Harukanaru Toki No Naka De Fan Fiction ❯ Unbroken ❯ Application ( Chapter 6 )
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By: sailorlight22 
Anime/Manga: Harukanaru Toki No Naka De Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance / Supernatural / Hentai / Fantasy | Type: Shounen-ai | Uploaded On: 01.07.2008 | Pages: 3 | Words: 6.2K | Visits: 162 | Status: Work In Progress
Anime/Manga: Harukanaru Toki No Naka De Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance / Supernatural / Hentai / Fantasy | Type: Shounen-ai | Uploaded On: 01.07.2008 | Pages: 3 | Words: 6.2K | Visits: 162 | Status: Work In Progress
Unbroken
A Haruka Naru Toki No Naka De Fanfiction
By SailorLight22
Chapter 6 - Application
I do not own these wonderful bishies, only the plot to this ficlette.. my first Haruka fic, should i continue, or does it suck enough to be yaoi without an ending? xD ANY replies would be appreciated, be easy though, k?
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WARNING! This chapter ALSO contains some Adult Material! :) While I'm sure no one minds, I just wanted to warn you.
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A short time later, Eisen jerked awake, bolting upright. He couldn't remember what he'd seen, but something about the dream had frightened him. Attempting to shake off his lingering fear, he sighed, getting up. Retrieving his flute, he stepped outside and sat in his usual place by the middle support beams.
Leaning back against the beam, he looked up at the night sky. He realized that it was still early, not yet midnight. Sighing, he raised his flute, playing softly in the darkness. Losing himself in the music, he closed his eyes, allowing his mind to wander. Not surprisingly, his thoughts settled on his partner. He knew that he would have to find him and apologize for running away like that.
He'd gone directly to his room in mortification. 'Yasuaki must think I'm a fool,' He thought, 'A childish fool who flees from mere words..' Caught up in his disgust, he failed to notice the sound of quiet footsteps until someone touched his shoulder. With a startled yelp, he jumped. Turning his head, he found himself staring at the concerned face of his partner.
Mentally, he sighed. 'Just when I thought I couldn't possibly embarrass myself further,' He thought, wincing. Taking a breath to calm his pounding heart, he spoke. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to yell like that. I didn't hear you."
Yasuaki shook his head. "And I didn't mean to frighten you." Looking around, he continued. "So this is where you were. I couldn't find you earlier."
Reminded of his less than graceful retreat, Eisen blushed. "Yes. I'm sorry that I left you like that, but I just.."
His lover nodded in understanding. "Don't worry about it, Eisen. Tachibana should have left well enough alone." Eisen smiled shyly.
"I'm sure he meant well, too. I think he just misunderstood the situation." Unsure of what to say, he gestured to his room. "You've never been here, have you? Would you like to come in?" Yasuaki nodded, rising to his feet and offering his hand. Eisen took it, allowing the taller man to assist him.
Once he'd gotten to his feet, he expected Yasuaki to release him. He was pleasantly surprised when he didn't, and he smiled up at him before leading the way to the door. Entering the room, he kneeled beside the futon, fumbling in the semi-darkness for the candle. He stopped as his partner spoke quietly.
"Don't bother with that, it's fine as it is." Eisen blinked, protesting slightly.
"But it's almost too dark to leave it like this..You won't be able to see, Yasuaki.." The priest smiled, kneeling beside him.
Taking his hand, he ran his thumb across Eisen's knuckles soothingly. "The only thing I came to see is you. There's more than enough moonlight for that, Eisen."
Eisen blinked, his face heating under the man's intense gaze. Yasuaki smiled, lifting his free hand to push back a stray lock of the shorter man's hair before cupping his cheek. Eisen leaned into his touch, closing his eyes as he relaxed. Yasuaki squeezed his hand, using his hold to pull his partner closer, urging his head down to rest on his shoulder as his hand slid over his hair in a gentle caress.
"Does this bother you, Eisen? I don't want to make you uncomfortable." The monk shook his head, smiling.
"No, I'm not uncomfortable with you. Tachibana-san just surprised me. I didn't realize that there was so many things I didn't know. Not all of it was bad, really." He blushed, hiding his face in the priest's shirt. "Some of it didn't sound so.." He trailed off, embarrassed.
Yasuaki embraced him, urging his head up. Meeting his eyes, he smiled. "I would never make you do anything that you didn't want. Eisen. I love you, there's no need for you to be nervous." He kissed his cheek, inhaling the faint smell of his hair.
Eisen shivered, closing his eyes at the warm softness of the priest's lips. Sinking deeper into his arms, he sighed. "I know you wouldn't. I trust you, Yasuaki, but Tachibana-san has a point." He pulled away, frowning. "If we're going to be together, it is good to know what to expect. It was awful to talk to someone else about something like that, but I.. I want to be able to share those things with you." He fidgeted, unable to meet his partner's eyes.
"Nothing Tachibana-san said was disgusting to me, it was just embarrassing.." He laughed nervously. "I ran like that because I couldn't stand to sit there anymore. The way he talked about someone using their mouth to.." He shook his head, forcing himself to finish. "It wasn't a bad thing, but it was horrible to be there, with him knowing that I was thinking about it. And the look on your face when he said it.. I thought you were upset by it."
Yasuaki squeezed his hand gently. "I wasn't upset. I just couldn't imagine asking someone to do that. It didn't seem fair, really. Only one person would enjoy it, and that isn't right." Eisen blushed, staring at their joined hands.
"I don't think that it's unfair. I think that it would be something that both people would enjoy, because making the one you love happy feels good too." He raised his head, smiling. "Does that sound foolish?"
Yasuaki stared at him for a moment, then shook his head. "No, it doesn't. I think I can understand what you mean, actually." He smiled, leaning closer to the younger man's ear. "I did enjoy the way your skin tasted, after all." Eisen gasped, his eyes wide in surprise. Yasuaki took advantage of his shock, pressing his lips to the junction of his partner's neck.
Eisen whimpered softly, biting down on his lip as Yasuaki's mouth moved over his sensitive skin. His breath left him in a rush as the older man opened his mouth, stroking his tongue across the point of his pulse.
He closed his eyes, hands gripping the folds of his sleepwear in an effort to calm his pounding heart. Yasuaki pulled away, laughing softly.
"It's strange," He mused, smiling. "I would never have imagined doing something like that before. I knew that I wanted.. something, but I could never put words to it. I thought that something was wrong with me." He took his partner's hand, tracing the lines on his palm. "Now, everything makes so much more sense. What I felt, what I wanted, all of it."
Eisen smiled, watching the older man's face as he spoke. "Does knowing make you happy?" Yasuaki met his eyes calmly, and shook his head. For a moment, Eisen swore that his heart had stopped, but the priest smiled as he explained.
"Knowing that means very little. Knowing that you want the same things is what makes me happy, Eisen."
The younger man blinked, fighting back tears. "I want you to be happy, Yasuaki. If all I need to do is be with you, then I don't think you'll have a chance to be unhappy. I'll stay as long as you wish me to." He smiled brightly, wiping his eyes. "I'm sorry. I thought for a moment that you were going to say something else.."
