Gundam Wing Fan Fiction ❯ Your Clown ❯ Your Clown ( Chapter 3 )

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Stepping outside the fresh air felt so good, and I breathed it in deeply. Briskly jogging down the stairs I rounded the corner bumping into a strong body. Now I was weak from lack of sleep and food, and therefore I began to tumble to the ground.

That is until a pair of warm hands grabbed me by the shoulders and held me steady. Breathing out the breath I'd been holding in anticipation of my fall, my head slowly tilted up to look into the eyes of my rescuer.

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I blinked rapidly as warm brown eyes looked down on me, those eyes that held such comfort also held shock and surprise? That's when my own blue eyes widened in recognition, "Wufei?" I whispered quietly afraid that I was mistaken.

My eyes began to take in the handsome face, those round, full lips had upturned in a small and slightly relieved smile, and the thin dark brows lifted in delight, "It is you." I said, simply starring at the now older youth in front of me. In all the years Duo and I had been together he hadn't once attended one of our `parties', and this was the first time I'd seen him in such a long time…

His smile only widened, and made me feel more relaxed, as his hands remained on my shoulders. I straightened, standing up to my full height and still not coming up to his chin. `He's grown' I distinguished with little envy. "Heero," he said my name smoothly and in a deeper tone, "How have you been?"

I pursed my lips together, my mind racing a mile a minute. `Did he know about Duo and I? What would he think? He's changed so much…' As these thoughts crossed my mind rapidly my eyelashes fluttered, as I looked him up and down quizzically. He'd grown about half a foot at least, and he'd filled out a little more but still had a small frame, his face had a more serene look to it, and instead of his usual tight, extreme hair-style he'd settled for letting it loose and layered. His dark hair flowed around his face, barely skimming his shoulders; his eyes were still traditionally slanted but seemed more open and held more expression in them.

Catching myself admiring the Chinese I looked down quickly and replied to his prior question, "I-I've been doing ok." I couldn't lie to Wufei, I'd known him for so long and trusted him with so much. After returning my eyes to his gaze I could see he could immediately tell that I was most definitely not ok.

His full lips thinned into a line in obvious worry, "Where's Duo?" I had to hold in the grunt of pain, at the name. The name I'd been waking up screaming in the night to, the name that fell from my lips unwittingly, the name that no one had spoken to me in three months, the name of the man I still loved. I could feel my heart and chest pinch, and complain in discomfort, thin, sharp daggers stabbed at me repeatedly, as my throat tightened in an effort to speak, "We-"

I found myself unable to say it-to admit that I was no longer with him, the only one I'd ever been with. His eyes softened in embarrassing pity, and I knew my faltering voice box had given away my current predicament. "Why?" was all he asked.

I blushed at having this conversation, and having to explain to one of my best friends that the one I'd planned on marrying had betrayed me. "Hilde." That dreadful name was all I could utter as I nearly lost it in the mailroom. My head dropped and turned away, and I could feel my shoulders hunching around me in defense. I became trapped in my own world of pain momentarily, it happened so often, my teeth clenched, and my lips formed a pained expression. Why was I so weak?

But instead of the usual dark, consuming pain, I usually felt, I felt strong arms envelop me in a tender hug instead. Instead of those cold and taunting words of unwant, I heard soft loving murmurs of reassurment. Barely slitting my eyes open, and peering through my thick lashes, I could feel my eyes flit from side to side, the tears I expected never coming. Swallowing thickly, I straightened bravely in the arms of my fellow ex-pilot.

He held me for a moment, as I stood placid looking up to the ceiling questioning my own inner strength. After a slow eternity he pulled back only slightly to look into my eyes with that God-forsaken look of pity. I frowned and looked away quickly, but mumbled a quiet `arigato' never the less. Sighing, I could feel my slim shoulders rise with breath, I looked around feeling the roving eyes of my neighbors in the mailroom.

I cleared my throat and looked up, once again into those rich, dark eyes. "Would you?" I stumbled over the question, but firmly reprimanded myself and continued, "Would you like to go out to eat?" There I'd done it. His slender brows raised slowly in a gracious smile, "It would be an honor." He accepted seriously.

