InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ A crazy story were anything can happen ❯ sadness ( Chapter 4 )
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By: youHaveaFunnyFace 
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Shounen | Type: Yaoi | Uploaded On: 07.21.2006 | Updated On: 07.21.2006 | Pages: 1 | Words: 2.5K | Visits: 374 | Status: Work In Progress
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Shounen | Type: Yaoi | Uploaded On: 07.21.2006 | Updated On: 07.21.2006 | Pages: 1 | Words: 2.5K | Visits: 374 | Status: Work In Progress
Inuyasha was sitting by a window inside of the library waiting for his brother,the night air was chilly and the emptiness of the place had an eerie feel to it.Yasha looked around there was just books everywhere on top of the desks and the on the floor, he didn't like reading much but still managed to get to finish a couple every now and then since there wasn't much to do in the castle sometime to control his nerves and forget about the imminent 'date' with his brother Yasha reached for a small book covered in a crimson velvet like material that felt so soft inuyasha thought he was holding onto a newborn puppy opened the book and read the few lines on the first page it was just an introduction a phrase meant to catch attention and catch his attention it did.It had been three hours and finally yasha stopped reading and thought that maybe his brother had fooled him again ' i bet he is laughing about it now' with this thought came a sudden anger and inuyasha stand and started running desperately tracking his brother's scent to give him a piece of his mind and a piece of his fist too mind you.Stopping in the hallway to give a big sniff Inuyasha caught the scent that strangely was mingled with that of his father's and Lirael's, they were close by probably in Inutaisho's study. Knowing that he wouldn't get anywhere being angry in front of his father yasha stopped and in front of the door and took a deep breath and when he was about to knock he heard a weak sobbing and he immediately stopped dead on his tracks 'what's going on?' inuyasha gently pressed his left ear flat on he door and closed his eyes to heighten his senses
.INSIDE THE STUDY
A troubled Inutaisho stood gazing out the window,a blank faced sesshomaru stood in front of the desk looking at nothing and a sobbing Lirael sat on one of the chairs facing the desk. “What are you going to do sesshomaru?” “What am i supposed to do? There is nothing to do”
“You know what i mean, you can take another mate.”
“I don't want another mate, i won't betray her memory and i simply don't care if i die” at this Inutaisho sharply looked at his son 'when did he forget his heart along the way?' the older man sighed and returned to look out the window which was pitch black but to his golden eyes it was bliss. “Sesshomaru i respect your decision and i know this is painful for you to even think about right now but without a mate you will die i will give you time to grieve over Kagura's death but i will NOT let one of my sons die”
“Oh father drop the act you don't care about me you never did the only one you cared about was Inuyasha and only him if i die you will not miss me i doubt anyone will miss me” at this point on the other side of the door Inuyasha didn't know what the fuck was going on but anything relating to sesshomaru dying didn't give him any pleasure on the contrary he was feeling a panic a desperate need to hug the other so he did what he was best at he burst in uninvited and screamed “WHO CARES ABOUT FATHER WHAT ABOUT RIN AND ME??!! YOU SELFISH BASTARD I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S GOING BUT WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE TO LEAVE US HERE WITHOUT YOU?? THE ONLY WAY YOU ARE DYING IS IF I KILL YOU BASTARD!!everyone was gaping at inuyasha who in turn glared daggers at sesshomaru who was too stunned to say anything the whole thing seemed quite surreal to him he was about to say something when Inuyasha turned to his father and said “Now you will explain to me what's going on and why sesshomaru might die plus why am i always kept away from family meetings?”“Sesshomaru's mate just died two hours ago, he might die because when a mated demon's partner dies the living one has a limited amount of time before he either follows the other into the after life or finds a new mate, and you are not kept away from family meetings this was something that just came up we didn't think she would die sesshomaru had been here only for about 10 minutes before you came and stayed listening out there” said Inutaisho pointing to the door. Inuyasha scowled of course his father would be able to sense him but dammit he thought he was hiding himself pretty well but whatever back to the matter at hand. “Are we having a burial ceremony?” asked yasha sounding way too serious for the first time in his life snapping out of it sesshomaru answered with his usual expressionless tone even though a bit of sadness slipped in between “Yes, she will be buried tomorrow at dawn” after saying this sessh turned and left through the open doors leaving everyone to gaze after his retreating form. “I'm sorry i wasn't of service my lord i wish i could have helped some more i shall go and make the necessary arrangements” said Lirael while rising from her seat and whipping some tears off her eyes then bowing to Inutaisho and giving a slight smile to Inuyasha who just stuck out his tongue at her when she turned and left.”You should give her a chance Yasha that kind of an attitude won't get you anywhere,and what was that about?”
