Harry Potter - Series Fan Fiction ❯ Lucid Consequences ❯ Chapter 17: To face your fears, retrace the years ( Chapter 17 )

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Title: Lucid ConsequencesAuthor: DeityOfDeathArchive: Yes please......Pairings: Lucius/Harry/SnapeCategory: Drama, romance, slashrating: NC-17/RSpoilers: Maybe.Warnings: Yaoi, Lemon, Rape, Non-con, Mpreg SPOILERS!!!!!! If you haven't read HBP then DON'T READ THIS FIC~!!!!!!!Disclaimers: I never have nor will I ever own Harry Potter or its chars. They are property of JK Rowling and major companies.
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Chapter 17: To face your fears, retrace the years

I had once again found myself in a beautiful green field with the beginnings of budding flowers surrounding me and there in front of me stood a beautiful lake that seemed to go on forever. I then felt my hand rest on my stomach and noticed the bulge beneath my hand. I rubbed it lovingly and the second hand joined mine. The second hand was smaller than my own and my line of vision followed the hand up the arm and to a smiling face of a young boy no older than seven or eight. He seemed familiar. He had deep black hair that was messy and looked to be wind whipped. His cheeks were rosy and his eyes were a gray that bordered on silver, eyes that held such warmth and happiness.

"Papa! Papa, come and look!"

I looked in the direction of the small feminine voice and saw a little girl around five or six running towards us with flowers clutched in her small hands and a small black puppy similar looking to Sirius' animagus form, trailing after. It was then that my scar started hurting. I placed my hand on the scar is it began the throb uncontrollably.

Suddenly I saw people appear all around us in black robes with skeleton masks and then the figure of Voldemort appeared. The little girl screamed and the little boy clutched my hand tightly as he shook with fear. I stared ahead and I knew that this was the beginning of the end. Just as he raised his wand I pushed the little boy behind me and drew my own.

"HARRY! Harry! Wake up!"

I jumped up panting and gasping for air. I looked around the room frantically searching for the two small children. I placed my hand on my swollen belly and felt the reassuring kick. I sighed and lay back against my pillows closing my eyes. I felt the familiar throb of my scar and placed my hand on it.

"Was it a dream or a vision", asked Severus.

I shook my head and tried to concentrate through the haze and memory of the dream as I opened my eyes and stared up at two pairs of worried faces.

"I think it was a premonition."

"A premonition? Tell us the details", said Lucius sitting up straighter.

I took a deep breath and told them about the very first dream I had had when I was fighting the fever and I made sure to describe the children in detail and my thoughts during the dream. I then told them about the dream I had just awoken from and both sat silently for a moment.

"The boy had dark hair..."

"And eyes like yours", I said interrupting Lucius.

"Perhaps you have seen your future. I'm betting that he is our son", said Lucius looking at my now eight month plump stomach.

I sighed and closed my eyes as my little child decided to start kicking my organs, "I think our child is a little than less happy at the thought of being woke up because of my dreams or premonitions."

Lucius placed his hand gently atop my stomach and as sudden as it started it began to calm. I closed my eyes and laid back and thought about what I needed to do.

Why would these dreams haunt me now? Was Voldemort on the move because it was getting close to my due date? Was he on his way to retrieve me or was he waiting to get my child, a child he thought was his? I felt my unborn child move again and sighed. He or she was just as restless as me, or perhaps junior was restless because of I was.

"I'm going to go contact Arthur and Molly and see if she’s heard any news", said Sev as stood up revealing his shiny black satin boxers.

He walked over to the closet and reached in taking out a white under robe and wrapped it around his body tying the small string before he reached in and pulled on navy blue cotton yukata and wrapped it around before pulling out a black kimono and wrapping it in place with a cerulean obi and then he reached into the closet taking out a black haori and slipped it on. I looked down at his black tabi sock covered feet and smiled. Sev looked quite handsome in a kimono and even better when he pulled his hair out of his face in a look similar to that of a samurai. I had been pleasantly surprised when Amaya had given me a kimono of my own and even more surprised to have her help me put it on. Sev's kimono had been one of his own that his sister had kept in his absence and since neither Lucius or I had one she had taken us shopping and purchased three of them. Where she got the money was beyond me, the prices were enough to even make a Malfoy roll his eyes.

