InuYasha Fan Fiction / Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction ❯ Broken Promises, Shattered Dreams ❯ Broken ( Chapter 1 )

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Title: Broken Promises, Shattered Dreams

Authors; BrokenSouledPoetess and Ryukotsusei

Disclaimer: We don't own any part of Inuyasha or Yu Yu Hakusho. We merely torment the characters for our own amusement.

Author's Note: Pairings are decided, you'll just have to wait and see what they end up being. *Evil grin*

Chapter One

Hiei stared down at the girl, disbelief clearly written on his features. When she told him that they needed to talk he had never expected her to say anything like this. What had he been expecting? Hell, he wasn't even certain. A request to go home maybe? Or perhaps she wanted to ask him to train her yet again. But certainly not this! He knew that she was waiting for a response but he didn't know what to say. How was he supposed to take this? It wasn't supposed to have happened in the first place! He leaned back against a tree and sighed. He did not need these complications in his life at the present time. Hell, this sort of complication he could do without period. "Are you certain?

Kagome winced at the sound of his voice. She had hoped that he would be happy with the news. Sure it happened sooner than she had expected but whats done is done. Besides, he deserved to know the truth and he would have found out sooner or later anyway. It had been a miracle that he hadn't noticed it already, if she were to wager a guess she thought it was because of her Priestess abilities. "Yes, I've known for about three months now." Kagome wanted nothing more than to turn around and run when his eyes filled with anger. That in itself was nothing unusual but now it was directed towards her and it hurt. It hurt badly. What was so wrong with them starting a family together? She knew that he cared for her, that she wasn't just his fuck toy. So he should be happy right?

Three months? She had been hiding this from him for that long? Anger surged through him at that thought. She should have told him before now, before it had gotten this far. He had never once thought about having a family. He wasn't exactly father material after all. What could he offer a child? Absolutely nothing aside from teaching it how to fight for it's survival. That's exactly what would have to happen as well, assuming the child was strong enough to survive in the first place. Fire, Ice and Miko combined? The entire idea was insanity yet his lover was standing here before him telling him that was exactly what had happened. "Why did you keep it a secret for so long? And just what happened to you taking those pills that you said you were on?"

Kagome took a step towards him, needing reassurance that he didn't hate her but she stopped when she heard the low growl in his chest. Tears threatened to fall at his rejection but she held them back knowing that they would not do any good. If anything they'd upset him further, thinking that she was using female tricks to soften him. "I... I didn't know how you would take it. I was scared." It was the truth and his reaction was just proving her fears to be valid. Her gaze dropped to the ground, knowing that his second question still stood. She sighed heavily and walked over to a soft patch of grass before sitting down. She was beginning to feel ill and honestly she didn't think it had anything to do with morning sickness. She had seen the end of that particular curse weeks before. She drew her knees up to her chest and hugged them to her. "The pills cost money Hiei, something I don't exactly have and I don't have insurance to pay for them until it kicks in from my job. I thought we had more time, you're not supposed to be able to get pregnant so soon after going off the pill. I tried to tell you but you were too busy with other things."

His claws cut deeply into the palms of his hands, blood spilling from the wounds and onto the ground. All of this because of money? He found back the snarl that threatened to spring forth and stalked towards her. He saw the tears she was holding back but he would not be swayed by them. He'd never ask her to end the child's life, that would be dishonorable of him but he'd be damned if she didn't know how he felt about it. " You stupid woman. I thought you were more intelligent than this but apparently I was mistaken. If it was money you needed you should have told me and this would have never happened. Do you have any idea what you have done?"

Kagome couldn't take it anymore. She surged to her feet, ignoring the dizziness she felt as she did so. There was no way she was going to stand for being insulted. He had every right to be mad but that didn't excuse what he was doing now." Excuse me? You jerk! I know exactly what we have done. We've created a life together! It takes two of us you know! I tried to tell you but if I remember right you were too busy with your hand down my pants and you wouldn't let me talk." Kagome stalked forward until mere inches separated the two of them. " Then when you got what you wanted you up and left again, to god knows where and I still didn't get a chance to tell you! So don't you dare blame me for all of this!"

Hiei didn't miss the bitter edge that crept into her voice. He had known for a while that his disappearances bothered her but she had never said much about it. Regardless it didn't matter. He usually wasn't gone for more than a week or two at a time, she could have found a way to tell him sooner. "That's no excuse, you should have said something. I could have gotten you the money or was this your plan all along?"

