InuYasha Fan Fiction / Sailor Moon Fan Fiction ❯ Breathless ❯ Wrong ( Chapter 46 )

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Chapter Forty Five.

 

 

`Wrong'

 

 

“You think you can put a stop to this war, little one? Even if you did, it would just start all over; this war will go on forever!” Sailor Cosmos heard Sailor Chaos' holler, laughing from the darkness “I've existed since far long before the Seed of the Light grew and gave birth to countless stars, I will not be destroyed by it…Who are you to say what is right?”

 

 

“I'm not pretending to be the one holding the greater wisdom. If I ever did…I'm not… not anymore” the silver haired senshi said with a newfound look of solemnity “I just want to put an end to this suffering…this pain…the people of this universe do not deserve it”

 

 

“What makes you think, Cosmos, that you are in any way to be the judge of that?” she heard the being speak with a note of genuine interest.

 

 

“Please. I just want peace, Chaos!” there were tears falling down her cheeks now.

 

 

“Peace is not a part of my nature… just as War is not a part of yours” the darkness told her “we are what we are; the way we are…you know that. Don't you remember what the one you once called your mother once said, Serenity? If you show a tear to me, I might swallow you. Is that what you want, Child of the Light?”

 

 

“I- I've already cried from the inside, so many times… as I tried not to do so in the outside, each time that I faced you… I've struggled to keep up my faith” Cosmos told the darkness “but…is this truly to be our fate, Chaos?” she hugged herself “In the end…must we always hurt each other, unless we put an end to everything? The will, the wish of a sailor soldier is to fight till the battle is over…and then to wait till the next starts? If that is right- if that is our destiny, I… I hate this fate!”

 

 

She felt the darkness surround her like a caress, and whispered one last time.

 

 

“…I really hate it!”

 

 

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The fair haired young female opened her eyes to the sound of the birds chirping. A two headed dragon was lying on the ground not far, with the two children on its back still asleep.

 

 

It was morning.

 

 

“It was…a dream…” she sighed, then sat up.

 

 

`Chaos…'

 

 

`Why am I here… have you been the one, to send me here? Have you done this?'

 

 

`Or did I do this to myself?'

 

 

`Even though I know now who I am, I still can't remember…'

 

 

Even though she knew who she was now, it didn't mean she knew or understood everything about herself completely: her memory was acting yet graciously selective. That dream she'd just had…she felt it was another memory. A memory of a conversation that she'd once had with Chaos. But… had it happened before, or after her time-travel to the Twenty First Century, when she was disguised as the tiny girl called `ChibiChibi'?

 

 

…Everything was still so fuzzy.

 

 

“I don't know…what it is that I'm supposed to do now” she rubbed her once again aching head “I thought I heard Guardian Cosmos' voice in my mind, just yesterday, and then just silence…”

 

 

`The only thing I know is that, if I use my powers, bad things might happen…' her right hand collided with something lying by her on the grass and she turned her head to the side.

 

 

…A sword…?

 

 

“Tenseiga”

 

 

`Sesshoumaru…'

 

 

Usagi raised her eyes, and saw the Demon Lord standing not far, his gaze lost in his own musings once more. The blonde couldn't help but wonder what was troubling him.

 

 

She noticed that he had failed to take the broken Heavenly Sword from her when she was asleep…Was it a sign that he now saw her as someone he could begin to trust? She desperately wished for it to be so, even if she didn't know very well why.

 

 

May be, though, there was an obvious reason for that. “He's accepted my apology at last, and he's already helped me twice” she whispered. First, it was from the bandits; then, from that man named Shishinki. In spite of being unconscious, she'd still heard the masked man and the silver haired youkai talking, and knew that since she hadn't dreamt the whole thing, Sesshoumaru had been in fact the reason Shishinki hadn't managed to finish her and Aku off then.

 

 

It was when she realized “…I didn't even thank him for the second time he saved my life…”

 

 

“He doesn't expect to be thanked for the good deeds he's done, because Sesshoumaru-sama doesn't consider them as completely selfless acts on his part” a voice told her from behind her, as if reading her mind. The blonde turned around, surprised.

 

 

“Rin-chan!?” Her heart beat faster. Apparently… sometime between her own musings, the little girl had woken up. Usagi gave her a hopeful glance as she saw her walking closer to where she was. Since she was still under her sailor transformation, she didn't know if the child was going to be able to see she was the same person as Usagi.

 

 

Yet, here little Rin was.

 

 

“Miss?”

 

 

“…Yes?”