Lucius and I seemed to both enjoy the view in front of us. Sev turned to stare at us, grinning.

"While your getting dressed I'll shower and by then you should be dressed", I said waddling towards the bathroom.

Yes, waddling. There was no other word for it. It was hugely embarrassing. We took a trip to Tokyo and while there I was going crazy buying stuffed animals for the baby’s room when Lucius came out with a huge penguin. I took one look at that penguin and at first thought how cute it was and then Lucius seeing how happy I was made it do a cute little waddling walk and as I watched it dawned on me that that was how I now walked. It was a rather embarrassing scene after that and I don't remember much except for crying in the middle of a Tokyo mall and having both Lucius and Sev fret over me and listen to my hormone induced rants for over two hours. In the end I still wasn't able to look at the penguin and I cried for another hour after we got home because I felt so bad for embarrassing them both.

I have to give it to them; they must really feel something for me if they're continuing to stick it out after all I've put them through. I sometimes wonder if my mother had gone through the same thing. I wonder what motherly advice she would offer.

I stepped into the shower and completely ignored the full length mirror as I did so. Whoever made full length mirrors should be bat boogey hexed repeatedly and forced to look at their reflection each time? I turned on the shower and washed quickly because standing for too long caused my back to ache and sometimes cramp as well as my poor feet and ankles. I was careful to wash all my important parts, including the recent addition. Oh, yes...what an interesting morning it was when I discovered that...After a visit from Poppy and a calming talk with Hermione I was finally able to semi-accept what I had developed.

Apparently there is a scientific reason as to why wizards can conceive and carry a child. One of the books Hermione gave me on Wizard pregnancies says that wizards who can conceive are actually a version of a hermaphrodite. Only some wizards can conceive naturally and it seems the ones who conceive naturally can also give birth naturally. Let's just say I am now more in touch with my witch side than I ever wanted to be. So I now have a birth canal and a nice opening for the baby to exit when and where he or she decides to make their entrance. This made Sev and Lucius very excite and nervous. I can naturally conceive which is a plus but also a minus because I could have been impregnated by one of my rapists. Thank Merlin for small miracles.

I stepped out of the shower and quickly dried myself off, tossing my wet towel atop the full length mirror and walking out into the bedroom where I saw Sev helping Lucius into his gray and black kimono. I grabbed a pair of red cotton boxers and managed to get them on without incident or tears, damn hormones! I had also managed to don my tabi socks and had taken out the white cotton under robe and had wrapped it around and tied it by the time Lucius had finished dressing in his gray and black kimono and gray haori. I stared at my own and wondered why Amaya had picked out such flamboyant colors for mine. She also bought me a woman’s kimono because she thought I 'would look good in it'. That's evidentially another down side to being a hermaphroditic wizard, we have effeminate looks and usually grown no taller than 5'5. I hope it’s just a rumor. I had to admit that when Amaya had made me try on the womans kimono that I looked pretty good. I could probably give the singers from *Kagrra a run for their money.

I had managed to slip on the second layer of yukata when Lucius came over to help. He helped me slip my arms into the black material and then tied the sash for me before Sev came over and wrapped the green silk kimono around my body and then tied the forest green obi around my extended waist. I wasn't one to complain when it came to their overly helpful nature as of late, I needed all the help I could get. I slipped on the brown haori and tied the front so that it hung loosely. I then waddled over and grabbed the brush from the stand. I ran it a few times through my hair and then stared at the bedroom. It was a mess and needed cleaned.

I looked around and then back up at Sev and Lucius, "You both go ahead. I'm going to clean up some while your fire calling Molly and Arthur."

"I suppose. Meet us down stairs in an hour, we're going to eat breakfast and prepare to gather our things so we can head home tomorrow", said Lucius looking slightly worried.

"Okay. Is it alright if I run out and do some shopping this afternoon after breakfast? I can go by myself. I just need to pick up a few souvenirs for Hermione, Ron and Remus. I've gotten one for everyone else but those few are awfully hard to shop for."

"I don't know if it’s a good idea...” said Lucius starring at me.

"If you want I can ask one of Amaya's body guards to accompany me?"

Sev nodded and looked over at Lucius, "I suppose it will have to suffice. Knowing Amaya, if she didn't have work to do at the Japanese school of magic, she would offer to take you herself."

