Harry Potter - Series Fan Fiction ❯ Longing to be Found... ❯ Destiny ( Chapter 6 )

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Warnings: DARK! Contains mature content and adult themes not suitable for young children. Slash (male/male relationships beyond friendship; also known as yaoi), non-con (rape), strong language, PWP at times, self mutilation, self gratification (masturbation), OOCness, AU�

Non Anime: Harry Potter - Series Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Angst / Hentai / Drama / Shounen | Type: Yaoi | Uploaded On: 03.03.2009 | Updated On: 05.16.2009 | Pages: 4 | Words: 6.1K | Visits: 553 | Status: Work In Progress

Summary: Harry's sixth year at Hogwarts is filled with taunting dreams and dark secrets. Sirius' death fresh in his mind and bleeding in his heart, he finds his body taking the abuse for his pain as he blames himself. Harry Potter has fallen on hard times and this time he is not able to stand back up on his own, doesn't have the strength to stand back on his own. How will he ever be able to get back up, how will he ever find his strength again to continue to battle against Voldemort whose power is growing at a rapid rate? Plus what's with the new transfer student in Slytherin house following Harry around for? A beautiful new Defense Against the Dark Arts teacher has come to Hogwarts, but the question is will they make it through the year or do they have a secret agenda like all the others? Find out in the story Longing to be Found.

Disclaimer: I do not own any characters, ideas, or location's, found in the Harry Potter universe, it is property of J.K.Rowling, and found in movies produced byWarner Bros. The storyline concept for this particular fanfiction was created in the recesses of the twisted mind of this writer. I do however own the two OC's (original characters) in this story so please do not copy them.

Warnings: DARK! Contains mature content and adult themes not suitable for young children. Slash (male/male relationships beyondfriendship; also known as yaoi), non-con (rape), strong language, PWP at times, self mutilation, self gratification (masturbation), OOCness, AU…

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Rated:M/NC-17

Drama/Angst

Longing to be Found…

By: TwilightKitsune1

Chapter Six (6)

- Destiny-

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Harry sat there as he listened absently to the mass of people talking about nothing he really cared to hear. He caught a few of the conversations about recent events, gossip that's already happened - the incident that happened between Draco and himself one of the top topics under discussion, and the classes the students had just finished today. He heard the clatter of the silverware scraping against a few plats, he heard the groans of satisfaction for the food, he watched as the ghosts floated by with forlorn looks on their faces. As he thought about nothing in particular, taking a swig of his pumpkin juice and then picking at a piece of bread -to worried of causing his stomach to become sick again from suddenly filling it with food- Ron's voice suddenly pulled him out of his stupor. “Hey mate, you doing okay? I heard what happened in the dungeons.”

Harry grimaced and tried to not notice the swift movement Hermione had made beside him and the wince of pain the crossed Ron's face swiftly followed by sending an angry glare to Hermione. Sighing, “I'm doing better then I was I suppose… Not much of an appetite though.” Harry admitted to his friends. “How were your classes?” he quickly asked changing the subject.

As Hermione was more then happy to oblige to this change of subject she went through the events of the day, the classes she and Ron shared before she and Harry had gone to Herbology, and brief thoughts on the lessons. As she went through the day step by step as though she had read it in a book and was reciting it for their entertainment, Ron finally spoke up in a small whisper when she had finished. “Hey, have you spoken with him any? I heard you guys had potions, charms, and Herbology together.”

Harry sat there for a moment, he had almost completely forgotten the main reason he and Alex were communicating in the first place. He needed to get in contact with Dumbledore and tell him about Alex and see what he says. “I'm going to try and speak with Dumbledore tonight; I'll try to get to him using the invisibility cloak.”

Ron and Hermione looked at each other, worried glances passing between the two and then looked at Harry. “Do you want us to come with you mate, or maybe we could try to talk to Alex and see if we can find something out for you.”

Harry shook his head to Ron's suggestion, “I don't want anything to happen, I mean he came to me and me alone. If he knew you two knew he may pull away or worse.”

Ron looked to Hermione for support but she had the look of not being able to fight him on that, “But Harry maybe we could do it under cover, you know, try to buddy up with him or something.” Ron tried again.

“One problem with that idea Ron, Alex is making no actual, visible sign of being chummy with Harry. He's doing covertly and if two of Harry's best friends begin to become chummy with a Slytherin what would you think if you were a Slytherin huh?” Hermione pointed out, but an idea came across her face, “However, it might not seem so strange if we seemed like we were joining the dark side.”