I smiled back at him, a genuine smile that stretched my lips and worked my cheeks, and nodded, turning to my mailbox. He stood next to me, leaning on the racks of boxes just looking down at my hands, examining how I'd changed I suppose. After I'd grabbed my mail, I locked the metal carrier, and gestured for the other to follow me upstairs.

I'd left my door unlocked, which earned a frown from my Chinese companion, but I didn't care about locks. Upon entering the small apartment I could tell he was taken aback. The space was bare, with a television sitting plainly on the floor, a wooden chair in the corner, and a green plant in my window.

Walking into my kitchen, I tossed my keys onto the counter, and turned to face Wufei. "I'll be right back, just let me change and then we can go." Something about what I just said must have surprised him because he gave a look of curiosity, but nodded anyway. Pulling the oversized shirt off, I threw on a black shirt that used to hug to my body tightly, however, now it was loose and almost baggy. I pulled a thick sweater over my ears and shivered slightly. My feet slid into shoes and I walked back into my kitchen to find the raven-haired man where I'd left him.

"Ready?" My eyes questioned as I looked at him. He nodded and stood gracefully, out of the barstool, which had come with the apartment. We walked out together and headed down the street to a secluded café that Wufei had recommended. As we walked my eyes darted back and forth from the sidewalk to him, keeping my gaze as secretive as I could. The cold air of winter bit at my cheeks and nose, and I hunched slightly to conserve warmth. I started slightly as I suddenly felt a long arm wrap itself around me and rub warmth into my bones. Wufei had changed so much, he was no longer the justice-crazy, hot head who swung around a sword, but instead a calm collected and quite attractive man.

He pulled open the door as we arrived at the small café's entrance, and held it politely as I stepped in before him. The room we entered was dim with the scent of coffee and chocolate hanging in the air. I could also detect hints of cinnamon and nutmeg dancing around my nostrils, as I looked around the quaint café.

Sliding into the plush booth, I quickly scanned the small restaurant, taking notice that their were only about three other customers and the two of us inside. I sighed deeply, relaxing into my seat and brought my clasped hands together on top of the table. I cast my gaze down on the clean table, not bothering to look up until the other spoke to me in his soft baritone, "Do you want to tell me what happened?"

His voice was gentle, and not demanding in the least, If I hadn't wanted to talk about it I knew he would understand, but the tone in his voice and look on his face persuaded me otherwise. Taking a deep breath my eyes met his, and a connection was made, and I looked into those eyes for strength as I spoke, "Duo and I separated about three months ago. We're not together anymore because Duo was caught-"

My breath hitched and caught in my throat, and my eyes retreated quickly from his gaze, even after naming the fate which had befallen the two of us I still could not acknowledge or speak of the betrayal he had committed against me. However, during that short pause, Wufei took his queue and spoke, finishing my sentence, "With Hilde."

My brows twitched slightly, but he knew I needed to hear it, and so did I. The muscles in my eyes worked as they slowly trained themselves back on him. I nodded gravely, my face felt cold. Suddenly his hands came toward me, he knew I would shy away and therefore brought them quickly. Before I had much of a chance to turn my head, his two palms captured either side of my face gently. My slender brows scrunched in confusion, but I looked forward into his eyes as he began to speak, "You are not to blame. That idiot had something special and blew it on a lustful fling. I'm here for you to help you move on."

His eyes were earnest and true, they made me feel a little like how I used to feel when Duo would look into my eyes in the beginning. I couldn't help but smile into those deep brown eyes, and nod at him in gratitude. He smiled back, as his thumb slowly moved back and fourth across my cheeks. Feeling the heat rise into my cheeks I blinked looking away, and his hands slowly lifted away from my cheeks.

He cleared his throat and looked away for a moment before a tall, thin girl with long black hair walked up to the table grinning, her pale face contrasting sharply with her light eyes and dark, excessive make-up, "Hello." She intoned in a singsong voice, "Just thought I'd mention to you two that we're having a Thanksgiving special and our drinks are half off if you'd like to order anything!"