Yasuaki frowned, moving away. "I didn't mean to upset you, so don't apologize." Releasing his partner's hand, he made as if to rise. "I should let you sleep, the day has been long.." Before he could go, Eisen grabbed his sleeve, his eyes downcast.
"Stay with me..?" He whispered, blushing. "I couldn't sleep because something felt wrong before.." Yasuaki leaned close to hear his quiet words. "I didn't know exactly what it was, but I didn't like the way it felt." He looked up, his face warming. "I understand it now. I missed you. I've never felt lonely here before, but being here without you was.." He paused, shaking his head. "I don't want to be without you." He whispered finally, wincing at how childish he felt.
Yasuaki stared at him, his eyes wide in surprise. "Eisen," He said, his voice low, "Are you sure? I would love to stay with you, but I didn't think that you would want me here after today.."
The smaller man nodded, releasing his hold on Yasuaki's sleeve. "I feel terribly selfish for asking.. But I don't want you to go. Please, stay..?" He reached out, his arms open in silent invitation. The priest smiled, sitting beside him as he accepted his embrace gratefully. Eisen sighed contentedly.
"I'll stay as long as you like, Eisen. Are you tired now?" Blushing slightly, the younger man shook his head.
"No, I'm just comfortable. I was thinking about you while I was outside, you know.. I felt bad about what happened with Tachibana-san, and I wanted to make it up to you when I had the chance.." He trailed off, his blush intensifying. "I must have looked ridiculous when I jumped up and ran.. I could hear Tachibana-san laughing, and I imagine that Takamichi-san probably thinks I've lost my mind."
Yasuaki chuckled softly. "No, I'm sure he doesn't. He IS Tachibana's partner, certainly he knows what to expect from him." He smiled almost playfully. "When it comes to partners, I think I came out on the good side with you. At least you have sense enough to leave private things private, and you smell wonderful.." He leaned closer, pressing their lips together briefly. "I've always thought that, actually. I saw the others bickering and such with their own partners, and I was pleased that we always got along so well, even though I wasn't a very nice person myself."
Eisen shook his head quickly. "I never thought you were a bad person, Yasuaki. Even when you acted cold, you always made the right choices. It wasn't that you didn't feel things, you just didn't have a way to express what you did feel. If I hadn't have believed that, I don't think I would have been able to love you.." He laughed, suddenly nervous. "Something about you, the way you acted then.. It made me feel like you needed more than just a partner. I didn't want you to be alone, but I never thought that you would accept my feelings." He looked away, his face pained.
"I still feel guilty.. I wonder if it's really fair that I haven't tried to be patient and let you see how you feel for other people. I don't want to be selfish, but I think I might be taking advantage of the situation. Perhaps you felt something for me because it was time for your heart to awaken on it's own. The god did say Akane-sama started the process.. Maybe in time you would have found someone else, someone who wasn't with you most of the time." The thought made him cringe. Nothing could be worse than knowing his partner loved someone else, but he didn't want to burden him with someone that wasn't good enough, someone who'd only been in the right place at the right moment.
He thought he might have said too much, so silent was the room. After several minutes, Yasuaki sighed. "Eisen, I don't think you've been selfish at all. You would have been better suited to someone who could give you everything, someone that didn't need divine intervention to understand their own heart. Do you know how long I waited, watching you and thinking that no one was more important to me? I remember the first time I saw you, that night when I came to the city.." He paused, tightening his arms.
"You looked out at me from the window of your carriage, and your face was so sad that I couldn't help wondering why. After they discovered that you were Hachiyou, when you passed me on the way to the river.. I followed you because I knew that you would die there if no one came in time. I didn't have to go, but I wanted to be the one to help you." He closed his eyes, his voice rough.
"Do you know that I'm not human, Eisen? I've been told many times that the only thing separating me from the monsters we face is that they can at least feel emotion.. Now, I'm no different than any of the Demon clan. I have more understanding of emotion with every moment that passes, but I still can't claim to be like you, or any of the others here." Eisen began to protest, but the priest shook his head.
"No, just wait. The people of this place, they were frightened by me. They whispered that even Demons were beautiful things, and that it was hard to know if I was truly committed to the cause of the Priestess. I can't tell you what to believe, Eisen. I don't even know if I can die like you, or age with time. I don't think I've changed since the day my master awakened me, so I may never be able to die naturally. Do you want to be with someone who can't promise you a lifetime? Even if I could be with someone else, it would be the same for them, the knowledge that I could never promise to grow old beside them, or to die when they die." He pulled away, clenching his fists in his frustration.
"I may have to sit by and watch you grow old and fade, Eisen. I could watch everyone here go to their graves, and mourn every single life that escapes. Now, I understand why nothing my master said about feeling was enough. I had to see and experience these things for myself, so that one day I would know what it means to feel. I know that pain comes with loss, but I've never felt either of those things. I can't imagine what may come when the people I care for begin to leave this world, if I truly don't change with time. I thought about it sometimes, but now it makes me almost afraid that I've gained feeling only to suffer forever as the ones who matter to me die." He opened his eyes, forcing himself to be calm.
"Even if there could have been someone else for me, I wouldn't give up having this with you. I may have forever, but you will only be here for as long as the gods decide to let you live. If I cast your feelings aside, and went in search of someone to replace this, what would I have?" Eisen shook his head, unable to answer.
Yasuaki gripped his hands tightly. "I would have nothing, Eisen. All of that would be a mistake, because I would never wish to look back and remember that I had only the span of your life to love you, and I gave it away on a whim. Do you understand?"
The younger man stared at him, stunned by his impassioned face. "I..I didn't think.." His voice caught, and he choked. "I knew you were different, but I didn't care about that. I still don't care that you aren't like the rest of us, because to me you were never like anyone else. If you don't grow old, then why would you want to be with someone who certainly will? I understand what you mean to say, Yasuaki, but I want you to have the best that life can give you, because with pain comes an understanding of joy. With nothing to compare it to, even the most important things are the same as trash. I didn't think that you were like the Demons, because you were yourself." He covered his face with his hands, unable to look the priest in the eye.
"I thought that no one would understand how I felt for you, because you were so much better than we are. You didn't have to feel hate for someone in order to fight, or guilt when you did something halfway. The things you did feel were much purer than what people like me felt, because you didn't go over and over in your mind, trying to make sense of things." He stifled a sob, his eyes burning with tears.
"You acted on your feelings without needing a name for them. You did the right thing because it was your true nature, it was just you. People who feel from the first moment aren't like that, we do things for a reason, because of what we are. I don't think you'll ever be like that, even if you do understand your feelings from now on. You're still you, Yasuaki. I don't know of anyone that would take time to think of someone else's death with more sadness than their own, or to be as kind as you are now. All of what you said makes sense, and it may be true." He forced himself to look up, meeting the older man's eyes clearly.
"But still, you put my petty insecurity first and comforted me before speaking of yourself! Even when we did talk before, it was the same! I worry about things that aren't nearly as important as your thoughts, Yasuaki. You asked me if I would want to be with someone that didn't live like other people? Then you spoke about yourself as if you loathed being as you are, being more human than humans!" He lowered his voice, trying to calm himself. "If I had to see you die again, I wouldn't care how long the gods wanted me to live. I don't think it would be life if someone like you weren't here to show people what they should be."