Harry looked confused, Ron slightly taken aback, both thinking she had gone mad. “'Mione have you gone mad? I mean… Just think for a second what you're suggesting!” Ron said a slightly fearful look on his face, “I mean we are Harry's best mates, wouldn't it be obvious that it's a trick or something.”

“Of course they would Ron, but if only one of use broke off then it might be believable. Though it is a big risk but it would be worth it don't you think?” Hermione argued back at Ron. Looking at Harry she continued, “This will of course have to wait until you get a chance to speak with Dumbledore and he knows what's going on but we can't let Alex in on it just in case. We'll see his real colors don't you think Harry.”

Harry just stared at her in shock, “…You're meaning to be the one to infiltrate aren't you.” Harry whispered in shock.

The tiniest of blushes came to her cheeks, “Yes, but I will have help, this isn't the first time this thought crossed my mind when I learned of Snape's spying for Dumbledore. There's nothing to worry about though I do have a connection.”

Harry and Ron glanced at each other and then back to Hermione. “You've been meaning to do this then?”

Hermione nodded solemnly and looked Harry straight in the eyes, “I will need you to help me though, maybe even Dumbledore's. I need to learn Occlumency so I can at least block my thoughts.”

“You mean if Alex really isn't being honest aren't you.” Harry said blandly, his mind spinning. He wondered how long Hermione had been thinking up this crazy plan, infiltrating the Slytherins and he wondered who this connection was. He wanted to pierce through her mind, find out her plans, what she had in mind but she had a right to her privacy, it wasn't his place to walk through her mind just because he wanted to know something she wasn't saying. Shaking his head he didn't feel like fighting with her on an empty stomach so he grabbed a sandwich and took a large bite out of it, his stomach be damned.

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Night had finally come to the castle, the sun's rays gone from the sky; replacing it a brilliant shinning moon instead. The night air clear of all clouds and was filled with its nightly chant that those in the castle had grown so used to it no longer bothered them. Owls flew in the air in and out of sight in the forbidden forest; creatures in the forest mewed, howled, or just chirped. There was sometimes the gentle sound of a swaying tree in the wind, its leaves rustling in the air. There was a faint scent of smoke that had come from Hagrid's hut before he had dowsed the fire and went to bed. Other then the nightly goings on of those that are nocturnal there was nothing a miss, no happening out of the ordinary.

However, there was a single student who silently snuck down the hall, invisible to any who would look at him or in his general direction. Hidden under his magical cloak Harry walked the halls, careful to avoid any spirits that may still be wondering the halls. He had to be quick to get to Dumbledore, had to be silent so not to get caught, also to be careful of any booby-traps that the castle had. When ever he passed a window where the moon shone brightly he would pause to check his map to make sure he was going straight to Dumbledore. When he reached the window again to look at his map Dumbledore had left his office and was now in an empty classroom just down the hall a little ways completely alone. Confused Harry shoved the parchment into his pocket and hurried down the hall and found himself standing in front of the empty classroom. Not worrying to be seen he reached his hand out from under the cloak, pulled the doors open, walked into the classroom and closed the door behind him.

As he turned to the front of the class he found Dumbledore there, next to the window in the front, just looking out into the night and his back to Harry. Sliding the cloak off himself he just looked at Dumbledore as he stood in front of him. He wore his wizard robes as he always did, his hand held behind his back; his right hand gripping his left wrist. He stood there, tall and proud looking, strong and capable of anything he wanted. As Harry looked at him he couldn't help but admire his headmaster that stood in front of him. “Harry, you wished to speak to me.”

Harry jumped slightly; he had not been expecting Dumbledore to acknowledge his presence so soon. “I did,” Harry said realizing, “but sir, how did you know?”

“My dear boy, I had noticed how you continued to glance at me in the great hall, how you and your friends spoke mostly amongst yourselves; while that is fine, also suspicious.” He finally turned to Harry fully and smiled, his half moon spectacles sitting on his nose as his brilliant blue eyes shone even in the night. “So I waited till I knew you would seek me and decided to come to the closest deserted room near you so you would not miss much sleep.” His hand gestured to an empty desk, “Let us sit and speak Harry, I expect this to be a long conversation and needing to be very secretive.”

Harry nodded and went to sit at the desk Dumbledore had gestured to and as he sat, putting the invisibility cloak on the chair behind him; Dumbledore sealed the room so no sound could go out and no one could come in. When he had finished the incantation he moved to the chair opposite Harry. As he sat he placed his hands on the desk and looked expectantly at Harry. “Sir, there is a student I would like to ask you about.”

“Would it be about the young Mister Alex Capper perhaps?” Dumbledore said.

