.

"Hn, whatever you say…"

"Someone help me up please." I asked, hand outstretched.

"Sure." Trowa took my hand and pulled me up. He hesitated before letting go of my hand. I didn't miss the look on everyone's faces.

"Why don't we go down to the basement? I'm bored…" Wufei said with a small pout. He walked out of the room and down the stairs.

"Alrighty then, lets get this guy's night started!" Duo said, pouncing on Heero's back as if demanding a piggyback ride. Heero started off down the steps. "Bye Zechs, Noin! Have fun, and don't do anything I wouldn't do!"

"I guess getting stoned is out of the question then…" Zechs called back with a snort.

"Hey, I heard that!" Duo yelled up the steps. "There are other things I don't do!"

"Ya and two of them are standing up here!" Noin replied, referring to Trowa and myself.

"That's only because they should be doing each other!" Wufei, surprisingly, yelled back for his lover. Noin just laughed and let herself be led out by Zechs.

"That was *so* not funny you guys!" I yelled running down the stairs. "I'm gonna kick your ass Chang Wufei!"

What a fun way to start Guy's Night…