Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ The Sun You Seek ❯ 3 ( Chapter 3 )

The Sun You Seek

by Oyuki

Standard disclaimers apply.

AN: This is what I'm going to do, I'm going to try to get a chapter of this out and a chapter of How to Say It (my 1xR fic,) every week. I'm gonna try! I have lots of things to do and sometimes my mind isn't on writing a chapter.

Chapter Four

"Why'd you do that?" cried Hilde, yet again, an hour later. "I don't want to see him, and I doubt you want to see her! In fact, that's the last thing we both want, and you know that!" she said getting off the bed. They had been arguing like that for the last hour, neither of them getting off the bed.

"It's about your business, Hilde. That's important regardless of whether you want to see him or not," he said with his usual calmness. "I'm going to take a shower now, we're going to meet him in," he looked at the clock on the other side of the bed, "in one hour. I'll be out in ten minutes," Heero told her going into the bathroom.

Hilde sighed. 'Damn, after a year and a half and we're going to see him, and her too, probably. Seeing those two any time in this life time will be too soon for me.' She shook her head and began searching in her bag for some clothes. "Heero, you want me to get you some clothes out?" she yelled, making sure he heard her over the spray of the shower.

"Yeah, thanks!" Heero braced his hands on the wall of the shower. He was going to see the two people that had caused him the most pain in his entire life in two hours. He let the hot spray of the shower flow over his body. He was tense, as soon as Hilde had mentioned that she didn't want to see him his muscles had tightened. 'I have to show her that I've moved on; that I don't care about her anymore. I need both of them to see that what they did didn't break neither me or Hilde.' Heero rinsed the shampoo on his head and lathered the little puff in the shower. "Heero, hurry up! You know how long it takes me to get ready!" he heard Hilde yell. He smiled. She was a good friend, the only good outcome of Duo's and Relena's cheating. She was his best friend now, and he was sure he was her best friend too.

He turned the hot water off and picked up the towel. The sting of the hot water had done nothing to take away his bitter thoughts. All the happy memories he had of Relena were clouded by that day; the day he'd received Hilde's call. He discarded the wet towel and wrapped a dry one around his waist, a smaller one going on his head to dry his unruly hair.

"I put your clothes on the bed," Hilde said as she looked through her own clothes once more to find the 'right' ones to wear.

"Thank you," murmured Heero under his towel. He walked to the bed. He didn't turn around until he heard Hilde go into the bathroom. That's when he noticed the clothes she had laid out for him. "Hilde, you don't want me to wear this! I'll look--"

He heard the hiss of the shower. He yelled this time, "Hilde, I'm not wearing this!"

"Oh, come on! Do it for me! Haven't you seen what I'm wearing? We're in California Heero! In Los Angeles to be exact, please!" she said sweetly.

"Fine, but you owe me a big ass favor for this! And you'll have to pay me in any way I choose!" he yelled, laughing at what he was going to wear. Stereotypical, California guy clothes. He looked at what Hilde had picked out for herself. He laughed aloud this time. A light blue, spaghetti strapped sundress with matching sandals. 'What are you planning, Hilde?' his mind asked him.

*~*~*~*

An hour later, Heero and Hilde walked down to the restaurant. Hilde glanced at Heero and giggled. He was wearing loose jeans, with his boxer shorts sticking out of the waist band, his short hair was gelled up into little spikes. He was wearing a light blue button down shirt, which was unbuttoned, with nothing underneath, his smooth, tanned chest showing. Around his neck was a pooka shell necklace. "Don't laugh, Hilde. look at what your wearing."

She rolled her eyes and looked down at her short sundress. "It's hot outside, and unlike you, I haven't gotten a tan. I need one. But just a little one because we still have to shoot tomorrow and they want me really pale," she said dramatically.

"That's pretty stupid since your background is the beach and you look as pale as a ghost," he said chuckling.

"Hey, shut up!" she said and punched in hard on the arm.