“What was what about?”
“The whole speech or should i say scream you gave to your brother?”
“umm ....uhh just ya know even though he is a bastard i don't want him to die he is my brother after all besides I'm not used to him being so angsty just arrogant and a prick so yeah” said yasha while smiling weakly and avoiding looking at his father's face Inutaisho just sighed and said “I know, he was not always like this and when he met Kagura i thought everything was going to be fine but only a year after they became mates she fell ill. It was later that i discovered it was actually a curse placed on her by her brother Naraku,it seems her family was not pleased with her mating to sesshomaru.”
“But we are royalty why wouldn't they be pleased?”
“They are cat youkais it's considered a disgrace in their clan to mate to a dog youkai”
“oh man how come i never knew about this?”
“you were not even born when everything happened, besides since Kagura fell ill she has been staying in one of the villas, and Sesshomaru has always avoided talking about anything relating to her although I'm aware he used to spend most of his time there.”
“so taking a guess we could say that he is in a lot of pain right now, right?” said Inuyasha feeling a pang of guilt when remembering his thoughts lately towards his brother 'I'm so disgusted with myself right now his mate was dying and and and what? What was i thinking??' he couldn't even bring himself to think about it.
“Yes yasha he might be able to not show it but that doesn't mean he can't stop feeling the sadness, lets go to sleep tomorrow it going to be a long day”
“yes father” Inuyasha bowed and walked out of the room and heading towards his own room. Instead of sleeping he just sat by his window staring at the moon his mind drawing a blank at all the information he had just received, momentarily feeling anger towards himself because he was always too young to understand things and now once again he had been too young to know anything, after the anger came the sadness of knowing that his brother could have been happy and maybe a completely different person if life had not been so cruel taking the only one he had been able to love. It was frustrating and to make matters worse Inuyasha knew that sesshomaru would not even show how much it hurt him, just end up locking his feelings away behind that ice wall he had constructed so well around his heart hours of just sitting there he thought' might as well get some sleep dawn is drawing near and i don't want to be so disrespectful and fall asleep in the middle of the ceremony that would be just another reason for sesshomaru to hate me' at that thought yasha groaned ' i wish he didn't hate me as much i wish we could be normal brothers for once' with that thought he fell asleep eventually dreaming of sad golden eyes that called to his soul for rescue.
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ON THE MORNING
Inuyasha woke with a start he looked outside the sun was starting to shine it's yellow light 'damn I'm late' he rushed to his closet desperately trying to find something black or at least gray ' why the fuck are all my clothes red?? am i some kind of freak obsessed with red? Never mind that if I'm late i won't forgive myself' finally when he was about to slash everything to pieces yasha spotted a black haori that someone had given to him some years back. It barely fitted but it would have to do he didn't have anymore time Rushing through the hallways he kept trying to find his father's scent 'why didn't i ask yesterday where we were supposed to meet? I'm not going to acknowledge my being stupid but damn sometimes is hard not to' reaching the main hall he looked up and down and finding no one started running towards the main doors.'there they are jeez i almost had a heart attack thinking they were gone already' his father raised an eyebrow at him and when inuyasha looked to one of the side mirrors he almost jumped 'oops forgot to brush my hair' using his claws he did all he could for the mean time to try and look presentable in the end just looking like he had an old broom for hair.
