InuYasha Fan Fiction / Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction ❯ I Think I Love You ❯ 6 ( Chapter 6 )

Hey everyone! Sorry for the really long wait. My teachers have been jerks and have been piling project atop project onto me. I’ll try to make it up to you! I’m sorry! Oh, and for those of you who think Hiei agreed a little too readily last chapter…well, I’m sorry that I made him OOC in that…but I just couldn’t hold out their confrontation any longer. This is their first true meeting in 500 years (for Hiei. It’s been about a few months for Kagome.). Oh, and this chapter will be OOC as well. I’m sorry, but I couldn’t hold off this plot bunny bite any longer.   I Think I Love You: Chapter Six: Unbelievable   Kagome hummed a nameless tune to herself as she towel-dried her soaking wet hair. Water droplets clung desperately to her body, dripping down into the soft, cream towel that hung on her body. Where is Shuiichii? I haven’t seen him since breakfast this morning. I’m worried…Kagome looked out the window, taking in the sight of the sun setting into its bed of stars and crimson light. She smiled slightly as a memory of the Feudal Era forced its way into her mind.   Kagome sighed, staring out at the setting sun with a small smile on her face. “What are you so happy about?” came a deep growl from behind her. She turned to look at the new-comer, and her smile widened. “I love watching the sunset.” Ruby eyes rolled in mock annoyance. “You’re odd.” “Why don’t you come sit next to me, Hiei?” she patted the patch of grass beside her, inviting him to come and watch with her. Hiei sighed, but sat down next to her on the dark grass, one leg stretched out in front of him, the other propped up to where his arm could rest on the top of his knee. “I don’t see what’s so special about it…” he muttered after a few minutes of comfortable silence. “What? It’s beautiful. The mixture of colors…pink and purple at the top, yellow and orange…and finally red.” She smiled, looking him in the eyes with her own chocolate-brown orbs. “The red reminds me so much of your eyes. They’re so beautiful. Like a mixture of blood, fire, and rubies…roses too.” Hiei rolled his eyes again. “That’s a weird thing to say, but alright.” “Oh sorry! Did that sound weird?” “Just forget I said anything…” a ghost of a smile formed on Hiei’s lips, brightening up his usually dark features. Kagome laughed lightly, and leaned her head on his shoulder. Hiei had always been the perfect height for her. Only the slightest bit taller than her, not counting his hair. When they sat down, she was able to lie her head directly onto his shoulder without gaining a neck kink. Hiei’s smile broadened. Hesitantly, he wrapped a black-clad arm around her waist, pulling her closer to him, resting his cheek against the ebony silk of her hair.   That had been one of their more peaceful moments…a lot of their moments together were a little more violent. Hiei had always had at least a few ‘sweet’ moments. He never really said anything, it was merely an action. Something simple like wrapping her up in her blankets a little tighter when she was shivering, wrapping his arms around her when she was sad or scared…just little things. But those moments that were so far and few between…those were the memories she cherished. She had loved Hiei with all of her heart. She didn’t care that he was cold. That was just how he was. And she still loved him. He was a murderer, a thief, and sometimes an all-out bastard. But…she could never hate him for all he had done. She had feared him when they had first met. She would have been insane not to have been scared. It was part of human nature to feel fear. But when she thought Hiei had hated her…he was scared of her… Scared of her kindness, her beauty, the love that she gave him even when he continuously pushed her away and insulted her. Kagome smiled sadly, staring into the mirror as she pulled on her one last article of clothing. “So you still have that same odd taste in clothing…” Kagome yelped, throwing her hairbrush at the window, where the voice had originated from, only to have it caught in the pale hand of a black-clad figure she recognized all too much. “H-Hiei?” What the hell is he doing here?   “Hn. As to your earlier question, your brother sent me here. He said you had something to tell me.” Kagome blinked, and then horror overtook her features. Oh no! Shuiichi talked to him! Damn him! Damn him to the seven levels of hell! “I already tried. It didn’t work.” Kagome gave a sound that sounded akin to a harrumph. “So? Spill it, onna.” Shit, I shouldn’t have done that. Kagome’s eyes narrowed. “My name is Kagome, ass-wipe. Not onna. Or any of the other beautiful nicknames you love to give me.”  