When the words had come out of her mouth two heads immediately turned to them. One with honey blonde hair and the other with long dark brown hair. Duo stood up from his chair and motioned for them to come over to the table for four.

"Told you she'd come," whispered Hilde to Heero.

They both approached the table. Heero pulled out the chair for Hilde, touching his hand to her shoulder for a brief moment. A gesture which made both Relena and Duo frown.

"Hi," said Relena shyly. She was addressing both of them buy neither of them made a comment.

"Hi, Hilde. Hi Heero," said Duo hesitantly. Neither Hilde nor Heero looked like they wanted to be there. Their expressions were almost bored. Hilde didn't say anything, and Heero merely nodded. An awkward silence fell among the four young people.

"It's good to see you guys again," said Relena quietly, looking mostly at Heero. "You guys look good, have you been in LA for long?"

Both Heero and Hilde looked ahead, neither wanting to see the faces of the people that had betrayed them. They didn't comment to anything. 'I can't do this,' thought Hilde. Her thoughts echoed Heero's.

"Yeah well, I don't wish I could say the same about you two," snapped Hilde. Underneath the table Heero place his hand on top of Hilde's, a sign of comfort. He was surprise to find that Hilde was losing her cool, her hand was clenched tightly into a fist, he knew, without looking, that the knuckles were white.

In another effort to break the thick silence Duo said, "You guys want to order something? I thought we could discuss our business over breakfast."

Hilde was about to shake her head when Heero intersected her by saying, "Excuse us for a minute." He pushed her chair out and allowed her to stand up. "Hilde, come on. He's being adult about this, you should too," he whispered.

"I can't, Heero," said Hilde with tears in her eyes. She was trying to blink them back. "I can't stop thinking about what they did! How can you forgive them? I know it hurt you just the way it hurt me."

"I did, but we can't live in the past! We have to move on and grow up. We learned a lesson from that!"

"I'm not living in the past, it's just that I can't forget how much it hurt me! Don't ask me to have breakfast with the, please!" she cried, running her hand through her still-wet, shoulder length hair.

Heero looked at her pained expression. "Maybe we can get over them, by seeing how happy they are with each other."

"Heero, you are stronger than me, you can do this! I gave my heart to Duo and he stomped on it!"

"And you think that I didn't give mine to Relena without apprehensions?" he whispered. "The first-- the only-- person that I've ever loved and she breaks my heart, Hilde! We can do this, we can show them that they didn't break us? And if you can't do it for you, then do it for me, show me you're strong!"

She hugged him briefly. Aware that several of the other customers had turned to look a them. "But I don't have to be nice to either one of them," she stated.

Several questions ran through Duo's and Relena's heads. One of which was, 'What is going on between them?'

Duo took Relena's hand and kissed it. He looked at her only to see that she was looking at where Heero and Hilde were. "What's wrong?" he asked her, a little annoyed by the way she had been looking at Heero.

She shook her head and turned to him. "Nothing, I was just wondering if they're... you know, dating? They seem pretty close," she answered coolly, she had also noticed the way her boyfriend was looking at Hilde.

Hilde and Heero came back to the table. Hilde's heart twisted in her chest when she saw Duo holding Relena's hand, and it had hurt badly when he'd picked it up and kissed it. She sent a meaningful glance at Heero. He smiled softly at her.

Duo frowned a little. He didn't like the fact that something was going on between them. Relena had told him that Heero was a nice guy, that he was a great boyfriend to her, but he still didn't like it. Hilde deserved much better.

The waitress came over to their table. They ordered their breakfast. The quiet was getting to Duo and Relena, after all, they were the ones that had something to be ashamed of. It wasn't like Hilde or Heero had been sneaking behind anyone's backs. They were free to do what they wanted. "It's nice here, do you guys spend a lot of time here?" he asked.

"No, I'm here on a shoot for a few days," said Hilde flatly, not elaborating.

"Oh, what kind of shoot?" asked Relena politely. She smiled at Hilde.

"I'm a model."

"Really? I never knew you were interested in modeling," said Duo.