Wufei and I simply starred at the girl in wonderment until finally he broke the silence with a polite `thank you' and the girl tilted her head and smiled, walking back to the counter. Taking a breath a slowly stood, "I think I'll order something, you want anything?" His coffee eyes scanned the list of drinks above the counter, before they set back to my own. "Could you order me a chai tea?" I smiled nodding and turned away only to feel and hand clasp my wrist. Turning back around I blinked as a thin, sliver credit card was waved in front of my eyes.

"Don't worry about it." I said, waving away the money, but he persisted grabbing my hand and pacing the small plastic card in my fingers. "No, I've got it." He said and shooed me toward the counter, where the tall teen was waiting for me.

"Ready to order sir?" her face was pale, but she seemed to glow with delight. I forced a smile, to keep away my from of jealousy, at her happiness. "Yes, uhmm…" my eyes roved over the black board noticing a few chocolately treats that piqued my interest. "I'll have a regular chai tea, and regular café mocha, please." Her dark curls bounced as she nodded, typing in the order and taking the card from me. I marveled at the fact how someone covered in such dark clothing could have such life and pep to them.

The girl, Trixie, her little pin read, worked quickly and not three minutes later handed me two steaming cups. "Here you are! Enjoy!" she nearly squealed as I carefully took the offered cups from her. I smiled in gratitude and carefully walked back to our table, to see my companion looking out the window watching every passer-by carefully. Old habits die hard, I noted with grim satisfaction, and placed the his tea in front of him.

He looked up to me and smiled, "Thank you." I smiled back finally feeling the warmth of life begin to tingle once more in my chest. We sat in that café for hours discussing, Duo, the war, politics, and what each of us had been doing since the war. Wufei was now a head division at the preventer's headquarters that based here in Japan. I congratulated him and expressed to him my desire to join.

Not a month later I had begun working for the preventers and going to that café with Wufei regularly, not to mention the occasional dinner. Once I'd returned to working at the preventers office, I'd met up with Zechs, Sally, Noin, and even Une, who was the new foster mother of Mariemaia.

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Singing softly to myself as I straightened my tie, I sprayed some cologne, and quickly mussed my hair with minimal gel. Ever since Wufei had gotten me a job at preventers He, Zechs, and I had been going out to dinners and hanging out on weekends regularly. The two had helped me tremendously over the month and now with Christmas coming I was going to need them more then ever.

Turning away from the mirror, I walked out off my bedroom, shutting off the light, and grabbing my keys. I closed my front door, shivering as the cold air hit my back, and locked it, Wufei and Zechs had both insisted that I do so. Now I hurriedly ran down the stairs, jogging to my car, the dress pants protesting my every move.

Slamming the car door shut, I buckled my seat belt unsteadily, and turned the ignition setting the car to life. After about twenty minutes I arrived in the parking lot, and walked into the upscale restaurant cravenly. Every time I went out, whether it was to eat, or work or anything I got the strange paranoia of running into Duo. Tonight, however I was going to put a stop to it.

Speaking to the older gentlemen he the front, he instantly led me to my table where I found both my blonde and dark haired friend engaging in a lively conversation. They stopped only to look up at who at arrived and continued their blathering. I raised an eyebrow at their behavior, but no sooner was engulfed in a hug by non-other then Zechs Marquise. Smiling up at him, and bringing my arms around his strong girth, I coughed losing my breath at the tight embrace. He quickly released me however and smiled apologetically, greeting me with a rub on the back.

I then turned to Wufei who bowed in greeting and smiled, "Glad you could make it, traffic was horrible." I nodded, finger-combing my bangs out of my eyes, "I know, but anyway have you ordered yet?" They both shook their heads, "No, we were waiting for you. We have something to tell you." Zechs said. My eyes locked on his, and I gave him my full attention. "Please take a seat," he gestured, and I pulled out a leathered chair and sunk into gratefully. His blonde bangs gathered just over his crystal blue eyes as he spoke, "Quatre and Trowa's wedding is in January. They decided they should start their marriage in the New Year." I nodded seeing the significance in the matter and waited patiently for the other to continue.

