Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ The Missing Piece ❯ Chapter 39

Title: The Missing Piece

Author: Skeren Dreamera, with Bagelbunion co-writing

Archive: http://www.gundam-wing-fanfiction.net/ Mediaminer.org (under Skeren Dreamera) http://www.afallenangel.net/makotosagara/frames/fanfiction.html

Categ ory: Sci Fi additions, Yaoi/Shounen Ai

Pairings: 5x2, 3x1, 4x3, 3x4x1 2+6, 4+6, 1+6, 1+2 only kinda

Disclaimer: I don't own Gundam Wing, so please, don't sue me, it would be pointless!

Rating: NC-17

Spoilers: Heero's Zero stuff

Warnings: Just the OOC warning that applies to the whole thing.

Contact: Mickeofas@yahoo.com

Notes: *thoughts* More angst. Lemon, but it focuses around Duo's feelings more than the sex itself.

Begin part thirty nine

Duo lifted his head, looking into Wufei's face while trying not to fold into the tears he'd succumbed to over an hour before. There was so much pain in his eyes, and he had a feeble, determined expression on his face. Wufei gripped Duo's chin and held it there before smiling softly. "You can cry or smile anytime you want. I will protect you. I'll keep you safe. I'm here for you." Wufei leaned forward and kissed Duo's lips softly. "Always." Wufei promised.

Duo's eyes were so lost, and he gazed at Wufei, he trusted the Chinese boy, but his words weren't his own. "But I promised..."

"Make me a new promise?" Wufei asked quietly, holding Duo's eyes to his own.

"What promise..?" Duo didn't try to break the gaze. He needed something to yank him free of his own inner terrors, now that they had returned to taunt him.

"To smile when you are happy, and to cry when you are sad, and to let me hug you, when you need me to?" Wufei whispered. "And to not let our memories terrorize us?" Wufei added and gave Duo another little kiss.

"I want to promise... I promised I would always smile... My memories... I promise to try." Duo squeezed Wufei a bit more, his eyes solemn as he watched Wufei.

Wufei kissed him a third time, a cautious brush of lips. "Good, that's all I ask for. Now... Let's try to get some sleep alright?" Wufei rubbed his hands up and down Duo's back, trying to encourage relaxation.

"Alright." Duo's voice was raspy, having turned raw from his harsh, somewhat restrained sobs. He'd tried so hard not to let them out and he still failed. He ducked his head away from Wufei's gaze, closing his eyes. He so terribly wished he could tell Wufei, but he wouldn't. He just couldn't.

"Shh... It's alright. The sun is warm. The grass is green. Remember?" Wufei asked as he pulled Duo against him again, hoping the physical closeness would do him good.

Duo shuddered violently as he heard the word 'remember' and he hid his face. "I don't want to remember." His braid curled around Wufei's side, but all of Duo seemed barely alive at the moment, like someone tried to paint him in black and white.

"Shh... I'm sorry. Repeat after me: The sun is warm. The grass is green." Wufei kissed him on the forehead again, nuzzling his bangs. "It's alright, you don't have to if you don't want to. I'm here."

"I do have to... But you're here, make it better, I want to feel like me again. Please?" Duo lifted his head, staring into Wufei's eyes then. There was a need, a desperate one. He needed to not sleep. He needed the physical cleansing.

Wufei rocked his neck back and forth, working out the kinks before looking back at Duo. "Of course. What do you want me to do?"

"Show me... I'm not unworthy, not weak or useless... Show me I'm clean inside..." Duo's voice was quiet, his eyes pleading. It would be something he could ignore then; he just had to make it leave him alone. Not to forget again, just push it back.

"No you're not. Your not useless." Wufei kissed Duo and pulled away, attempting to look into his eyes again. "You're not weak."

"I am, I couldn't keep myself whole." Duo lifted his eyes to meet Wufei's gaze steadily, his voice soft and rough from the earlier tears.

"No you're not." Wufei soothed again, and kissed Duo more deeply this time, his hands clutching Duo's cheeks as he did so. Duo leaned into the kiss, his desperation to be shown that he isn't unworthy of being loved, that he isn't dirtied, being transmitted in the touch of lips. He didn't try to touch Wufei's body; his hands staying firmly where they last fell. Wufei kissed Duo harder before pulling away. "Duo..." He whispered softly and began to kiss Duo's jaw with light feathery kisses slowly moving down to his neck.

Duo shivered, tilting his head up a little. "Make me clean again." The murmur is barely a breath, not really meant to be heard by Wufei, and Duo's eyes closed a little, enjoying the familiar safe kisses for a moment before rolling over, pulling Wufei over him.

"Yes Duo." Wufei purred softly and went with the roll, leaning over Duo gently.

Duo shivered, his violet eyes gazing at Wufei intently, and his arms were still wrapped around him. "I need to feel worthy again." The memories were whispering, pushing, but he didn't let them in.

"You want me to make you feel worthy?" Wufei whispered softly and gave Duo a little kiss on the forehead before he pulled back to look at his eyes. His hands were petting Duo's hair, softly, gently.

"The memories... They took everything away. I feel undeserving, a badly made tool..." Duo trailed off, turning his face away after his soft murmur. That was getting too close to telling and he couldn't. Wufei didn't know what to do, so he just kissed Duo again, and adjusted his position slightly to rub his hands over Duo's chest. Duo nuzzled at Wufei's neck, his eyes closing. "I need you..." Duo trailed off even as he continued in his mind. *To wipe away the nameless faces, the horrors reaped of my body, just make them go away by caring.* Duo leaned up, kissing Wufei as his thoughts spiraled across his mind.

