Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ Waiting for you ❯ Heart of Lead, mind of sand ( Chapter 1 )

WAITING FOR YOU

CH: 1/?

TYPE: YAOI

COUPLES: None

SERIES: Gundam Wing

 

It seems I have walked for miles on end and I always reach the same conclusion. That life, in itself, is meaningless. People struggle day to day with toils of reality while I choose not to do so. They say I am mad, insane,….even delusional. That while I may have saved the world and colonies combined I am not stable. But I see myself as the only stable one around here. Hell, maybe I am “mad”. I have spent so many years being poked, proded, tested, trained and tortured that I can't feel anymore. Or maybe I have forgotten how to do so. Even Quatre, of all people, is questioning my sanity to the point of sending me here. This hollow shell of reality that to no extent do I belong. But, here I sit. I stare out this window as I do everyday watching the people below past by without a glance. I peer through these metal bars and look for any sign that he has come back. The boy with the long chestnut braid and the joker's grin. A boy who has gotten to the very core of my existence so that it pains me to think of his absence. Yet, here I sit, day by day, night through night waiting for his return. They say he's dead, but I don't believe that to be true. It can't be, I wont allow it. SO here I sit with my face of stone and my heart of lead. Listening to my mind tell my heart to move on. Listening to my Heart to my Head to let it go. This is what I have become, a shell so consumed with love that my mind can't will it to move. So here I remain until the day my Shinigami returns to take me to the darkest abiss of this godforsaken world.