He sighed, wiping his eyes. "I'm sorry that you're unhappy when you think of your future, but I want all of mine to be with you.. I would be happy to grow old and die if I knew that one day you might be able to let yourself love someone else. Your love is much better than anyone else's, because you felt it before there was even a word for it. If there were a person worthy of you, I'd want them to have a chance to receive such a gift for being so special. That's why I said that I would never try to stop you from finding the one who made you happy." He shook his head.
"I don't care if it's selfish anymore. I do love you, and I want to see you happy.. But even when I say that, part of me screams that I want you to be happy with me, not some other person. I can't change that bit of selfish want, because I need you.." Stopping, he wiped his face again. Yasuaki made a sudden move, startling the smaller man as he clutched him tightly, pulling him almost roughly into his lap.
The priest stroked his partner's hair, kissing his upturned face as he mumbled softly to him. "If this is your selfishness, I welcome it. Please, let me love you for as long as I can?" He pleaded, his voice shaky and urgent. "I don't want someone else, and I won't let this chance escape me, not until you want me to go. As long as you have need of me, let me be your everything?"
Eisen gasped, almost afraid of his partner's fervent words. "You were never anything less, Yasuaki.. When I was still unborn, I was destined to be the opposite of you, always. Genbu, of Heaven and Earth, we were always meant to be joined. Didn't you know that I wouldn't exist without you? Even if there hadn't been love, you were always the other part of me."
Yasuaki stilled, his eyes wide. "I know that we're opposite sides of the same power, but I've never really thought about what it means, until now. You don't have to be anything but who you are, and I shouldn't be afraid of my future... If you are no longer here, then surely there would be nothing to keep me from joining you. We're the same, you and I. One can never be without the other, because the part of you that rests with me would hold me to this fate, and the part of myself within you is the same.." He closed his eyes, on the verge of tears himself.
"I would keep you with me, with or without that bond.. Would you let me do that, Eisen? Even after the Demons are defeated, when the Hachiyou are no longer needed?" The monk smiled, returning his tight embrace.
"If you want to stay, I wouldn't send you away. I only wish I had taken the time to talk to you like this when we were alone before.. I'm sorry that it took so long, but I was thinking of other... things.." He stopped, his face almost glowing red. Yasuaki gazed at him, his eyebrow raised.
"Other things?" He ran his hands over the thin material of his partner's clothing, tracing the line of his slender arms until he reached his shoulders. "What were you thinking about, Eisen? What it felt like when I kissed you?" He leaned in, capturing the younger man's lips heatedly before pulling away. "Or was it something else, like the sounds you made when I touched you?" He stroked a hand down the monk's side, gripping one hip firmly as the other man whimpered.
"Was that what you thought about?" He asked, teasingly. Eisen shook his head, then nodded, his expression confused. Yasuaki chucked softly, dipping his head to rest against the curve of the smaller man's throat. Nipping him gently, he noted with satisfaction that his efforts were having a definite effect on his partner's ability to remain silent, evidenced by his gasping cry when the priest moved his hands from his hips to his lower back before rocking his own body slowly upwards.
Eisen arched into his touch, allowing his head to fall back until the length of his neck was exposed to the older man's eager mouth. Moaning softly, Yasuaki moved again, pulling their bodies together as he laved his tongue over the line of Eisen's pulse, feeling it's frantic pounding beneath his lips.
"Does this please you?" He whispered, breathing softly against the monk's skin. "Tell me what you need, Eisen?" He lowered his hands to the edge of his partner's sleepwear, brushing his fingers along the pale skin of his legs. Eisen gasped softly, reminded of his barely clothed state. He shivered as Yasuaki slipped a hand beneath the garment's hem, stroking his thumb against the inside of his thigh in slow circles.
"It does," He said, his voice unsteady. "I don't need anything but you, Yasuaki. Please, let me feel you?" He lifted his head, pressing his lips to his lover's cheek before sealing their mouths together, his hands fumbling with the fastenings of the older man's shirt until he could reach the skin beneath. Sighing quietly into the kiss, he slipped his fingers through the open fabric, relishing the feeling of his partner's warmth.
Yasuaki slipped his hands higher, pushing the yukata ahead of his searching fingertips. When he reached Eisen's undergarment, he traced his fingers along the edge, sucking gently on the younger man's lower lip. Feeling no resistance, Yasuaki moved his hand down to cup him intimately and he pulled back with a sharp gasp.
Yasuaki paused. "Is this all right?" He murmured, watching for any sign of discomfort. Eisen nodded slowly, his eyes clenched shut in pleasure.
"It feels good.." He whispered, shivers wracking him in waves. "Please don't stop, I want.." He stiffened, his voice breaking with surprise as his partner tentatively stroked him, a light pressure that left his mind reeling. Once the initial sensation had faded somewhat, he relaxed again, resting his head against his partner's shoulder. Gathering his scattered thoughts, he withdrew his hands, placing them against Yasuaki's chest.
The older man stilled, his eyes questioning. "Is something wrong, Eisen? I don't mean to push.." The monk shook his head quickly.
"No, nothing's wrong, nothing at all.. I just wanted to.." He paused, his blush returning. "I like what you're doing, honestly I do. I just thought that maybe it would be better if I could do something for you.. I shouldn't let you do everything, Yasuaki. We're supposed to be doing things for each other, aren't we?" He looked away, unsure.
Yasuaki smiled, pulling him close. "Do whatever pleases you, Eisen. I love touching you, doing the things that make you happy.." He kissed the corner of his lover's mouth, nuzzling against his cheek fondly. "But I want to feel your hands on me, you don't have to ask. If there is something you wish to do, then please, Eisen?"
The younger man nodded, lifting his hands to frame his partner's face as he returned his light kisses. Slowly, he worked his way to the side of his neck, mimicking the priest's earlier actions carefully. Opening his mouth, he licked him gently before closing his teeth lightly against his pulsepoint. Feeling his shiver, he continued, encouraged by his lover's response. Hesitantly, he wound his fingers into the priest's fine hair, tugging carefully at the ties that held it in place until they loosened, allowing the thick strands to fall into a lengthy sweep against his back.
Carding through it's softness, he pulled back, looking at the man with intensity. Hands still entwined, he smiled. "You're nothing like the Demon clan, Yasuaki.. I've seen them several times, and not one of them is as beautiful as you are." He reluctantly disentangled himself, moving back until there was enough space between them to comfortably do what he had in mind. Carefully undoing the rest of the priest's shirt fastenings, he pushed it over his shoulders, guiding it down his arms and setting it aside.
"You're so warm.." He whispered, skimming his hands over the skin of his partner's chest. "No evil thing could be this way, soft and alive.. Please don't ever compare yourself to them again, Yasuaki." He wrapped his arms around the man's shoulders, holding him close as he explored the planes of his unscarred back with shaky fingers. "I love you," He said, gently nibbling on his partner's earlobe. The older man groaned, shaking his head.
"I love you too, Eisen.. I won't say things that hurt you, even if I think they may be true." He sighed raggedly, closing his eyes when the younger Hachiyou's lips sought out his own, and placed his hands on the ground to balance himself as Eisen settled against his chest firmly.