"I wasn't until a year ago. I work for a magazine, I do cover pages and appear in the magazine, I don't do runway," said Hilde, sounding a little bored. Normally she would elaborate on how much she liked doing what she did, but today was different.

"And you and Heero? Did you come with Hilde? asked Relena.

"No, I'm a photographer. We met by chance."

"Oh, well what a coincidence..." Relena trailed off. Her mind was even more confused than before.

'Why would they be sleeping in the same room if he didn't come with her and they met by chance?' thought Duo.

"Are we playing 20 questions or are going to talk about the scrap yard any time soon?" snapped Hilde. Heero looked at her, but she didn't look back. She wanted to be out of there soon.

The waitress chose that moment to bring them the items they had each ordered. After placing their dishes in front of them she left.

"Okay, I wanted to propose a deal to you, Hilde," said Duo. "The scrap yard is doing very well, especially the last two years. Recently I was approached by a large business--"

"I'm not selling, to them or to you or to anybody," stated Hilde angrily. "That business has been in my family for generations! I'm not going to give it away so someone else, whether it be you or a large company, can reap the benefits of what I've worked hard for!"

"But you don't even run you part of the business! You're out here modeling--"

"Who said she didn't run her business?" asked Heero.

"Heero, I don't think you should be getting into--"

"And who are you to tell Heero what to do? In fact, none of us have any business talking about anything because I'm not selling my 51% if MY company!"

"I'm not talking about selling, Hilde. I'm talking about a merger with a bigger company. Their name would be changed to accommodate us too. I don't want you to sell, just to look over their proposal. Calm down."

Hilde shook her head. She knew she overreacted by seeing Duo with Relena made her angry. She didn't know how Heero could be so calm. "Give me the documents, I'll read over them," she said calmly.

tbc...

AN: Okay, here's another chapter, and it's a long one too! Anyway, it wasn't in my mind to continue the story, but now that I have, I don't know where it's going. I don't want it to be like Hilde's Fashion, so I need some ideas, or something.

The Sun You Seek

by Oyuki

I'm not gonna write that the characters don't belong to me. Everybody knows that so I will not mention it at the beginning of the chapters anymore.

AN: This contains spoilers for the Mandy Moore movie (if anybody cares!) A Walk to Remember. It really was a nice movie, made me cry. And I KNOW Heero is OOC, but this is my fic and you don't have to read it if that makes you mad!

Chapter Five

"Well that was uncomfortable," said Hilde throwing herself on the bed. She looked at Heero. "So, what did you think?"

Heero just looked at Hilde. "I don't know. What about you?"

"Oh don't even get me started. All that ass hole wanted was to tell me that I should sell my company. He could have asked me that on the phone, I would have said no, but still!" She rubbed her face with both her hands. "Oh God, how could I have been so stupid? I fall madly in love with this great guy and give him part of my company and what does he do? He cheats on me with this best friend's girlfriend! I end up broken hearted trying to get on with my life and he wants me to sell my company so he could make some money!"

"He doesn't want you to sell, he wants you to think about merging with another company. It could be a good thing. You will get much more exposure and more money."

Hilde bit her lip. "What?" asked Heero.

"It would mean working with him sometimes, you know?" she finally said. "Heero, he hurt me so much. I don't even want to see him again."

"Hilde, we have to move on with our lives, and I have the feeling that you can't let go."

"I've accepted that he loves her, Heero! I know he does, I know he thought he loved me but he didn't! I know all of this, you don't have to tell me. It's just that he's the only guy I've ever fallen for, and I won't lie to you, if he had come back to me two months after we broke up, I would have taken him back! I just can't get passed the fact that he lied and cheated! That is what I can't get over."

"But you-- I don't... I think I've taken it better than you. Yes it hurt, but I can't let that ruin my life. It made me afraid of relationships, and that's why I label our relationship as 'friendship' but I can't let that pain keep me from something that I know will bring me benefits."