 

 

“I've been wanting to ask you something?” she said timidly, catching all of the blonde's attention “Jaken-sama says Sesshoumaru-sama said you're someone I met once…but you look a bit different. Are you really her? Are you…” she held her breath “…Usagi-san?”

 

 

She hadn't finished the sentence when the older girl already felt her heart go out for the small child. She didn't, hadn't known Rin had actually been told who she really was! Let alone suspected that the cause why she hadn't talked to her yet could ever be because the child was gathering up her courage to ask her if she was who they said she was.

 

 

Her gaze was immediately overcome with the love she'd began to hold especially for this sweet, pure hearted child.

 

 

“…Is it really you?”

 

 

Knowing Rin would be able to see the real her despite the sailor transformation if she truly wanted to, Usagi gave a smile and nodded.

 

 

“Hai” giving her that loving look, the blonde slowly reached out to the little girl with a welcoming hand.

 

 

Rin immediately recognized the smile…the same big blue eyes, which even though a bit different now, they still held the same shape and kindness that'd become imprinted in her memory the first time they'd met each other. Rin's own brown pair grew large; as far as she knew, no one else that she knew of could have had those beautiful blue eyes.

 

 

“Usagi-san!” the little girl returned the smile and immediately ran to her arms “it really is you!! Master Jaken and Sesshoumaru-sama were right!!!” she hugged the older girl still with a smile on her face “I'm so happy I could see you again!”

 

 

“Thank you, Rin-chan… I am happy that I got to see you again, too” Usagi returned the hug tight. `I thought for a while there I wasn't going to… To be able to see this child whose warmth reminds me so strikingly of those that I lost…' she thought as an unnoticed lone tear escaped from one of her closed eyelids.

 

 

Neither of the two realized that Sesshoumaru was standing near them, watching.

 

 

Watching them, the Demon Lord was feeling something strange in his gut, as if he'd been guilty of separating a mother from her child. `Nonsense…they are not related' Sesshoumaru thought to himself. “Rin” he called as he walked towards them.

 

 

The little girl let go of her hold on the older one to look up at her guardian. “Sesshoumaru-sama?”

 

 

“Go help Jaken set the camp”

 

 

“Ok. See you later…? Usagi-san…?” she asked the blonde with her eyes if she would be there when she returned. Usagi smiled.

 

 

“Hai” she watched the little girl run towards the grumbling green toad starting a fire not very far. “She is such a sweet little one” she told the Taiyoukai.

 

 

“Stay away from her”

 

 

“Huh?” she gasped, glancing up at his profile.

 

 

“You are a prisoner for the time being, I don't want you indulging yourself with my ward”

 

 

The young woman lowered her eyes, disappointed “…I see”

 

 

`He still doesn't trust me after all'

 

 

“Woman” he turned his face away from her as she raised her eyes back to look at the fire “…What is the meaning of your crescent moon sigil?”

 

 

He heard her hold her breath and knew she'd been dreading that question.

 

 

“I'm sorry Sesshoumaru-sama… I can not tell you…” she said with her eyes back down and then turned her head away “Even if I could, I might be putting all of you in danger, and I'd never forgive myself if something were to happen to any of you because of that”

 

 

“This Sesshoumaru doesn't need for your pitiful attempts at protection” he told her in an acidic drawl “Or is it that you're just avoiding the question”

 

 

Glancing down at her sitting form from the corner of her eye, he saw her give a bittersweet smile, her eyes closing yet again. “Perhaps you're right” her tone revealed resignation and defeat, and he would have sneered at her for it.

 

 

“You don't have to tell me if you don't want to… I don't really care” he didn't know why the statement sounded so familiar, till he recalled that he'd already used that exact phrasing once.

 

 

“It…-It hurts me to hear you say something like that” the sentence said in a somewhat wavering voice made him stop in his tracks as he'd already started leaving her side. “I had thought… after you accepted my apology I had thought that we―” she could never finish her statement, for before the last words were out of her mouth a blur of white had come to her at full speed, yanking her to her feet by the arm and pushing her back a few steps.

 

 

“What?” he growled at her “that we what?”

 

 

“Ah!?” the unexpectedness of this `attack' rendered her speechless.

 

 

“What…did you think about us?” the look he was giving her was positively frightening.

 

 

“T-That w-we…! That we could become…friends…” she stuttered, growing panicked and trying not to make him angrier, for she recalled she'd already learned the hard way he could get quite violent if he wanted, though she was genuinely shocked by this reaction and still out of breath from the unexpected impact and the warning bells in her head at the aggressive change he'd undertaken, all of which encouraging in her a state of rising adrenaline.