"I need you too." Wufei tried to mumble into their kiss. *I just want to make Duo feel better... I want him to feel loved.*

Duo shivered, breaking the seal of their lips as he tilted his head back. "Please..." It's a plaintive plea, his knee sliding along the outside of Wufei's leg as he parted them, he needed the contact so badly with someone of choice after the hail of memory.

"Duo..." Wufei moaned as he slid closer. He was still fully clothed as he slid down Duo's body, kissing Duo's chest slowly.

Duo whimpered softly, accepting the tenderness Wufei was showing even if he wanted to move more quickly. He needed this as well, but he wasn't sure what he needed more. Instead he just let his hands thread into Wufei's hair, tugging the tail free. Wufei stretched back up over Duo's body and bit him gently on the nose. He pulled away a tad, kneeling and began to unbutton his shirt, smiling at Duo as he did so. Duo's fingers lifted from where they had been resting and hovered uncertainly over Wufei's skin, as though confirming that he was allowed to touch still.

"It's alright." Wufei assured as his smile grew, and he removed his shirt and tossed it aside onto the floor.

Duo rested his fingers on the tan skin then trailed them up, his own two tone body still showing in most of it's glory. He'd been a little stunned how easily the others had gotten used to him like this. But that was aside from the point. Instead he ran his hands over Wufei's sides, palms flat as he just felt him. That was the worst of it all, they seemed to know of his need for contact and refused to allow him to touch back.

"Mm..." Wufei hummed again, enjoying the contact of his beloved touching him. He bent over again and began to suck on Duo's neck, leaving little wet trails here and there.

Duo arched a little, fingers tightening slightly before they slid o his back, then up to his shoulders. It was like he was mapping him with his hands and his eyes were falling closed. It helped more than Wufei could know. Wufei sighed and kissed a trail up from Duo's neck to his earlobe and licked it and sucked softly, as his hands ran down Duo's own body resting on Duo's hips, massaging softly. Duo groaned lowly, lifting his silk clad hips into Wufei's hands as need just seemed to wash through him, his hand pressing Wufei a little closer. Wufei pulled up slightly and pulled Duo's boxers off in one swift motion. He latched himself back to Duo's neck and began to rub his still clothed erection into Duo's. Duo whimpered loudly, tipping his head further back, even as he further parted his legs to Wufei. It was a complete submission. It was so different because he had no doubt in his mind that he wanted it. Wufei moaned loudly and pulled Duo closer. He kissed Duo hungrily, not waiting to slip his tongue into his mouth. Duo moved as Wufei pulled, returning the kiss as his lips fell open to Wufei's tongue in invitation, his eyes partially shut as he watched Wufei through the kiss. He even went so far as to encourage Wufei a bit, his legs moving a bit further apart before he planted his heels and pressed upwards with a little moan into the kiss.

"Duo..." Wufei pulled away and began to unfasten his pants, fumbling a little with the tie as he watched Duo's eyes.

Duo met the gaze as he tightened his arms, the violet orbs showing hunger, need, desire, desperation, and some darker things that were impossible for the oriental pilot to grasp. "Fei... Please."

"Yes Duo." Wufei slipped out of his pants and leaned over Duo again, kissing him tenderly as he guided his erection to Duo's entrance and rubbed it slowly, urging patience.

Duo whined softly with the slow progress but didn't protest, he'd surrendered fully in his body language to Wufei, and he wasn't exactly going to take it back. Wufei slid forward slowly, reaching out for Duo's lips with his own as he did so, moaning at the heat that surrounded him but putting his own needs aside for the moment. Duo returned the kiss hungrily, pressing up into Wufei's cock eagerly as he finished seating him, his spread body pressed fully against him as his hands roamed down Wufei's back to his backside, kneading.

Wufei growled and began to bite Duo's neck carefully as he pulled back and thrust forward once, not gently, but not forcefully either. Duo arched his neck and body, thoughts touching on him briefly. *They'd made him want this; the feeling of being dominated so. Subject a virgin to the right things first and they can never change their wants...*

Wufei pulled back and thrust forward again, then began to slowly build a rhythm, moaning lowly as his hands wrapped around Duo's shoulders and pulled him close, wanting full body contact. He finally broke eye contact.

Duo assisted that wish the moment he understood it, pressing himself higher even as he moved his arms around Wufei more tightly, holding himself up off the bed by his heels and the arms that clung to Wufei as he groaned. His desperate need simply grew, and he found words. "Please, less gentle, I know you have more for me."

Wufei moaned again, having moving past words now entirely, and his hips began to piston faster into the teen pinned under him even as his breath became shallow. Duo met his movements, burying his nose against Wufei's shoulder, his eyes closed as he took in his taste, touch, smell and sound. It nearly shocked him when his orgasm rolled out of him, as it was just suddenly there, a violent release of cleansing emotion that could only last so long. Wufei came a moment later, feeling Duo clasp him and Duo's name was a whisper on his lips. He slunk down on top of Duo, trying to catch his breath, still caressing Duo softly with his hands.

Duo sank back to the bed, trembling with the force of the orgasm that just ripped through him. "Thank you..."

"You're welcome." Wufei whispered and kissed Duo's neck gently. "I love you." It was the first time he'd said it when he wasn't in a trance.

Duo smiled slightly, blushing a little then, a tad sad, but nothing like before. "My sweet lover." Duo tipped his face to kiss atop Wufei's head, squeezing him once before finally drifting into an exhausted sleep he'd been holding off by pure will. He couldn't let Wufei know he still felt worthless even then.

To be continued.