Kagome looked as if she had just been slapped. His accusation had hurt. Her voice came out as a mere whisper, disbelief filling her that he would say such a thing."Of course not. But Hiei, you know that it was bound to happen eventually. Sooner or later, I wanted to have a family. The timing is wrong but...." Her words were cut off as Hiei gripped her shoulders firmly causing her to look up at him in surprise.

"What made you think that we would ever have a family together? If you wanted such a thing you should have looked elsewhere. Maybe Kurama or one of those stupid friends of yours would have been willing to but not me." His words while harsh were nothing less than the truth. He would not lie to her, she would know his feelings on this matter. He almost felt guilty at the pained look that crossed her face. No longer was she holding back her tears. Abruptly she wrenched herself out of his grasp, her hand lashing out in retaliation. Hiei caught her by the wrist before it made contact, she had never attempted to strike him before. "Don't think that I will let you hit me and get away with it. This should never have happened and you know it."

He didn't bother to wait for a response, knowing that whatever she had to say he wouldn't want to hear. He needed to get out of there and calm down before he lost his temper and did something he would regret. They could talk about this later. But for now there were demons in the Makai just begging for death. He dropped her hand and ignored her as she fell to her knees. The sound of her crying as if her heart had been torn in two would haunt him long after he left her sitting there.

~*~

Ten days later saw Kagome sitting listlessly in front of a mirror. Even she had to admit, she looked like hell. She hadn't been sleeping well at all, waiting to see if Hiei would come back to her. As the days dragged by she began to lose hope, sure he had been gone longer than this before but this was different. She was certain that he hated her now along with the child that she carried. Her eyes strayed to the window that he normally sat in, overlooking the small lake the house bordered on. He was right, she realized. It was him who was paying for this place after all even if she was the one to manage the bills. Where he got the money she wasn't certain but it didn't change the fact that he could get some. She should have told him, then they would still be happy together. Her hand moved to rest lightly on her stomach, the faintest hints of a bulge beginning there. No matter what happened she would love their child, even if he never returned which was looking more likely with each day that passed.

She pulled herself up and out of the chair, moving slowly over to the closet. She really hadn't wanted to do this, she'd be much happier staying home but her friend Kaemeko had insisted that she get out of the house. Her hands sought out a pair of jeans but stopped when she brushed up against a pair of Hiei's black pants. She wanted to break down into tears once more but strengthen her resolve. She wouldn't allow the stress to tear her apart tonight. With a new determination she pulled out her jeans and a light blue blouse. It was nothing fancy, she wasn't going out of her way to impress anyone. She was going to go, relax and maybe catch up with some of her friends that she had been neglecting in favor of crying over someone who didn't give a damn about her.

She cursed as she looked at the clock and realized she had spent more time than she had thought sitting there thinking. She hurried and threw on her clothing before running the brush through her hair a final time. "Dammit! I'll be there in a minute." Kagome shouted after she heard the horn of Kameko's car, knowing full well that the girl couldn't hear her anyway. She snatched her purse up off of the bed as she rushed by and nearly tumbled down the stairs. "I said just a minute!" Kagome tugged her shoes on as she grumbled under her breath about how impatient her friends were. She cast a final glance around the room making sure that she wasn't forgetting anything before she slipped out the door, locking it behind her.

"Get in Kagome, I've been waiting here for the past five minutes." Kameko looked the girl over and sighed. Really, if she had known that Kagome would have come out looking like that she would have shown up sooner and shoved her back in the house. Kagome had refused to tell her what was wrong aside from the fact that she had a fight with her boyfriend and he had up and vanished. The girl had the worst of luck when it came to men it seemed, well with luck that would change tonight. "Kagome what am I going to do with you? This is a party. You know? Have fun, dress up. Party? You do remember what those are don't you.?"

Kagome groaned, resting her head on the window of the car. She didn't need this, she really didn't. "Give it a rest okay? I'm not feeling well. You're lucky I'm going at all." She glanced over at her friend and almost managed a smile at the put out expression on the girl's face. She knew that Kameko was only trying to cheer her up and decided to make an effort. If it made her friend happy then it would solve one of her problems. She wouldn't be getting ten phone calls a day that were all making sure she was alright.

"Okay okay, it's just that I worry about you. No man is worth what you are putting yourself through. If he's stupid enough to leave you over a silly fight then you're better off without him." Kameko spoke from experience on that one and she didn't want to see her friend pine after some jerk who didn't deserve her. She looked over to Kagome, expecting a reply but the girl had her eyes closed. She looked like hell it was obvious and she began to second guess bringing her. It was too late now though, they were expected. She was glad that there were other people there that Kagome knew though. Between them they should be able to lift the girls spirits. For now though, she'd let her sleep.

