Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ You've Got a Friend in Me: The 1x5 Side Story ❯ For Trust ( Chapter 2 )

Name: For Trust

Series: You've Got A Friend in Me (a side story)

Archive: My site. Anywhere else is fine! Just tell me where ya are!

Rating: R in this part (for language, implied Yaoi and masturbation)

Genre: Romance. more now!

Key:

*Thought*

-Character Comments-

~Time~ (Flashbacks and such)

Warnings:

This is Yaoi! But hopefully you would have noticed that by now. It get's a little...limey in this one, I think that's the right term...er anyway! Read with caution! Don't flame me, I already know I'm a hentai!

Disclaimer:

I don't own Gundam Wing or any of it's characters. I'm not making any money off of this, it's purely for my enjoyment and hopefully yours.

For Trust

~The 1x5 Side Story~

Part Two

~I~ Chapter one ~I~

Heero's POV

I drag my eyes open slowly. For a minute I forgot why I couldn't sleep last night.

*He's gone.*

*Oh yeah.*

I sit up and stretch, well try to, but the tangled sheets keep me from doing too much. I untangle my limbs and drag myself to the shower, dully noting that the bathroom is dry and cold. He always snuck in to use my shower in the morning, before I woke up. I never knew why, I'd never asked.

I shook my head.

*Stop thinking about it. It was good while it lasted, but we both knew it wasn't going to be forever...at least I knew it.*

I resisted banging my head against the wall and turned on the shower.

~That Night~

I threw myself into bed early. Work was nothing, so it wasn't even a distraction. At least he wasn't there, he works 'out in the field' where as I'm mostly stuck with paper work. Even if he wasn't there, everything still reminded me of him. And then I came home...

I let out a growl.

*I need sleep! Stop thinking!*

~Three hours later~

I hit my head against the wall, no help there; it just gave me a headache. I looked back to my torn up bed and bare my teeth.

Turning away from it, I throw open the door and look to my right, scanning for possible distractions. *Stairs: TV, computer, books, food.*

To my left. *Hall: closet, Wufei's room...*

I didn't notice my forehead wrinkle, or that my jaw was closed so tight it was getting sore. I walked slowly towards the door.

*How many times have I been in there? Once, twice maybe?*

I draw a breath and turn the knob. The door opens with a click.

*What were expecting? For him to have locked it?* My thoughts mocked me.

My eyes roam the deserted room. The bed was made. The bookshelf was empty. I check the dresser, empty.

*Is it just me or is it colder in here?*

Out of curiosity I walk into the small adjacent bathroom and turned on the shower.

*It works fine.*

I shut off the water and start to leave when I catch my reflection in the mirror. My eyes are bloodshot and have dark circles beneath them, my hair is messier then usual, and my clothes are twisted from tossing in bed.

"You look like shit," I tell my reflection.

I turn away from the ruffled figure in the mirror and head down stairs, carefully ignoring the silence.

~The Next Morning~

"You sick Heero?" asked a woman whose name I didn't know.

I never bothered with learning about the people I worked with. I just ignored them.

I answered with a grunt and continued walking to my office. I sat down at my computer, searching for something -anything- to do.

I didn't find much; I'd finished most of it the day before.

~Half an hour later~

I glared at the screen of my computer, willing it to give me more work. I looked longingly at my empty mug, once filled with the only thing keeping me from falling asleep sitting up.

I turned my stare back to my computer, growling deep in my throat.

"What did it ever do to you?" A voice asked from the doorway.

I looked up to see Lucrizia Noin watching me. She was clearly amused.

"Is there something you needed?" I asked coldly.

She laughed lightly and walked over to sit in the chair in front of my desk. "I was just about to ask the same thing. I came in only five minutes ago and the first thing I heard was to stay away from you. My assistant told me you were in another one of your 'Black Moods'. Is everything all right? She said that you were the same yesterday. And that Wufei-"

"I'm fine," I said sternly, turning back to my computer and pretending to be busy.

She frowned. "Is this about Wufei?" She asked softly.

"I don't think that's any of your business. I have to get this report done. You can let yourself out." I kept my eyes on the screen.