Feeling his partner shake, Eisen returned his hand to it's former position on Yasuaki's front, pushing gently to encourage the man to move. Once he understood, Yasuaki shifted himself back onto the spread futon, moving gradually until they were both sprawled haphazardly on the blankets. Leaning forward, Eisen resumed their kiss, using one arm for support as he urged his lover down to rest on the pillow.
When the monk pulled away, Yasuaki allowed him to move freely, resting his hands lightly on his partner's slender hips as he waited patiently to see what the younger man had in mind.
Eisen bent forward again, moving lower until he could easily press his lips to the skin he'd uncovered moments before, and heard the priest's sharp exhalation when he felt the kittenish strokes of his lover's tongue.
Yasuaki couldn't contain a growl of approval, words deserting him with his partner's sudden boldness. He panted breathlessly as he felt Eisen's movements descend from his chest to his upper abdomen, and he sank his hands into the blanket to resist the urge to pull him back up for a kiss.
Eisen shifted slowly backwards, resting one leg between the taller man's knees. Gripping his waist, he followed the lines of his partner's ribs with his lips, delighted at the priest's obvious enjoyment. Encouraged by the soft murmurs and quiet moans, he moved lower, nipping gently at the skin just above his lover's navel before soothing the sting with a kiss.
Yasuaki gasped, his stomach muscles tightening as he felt his partner's hands leave his waist, his gentle touch sliding over the priest's clothed hips as he tugged at the band of his pants with shaky fingers. Forcing his clenched hands to relax, Yasuaki reached down, catching the smaller man's attention. "You don't have to do this, Eisen," He whispered, "I don't want you to feel as if you have to do something just because someone said you should."
Eisen shook his head, smiling. "That doesn't matter. I don't feel that way at all, I want to do things for you, Yasuaki.." He said, blushing lightly. "Please, let me try?"
Nodding mutely, he struggled to relax. Closing his eyes, he lay back, shivering as he felt his partner carefully undo the fastenings of his pants, tugging them down to mid-thigh before moving to the side in order to completely remove them. His breath left him in a startled rush as he felt the monk's hand slide up the inside of his thigh, his mouth trailing soft kisses over his hipbone.
Shifting his weight, Eisen moved to kneel between his partner's spread legs, his hands steady as he concentrated on the feeling of his lover's skin beneath his palms. Blushing fiercely, he pressed his lips to the soft skin at the junction of the man's leg, drawing a surprised moan from him when he sucked gently. Ignoring his embarrassment, he imitated the older man's actions from before, cupping his free hand over the front of his thin undergarment in a slow caress. Yasuaki gasped loudly, lifting his hips into the contact.
Shivering, Eisen stroked him firmly, pleased at the ragged sound of his breathing. Forcing back his nervousness, he whispered softly. "Is..Is this good?"
Yasuaki nodded, unable to reply.
Taking a breath, Eisen continued his gentle movements, moving his other hand from his partner's thigh to his hip. Lowering his head, he stroked his tongue along the edge of the only article of clothing that separated him from his lover's skin. The priest made an inarticulate sound of surprise, his hands twisting the blanket beneath him fiercely. Feeling suddenly impish, Eisen snagged the garment's tie with his teeth, pulling the loose end until it gave easily.
Yasuaki panted harshly, his fingers clenched so tightly that they ached. Feeling the younger man's hand pause and withdraw, he almost groaned at the loss. Before he could draw a breath to do so, any thought of protest was dashed at the sudden feeling of his lover's hand on his now-bare skin. It seemed as though every muscle in his body had locked, leaving him unable even to breathe as Eisen resumed his steady caress, slightly less sure of himself.
After feeling the older man's instant reaction, Eisen wondered if he'd done something wrong. When his partner hissed, he looked up quickly to gauge his expression. The dim light from the window fell short of the bedding, leaving his face in shadow, but the shivers that wracked his body spoke volumes. Reassured, the younger man leaned down, pausing for only an instant before hesitantly stroking his tongue across the tip of his lover's heated arousal.
Yasuaki cried out, his back arching almost painfully at the intensity of the sensation. Startled by his reaction, Eisen repeated the motion, slowly taking longer swipes as he moved his hand lower for more room. Each pass of his mouth drew increasingly fervent sounds from his lover, wordless pleas interspaced with guttural moans as he trembled with urgency.
Emboldened, Eisen opened his mouth, allowing his lips to close gently over the tip before sliding down. Yasuaki sucked in a quick breath, unable to believe that anything could feel so good. Clenching his teeth, he resisted the urge to thrust deeper into his partner's mouth through supreme force of will. Haltingly he spoke, his voice breathy from lack of air. "You have to stop, I.." He shuddered, rising to his elbows and forcing himself to continue. "Eisen, please! It's too much, I can't.."
Pulling away, his partner gazed up at him thoughtfully for a moment. Then he shook his head, speaking softly. "I want this, Yasuaki. Please don't make me stop, I want to taste you.." He sighed, his eyes pleading. "Let me do this for you? It feels so good to know that I make you feel this way, that I can make you lose control like this. Don't you want it?" He whispered, his voice shaking.
Yasuaki groaned, unable to deny his lover anything. "If it means so much to you, then.." He gasped, the words barely passing his lips before his partner resumed his efforts, almost as if he were afraid that the priest would change his mind. "Gods..!" He reached down, burying his hand into his lover's soft hair. "I do want it, please Eisen..Ah!" He shuddered, gasping anew as the younger man added a gentle suction, resting his weight on the other's hips as he bucked helplessly upward. Afraid of hurting his partner, Yasuaki released his hair, gripping the blankets instead.
Feeling the now-familiar tightening of his stomach, he panted harshly as he pleaded shamelessly for release. "Please..please don't stop, I'm so close..!" His words broke off with a strangled cry, something that sounded remotely like his lover's name escaping him as he shuddered violently, spilling his essence into his partner's willing mouth.
Eisen choked, surprised by the bitter taste. Pulling back, he swallowed quickly, gasping for breath. Glancing up at his partner, he whispered hesitantly. "Yasuaki..? Are you all right?" Receiving no response, he leaned closer, reaching out to touch his lover's still shivering hip. "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have done that.. I thought you'd like it, please Yasuaki?"
The older man blinked, shaking his head. "No!" He seized Eisen's hand, pulling him down, "No, don't be sorry, Eisen. It was wonderful.. I just can't believe how good it felt, I didn't think.." He chuckled, embracing the younger man tightly. "I loved it. Did you like it, Eisen?"
Eisen sighed in relief, relaxing into his hold. "It wasn't bad," He said, thoughtfully. "It was worth doing, if you liked it so much.. I loved being able to make you feel like that, Yasuaki." Blushing he laughed. "Will you let me try again sometime?"
Yasuaki smiled, nodding. "If you want to, I won't stop you. I didn't think you would enjoy it, but I'm glad that you did." Pulling away slightly, he looked at his partner's flushed cheeks questioningly. "Do you want it too? I wouldn't mind trying it, if you do.."
The younger man gasped, shaking his head. "No, it's all right. I think I can wait for that, Yasuaki.." He looked away, his blush deepening. "You don't have to do anything, I'm fine.."
Yasuaki chuckled softly, running his hands over his lover's back. "Are you, Eisen?" He grasped his waist, nudging against him teasingly. "There is nothing you need, nothing I could do for you?" Hearing him gasp, Yasuaki smiled. "I'm sure there's something.."