It was an hour later when they finally pulled up into the driveway and Kameko had begun to have her doubts they would make it in one piece. People had said her driving was bad before but she didn't hold a candle to some of the assholes that were on the road today. She didn't even want to think about what would have happened had the one truck hit her. Shaking off the morbid thoughts she unbuckled her seatbelt and lightly shook Kagome's shoulder. "Wake up Kags, we're here."

Kagome looked at the dark sky and then her watch. It was after ten o'clock now, they were very late. She raised a brow at the dark haired girl who merely grinned and shrugged her shoulders. Kagome shook her head and unlatched her own seatbelt before opening the car door. Already she could hear the sound of the music traveling through the walls of the house. This was going to be sheer hell, she just knew it. She allowed Kameko to grab her hand and drag her through the door. Already she began recognizing a few people but none she was extremely close to. With a sigh she followed her friend into the kitchen and sat down at the table.

Kameko brought over two drinks and Kagome eyed the pink liquid warily. "What did you bring me to drink?" Kagome sniffed it, instantly catching the smell of alcohol. There was no way that she was going to drink something like this, not when she was pregnant. Of course, her and Hiei were the only ones that knew but that didn't mean she was just going to accept a random drink like this.

"It's punch Kagome, try it. Kayane made it and you know him, only the best for his drinks." Kameko took a sip of her own drink and frowned when Kagome put hers down, leaving it untouched. She knew Kagome didn't have a problem drinking, she had done it before with them so why the hesitation now? She shook her head, figuring it had something to do with that Hiei guy. Kagome was going to have to get over him, she wouldn't be able to relax and enjoy herself with how strained she was at the moment.

"I don't feel like drinking tonight, sorry. I'll just get me a soda." Kagome passed the punch over to Kameko, certain she would drink it before the night was out. She stood and made her way over to the fridge and opened. She nearly rolled her eyes at the sheer amount of beer it contained, surely they weren't thinking they were going to need all of that for one night were they? She decided she really did not want to know. Kagome sighed as she began to push bottles aside, hoping that there was soda in there. Otherwise someone was going to need to go and get some which would likely mean her since Kameko had already started drinking. Luck seemed to be with be with her however when she came across a twelve pack stashed in the back. "My lucky day, maybe I'll get through this night after all."

"Of course you will! What kind of friend would I be if I didn't watch out for you?" Yusuke watched with amusement as Kagome spun around startled with a Dr. Pepper in her hand. "You might want to wait a minute to open that." He chuckled at the mental image that came to mind, the soda foaming up and soaking her shirt. It was official, he had already had one drink too many if he was picturing one of his teammate's woman in a wet shirt. Not that being sober stopped him any other time from doing the same thing and worse. he had watched after Kagome for the past couple of years, ever since she had moved to town. There had instantly been an attraction there but he had Keiko and Kagome didn't seem to be in any shape to consider a relationship anyway. Then when Hiei entered the picture he had completely given up on the idea.

"Oh hello Yusuke, I didn't know you would be here." Kagome tried to smile at the man but it came out rather weak. She was surprised to see him but then again it shouldn't be that unusual, they did have some of the same friends after all. She glanced around the room and out into the living room. "Where's Keiko at?"

Yusuke shrugged and took a drink of his beer. "Oh, she's back at the dorm. She said something about having finals coming up and needing to study or some shit like that. You know how it goes." It was rare that Keiko would come to things like this anyway, being so busy with college. He had tried it for a while and then given up on it. Now his time was spent going back and forth across the borders checking up on what used to be his lands. Even though Enki was ruling over the Makai now the separate territories still needed individual attention and Enki just didn't have the time. "How have you been anyway, we haven't seen you around lately?" Yusuke looked at her closely, even though he was drunk he knew that something was wrong with her. She was entirely too pale for his tastes.

"Oh I've been okay, just felt like staying home lately that's all." Kagome looked at the floor, either Yusuke was very good at hiding what he thought or Hiei hadn't told him what had happened. She was betting on the latter, Hiei was a very private individual. But still, Yusuke was one of the few people he trusted. It was so hard to know what the ex-detective knew if anything. She say Yusuke's expression turn serious as he stepped closer to her. His hand came up and grasped her chin lightly, forcing her to look up at him.