Hiei snorted. “Whatever.” Kagome couldn’t help the small, sad smile that crept across her lips. “What’s that look for?” He grunted. “Nothing. I’m just…remembering.” “Remembering? What?” “What we used to be.” Hiei rolled his eyes. “Females. Always harping on ancient history.” Kagome’s eyes widened. Sure, she knew that he’d hated her…but to call what they’d had ‘ancient history’… Tears filled her eyes, threatening to spill over. Here came the pregnant mood-swings. “YOU BASTARD!” she yelled, slapping him as hard as she could. Hiei fell off the windowsill out of pure shock. She’d never hit him before…at least…not that hard. “What the fuck…?!” He looked up into Kagome’s chocolate brown eyes, shocked to see thousands of emotions welling up within them. The stinging feeling of a very hard connection of skin on skin was turning dark red on his left cheek, slowly darkening to a possible bruise. Just as suddenly as she was furious, Kagome’s eyes widened and she grasped him in a hug around his neck, kneeling down to his level on her carpet, sobbing. “I-I’m so-sorry…” she sobbed out. Now Hiei was confused as hell. What the hell is going on here? With her this close to him, he could easily smell her scent. A comforting mixture of strawberries and cream with the subtle scent of jasmine and irises. A scent that he had missed all too much over the past half a thousand years. Finally, she calmed down, and pulled away, sitting in front of him on her knees. “So…are you finally going to tell me what’s going on?” he whispered. Right now, he was scared of what might be going on. She was acting scary as hell that was for sure. Kagome took a deep breath, steadying herself for what she knew was coming. “Hiei…do you remember…that night?” Hiei smirked. “How could I forget?” he snickered, almost laughing. “Never knew you were…that…kinky.” Kagome blushed. “Yeah well you weren’t exactly being Mr. Innocent, either.” A dark chuckle reverberated from within Hiei’s chest, almost like a rumbling purr. Better tell him when he’s in a slightly good mood. Kagome took a deep breath again. “Well…I’m…I’mpregnantwithyourchild,Hiei.&rd quo; The last few words came out in a giant rush, but Hiei was able to decipher it thanks to his great hearing. “N-nani?” Hiei gasped out once he was able to regain his breath. “I’m pregnant Hiei…seven months…” Kagome looked him straight in the eyes, knowing that he always knew when she was lying. He said she would never look him in the eyes when she lied. Hiei’s eyes widened slightly…Pregnant? With…my child? Kagome took Hiei’s silence in a bad way. Tears welled in her eyes, spilling down her face. With that, Hiei was gone…once again. Kagome’s sobs only got louder as she realized that she was once again alone. She stood on her feet, legs shaky and unsteady. She grabbed her alarm clock and threw it against the wall, making it hit her radio. Steadily, a song leaked out, growing louder as it went.   I wish you didn't love me
I wish you'd make this easy
It was love that caught me
Now it's fear that keeps with you
I wasn’t to be by your side
So I can close my eyes
To the growing emptiness inside that kills me
When I'm with you
You try to break me Try to hate me
So you can fall out of love
You want to make me Believe that I'm crazy
That I'm nothing with out you

The tears fell faster from her eyes, and she choked out the words the song, voice as broken as her heart.
It's unbelievable but I believe you
It’s unforgivable but I forgave you
Insane what love love can do
That keeps me coming back to you
You're irreplaceable but I'll replace you
Now I'm standing on my own
Alone

Hiei collapsed into his tree, holding his head in his hands. She’s pregnant? I can’t believe this…she had to have been lying…no, she wasn’t. I could tell. She looked me square in the eyes. She can’t do that when she’s lying. God. What am I going to do? Suddenly the two voices he always tried to ignore came up from the recesses of his mind…his koorime and his pyro side. What else? Ignore her like we have been. It’s worked so far…came the deeper, huskier voice of his flame heritage, always the demon. No it hasn’t! The softer, more fragile-sounding voice made itself known, the side of him that usually made him do the small heroic things he’d been doing since after he stole the Sword of Darkness. It’s been tearing us apart. And you know it! She’s pregnant with our child! Doesn’t that bring at least a spark of joy to your heart? Yuki, his koorime side, was right. When he’d heard those words fall from Kagome’s lips, after the initial shock, he’d felt an emotion he hadn’t felt for a long time…joy. It was a happiness that he’d always hoped to feel. One that he’d thought he’d never need. But now that he’d felt it…it was like a drug. One taste and you’re hooked. Wrapped up in his own thoughts, a song from a nearby radio leaked into his subconscious…invading his mind and making him feel even worse.
