Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ The Hurting Arc ❯ What Happened? ( Chapter 1 )

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Warning: Most of these song fics, we have changed the song to somewhat fit what the characters are feeling. Some people may think the characters are out of character, but we don't. Shouen Ai, language. Some warnings will change as the series progresses.

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I, Heero Yui, was looking for my lover, again. Duo Maxwell was late, again, and the rest of the Gundam Wing pilots were probably waiting for us. Running up the final flight of stairs, I hoped Duo had beat me to our room at the dorms. Turning the handle, and finding it unlocked, I braced myself for the braided boy's enthusiastic greeting. The giant, full body hugs were becoming a pleasurable daily occurrence. Being in love was something I was never programmed for. Helpless, hopelessly, in love for the first time ever, and with Duo Maxwell.

From the time I became a Gundam pilot in this war, I had been attracted to all of the other pilots, but the first one I met was the most distracting human I had ever set eyes on. I had never interacted with children, as a child. Being in a high classed high school was J's idea of the perfect place to hide me. Who would look for the Perfect Solder, in a snobby prep school? The classes were a snooze, most of them I had finished completely by the time I was eight. Meeting Duo was heart stopping, but seeing him in class was earth shattering. Polar opposites, do, attract.

I opened the door slow and quiet, hoping I could surprise the prankster within, at his own game, but I got another surprise altogether.

"Duo, why are you packing?" Was the war back on? The relief, of the last three months, had been a blessing if you happened to believe in a benevolent god. We were preparing for it to come to end any day now, that's what the meeting was for today. The Alliance, in my estimation has rebuilt and trained replacements for every damn mobile suit we had destroyed. Peace talks were breaking down between the alliance council of delegates.

"I'm leaving! Get the fuck out of my way, Yui." Duo growled through his clenched teeth, as he jammed the last item into his bag and zipped it up. He swung the bag up, almost hitting me as I approached him. I backed up and closed the door, before leaning on it. Feeling the anger, like waves crashing over me, I started hearing the song we had discussed last night, how angry and sad it was at the same time. The sound of a bullet at the beginning, and then the poignant lines.

// Memories consume
Like opening the wound
I'm picking me apart again //

"Why are you leaving, do you have a mission?" I asked in my best bland voice, the one I used when I was shook-up, that was devoid of all feeling. The song was from an old earth band, my favorite, named Linkin' Park. Being with Duo, exposed me to music and his favored later 20th / early 21st century music. We discussed and picked apart motivation for writing a song in bed late at night. This was our version of afterglow.

//You all assume
I'm safe here in my room (unless I try to start again) //

"...how could you do this to me?" My attention swung back to the present like a wrecking ball plowing into my middle. I didn't even hear the first part of the accusation. What had he done to make Duo so angry?

// I don't want to be the one
The battles always choose
''Cause inside I realize
That I'm the one confused //

"I don't understand. What are you talking about?" Starting to feel really pissed, I calmed my voice down.

// I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream //

"Fine Yui, I am soo fucking sick of your bull shit lies. Why don't you go tell them, to someone that cares?" Looking into Duo's flashing eyes and hearing the coldness in his voice, I hesitated to reply.

// I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean //

"Why wont you listen to me? ..." I was interrupted before I could explain my bafflement.

// I don't know how I got this way
I know it's not alright //

"What? And listen to more lies? I have better things to do with MY measly life. "

// So I'm breaking the habit

breaking the habit
Tonight //

"You are NOT leaving, Duo." Panic was full blown, now the only person in the world, who loved me for being me, was walking out on me.

// Clutching my cure
I tightly lock the door
I try to catch my breath again
I hurt much more
Than anytime before
I had no options left again //

"You don't get it! I'm fucking leaving, now. Move your ass!" This was said as I batted away his projectile of a duffle bag with my left arm. Seeing the motion of Duo hand, I reached back with my own right hand and grabbed my gun. Staring into Duo's snub nosed revolver for the second time in my life, I knew this Mexican stand off had only two outcomes. There was no way I could bring myself to shoot Duo. Duo then shot his own pillow, again lifting the muzzle back to point at my chest. I slowly moved away from the door and let him leave me.

// I'll paint it on the walls
''Cause I'm the one at fault
I'll never fight again
And this is how it ends //

"Sometimes I, feel like I trusted you to well" Duo said as he walked towards the door. An obscure line from Don't Stay by Linkin' Park. This would have puzzled me if I hadn't had this surrealistic song filtering through my head, this whole time. He put his gun up and grabbed the handles of his duffle bag.

// I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
But now I have some clarity
To show you what I mean //

"This time I'm mistaken, for handing you a heart worth breaking." I countered with a line from his own favorite band Nickelback, a song named How You Remind Me, I think. He looked up for the last time after I said that and there were tears in my Duo's eyes. In the three months he and I played house, we laughed a lot, but we never cried

// I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
So I'm breaking the habit
Breaking the habit
Tonight //

I stepped forward to grab him into a hug, but he bolted out the door before I got there. I closed the door to my room and leaned both my hands and forehead against it. I wanted to go after him but I couldn't.

Song lyrics from: Breaking the Habit by Linkin' Park