I grinned and watched them leave the room. As soon as they were gone I rolled up my sleeves and began to pack up my things and then I straightened and cleaned the room to the best of my ability. I stared at the room and still felt an urge to clean and straighten so I moved things around. I had no idea what had gotten in to as I drug out the extra blankets in the closet and set them atop the bed in an arranged manner. It was then that I felt a strange pain that started from my lower back and then traveled along my body. It lasted a minute or two and then it stopped. I sat down on the bed and rested a few minutes and when there was no sign of further pain I stood up and continued cleaning. I had managed to clean the entire bedroom and our adjoining bathroom in that hour and just as I was finishing the bathroom another pain, similar to the last one came again. I knelt and rode it out like before, standing when it was done. I wandered down the stairs and found Lucius, Sev and Amaya sitting at the kotatsu waiting for me.

"What took you so long, Harry", asked a concerned Amaya.

"Sorry. I've suddenly gotten this urge to clean and I before I knew it I had not only packed and straightened our entire bedroom but I had also cleaned the entire bathroom."

Amaya smiled brightly and turned that stunning smile on her brother and Lucius "Keep an eye on him boys. I did the same exact thing a few days before I went into labor."

"I have been having a few back aches lately", I commented as I poured green tea over my rice and eggs.

"Perhaps you should stay home today, we can always pick up some chocolates for you before we head home", said Lucius making a face at my breakfast.

I shrugged and tore off a piece of fish with my chop sticks and dipped it into the soy sauce before popping it into my mouth. I shoveled some of my green tea, egg and rice into my mouth and sighed happily. Japanese food was divine.

"It's not just that, I am having the oddest cravings. I want to get a crepe' with strawberries and ice cream and stock up on some of the hard to get items to take back with us."

"Like what", asked Amaya amused.

"I want to get some of the odder flavors of Pocky, some more Melon Pan, some really good teas and Ramune soda and I would love to get some yogurt chews. I forgot about the bean paste pastries!"

"Okay, okay sorry I asked", she said with a grin.

"I'll have my body guards accompany you", with that she clapped her hands and two tall and very handsome Japanese men stepped out wearing black suits and sunglasses. They resembled Yakuza but I knew better.

"Kei. Masa. I want you to make sure my beloved brother in law is well protected. I would be rather unhappy if anything happens to him or my niece or nephew."

I saw both nod and I nodded in greeting to them. I finished my food quickly and then stood and slipped on a pair of geta. I was escorted by both men into a black Mercedes Benz. I enjoyed the pampering for once but I would have enjoyed it more I hadn't had another back pain. They seemed to be getting worse pain wise, although they were still about an hour apart. I suppose I should get my shopping done quickly so that I can get home and let Lucius and Sev know about these pains. They might be contractions, although they could be those Braxton hicks’ contractions I had read about in my book "what to expect when you’re expecting".

As we stopped at shop after shop and I filled the trunk with bags full of purchases I began to tire myself out. I had stopped at a small tea shop on our way back home to pick up some teas for my lovers and myself and as I exited the car I thought I saw the face of Goyle senior. I shrugged it off and walked inside. I had purchased my teas and exited the store. I saw the black Benz parked in front of the store, the engine still running so I thought nothing of it and opened the door sliding inside. It wasn't until I heard the automatic locks lock that I began to fear something was wrong.

The panicked and began to shake the door trying to open it. I went to reach for my wand when a shout of Stupefy. I felt my arms and legs stiffen together and I watched in horror as Goyle and a wizard I had never seen before turned around to look at me from the front seat.

"It's nice to see you again, Harry Potter."

To Be Continued.....

Notes:
1. I know very little about proper Kimono dressing, but what I do know I saw on a DVD my friend got when she purchased her first kimono at Otakon. What I do know I got from here: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kimono and here: http://www.japan-zone.com/culture/kimono.shtml

2. Kagrra: Sexy all male band that sings wearing sexy kimonos~!!!! I first saw a few of their Music videos at YaoiCon a year ago. Check em' out, their music’s not bad. My fav songs are Koi, Ayashi No Hikari and Saiyuki.

3. Melon Pan - YUMMY~!!!! It's basically melon flavored bread wrapped in a cookie crust! It's delicious! They can be dyed green to look more like melons.

4. Kei and Masa – Two of my favorite chars from Kizuna (A yaoi manga by Kodaka Kazuma)