I feel you in my shadow
My heart feels cold and hollow
No matter where I run I see
Your eyes always follow me   Hiei sighed. He really had missed Kagome. He hated saying that to her. But what else could he say to make her understand? He couldn’t handle being in a real relationship. I still don’t think I can… A sudden image of Kagome’s heartbroken face, the lost look in her eyes, and the tears falling down her cheeks ran through his mind. She felt all alone. Lost. Like the other half of her soul was missing. But she isn’t alone. I mean, she has the Fox and the Detective. Even the Idiot has become friends with her. But for some reason that only his heart could explain, the sight of her saddened face only made him want to hug her. Comfort her. Make her believe that she would never be alone again…
Try to hold me
Try to own me
Keeping something that's not yours
You want to make believe that I'm crazy
Make me think that you’re the cure

Hiei groaned, pressing his palms closer to his eyes. Oh fuck it!
It's unbelievable but I believe you
It’s unforgivable but I forgave you
Insane what love love can do
That keeps me coming back to you
You're irreplaceable but I'll replace you
Now I'm standing on my own
Alone

Kagome lifted herself from the carpet where she’d been kneeling and wiped her eyes. She should have known that talking to him wouldn’t have made a difference. Even the thought of a child with her made him leave. But damn did that hurt. He didn’t love her. He never had. And he never will… Slowly, Kagome shuffled into her pajamas and climbed into bed, allowing herself to fall asleep.
You’re still haunting me
In my sleep
You're all I see
But I can't go back
Cause I know it's wrong
For us to go on
And I'm growing strong
To confront my fears

Hiei paused, sitting patiently on Kagome’s windowsill. She had always had a problem with leaving her window wide open. He shook his head lightly, and his eyes swept the room, landing on Kagome. His eyes widened slightly at the sight of the girl he hadn’t seen in 500 years. Kagome was wearing her old pair of pajamas. A tank top of light, cotton candy pink with a little sleeping blue dragon on the front. A pair of shorts the same color adorned her hips to mid-thigh. Now that she was asleep, he could see how her stomach had grown over the past few months, proving that she was pregnant. He took a deep breath. He was about to do something that if anyone ever found out about it, he’d never live it down. Slowly, he stepped down from the windowsill, and slipped off his boots. With a silence only acquired by hundreds of years of practice of sneaking up on people. Hiei gulped as his knees bumped the side of the bed. “Kagome…” he whispered, leaning down to shake her shoulder. She whimpered, a fist clenched near her chin. She curled in on herself as close as she could. “Hiei…” she breathed, a small smile on her face.