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Well, I bet you're all just dying to kill me for stopping there, heh. Don't worry, I'm a firm believer in fair play! Keep your eyes out for the next chapter, I promise that you won't have too long to wait. Hell, the way things have been going, it will probably end up being twice as long as this one XD Ja!
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A Haruka Naru Toki No Naka De Fanfiction
By SailorLight22
Chapter 6 - Application
I do not own these wonderful bishies, only the plot to this ficlette.. my first Haruka fic, should i continue, or does it suck enough to be yaoi without an ending? xD ANY replies would be appreciated, be easy though, k?
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WARNING! This chapter ALSO contains some Adult Material! :) While I'm sure no one minds, I just wanted to warn you.
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A short time later, Eisen jerked awake, bolting upright. He couldn't remember what he'd seen, but something about the dream had frightened him. Attempting to shake off his lingering fear, he sighed, getting up. Retrieving his flute, he stepped outside and sat in his usual place by the middle support beams.
Leaning back against the beam, he looked up at the night sky. He realized that it was still early, not yet midnight. Sighing, he raised his flute, playing softly in the darkness. Losing himself in the music, he closed his eyes, allowing his mind to wander. Not surprisingly, his thoughts settled on his partner. He knew that he would have to find him and apologize for running away like that.
He'd gone directly to his room in mortification. 'Yasuaki must think I'm a fool,' He thought, 'A childish fool who flees from mere words..' Caught up in his disgust, he failed to notice the sound of quiet footsteps until someone touched his shoulder. With a startled yelp, he jumped. Turning his head, he found himself staring at the concerned face of his partner.
Mentally, he sighed. 'Just when I thought I couldn't possibly embarrass myself further,' He thought, wincing. Taking a breath to calm his pounding heart, he spoke. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to yell like that. I didn't hear you."
Yasuaki shook his head. "And I didn't mean to frighten you." Looking around, he continued. "So this is where you were. I couldn't find you earlier."
Reminded of his less than graceful retreat, Eisen blushed. "Yes. I'm sorry that I left you like that, but I just.."
His lover nodded in understanding. "Don't worry about it, Eisen. Tachibana should have left well enough alone." Eisen smiled shyly.
"I'm sure he meant well, too. I think he just misunderstood the situation." Unsure of what to say, he gestured to his room. "You've never been here, have you? Would you like to come in?" Yasuaki nodded, rising to his feet and offering his hand. Eisen took it, allowing the taller man to assist him.
Once he'd gotten to his feet, he expected Yasuaki to release him. He was pleasantly surprised when he didn't, and he smiled up at him before leading the way to the door. Entering the room, he kneeled beside the futon, fumbling in the semi-darkness for the candle. He stopped as his partner spoke quietly.
"Don't bother with that, it's fine as it is." Eisen blinked, protesting slightly.
"But it's almost too dark to leave it like this..You won't be able to see, Yasuaki.." The priest smiled, kneeling beside him.
Taking his hand, he ran his thumb across Eisen's knuckles soothingly. "The only thing I came to see is you. There's more than enough moonlight for that, Eisen."
Eisen blinked, his face heating under the man's intense gaze. Yasuaki smiled, lifting his free hand to push back a stray lock of the shorter man's hair before cupping his cheek. Eisen leaned into his touch, closing his eyes as he relaxed. Yasuaki squeezed his hand, using his hold to pull his partner closer, urging his head down to rest on his shoulder as his hand slid over his hair in a gentle caress.
"Does this bother you, Eisen? I don't want to make you uncomfortable." The monk shook his head, smiling.
"No, I'm not uncomfortable with you. Tachibana-san just surprised me. I didn't realize that there was so many things I didn't know. Not all of it was bad, really." He blushed, hiding his face in the priest's shirt. "Some of it didn't sound so.." He trailed off, embarrassed.
Yasuaki embraced him, urging his head up. Meeting his eyes, he smiled. "I would never make you do anything that you didn't want. Eisen. I love you, there's no need for you to be nervous." He kissed his cheek, inhaling the faint smell of his hair.
Eisen shivered, closing his eyes at the warm softness of the priest's lips. Sinking deeper into his arms, he sighed. "I know you wouldn't. I trust you, Yasuaki, but Tachibana-san has a point." He pulled away, frowning. "If we're going to be together, it is good to know what to expect. It was awful to talk to someone else about something like that, but I.. I want to be able to share those things with you." He fidgeted, unable to meet his partner's eyes.
"Nothing Tachibana-san said was disgusting to me, it was just embarrassing.." He laughed nervously. "I ran like that because I couldn't stand to sit there anymore. The way he talked about someone using their mouth to.." He shook his head, forcing himself to finish. "It wasn't a bad thing, but it was horrible to be there, with him knowing that I was thinking about it. And the look on your face when he said it.. I thought you were upset by it."
Yasuaki squeezed his hand gently. "I wasn't upset. I just couldn't imagine asking someone to do that. It didn't seem fair, really. Only one person would enjoy it, and that isn't right." Eisen blushed, staring at their joined hands.
"I don't think that it's unfair. I think that it would be something that both people would enjoy, because making the one you love happy feels good too." He raised his head, smiling. "Does that sound foolish?"
Yasuaki stared at him for a moment, then shook his head. "No, it doesn't. I think I can understand what you mean, actually." He smiled, leaning closer to the younger man's ear. "I did enjoy the way your skin tasted, after all." Eisen gasped, his eyes wide in surprise. Yasuaki took advantage of his shock, pressing his lips to the junction of his partner's neck.
Eisen whimpered softly, biting down on his lip as Yasuaki's mouth moved over his sensitive skin. His breath left him in a rush as the older man opened his mouth, stroking his tongue across the point of his pulse.
He closed his eyes, hands gripping the folds of his sleepwear in an effort to calm his pounding heart. Yasuaki pulled away, laughing softly.
"It's strange," He mused, smiling. "I would never have imagined doing something like that before. I knew that I wanted.. something, but I could never put words to it. I thought that something was wrong with me." He took his partner's hand, tracing the lines on his palm. "Now, everything makes so much more sense. What I felt, what I wanted, all of it."
Eisen smiled, watching the older man's face as he spoke. "Does knowing make you happy?" Yasuaki met his eyes calmly, and shook his head. For a moment, Eisen swore that his heart had stopped, but the priest smiled as he explained.
"Knowing that means very little. Knowing that you want the same things is what makes me happy, Eisen."
The younger man blinked, fighting back tears. "I want you to be happy, Yasuaki. If all I need to do is be with you, then I don't think you'll have a chance to be unhappy. I'll stay as long as you wish me to." He smiled brightly, wiping his eyes. "I'm sorry. I thought for a moment that you were going to say something else.."
Yasuaki frowned, moving away. "I didn't mean to upset you, so don't apologize." Releasing his partner's hand, he made as if to rise. "I should let you sleep, the day has been long.." Before he could go, Eisen grabbed his sleeve, his eyes downcast.
"Stay with me..?" He whispered, blushing. "I couldn't sleep because something felt wrong before.." Yasuaki leaned close to hear his quiet words. "I didn't know exactly what it was, but I didn't like the way it felt." He looked up, his face warming. "I understand it now. I missed you. I've never felt lonely here before, but being here without you was.." He paused, shaking his head. "I don't want to be without you." He whispered finally, wincing at how childish he felt.