Hilde sighed. "This will mean you will be seeing Relena. Will you be able to handle that? Will you be able to turn away when they kiss? When they hug? When they say 'I love you'?" she said looking at him.

His eyes turned downcast. "I'll try."

"It's going to hurt, Heero."

"But not as much as before. It's been a year and a half, Hilde." He shook his head. Seeing her hadn't affected him as much as he'd thought. He had been able to turn away, to hide his feelings. "Life is full of pain, Hilde. We can't expect to live lives full of happiness all the time. Things happen."

"But I don't want to live in constant pain." She sighed. "I just want to meet somebody. I do want to get on with my life. I need to, I know. Maybe I should get back to dating and so should you. We should go out to a club tonight, Heero."

"You know that's not really my scene. Remember what happened last time?"

"Yeah so we got drunk and ended up having sex, like that's never happened before," she said with a wave of her hand.

"No that! I got into a fight with some guy, remember?" he said giving her a strange look.

She smiled sheepishly. "Oh that time! I remember!" She stopped smiling and looked up at him. Seriously she said, "Why do we always end up in bed with each other Heero?"

He shrugged. "I don't know. Why do we never talk about it? In the morning we act as if nothing ever happened," he said quietly.

"Because it doesn't ruin our friendship, I guess. How did we even become friends? I didn't even talk to you before... that happened. I'd only seen you when you came over to hang out with Duo. Anyway, getting back to why we never talk about our sexual relationship. I have no idea. Maybe because we are so familiar with each other and we don't want to just have a one night stand, something that doesn't mean anything to us with somebody we don't know."

"But you and me don't have meaningful sex. If I get what you're saying, then we only have sex because we don't have anybody else, that is familiar to us, to have sex with when we're horny. And we do it because at least we care for each other because we're friends. Is that what you're saying?"

"I guess," she said and shrugged. "I don't know, Heero! Are we going to the club or downstairs to the bar or what?"

"I'm not up to going to a club. Don't feel like dancing. Why don't we go to the movies and then to dinner or the other way around? Why? You feel like getting a little drunk? You know we can just go out and then get it on," he suggested with a smile.

She ignored that last part. "Okay, we'll go to the movies. As long as I don't have to stay here. Then I'll think and think and I'll go nuts," she said. Her face suddenly lighted up into a mischievous smile, "Unless, I can convince you to stay here and we can... do more interesting things. You know, because we're friends and everything..." It was her turn to tease.

He smiled, she had never suggested they stay home and do... anything. It was always spur of the moment stuff like, 'Oh since we're here we might as well go ahead,'. He laughed and answered, "Let's go to the movies, what to ya want to watch?"

"I don't know, what are you in the mood for? I don't know if I'd rather watch Queen of the Damned or something mushy like A Walk to Remember. What do you want to watch?"

"Whatever I don't care," he said turning around to go to the bathroom. "But you better have decided when I get out of that bathroom."

*~*~*~*

Hilde was crying her eyes out during the movie. She was at the part where Jamie, was telling Lamden that she had leukemia and that she had stopped responding to treatments. Heero just looked at her. Hilde's legs were bent, her arms were resting on her knees and she was crying like she was the one that was going to die. She bit her lip. "You okay?" he asked.

Hilde nodded. "It's just that their relationship was too good to last. I knew it, one of them was going to die," she whispered. He smiled and put his arm around her. She lifted up the armrest of the seat and rested her head against his shoulder. He smelled really good, and there was always that something that attracted her to him. Sexually attracted her. Maybe she needed a steady boyfriend. Something in the back of her had said, 'What about Heero?' She sighed and looked up at him. That feeling of attraction kicked in. She lifter her hand to put her hand around his neck and pulled him down for a kiss. She surprised herself, they had never done anything that would be considered more than friendly in public. Their other relationship was always kept behind closed doors.

Heero kissed her back. He had never denied her that, just like she always kissed him back, but a strange feeling took hold of him. It pushed for him to kiss Hilde back, not caring if a million people were watching.