"Now we now you want to go, and that Quatre has most likely arranged for you to be his best man." Once more I nodded, Quatre had initially mentioned that he'd had a desire for me to be his best man. "However, we also realize that with this comes the fact the second closest to them, aside, from Wufei would be Duo." I blinked at the statement, which's true. I'd never thought of the fact that I may have to walk down that isle with Duo after all.

"Even if he isn't chosen as best man, in truth he will still be attending the wedding nonetheless. Now my question to you is are you comfortable with that?" I looked thoughtfully into those piercing light eyes, and felt in my heart I couldn't handle seeing Duo with Hilde again, but I had to be strong. Keeping a carefully austere face, I nodded coolly, "I can see Duo again. Our relationship is over and I've come to terms with that." At this the blonde looked at me with a worried expression, but didn't object.

"Are you certain Heero?" Wufei spoke up. I looked him straight in the eye, my gaze unwavering, "Yes." He took a deep breath, but nodded, "Ok." Was all he said then looked down on his open menu. Next to me, Zechs cleared his throat, "Well now that we've gotten that out of the way we can move on to another issue."

I looked at him curiously, "What do you mean?" He smiled, his perfect white teeth flashing innocently, "Wufei has something he'd like to ask you." He said this in such a happy tone it almost seemed giddy to me. Refraining from rolling my eyes I turned to see Wufei looking a little nervous, but with a look of determination written on his face, "What is Wufei?" I asked.

"Heero, we've been friends for a long time, and now we're closer then ever, and the holidays are coming, and well I was just wondering if you'd like to move in with me." I blinked once, then twice and felt my eyes widen a little at the unexpected question. "Well, Wufei I love you as a beset friend and brother, and I suppose it would save money…" I trailed off thinking for a moment, the thought hanging in the air like a thread, both Wufei and Zechs sat looking directly at me.

I chuckled a little, "Of course, I'd love to move in with you." I smiled at him, and noticed the look of relief and happiness spread across his face from ear to ear. Zechs beamed at me, the way a proud older brother would look down on his accomplished sibling. I felt funny, like something was going on that I didn't know about but I didn't care. We enjoyed the rest of dinner, discussing work with serious approach and playful banter.

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I sighed loudly standing out of my chair and smiled at the two before me, they had split the bill, again paying for my way. "You two!" I chastised, "One day I'm going to take you to a nice restaurant and actually pay." The blonde shook his head strongly, his blonde hair tossing from side to side, "Nuh uh." He disagreed a pulled me by the arm outside.

Once we were outside the other turned to me, "Wufei likes you, you know that right?" I blinked, the Chinese was still inside receiving the bill, "Wha? Yea I like him too, he's like my brother." The other frowned pressing his lips together to make a disapproving face, "No not like that baka. He likes you as in he wants a relationship." I frowned, I was attracted to the other boy, but I wasn't in need of a relationship at the moment. "I dunno Zechs. I need time." The other's eyes softened, "I know you do, and that's exactly what he plans to give you."

I nodded just as the object of our conversation stepped outside the door, muttering to himself. My initial impression of the `new' Wufei was a cool, laid-back, peace-activist. However, after spending only a month with him I could clearly see all his habits and traits resurfacing, and becoming more predominant then ever. I smile thinking back on all the times he'd gone off on one of his justice, peace, or some other cause rants. He walked up the two us and smiled back at me.

We all agreed to call each other tomorrow and see if some other plans could materialize. The three if us hugged and smiled, telling each other thanks and goodnight, then ran to our cars to evade the cold.

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Later that night I laid in bed reminiscing about Duo and I, only to have Wufei suddenly appear in my thoughts. I smiled thinking of him and fell asleep hearing his voice sing along to love songs when he thought no one was in the room. In the morning I would have to call Quatre about his wedding, and about Duo.

TBC….

Ahh…complete..hmm it's nice ^-^ hehe well I hope this looong chapter makes up for its short precursor! I love you and please please review??

I hope you enjoy the decision I made for both the boys to be in it and I hope to have more chapters up by valentine's blah…yea suure…hehe wish me luck!