Yasuaki stared at him, his eyes wide in surprise. "Eisen," He said, his voice low, "Are you sure? I would love to stay with you, but I didn't think that you would want me here after today.."
The smaller man nodded, releasing his hold on Yasuaki's sleeve. "I feel terribly selfish for asking.. But I don't want you to go. Please, stay..?" He reached out, his arms open in silent invitation. The priest smiled, sitting beside him as he accepted his embrace gratefully. Eisen sighed contentedly.
"I'll stay as long as you like, Eisen. Are you tired now?" Blushing slightly, the younger man shook his head.
"No, I'm just comfortable. I was thinking about you while I was outside, you know.. I felt bad about what happened with Tachibana-san, and I wanted to make it up to you when I had the chance.." He trailed off, his blush intensifying. "I must have looked ridiculous when I jumped up and ran.. I could hear Tachibana-san laughing, and I imagine that Takamichi-san probably thinks I've lost my mind."
Yasuaki chuckled softly. "No, I'm sure he doesn't. He IS Tachibana's partner, certainly he knows what to expect from him." He smiled almost playfully. "When it comes to partners, I think I came out on the good side with you. At least you have sense enough to leave private things private, and you smell wonderful.." He leaned closer, pressing their lips together briefly. "I've always thought that, actually. I saw the others bickering and such with their own partners, and I was pleased that we always got along so well, even though I wasn't a very nice person myself."
Eisen shook his head quickly. "I never thought you were a bad person, Yasuaki. Even when you acted cold, you always made the right choices. It wasn't that you didn't feel things, you just didn't have a way to express what you did feel. If I hadn't have believed that, I don't think I would have been able to love you.." He laughed, suddenly nervous. "Something about you, the way you acted then.. It made me feel like you needed more than just a partner. I didn't want you to be alone, but I never thought that you would accept my feelings." He looked away, his face pained.
"I still feel guilty.. I wonder if it's really fair that I haven't tried to be patient and let you see how you feel for other people. I don't want to be selfish, but I think I might be taking advantage of the situation. Perhaps you felt something for me because it was time for your heart to awaken on it's own. The god did say Akane-sama started the process.. Maybe in time you would have found someone else, someone who wasn't with you most of the time." The thought made him cringe. Nothing could be worse than knowing his partner loved someone else, but he didn't want to burden him with someone that wasn't good enough, someone who'd only been in the right place at the right moment.
He thought he might have said too much, so silent was the room. After several minutes, Yasuaki sighed. "Eisen, I don't think you've been selfish at all. You would have been better suited to someone who could give you everything, someone that didn't need divine intervention to understand their own heart. Do you know how long I waited, watching you and thinking that no one was more important to me? I remember the first time I saw you, that night when I came to the city.." He paused, tightening his arms.
"You looked out at me from the window of your carriage, and your face was so sad that I couldn't help wondering why. After they discovered that you were Hachiyou, when you passed me on the way to the river.. I followed you because I knew that you would die there if no one came in time. I didn't have to go, but I wanted to be the one to help you." He closed his eyes, his voice rough.
"Do you know that I'm not human, Eisen? I've been told many times that the only thing separating me from the monsters we face is that they can at least feel emotion.. Now, I'm no different than any of the Demon clan. I have more understanding of emotion with every moment that passes, but I still can't claim to be like you, or any of the others here." Eisen began to protest, but the priest shook his head.
"No, just wait. The people of this place, they were frightened by me. They whispered that even Demons were beautiful things, and that it was hard to know if I was truly committed to the cause of the Priestess. I can't tell you what to believe, Eisen. I don't even know if I can die like you, or age with time. I don't think I've changed since the day my master awakened me, so I may never be able to die naturally. Do you want to be with someone who can't promise you a lifetime? Even if I could be with someone else, it would be the same for them, the knowledge that I could never promise to grow old beside them, or to die when they die." He pulled away, clenching his fists in his frustration.
"I may have to sit by and watch you grow old and fade, Eisen. I could watch everyone here go to their graves, and mourn every single life that escapes. Now, I understand why nothing my master said about feeling was enough. I had to see and experience these things for myself, so that one day I would know what it means to feel. I know that pain comes with loss, but I've never felt either of those things. I can't imagine what may come when the people I care for begin to leave this world, if I truly don't change with time. I thought about it sometimes, but now it makes me almost afraid that I've gained feeling only to suffer forever as the ones who matter to me die." He opened his eyes, forcing himself to be calm.
"Even if there could have been someone else for me, I wouldn't give up having this with you. I may have forever, but you will only be here for as long as the gods decide to let you live. If I cast your feelings aside, and went in search of someone to replace this, what would I have?" Eisen shook his head, unable to answer.
Yasuaki gripped his hands tightly. "I would have nothing, Eisen. All of that would be a mistake, because I would never wish to look back and remember that I had only the span of your life to love you, and I gave it away on a whim. Do you understand?"
The younger man stared at him, stunned by his impassioned face. "I..I didn't think.." His voice caught, and he choked. "I knew you were different, but I didn't care about that. I still don't care that you aren't like the rest of us, because to me you were never like anyone else. If you don't grow old, then why would you want to be with someone who certainly will? I understand what you mean to say, Yasuaki, but I want you to have the best that life can give you, because with pain comes an understanding of joy. With nothing to compare it to, even the most important things are the same as trash. I didn't think that you were like the Demons, because you were yourself." He covered his face with his hands, unable to look the priest in the eye.
"I thought that no one would understand how I felt for you, because you were so much better than we are. You didn't have to feel hate for someone in order to fight, or guilt when you did something halfway. The things you did feel were much purer than what people like me felt, because you didn't go over and over in your mind, trying to make sense of things." He stifled a sob, his eyes burning with tears.
"You acted on your feelings without needing a name for them. You did the right thing because it was your true nature, it was just you. People who feel from the first moment aren't like that, we do things for a reason, because of what we are. I don't think you'll ever be like that, even if you do understand your feelings from now on. You're still you, Yasuaki. I don't know of anyone that would take time to think of someone else's death with more sadness than their own, or to be as kind as you are now. All of what you said makes sense, and it may be true." He forced himself to look up, meeting the older man's eyes clearly.
"But still, you put my petty insecurity first and comforted me before speaking of yourself! Even when we did talk before, it was the same! I worry about things that aren't nearly as important as your thoughts, Yasuaki. You asked me if I would want to be with someone that didn't live like other people? Then you spoke about yourself as if you loathed being as you are, being more human than humans!" He lowered his voice, trying to calm himself. "If I had to see you die again, I wouldn't care how long the gods wanted me to live. I don't think it would be life if someone like you weren't here to show people what they should be."
He sighed, wiping his eyes. "I'm sorry that you're unhappy when you think of your future, but I want all of mine to be with you.. I would be happy to grow old and die if I knew that one day you might be able to let yourself love someone else. Your love is much better than anyone else's, because you felt it before there was even a word for it. If there were a person worthy of you, I'd want them to have a chance to receive such a gift for being so special. That's why I said that I would never try to stop you from finding the one who made you happy." He shook his head.