The rest of the movie was ignored. Neither of them wanting to break the other's embrace. Their light kisses became heated. "I don't want to do it at the movies," whispered Hilde in between kisses.

Heero broke their kiss and looked at her. "Why would we?"

"You aren't the least bit experimental," she whined.

"It's not that, but you're the one who said you wanted to go dancing. I'm just complying with your wishes."

"Okay, but let's not go dancing anymore. Let's take a walk in the park, have a little picnic of sorts," she suggested.

"Mmm... I'm not too hungry, can we skip the picnic and just take a walk in the park?" he asked looking down at her blue eyes.

"Okay, but let's leave right now, I don't think I could take it to see the girl die or whatever."

The two young people got up and left the theater. Hilde and Heero walked out and headed for Heero's rental car. They drove off to a park nearby. It wasn't dark yet, but the sun was starting to give signs of setting. "I love weather like this and this time of the day, don't you, Heero?"

"I guess, but the weather doesn't change much in LA, does it?" he asked her.

"I guess not, I've never been here for more than a week though, so I don't know." They walked closely together, side by side not quite touching. Hilde felt the urge to take hold of his hand and walk hand in hand. She fought the urge and looked up at his face. His hair was still slightly spiked, she was surprised at that. His hair was unruly, stubborn... just like he was. Unconsciously, her hand reached out for his and she intertwined their fingers.

Surprised, Heero looked down at her, their eyes held for a moment before both of them looked away in embarrassment, but their hands still held each other's. They walked in silence for about five minutes, the silence wasn't unwelcome, both their minds swimming with strange thoughts. He risked a glance her way. She was looking straight ahead, the sinking sun made her pale skin take an olive tone almost. 'Damn... I never noticed how pretty-- how beautiful-- she is,' his mind said. He studied her features, her delicate nose, her full, pink lips. Lips that had kissed him so many times in more than one place... Her shoulder length hair was now dry, the light wind keeping it away from her face.

Hilde was aware that Heero was watching her, he had been for a while now. A slight blush crept to her cheeks. She smiled slightly and squeezed his hand briefly.

A knot formed in Heero's stomach at her actions. 'Is it happening again? Can this happen again?' his mind asked. He stopped abruptly and pulled her into his arms. "I don't know what's happening," he said. "I don't know what this is, but I don't want it to stop. I need you..." he trailed off.

She sighed and buried her head in his chest. "I think I love you," Heero whispered.

She took a deep breath, "Is that such a bad thing?"

"No, but it will be if you don't feel the same way. I don't think I could take--"

Hilde interrupted him by placing two fingers on his lips. "And what if I do? We've both been alone for so long, Heero. And I'm afraid of making a mistake, could we be making a mistake?" she asked him.

"That's a chance that... a chance that we can take, if you feel the same way. Do you love me, Hilde?" he whispered in her ear.

"I think I do. Let's take our time."

"Let's not rush into anything. I swear that I would never do anything to hurt you, Hilde. That's not an empty promise, I swear. I know what it is like to be cheated on, and I would never do it to you."

"Me too, I know all too well what it is like to be on the receiving end. I promise."

They kissed, tenderly and walked deeper into the park.

When they got back to the hotel, neither of them was sure if they should sleep in the same room that night. Hilde took the chance and kissed him, then asked if he wanted to come in. He smiled at her and complied.

That night was the first time Hilde and Heero made love. Before it had been just sex for mutual satisfaction. This time it was slow and sweet, full of promises both of them hoped they could keep. The morning would change nothing.

*~*~*~*

Relena and Duo were cuddled together watching an old movie. Their minds, however, were not on the movie. Relena's mind was in the way Heero had held Hilde at the restaurant. She had hated Hilde for a long time, before she and Heero had found out about her and Duo. When Duo had moved in with her, that hate had stopped. A dull ache settled in her heart now that she knew that Hilde had Heero.

Duo was a different story. He wanted Hilde to be happy, but not with Heero. Knowing that Heero slept next to her at night angered him. Hilde would always be his, he was her first...

Tbc…