*She's trying to help you.*

*I don't need help.*

She frowned again. "If you ever need to talk Heero..." She said as she got up.

She left without finishing the sentence.

~The Next Morning~

The light hit my eyes, waking me from my light sleep.

"Saturday," I groaned.

This wasn't going to be pretty: a whole day to myself, no work, nothing to keep my mind busy.

I got up reluctantly. I hadn't slept well again, my body felt three times as heavy because of it. More sleep wasn't an option, I simply couldn't.

~Hours Later~

I never thought I could be this weak. Right now I'm curled up in the fetal position, on my floor, trying my best not to go insane and/or start screaming.

"I miss him so much," I whispered.

It wrenched my heart to say it out laud. I guess boredom and silence can bring out the truth.

"Why?" I asked myself. "When did I become so dependent on him? It's not like we ever talked, or did anything."

I sat up and looked at a chair.

*His chair.*

"He would sit there and read, or do some paper work."

I looked to the computer.

"And I would finish up some kind of last minute work and then..."

My gaze rested on the door.

"To bed."

I hadn't noticed how much my body missed him as well. I closed my eyes and tried to breath properly as memories of our nights together flooded my mind. His touch, whispers in my ear that made my skin prickle and my breath come short, that evil half-smirk when he knew...

My eyes flew open as I took in my breath quickly. I was gasping and sweating on the floor. In shock I looked down, I hadn't noticed what I was doing.

"Oh god."

I closed my eyes and removed my hand. I tried to calm down, breathing slowly. It didn't help.

*Shower.*

I nodded and went up stairs. I turned on shower and took off my ruined clothes, throwing them in the corner in disgust. I stepped under the spray of warm water and sighed. Cold would have been better, but in this weather it wasn't a good idea. No matter how much I needed it; a cold shower when it was snowing outside was suicide.

I let the water wash over my face, trying to wash away the visions that were running wild in my head.

"No," I whispered sternly.

*This isn't helping!*

My mind was clearer, but it just made the memories clearer. I could almost feel him against me. Nibbling my ear almost painfully...

I groaned.

*Stop!*

My breathing was quick and shallow again. I had put my hands on the wall for support.

*This is too much! I can't handle it...*

My hand slid down and I groaned again.

I brought back memories. Well-toned muscles, black silk hair, gentle whispers turned to harsh shouts...

"Wufei..." I whispered before a wave of pleasure knocked me breathless.

~Hours Later~

My face was pushed into the pillow on my bed. I'd fallen into self-hatred.

*Why do you have to be so weak? You've been completely relying on another person! When did you change so much? Look at what you've become. You've let yourself slip.*

"Well I don't have to worry," I said, my words muffled by the pillow. "He's gone and there's nothing I can do about it."

*He said he loved you.*

*How can that be? When? Why for God's sake!*

*Why not? It's not like you've never been loved before.*

*They were all infatuated, nothing more, the moment they found out that I was always like this they left.*

*Except Wufei*

"Except Wufei..." I whispered.

*He loved you.*

"He loved me..." I echoed my thoughts.

"And...I love him." The words came easier then I thought they would.

~Even More Hours Later~

My restlessness was worse then ever. Okay so I love him, now what? How was I going to tell him? Should I even? Maybe he's moved on, how long has it been? A thought struck me and I stopped pacing for a second.

"Maxwell," I growled.

I remember perfectly, the day that Wufei told me what Duo had done. [1]

Duo had loved Wufei, probably still did. I'd never been so mad at someone, as I had been at Duo when Wufei told me what happened. Why? Duo loved him, he would have treated him so much better then I ever did. I had asked Wufei if he had ever felt the same, he said once, but it was nothing. I'm not sure if he was telling the truth, but there was at least something there. So why had Wufei said no?

*Because he loved you, dumbass!*

*And when he left? What was stopping him from going straight to Duo?*

I yelled and punched a hole in the wall.

"I'll kill him! If he laid a finger on my Wufei I'll-ow!"

I shook my hand.

*I'm getting weak, maybe I should start training with Wu-damn!*

I almost punched another hole but decided against it, settling for bouncing the back of my head on the wall instead. After a few bounces I slid to the ground and sighed.

