InuYasha Fan Fiction / Sailor Moon Fan Fiction ❯ Breathless ❯ Home, forever ( Chapter 22 )

[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]
By: Jay FicLover
He seems to want to tell her as much of the truth as he can... but is he trully being sincere?

Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction / Sailor Moon Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance / Hentai / Drama | Type: Crossover | Uploaded On: 02.09.2007 | Pages: 2 | Words: 2.7K | Visits: 390 | Status: Work In Progress

Disclaimer: I don't own Inuyasha, Sailor Moon, or anything that you recognize.
Chapter Twenty One.
`Home, forever'
“Usagi, Usagi… look at me, calm down… I'm not mad at you” Naraku took her gently by the shoulders, forcing her to look up at him “You already give so much, Butterfly, so much more than you can even imagine…” he caressed her right cheek with the back of his hand, fondly. “Only you, only you'll be able to see this side of me… ever. I'm not going to lie to you, Usagi; I am not as harmless as I look…Warm…caring…things I usually am only around you. This is not…the way I act with everyone else”
“Huh?! Niraya-sama?”
Touching their foreheads together and bowing his head slightly, blood red met with blue for an instant before he closed his eyes and sighed, giving a bitter, resigned smile.
“I haven't been entirely honest with you, either; Butterfly…”
“What do you mean, Niraya-sama?”
“I am a Lord, Usagi…” he said, stepping away to look her in the eyes “and as such, sacrifices must be made in order for me to be able to maintain my power”
The blonde nodded. “I know that, you'd already told me”
He nodded also, turning back from her. “What you don't know is the nature of those sacrifices I must make. Angel, what you ignore is the extreme complexities of the outside world… I'm afraid that in my intent to keep you here, shielded and guarded from any possible danger, I've made you all the more unaware of the world we live in, Usagi…” he stared in her eyes very seriously “the dream you had days ago wasn't entirely mistaken”
“Huh?!”
“…I did hurt someone that day”
“Wha- what…?” she exclaimed, blue eyes disbelieving “b-but how... Why?! …Who?”
“I will tell you as much as I can right now, Usagi… the person I hurt; no, the people I hurt… are people who wish for my destruction… they're searching for me, because they want to put my existence to an end”
The girl's eyes widened with fear “…Nani?!”
`K- Kill Niraya-sama..?! NO!! It couldn't be… who would want to hurt him… why?!”
“Don't blame them for it, Usagi… you wouldn't if you knew all the things I've done. I've caused many of them grief… but the truth is, I will do what I must, to survive”
“Ni- Niraya-sama?!”
“I am an unnatural being, my sweet Chouko Hime, and a hybrid, which is already bad enough by itself, in their eyes” he turned to look her in the eye “It is a great burden, to be different, in this world and time… People act selfishly; they fear what they don't understand, and what they fear, they hate… Your experience with Lord Sesshoumaru has already shown you that”
The girl looked down, crestfallen. “That is why you have to hide all the time… because people want to hurt you… and in exchange, you hurt them back” she whispered, remembering something he'd said not long before.
―“I had a terrible nightmare; I dreamed… that you were evil, and had a black heart”―
―“Resentment and loneliness can do that to a soul sometimes” ―
Her eyes grew large.
Was this-…? Was this what he'd really been talking about that time? All this time she'd been afraid that he was talking about herself,afraid that some non-confessed loneliness and resentment inside her own heart had produced that cruel nightmare…
`But all this time… he'd been talking about… himself?'
Resentment and loneliness had done that to his soul? …Was that what he'd been trying to say?
But that horrible dream she'd had still couldn't be true! Or could it?
“How did you hurt them... Niraya-sama?!" she questioned, shaking, spraying that things hadn't been at all like in her nightmare; that her nightmare had still been just the product of her imaginative, unocuppied mind "…Couldn't those people be changed?” she asked all of a sudden, changing tactics, but failing to keep her anxiety out of her voice non-the-less.
Choosing to keep silent about her first question, Naraku turned his unreadable eyes away.
“Some times people just aren't open to listen…” he said, unknowingly repeating his own detachment's previous words.
`The same thing that Aku said…' Usagi thought in dreadful dismay.
She couldn't believe what her loved ones were telling her… that there was no hope for this world?
…What had caused them to lose faith?
…Was the world of the outside…truly that heartless and terrible?
Then she remembered the way that the silver haired man, Sesshoumaru, had spoken.
―“Who sent you, human?” he repeated with newfound suspicion “Humans are a most opportunistic herd; so… what do you hope to gain by apologizing to me in this manner?”―
Curled into a pout, her pursed lips trembled.
Such coldness and distrust
Even though she didn't want to accept it…
…may be…
―“People act selfishly; they fear what they don't understand, and what they fear, they hate…”―
…may be, Niraya-sama was right.
“What's done is done” the Dark Hanyou Lord continued “we can not change the past… We can only search for our destiny, and follow our own path”
His voice sounded so void of warmth right now, it made her scared.
“My path, I believe, has always meant to involve you, Butterfly” he turned to look at her then “I never knew true mercy, warmth or affection… I'd always lived by myself, in fear and hatred… and fear and hatred were what ruled my life―”
Usagi gasped.
“That is… until I met you”
Once again tears, this time of compassion, started to fall from her eyes as she continued to listen.
“I've watched you, angel; you give your heart freely… so selflessly, you intend to love everyone equally… But that, my love, is impossible; it is unwise… your heart is so fragile… it would only end tearing you apart”
“Demo…” (“But…”)
“This world is selfish, heartless and cruel. It does not any deserve kindness such as yours. I will not let this merciless awful world hurt you, my Butterfly” he said cupping her face with his hands “That is why you must learn… Give love only to those that love you; help to those who help you; to the ones who hate you… you must hate them back; don't trust strangers, you must never open your fragile feelings to the undeserving…” he added very seriously “Do you trust me?”
She didn't want to hurt him, so—
“Yes”
His features relaxed, and he gave a real smile.
“Then please, remember what I said, Butterfly… I only want to protect you. We must not allow this heartless world to break your soft and vulnerable heart” he took her in his arms, hugging her “for it is my shelter... my sanctuary. ”
"Niraya-sama" the blonde cried in his embrace, overwhelmed by all he'd been saying.
"Someday I'll tell you all there is to know about me, love, and you'll understand everything... because you are the only refuge I've ever known. Usagi... you are my home..."
You are my home…forever.
To Be Continued.

A/N: So he told her the truth, or part of it. Naraku is no fool and he knows he can't tell her all at once... and he even managed to use Usagi's encounter with Sesshoumaru to his own favor... isn't that pure, tactical genius, or what?
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