 

 

“Friends? …I do not wish to be your friend” he snarled in a tone laced with contempt, spitting the last words like venom, causing her eyes to grow wider with hurt. “Do not make such mistake” She could also feel his claws digging into her arm, but she found she couldn't feel the pain, so great was the way his words made her upset, her panic and disorientation…

 

 

For the life of her, she could not understand what she could have done that could have set him off this time. After the more amicable way in which he'd spoken to her at the end of the day before, his current attitude was utterly incomprehensible. Why was he acting this way once more?!

 

 

“Stop it! You're hurting me!”

 

 

“…Then fight back”

 

 

“…Wha?”

 

 

“Fight me…if it hurts you, throw me off of you. Don't you have the power to defend yourself, human?” he asked in genuine interest.

 

 

“I…-!”

 

 

He wanted her to use her powers!?

 

 

“Fight me”

 

 

“…Why?”

 

 

“Do it”

 

 

“…No”

 

 

She saw his golden eyes suddenly flickering from her eyes to the crescent moon on her forehead, then back to her eyes and then to her mouth, where they lingered for a while.

 

 

“…Sesshoumaru?” she asked after a long moment of silence.

 

 

He did not answer, still staring at her lips with half-lidded eyes as if absorbed.

 

 

The grip on her shoulder went slack.

 

 

“Sesshoumaru?”

 

 

Nothing. It was as if he'd fallen asleep standing.

 

 

Beginning to get worried, she studied his face searching for the cause of his paralysis, till she realized he wasn't looking at her face anymore, but at the blood on her arm.

 

 

She hadn't even noticed she'd started bleeding from his claws.

 

 

`Was it…the reason that he stopped?' she tried giving a good look at his shadowed features.

 

 

His face was a mask of stone.

 

 

Cold, hard, unreadable.

 

 

`But, then…'

 

 

`…Then there is probably more to Sesshoumaru than meets the eye' without really thinking, she reached up with a hand and tentatively touched the crescent moon marking on his own forehead in a soft caress.

 

 

She never foresaw the shared strike of electricity that was passed between them through her fingers, making both of their bodies freeze and their breaths catch…

 

 

She didn't know why this simple action did something to her gut that, despite her previously desolate state, overcame her quickened pulse suddenly with heat…or why it made her previously tense body gradually go lax; her eyes glowing brighter if ever possible.

 

 

When he looked up at her and their gazes met at last, she felt herself blushing… Something in that look had made some unknown buried emotion come alive with new fire.

 

 

Her hand dropped to her side…She was confused now more about her own body's reaction than about him. However, she didn't know if he realized this; the manner in which he was staring at her was difficult to interpret.

 

 

“You're lost as much as you lose this Sesshoumaru… aren't you” he said to her.

 

 

“…Wha…?”

 

 

And just like that, much like the first time they'd met, he let go of her completely and pulled away; her luminous stare once again filled with bewilderment.

 

 

“Next time you touch me like that, I'll cut off your hand”

 

 

“…Sesshoumaru-sama?!” a childlike voice unexpectedly cut through their `altercation' of sorts; it was Rin, who'd come running followed by Jaken the moment she saw the commotion, whereas Kohaku stood there were he was with a mystified look. Rin was looking at the two of them with an expression of confusion on her face.

 

 

“Milord!” the toad cried as he caught up “Are you alright?! Did this impudent human disrespect you?”

 

 

“It is not of your business”

 

 

“Milord!!??!” Jaken could not believe his master would tell him off like that in front of some randomly known human. He only watched along with the females in astonishment as the Demon Lord turned from then and stalked off as was his style; what the three perplexed people didn't realize was that the Inuyoukai did hear the voice of his blinking ward addressing the older girl as he was leaving them behind him, as well as the answer that said girl gave her.

 

 

“U…Usagi-san?”

 

 

“I-It was nothing, Rin-chan” the blonde said despite of not understanding the recent situation either, turning to her with a nervous smile yet again completely shaken, though this time it was due to a swirl of contradicting emotions “…w-we were just discussing some adult things…” she tried to shrug it off.

 

 

But in the inside, she knew she had failed; even when she didn't know she and the Taiyoukai were currently thinking the same thing:

 

 

`Whatis… wrong with me?'

 

 

To Be Continued.

 

 

A/N: I REALLY need to know what you thought of this chapter… I've had to rewrite it at least a dozen times! (O_o)