"I have to see him."

*You don't know where he is.*

"He's probably at Duo's," I said bitterly.

I was halfway through thinking of the most painful way to kill Duo when an idea popped into my head.

"Scalping would work, and it would look nice in the...wait a minute."

I stood up quickly and looked outside, it was dark.

"Damn! I'll work on it tomorrow."

I yawned and stretched, suddenly feeling tired.

*I hope this works.*

~II~ Chapter Two ~II~

Two days later I was sitting in a tree looking at an empty field. It was still early but I was feeling impatient.

*He should be here already.*

I fingered the silver ring in my hands.

*He's not here* I thought. *He's with Maxwell! I knew it! He-*

There was noise from the outer edge of the clearing. I held my breath. He step out from the edge of the trees, he looked the same as when he left, hair pulled back, white pants, blue tank top. I let out my breath slowly.

*He's here. I was right...or wrong, depends on the time of day.* I smirked.

*You should have trusted him.* I frowned. *Trust. That's going to take some getting used to.*

He started his exercises: slow, graceful movements at first, progressing to faster and shorter movements. I watched him, breathless. I hadn't seen him do this since the day I came to find him after the first war. I'd forgotten how beautiful it was.

He was halfway through a move when he stopped. He dropped his position and spoke: "Could you either come out or leave? You're distracting me."

I smirked.

*His senses haven't changed, though now his concentration is easily broken.*

I dropped to the ground. He turned sharply. I was to his left. When he recognized me he looked startled but quickly regained control.

"What do you need?" He asked coldly.

"I need to talk to you," I said.

He nodded. "Fine."

He sat where he stood and gestured to the grass in front of him.

As I sat, my mind was going haywire.

*What do I say? Maybe I should have spent the time in the tree actually thinking of what to say if he did show up.*

"It's been a while," I said. It was the first thing that came to mind.

He raised an eyebrow slowly. "It's been five days."

*Only five? It seemed so much longer.*

I searched for words again. How was I supposed to tell him? Would he even accept? I shook my head. No use thinking like that.

"Do you still love me?" I asked.

He tensed.

*He must think I'm here to gloat.*

"Yes," He answered grudgingly.

I inwardly sighed in relief, not showing it though.

"Well if that's all you needed to know," He said, starting to get up.

"Wufei wait!" I grabbed his arm.

He looked startled and sat back down quickly.

I was so used to calling him Wufei now, I forgot how little I had before.

"Why did you come here?" He asked suspiciously.

"To give you this," I said, quickly shoving the ring in to his closed hand.

He shot me a quick, questioning look before looking at his hand. He opened it, looked at it for maybe -maybe- a second and then closed his hand quickly.

"Wh-what does this mean?" He whispered.

The words were forming in my mind so slowly I didn't have time to question them. I sat up on my knees and took his shoulders in my hands, looking straight in his eyes.

"It means that I love you too," I said.

Though I knew it wasn't much, and that he might not understand, I added: "And I trust you."

He looked up at me in shock.

*Of course he understands.*

He looked down to his hand, shaking his head slowly.

"No ceremonies," I said, bring his eyes back mine. "Just a promise: I love you, and...I always will."

He was blinking rapidly and his jaw was clenched tight.

*He's mad.*

I withdrew my hands. The pain in my heart was unbearable.

*Damn Odin and his "Act On Your Emotions" crap! All it's ever done is ruin my life! This is worse then if I had never come...*

My eyes were stinging.

*No! Heero Yuy never cries!*

"Heero." Wufei's voice brought me back to the present.

I looked up; the sudden movement caused a small tear to drip down my face.

*Damn!*

I wiped it away with the back of my hand and looked at Wufei. He was holding the ring, turning it over in his hand. It was plain, just a small silver band. I waited for him to speak again.

A small smile cracked on his lips and he looked up, black eyes glittering darkly. "Who's going to be the bride? Because there's no way in hell I am." [2]

I laughed, mostly in relief.

His face changed: a serious, but somewhat anxious look. He handed me his ring.

My chest tightened until he spoke again. "Give me yours," he ordered.