Harry's eyes opened wider then he thought they would tonight and nodded, “Professor how did you know?”

“There are signs Harry, signs even I could have missed. I knew this regarded mister Capper from the moment you wished to speak to me. Had you not, that night the two of you almost shared in the Hallway outside of the Gryffindor tower would have concerned me.”

Looking down to his lap Harry felt his cheeks heat up, he had not thought of that time since he had left the bathroom earlier that day. “I really didn't mean to let that happen Professor, I'm sorry I lost control of myself like that with him.”

As Harry continued to feel ashamed of what had happened, silently yelling at himself, he missed the twinkle in Dumbledore's eyes. “Do not be too hard on yourself Harry. It is alright, I have known many a wizard that has lost control like that; it is not something you should be ashamed of.”

Harry nodded his head and finally looked up, accepting Dumbledore's comfort and not yelling like his mind screamed to do. This was not the time, nor was it the place, there were matters that needed to be discussed and he needed to do them tonight. Determined to get all of the information out for Dumbledore to know he set to work, explaining everything that has happened thus far and all that he knew, he gave Dumbledore all the information he had and all the plans that have been formulated between he and his friends. When he had finished his rant he sat taking in air he had forgotten while explaining and waited for Dumbledore to speak, who seemed to be taking in all Harry had said.

“Does Miss Granger understand the dangers she would be placing herself in Harry? Though she is doing this for friendship, when she crosses to the dark side to gather information does she know what may happen to her, the dangers she may face and the choices she will be forced to make; accompanied of course with the actions she will have to take?” Dumbledore said after a while. Harry nodded his head, this was Hermione after all who thinks things through before doing anything; if she hadn't Harry had a feeling she would not have been willing to do this, or even offer it up as a suggestion. “If you believe she can handle this responsibility I shall assist her in learning Occlumency to guard herself.”

Harry sat there for a moment, in the end Dumbledore was leaving it up to him. If he thought she was able to or not he would not argue Harry's decision. With out even reading his mind Harry knew Dumbledore was leaving the choice to trust her or not up to him; as though training him to make the choices a leader would need to make; like a general with his troops. In the end the question was, did Harry believe in Hermione enough to be able to go to the other side and return unscathed. The automatic answer was no, he knew Hermione may be tempted, may even be scared from this experience; did he trust her enough to return to them though, yes. Harry nodded his head feeling as though he had just sent his friend into mortal danger with that one single nod. “Hermione is a great witch and one of the smartest people I have ever met, I am sure she will make it through this alright.” He said at Dumbledore's solemn look.

“If this is your decision I shall start training her straight away.” Dumbledore said, as though he were falling in line and allowing Harry to lead in this way. “As for Alex, inform him I shall not meet with him for a week, we shall see his true colors with in this time perhaps, if not that should give us enough time to train Hermione, to strengthen her mind and plan how things should fall in this time. This shall be the pause in the battle so we can gather our strength; if Alex is a foe he will do what ever in his power to slow us down, if he is an ally he should allow us this time.” As Harry was about to rise thinking the conversation over Dumbledore spoke again, “And Harry, you shall train as well with myself and Professor Lupin who is returning as an assistant teacher within the week.”

“Sir?” Harry questioned.

“This is the time to strengthen ourselves Harry, do you not agree?” Dumbledore asked with a slight smile as he too rose from the seat.

“Yes sir, we'll do our best then.” Harry agreed finally and picked up his cloak, “Is that all for tonight Professor?”

“Unless there is more to speak of then yes that is. We shall probably speak more through the week Harry, plans and thought's, you are now part of the Order.”

“I—I am?” Harry asked as if not believing his ears. He was still under age but Dumbledore had just recruited him.

“You are Harry, I am sorry to say but it is time we begin to prepare to fight back, do you not agree.”

“Of course Professor, I do.”

“Now it is late and you are still a student, off to bed.”

Harry nodded and threw the invisibility cloak over himself as he followed Dumbledore out of the empty room after he had dispelled his enchantment; plans had been laid and the course was set; the wheels of destiny were now in motion and there was nothing that could stop them as they turned; the fates of many were being decided. It was time; the war was now beginning to heat up and childhood was being left behind.

End Chapter Six (6)

A/N: huh, is it me or are my chapters getting shorter, hopefully the next one will be longer and filled with more story and less filler. Again I hope my quality didn't go away. There are a few things that are going on here on my side of the world that may hinder me from writing or updating, but I want to know how the story is going. Looking forward to anything you all have to say, and thanks for reading Longing to be Found!