"I don't care if it's selfish anymore. I do love you, and I want to see you happy.. But even when I say that, part of me screams that I want you to be happy with me, not some other person. I can't change that bit of selfish want, because I need you.." Stopping, he wiped his face again. Yasuaki made a sudden move, startling the smaller man as he clutched him tightly, pulling him almost roughly into his lap.
The priest stroked his partner's hair, kissing his upturned face as he mumbled softly to him. "If this is your selfishness, I welcome it. Please, let me love you for as long as I can?" He pleaded, his voice shaky and urgent. "I don't want someone else, and I won't let this chance escape me, not until you want me to go. As long as you have need of me, let me be your everything?"
Eisen gasped, almost afraid of his partner's fervent words. "You were never anything less, Yasuaki.. When I was still unborn, I was destined to be the opposite of you, always. Genbu, of Heaven and Earth, we were always meant to be joined. Didn't you know that I wouldn't exist without you? Even if there hadn't been love, you were always the other part of me."
Yasuaki stilled, his eyes wide. "I know that we're opposite sides of the same power, but I've never really thought about what it means, until now. You don't have to be anything but who you are, and I shouldn't be afraid of my future... If you are no longer here, then surely there would be nothing to keep me from joining you. We're the same, you and I. One can never be without the other, because the part of you that rests with me would hold me to this fate, and the part of myself within you is the same.." He closed his eyes, on the verge of tears himself.
"I would keep you with me, with or without that bond.. Would you let me do that, Eisen? Even after the Demons are defeated, when the Hachiyou are no longer needed?" The monk smiled, returning his tight embrace.
"If you want to stay, I wouldn't send you away. I only wish I had taken the time to talk to you like this when we were alone before.. I'm sorry that it took so long, but I was thinking of other... things.." He stopped, his face almost glowing red. Yasuaki gazed at him, his eyebrow raised.
"Other things?" He ran his hands over the thin material of his partner's clothing, tracing the line of his slender arms until he reached his shoulders. "What were you thinking about, Eisen? What it felt like when I kissed you?" He leaned in, capturing the younger man's lips heatedly before pulling away. "Or was it something else, like the sounds you made when I touched you?" He stroked a hand down the monk's side, gripping one hip firmly as the other man whimpered.
"Was that what you thought about?" He asked, teasingly. Eisen shook his head, then nodded, his expression confused. Yasuaki chucked softly, dipping his head to rest against the curve of the smaller man's throat. Nipping him gently, he noted with satisfaction that his efforts were having a definite effect on his partner's ability to remain silent, evidenced by his gasping cry when the priest moved his hands from his hips to his lower back before rocking his own body slowly upwards.
Eisen arched into his touch, allowing his head to fall back until the length of his neck was exposed to the older man's eager mouth. Moaning softly, Yasuaki moved again, pulling their bodies together as he laved his tongue over the line of Eisen's pulse, feeling it's frantic pounding beneath his lips.
"Does this please you?" He whispered, breathing softly against the monk's skin. "Tell me what you need, Eisen?" He lowered his hands to the edge of his partner's sleepwear, brushing his fingers along the pale skin of his legs. Eisen gasped softly, reminded of his barely clothed state. He shivered as Yasuaki slipped a hand beneath the garment's hem, stroking his thumb against the inside of his thigh in slow circles.
"It does," He said, his voice unsteady. "I don't need anything but you, Yasuaki. Please, let me feel you?" He lifted his head, pressing his lips to his lover's cheek before sealing their mouths together, his hands fumbling with the fastenings of the older man's shirt until he could reach the skin beneath. Sighing quietly into the kiss, he slipped his fingers through the open fabric, relishing the feeling of his partner's warmth.
Yasuaki slipped his hands higher, pushing the yukata ahead of his searching fingertips. When he reached Eisen's undergarment, he traced his fingers along the edge, sucking gently on the younger man's lower lip. Feeling no resistance, Yasuaki moved his hand down to cup him intimately and he pulled back with a sharp gasp.
Yasuaki paused. "Is this all right?" He murmured, watching for any sign of discomfort. Eisen nodded slowly, his eyes clenched shut in pleasure.
"It feels good.." He whispered, shivers wracking him in waves. "Please don't stop, I want.." He stiffened, his voice breaking with surprise as his partner tentatively stroked him, a light pressure that left his mind reeling. Once the initial sensation had faded somewhat, he relaxed again, resting his head against his partner's shoulder. Gathering his scattered thoughts, he withdrew his hands, placing them against Yasuaki's chest.
The older man stilled, his eyes questioning. "Is something wrong, Eisen? I don't mean to push.." The monk shook his head quickly.
"No, nothing's wrong, nothing at all.. I just wanted to.." He paused, his blush returning. "I like what you're doing, honestly I do. I just thought that maybe it would be better if I could do something for you.. I shouldn't let you do everything, Yasuaki. We're supposed to be doing things for each other, aren't we?" He looked away, unsure.
Yasuaki smiled, pulling him close. "Do whatever pleases you, Eisen. I love touching you, doing the things that make you happy.." He kissed the corner of his lover's mouth, nuzzling against his cheek fondly. "But I want to feel your hands on me, you don't have to ask. If there is something you wish to do, then please, Eisen?"
The younger man nodded, lifting his hands to frame his partner's face as he returned his light kisses. Slowly, he worked his way to the side of his neck, mimicking the priest's earlier actions carefully. Opening his mouth, he licked him gently before closing his teeth lightly against his pulsepoint. Feeling his shiver, he continued, encouraged by his lover's response. Hesitantly, he wound his fingers into the priest's fine hair, tugging carefully at the ties that held it in place until they loosened, allowing the thick strands to fall into a lengthy sweep against his back.
Carding through it's softness, he pulled back, looking at the man with intensity. Hands still entwined, he smiled. "You're nothing like the Demon clan, Yasuaki.. I've seen them several times, and not one of them is as beautiful as you are." He reluctantly disentangled himself, moving back until there was enough space between them to comfortably do what he had in mind. Carefully undoing the rest of the priest's shirt fastenings, he pushed it over his shoulders, guiding it down his arms and setting it aside.
"You're so warm.." He whispered, skimming his hands over the skin of his partner's chest. "No evil thing could be this way, soft and alive.. Please don't ever compare yourself to them again, Yasuaki." He wrapped his arms around the man's shoulders, holding him close as he explored the planes of his unscarred back with shaky fingers. "I love you," He said, gently nibbling on his partner's earlobe. The older man groaned, shaking his head.
"I love you too, Eisen.. I won't say things that hurt you, even if I think they may be true." He sighed raggedly, closing his eyes when the younger Hachiyou's lips sought out his own, and placed his hands on the ground to balance himself as Eisen settled against his chest firmly.
Feeling his partner shake, Eisen returned his hand to it's former position on Yasuaki's front, pushing gently to encourage the man to move. Once he understood, Yasuaki shifted himself back onto the spread futon, moving gradually until they were both sprawled haphazardly on the blankets. Leaning forward, Eisen resumed their kiss, using one arm for support as he urged his lover down to rest on the pillow.
When the monk pulled away, Yasuaki allowed him to move freely, resting his hands lightly on his partner's slender hips as he waited patiently to see what the younger man had in mind.