Confused, I pulled mine out of my pocket and gave it to him. He took a deep breath and slipped mine on my finger.

He looked me in the eyes and said: "I love you."

Following his lead I took his and slipped it on his finger. "I love you."

I could see now why he was blinking. He had been trying to hold back the tears that were spilling down his face. He looked away in shame. I took his chin in one hand, pulling his eyes back to mine.

"Trust me," I said.

"I do," He whispered.

His face was inches from mine. He closed the last few, placing a soft kiss on my lips. I had never kissed him so gently before, it was...different. I couldn't resist a smile.

"What?" he asked, pulling back.

"Nothing" I answered, still smiling.

I pulled him back to me for a deep, gentle, kiss.

~III~ Chapter Three ~III~

~The Next Morning~

I felt so warm.

I opened my eyes, squinting in the early morning light. I looked to my side, realizing why I was so warm. Wufei was curled up next to me, a satisfied smile on his lips. He was usually gone before morning, usually sleeping in his own bed.

I smiled.

This didn't need any getting used to. He looked so peaceful when he slept. I looked down again at the smile.

*How can he be smiling?*

I shifted a little and winced.

*I'm never spending the whole day in bed again.*

The gentle kisses and soft caresses hadn't lasted long.

I looked back down at Wufei. Watching his slow, steady breathing.

"Are you just going to stare at me all morning?" Wufei asked, opening an eye.

He winced at the bright light and closed it again quickly.

"I would do something else, if I could move," I said, mock-angry.

He smirked and tested the light again, blinking a few times before looking back to me.

"Get used to it."

I snorted. "Keep dreaming. I'm never letting you do that to me again."

Wufei stretched.

"Try and stop me," He smirked. "While you've been lying around getting soft, I've been working out everyday."

"I could still take you down anytime I wanted."

I was suddenly on the floor.

Wufei's smirking face popped out from the side of the bed. "Is that so?"

"I wasn't ready," I grunted.

I got up and walked to the bathroom. "We should get ready," I called over my shoulder. "They're going to wonder what happened to us yesterday."

I closed the shower door and turned on the water, smiling to myself.

*So what if it hurt a little? I've been through worse.*

The shower door opened behind me and arms wrapped around my waist.

"Let's call in sick," Wufei's voice whispered in my ear, his lips brushing against my earlobe.

"Isn't that...dishonest?" I asked, the shadow of a smile playing on my lips.

His arms tightened. I moaned slightly, though I tried to suppress it.

"Does it really matter?" he whispered.

His tongue flicked my ear lobe and I gave up.

Smirking I turned around. "No," I said before drawing him closer.

The End

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[1] For those who didn't read You've Got A Friend in Me or need lil' refresher: Duo was in love with Wufei, and told him so with a kiss ^_^ Wufei told him that he and Heero had been er...well you know! And punched him in the stomach! ::nodes:: yep he did! And then Wufei told Heero and now Heero hates Duo! For trying to steal his boy-toy!

Wufei: What did you call me?!?

Nikki: Eep! Nothing!

[2] Thanks go to Ishida Takeru for this idea! Thankies!

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I'm sorry! I'm sooooo sorry about Heero's "Shower scene" ::blushes:: it got in to my little hentai mind so I wrote it and then it wouldn't let me cut it!

Wufei: weak onna! You can't keep control over your own fics!

Nikki: Millions of apologies! ::blushes and hides::

Lil' Things That Didn't Make It In!!!

You see there was a few things I was going to put in -and wrote the fic with them in mind- but I couldn't fit them anywhere! So here they are!

(In no particular order)

1) After the events in Endless Waltz, Heero joined the Preventers. Sticking to his oath of never hurting another living thing -or something like that- he stuck to an office job while Wufei -who we know had all ready joined- was mostly out doin' stuff. They met again on a project and...Old flames were rekindled ^_^

2) Wufei would sneak in to Heero's shower to watch him sleep for a little bit ^_^ I like when Wufei kinda gets a lil' romantic. But of course, no one can know!

3) Heero loves it when Wufei whispers in his ear! Did ya notice? It's just a lil' quirk I put in there for fun!