It's unbelievable but I believe you
It’s unforgivable but I forgave you
Insane what love love can do
That keeps me coming back to you
You're irreplaceable but I'll replace you
Now I'm standing on my own
Alone   His hand froze just shy of her bared shoulder. She was still dreaming about him. Even after all of this time. A small glint of gold glittered around her neck, and his pointer finger gently pulled up a pendant from under her shirt by the chain. It was the pendant he’d given her for her birthday. The one that he’d had since he was born. The Koorime Tear pendant. A simple, multi-faceted clear gem with slight lights of baby blues and pinks. She’d kept it all this time…just like he’d kept the butterfly. Carefully, so as not to hurt her, he entered her dream.   She was alone. And she knew it. She didn’t accept it. But she knew it was a fact that she simply could not change. Hiei was gone. So was Inuyasha… Sango… Miroku… Shippo …they were all gone. They’d left her…no, she’d left them. There was so much difference. Kagome sighed, leaning against the cold wall of loneliness that she was so close to being swallowed by. “Why are you so sad?” The deep growl of a male’s voice interrupted her thoughts. She started, looking up to stare into a pair of rubies she knew so well. “H-Hiei?” “Of course. Answer the question.” “You…you left me. And I left behind everyone else. I didn’t want to…but I had to. And I…I just want…” “Things to be back to normal.” He finished for her, kneeling down to stare her in the eyes. “Kagome…I love you…wake up…” he whispered, his voice, so dark and rich, invaded her thoughts, making them melt away. His voice had always reminded her of chocolate…chocolate liquors. The dark, Belgian kind that melted on your tongue and left you craving more with it’s complexities of sweet and tart-like taste. “Do you mean it?” she asked, so wanting to believe what he was saying. “Yes…” A smile brightened up her face, her eyes drifting closed as the dream melted away.   Kagome’s eyes flittered open, finally opening fully to meet those same eyes again. “Hiei? Wh-What? How?” Hiei looked down at her, a single, clawed hand gently stroking her hair. He had loved doing that when they had been together. He’d always said her hair was so soft… “Do…you still love me?” He could barely get the words out, his words little more than a soft whisper. Kagome’s eyes saddened. “Y-yes… I do. I never stopped.” Tears filled her eyes, disobeying her commands for them to stay back. Hiei gulped. He knew what he had to say…and he was scared. “I…I love you, Kagome…I always have…” “Then…why?” “I was scared. That was all. I didn’t want to give my heart to anyone. After my mother died and I couldn’t find Yukina…I just gave up. I thought I would be alone all my life. Without anyone there. No warmth in my cold, dark life that I had been leading. But then you came along. I saved you without knowing why and then I met you again. You begged me to stay and even though I constantly ignored you, insulted you, and tried every method I could to get you away from me and my heart, nothing worked. I finally gave up, and gave my heart to you without your notice. I knew I had your heart in my clawed, blood-stained hands…and I loved it. I belonged to someone and someone belonged to me. Then, when I almost say you die by Naraku’s hands…I snapped. I always worried about you. Were you okay? Would you be safe without me on the other side of that well? Did you miss me? I was so scared because I worried about you so much. I cared about you. I would have died for you…and that’s what I was afraid of. I thought if I could just…keep you away from me, then I wouldn’t be burdened by these feelings any longer. But I was wrong. They only grew over time…I couldn’t get rid of them. And now…I’m ready to face what I’ve been hiding from like a coward.” Hiei got up from the floor and held onto her hand. “Kagome…will you let me stay with you? Be the father of your…our child?” Tears were falling unchecked down Kagome’s face, and she grasped Hiei in a hug, burying her face in his chest like she had done so many times before. “Oh Hiei…you have no idea how long I’ve wanted to hear you say that…how much I missed you…but…are you sure? I mean, things won’t be easy. I have mood swings, cravings…” Hiei smirked. “I’ve defeated so many demons that make Naraku seem like a baby with a wooden sword and still lived. I deal with the idiot and his friends 24/7. I think I can handle a baby and a pregnant woman.”
Kagome laughed. “Famous last words.” Kagome finally gave into her temptations and captured his lips in hers, extracting a gasp from the ‘Great Hiei’. She smirked and took the initiative, plunging her tongue into his mouth as her mouth meshed against his. Hiei allowed her the one moment of dominance, then bit her lip with his fang and used that distraction to take over the kiss, pushing her back onto the bed with him on top of her. Kagome squealed within his mouth, making him smirk as their tongues fought in their mouths, tangling with each other. The fire spread through Hiei’s veins, the warmth from having Kagome so close to him again. The two finally broke apart when breathing was becoming a desperate necessity, gasping. Kagome smiled softly as Hiei wrapped his arms around her shoulders, holding her to his chest. She let sleep take her, finally happy for the first time in several months. Hiei’s eyes started to slide shut, drowsiness overtaking his mind. But not before he could think a single thought…Maybe she can teach me to love again…just maybe.   A/N: Ok, sorry for the long wait, people. I’ve been uberly busy! I hope you enjoyed this chapter, and as you can see, I’ve changed the rating. I’ll need to for what I have planned later. Remember, she’s pregnant. (Wink, wink.) Anyway, hope you enjoyed it and I’ll try to update again as soon as my teacher’s stop being jerk-off’s!