He didn't know how he knew but the fact remained that he could tell she was lying. Something was going on, something big but he didn't know what. "Kagome if there is something wrong you can tell me. Did Hiei hurt you? If he did I'll kick his ass!" Yusuke knew that Hiei was a bit on the insensitive side but he cared for the girl. They had all wondered at first if this would be a brief fling for him given his disgust for most humans. Kurama had been the most skeptical, knowing the Hybrid the best out of all of them but eventually even he had been convinced. Hiei had managed to do what none of the others had been able, he had helped her heart heal from the Inu-hanyou's death.

"No, no it's nothing like that!" Kagome was quick to dismiss his concerns. The last thing she wanted was to cause a problem between those two. She wouldn't come between them if she could help it. "I just needed some time to myself, you know catch up on reading?" Kagome tugged on a lock of his hair that had fallen into his eyes. Truthfully she preferred his hair down but it wasn't up to her how he wore it. If it made him happy keeping it gelled then so be it. It did the job of distracting him though as he grinned at her before running his hand through his hair.

"Alright, if you're sure. I'm here to talk if you need it, hell I think Kurama would tell you the same thing if he was here." Yusuke smiled at her again, happy that she was looking even a little bit better. "Come on, I don't have anything better to do let's go sit down. Kameko is giving us that look." He followed her back to the table and sat down beside her ignoring the sly looks they were getting.

Kameko grinned behind her glass before setting it down. "I'm glad to see you could make it Yusuke, Kagome needs to be cheered up she's been far too depressed lately." His reaction was exactly what she had been hoping for. He had immediately turned to look at Kagome in concern, noting how she now had her head in her hands. Kameko wasn't blind, she had seen the attraction that Yusuke had for her and she approved. She had yet to meet Kagome's boyfriend, the excuse had always been that he was away of business. She wasn't buying it though, it didn't matter when she stopped by he was always gone. She was willing to bet money the guy was running around on her friend.

Yusuke set his beer bottle down on the table rather forcibly as he looked at her. "Dammit I knew something was wrong! Kagome what's going on?" He watched with growing apprehension as her carefully built mask crumpled and her tears began to drop onto the tables surface. "Kagome?" His voice was soft as he laid his hand on her back and began to rub gently. He hadn't seen her in this bad of shape since he had met her. "Kagome you can tell me anything, you know that."

Kagome wiped her eyes and gave him a watery smile. "I'm sorry Yusuke, I've just been under a lot of stress. It's nothing, please excuse me." Kagome stood up and made her exit, needing to get away from them. She hadn't meant to break down like that and now she felt even worse for ruining their night. She brushed passed people and made her way into the bathroom, closing the door behind her and locking it. She slowly sank to the tiled floor, bracing her back against the door as she tried to get a hold of her emotions. The comfort Yusuke was offering felt nice, but it wasn't Yusuke that she wanted it from. She missed Hiei terribly and doubts had begun to form that she wouldn't be able to do any of this on her own. "Why? Why does he torment me like this?" Even a messenger from him would have been welcome, letting her know that he would come back eventually but he hadn't even done that.

~*~

Yusuke sat at the table glaring at Kameko. He was torn between following Kagome and finding out what Kameko knew. Finally he came to a decision, he'd go to her after he found out what happened. Kagome didn't get depressed easily and when she did it was because someone hurt her. Whoever it was that had done it was in for the ass beating of a lifetime. "Okay, tell me what the fuck is going on before I get pissed." His good mood was already gone and he wanted nothing more than to find an outlet for his anger.

Kameko sighed, Yusuke was perfect for the girl. She had to admit, she didn't care much for Keiko because they seemed much too different but she wasn't out to change his mind. But now when it came to Kagome's life, it was time to step in. All they needed was a little help and she'd be happy to give it to them. "Almost two weeks ago that bastard boyfriend of hers up and left after they had a fight. I don't know what it was about but it had to be something pretty big. The fucker hasn't even called her since then and she's shut herself in that damned room of hers. She didn't want to even come tonight but I made her."

"Fuck!" Yusuke pushed away from the table violently. It was odd, for as long as those two had been together they had never had a serious fight. He thought it was impossible to do but they had proven him wrong, until now anyway. People edged away from him as he stormed passed them, knowing instantly that he was pissed off about something. Even though it had been five years since he was in school his reputation was still very well established. He stopped in front of the door, debating as to whether he should knock on the door or just walk in. It was unlikely that she would answer him anyway so he tried the doorknob but of course it was locked. "Kagome open the door."

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