Eisen bent forward again, moving lower until he could easily press his lips to the skin he'd uncovered moments before, and heard the priest's sharp exhalation when he felt the kittenish strokes of his lover's tongue.
Yasuaki couldn't contain a growl of approval, words deserting him with his partner's sudden boldness. He panted breathlessly as he felt Eisen's movements descend from his chest to his upper abdomen, and he sank his hands into the blanket to resist the urge to pull him back up for a kiss.
Eisen shifted slowly backwards, resting one leg between the taller man's knees. Gripping his waist, he followed the lines of his partner's ribs with his lips, delighted at the priest's obvious enjoyment. Encouraged by the soft murmurs and quiet moans, he moved lower, nipping gently at the skin just above his lover's navel before soothing the sting with a kiss.
Yasuaki gasped, his stomach muscles tightening as he felt his partner's hands leave his waist, his gentle touch sliding over the priest's clothed hips as he tugged at the band of his pants with shaky fingers. Forcing his clenched hands to relax, Yasuaki reached down, catching the smaller man's attention. "You don't have to do this, Eisen," He whispered, "I don't want you to feel as if you have to do something just because someone said you should."
Eisen shook his head, smiling. "That doesn't matter. I don't feel that way at all, I want to do things for you, Yasuaki.." He said, blushing lightly. "Please, let me try?"
Nodding mutely, he struggled to relax. Closing his eyes, he lay back, shivering as he felt his partner carefully undo the fastenings of his pants, tugging them down to mid-thigh before moving to the side in order to completely remove them. His breath left him in a startled rush as he felt the monk's hand slide up the inside of his thigh, his mouth trailing soft kisses over his hipbone.
Shifting his weight, Eisen moved to kneel between his partner's spread legs, his hands steady as he concentrated on the feeling of his lover's skin beneath his palms. Blushing fiercely, he pressed his lips to the soft skin at the junction of the man's leg, drawing a surprised moan from him when he sucked gently. Ignoring his embarrassment, he imitated the older man's actions from before, cupping his free hand over the front of his thin undergarment in a slow caress. Yasuaki gasped loudly, lifting his hips into the contact.
Shivering, Eisen stroked him firmly, pleased at the ragged sound of his breathing. Forcing back his nervousness, he whispered softly. "Is..Is this good?"
Yasuaki nodded, unable to reply.
Taking a breath, Eisen continued his gentle movements, moving his other hand from his partner's thigh to his hip. Lowering his head, he stroked his tongue along the edge of the only article of clothing that separated him from his lover's skin. The priest made an inarticulate sound of surprise, his hands twisting the blanket beneath him fiercely. Feeling suddenly impish, Eisen snagged the garment's tie with his teeth, pulling the loose end until it gave easily.
Yasuaki panted harshly, his fingers clenched so tightly that they ached. Feeling the younger man's hand pause and withdraw, he almost groaned at the loss. Before he could draw a breath to do so, any thought of protest was dashed at the sudden feeling of his lover's hand on his now-bare skin. It seemed as though every muscle in his body had locked, leaving him unable even to breathe as Eisen resumed his steady caress, slightly less sure of himself.
After feeling the older man's instant reaction, Eisen wondered if he'd done something wrong. When his partner hissed, he looked up quickly to gauge his expression. The dim light from the window fell short of the bedding, leaving his face in shadow, but the shivers that wracked his body spoke volumes. Reassured, the younger man leaned down, pausing for only an instant before hesitantly stroking his tongue across the tip of his lover's heated arousal.
Yasuaki cried out, his back arching almost painfully at the intensity of the sensation. Startled by his reaction, Eisen repeated the motion, slowly taking longer swipes as he moved his hand lower for more room. Each pass of his mouth drew increasingly fervent sounds from his lover, wordless pleas interspaced with guttural moans as he trembled with urgency.
Emboldened, Eisen opened his mouth, allowing his lips to close gently over the tip before sliding down. Yasuaki sucked in a quick breath, unable to believe that anything could feel so good. Clenching his teeth, he resisted the urge to thrust deeper into his partner's mouth through supreme force of will. Haltingly he spoke, his voice breathy from lack of air. "You have to stop, I.." He shuddered, rising to his elbows and forcing himself to continue. "Eisen, please! It's too much, I can't.."
Pulling away, his partner gazed up at him thoughtfully for a moment. Then he shook his head, speaking softly. "I want this, Yasuaki. Please don't make me stop, I want to taste you.." He sighed, his eyes pleading. "Let me do this for you? It feels so good to know that I make you feel this way, that I can make you lose control like this. Don't you want it?" He whispered, his voice shaking.
Yasuaki groaned, unable to deny his lover anything. "If it means so much to you, then.." He gasped, the words barely passing his lips before his partner resumed his efforts, almost as if he were afraid that the priest would change his mind. "Gods..!" He reached down, burying his hand into his lover's soft hair. "I do want it, please Eisen..Ah!" He shuddered, gasping anew as the younger man added a gentle suction, resting his weight on the other's hips as he bucked helplessly upward. Afraid of hurting his partner, Yasuaki released his hair, gripping the blankets instead.
Feeling the now-familiar tightening of his stomach, he panted harshly as he pleaded shamelessly for release. "Please..please don't stop, I'm so close..!" His words broke off with a strangled cry, something that sounded remotely like his lover's name escaping him as he shuddered violently, spilling his essence into his partner's willing mouth.
Eisen choked, surprised by the bitter taste. Pulling back, he swallowed quickly, gasping for breath. Glancing up at his partner, he whispered hesitantly. "Yasuaki..? Are you all right?" Receiving no response, he leaned closer, reaching out to touch his lover's still shivering hip. "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have done that.. I thought you'd like it, please Yasuaki?"
The older man blinked, shaking his head. "No!" He seized Eisen's hand, pulling him down, "No, don't be sorry, Eisen. It was wonderful.. I just can't believe how good it felt, I didn't think.." He chuckled, embracing the younger man tightly. "I loved it. Did you like it, Eisen?"
Eisen sighed in relief, relaxing into his hold. "It wasn't bad," He said, thoughtfully. "It was worth doing, if you liked it so much.. I loved being able to make you feel like that, Yasuaki." Blushing he laughed. "Will you let me try again sometime?"
Yasuaki smiled, nodding. "If you want to, I won't stop you. I didn't think you would enjoy it, but I'm glad that you did." Pulling away slightly, he looked at his partner's flushed cheeks questioningly. "Do you want it too? I wouldn't mind trying it, if you do.."
The younger man gasped, shaking his head. "No, it's all right. I think I can wait for that, Yasuaki.." He looked away, his blush deepening. "You don't have to do anything, I'm fine.."
Yasuaki chuckled softly, running his hands over his lover's back. "Are you, Eisen?" He grasped his waist, nudging against him teasingly. "There is nothing you need, nothing I could do for you?" Hearing him gasp, Yasuaki smiled. "I'm sure there's something.."
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Well, I bet you're all just dying to kill me for stopping there, heh. Don't worry, I'm a firm believer in fair play! Keep your eyes out for the next chapter, I promise that you won't have too long to wait. Hell, the way things have been going, it will probably end up being twice as long as this one XD Ja!
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