The ceremony went by slowly there were some servants that inuyasha learned had been taking care of the Lady who seemed very sad, most of them crying even some of the men.Also some of Inutaisho's demon friends were present to pay their respects, even a priest came and gave his blessing. Inuyasha had not been paying much attention but when it was time to give his prayers to the Lady his mind went into overdrive because he had not seen her ever before and secondly and maybe unconsciously because he wanted to see what kind of person had caught his brother's heart. When approaching the altar he caught a glimpse of his sessh's face to someone else maybe it was a cold and distant face but inuyasha could see the overflowing sadness in the eyes and the tiredness in the face probably he had not slept. When sesshomaru felt someone looking at him he looked to the side to find his brother's eyes on him inuyasha on the other hand almost started crying at the look on those golden pools it was agonizing impossibly describable by human words just raw pain. Inuyasha's steps faltered but he tore away from eyes that were drowning him and looked on ahead. Then he was there looking at the sleeping corpse of a woman who even in death had a striking beauty and an aura of peacefulness surrounding her. Inuyasha knew that she would be beautiful after all sessh had always been keen on beautiful things and his mate would not be the exception, but when he looked up to her picture he knew what had made her truly a gem. Her eyes they were blood red and the way she looked it seemed she could read your soul with a brief glance, and the mysterious smile that was a simple upward movement of the sides of her mouth was enough to let you know that she was a loving creature.'there is no way he will be able to forget about her' thought inuyasha and that thought caused a bit of pain to spread throughout his chest which he chose not to noticed he turned around and went back to his place next to his father.After
everything was done and the family went back to the castle it seemed no one was in the mood to speak or even be in the same room. Although things were grim Inuyasha knew one person who would be able to lift his spirits or at least make him forget about everything for a little bit so he made his way down to the kitchen sniffing around trying to find the perverted servant found Miroku it was behind the castle the human was resting against a tree reading a book. Inuyasha approached him slowly and quietly it would be fun to scare Miroku he always screamed like a girl. Now standing just a few yards away yasha spoke up “i never took ya for the reading type” the human jumped up but to inuyasha's disappointment he didn't scream.”well master inuyasha if you must know i was bored and with everyone gone i thought that to finish this book would be a great idea”
“I'm guessing that after a while it wasn't that great of an idea since you still look bored and actually about to fall asleep”said inuyasha while sitting down next to the servant.
“you are right about that, by the way how was it?”
“how do you think? Boring, tedious,full of stiff people and with an air of death that made me want to runaway or start slapping all the people around me, i don't know i just never liked funerals”
“and did you see her?”
“yes and well she was beautiful”
“hey you know how about we go to the village? It will be fun and it will get your mind off the stiffness plus maybe you'll be able to score some pretty ladies, black really suits you” said Miroku with a wink.
Inuyasha scowled and said “I can't father would kill me if he found out”
“oh come on like that ever stopped you”
“it doesn't seem considerate to go have fun when my brother's mate just died”
“well it's not like you ever met her and your brother has not been very considerate with you”
“true, ok lets go” both standed and returned to the castle. After grabbing some money,and Miroku telling one of the servants he was going out with the master they made their way towards the gates and then towards the village.
.INSIDE THE STUDY
A troubled Inutaisho stood gazing out the window,a blank faced sesshomaru stood in front of the desk looking at nothing and a sobbing Lirael sat on one of the chairs facing the desk. “What are you going to do sesshomaru?” “What am i supposed to do? There is nothing to do”
“You know what i mean, you can take another mate.”
“I don't want another mate, i won't betray her memory and i simply don't care if i die” at this Inutaisho sharply looked at his son 'when did he forget his heart along the way?' the older man sighed and returned to look out the window which was pitch black but to his golden eyes it was bliss. “Sesshomaru i respect your decision and i know this is painful for you to even think about right now but without a mate you will die i will give you time to grieve over Kagura's death but i will NOT let one of my sons die”
“Oh father drop the act you don't care about me you never did the only one you cared about was Inuyasha and only him if i die you will not miss me i doubt anyone will miss me” at this point on the other side of the door Inuyasha didn't know what the fuck was going on but anything relating to sesshomaru dying didn't give him any pleasure on the contrary he was feeling a panic a desperate need to hug the other so he did what he was best at he burst in uninvited and screamed “WHO CARES ABOUT FATHER WHAT ABOUT RIN AND ME??!! YOU SELFISH BASTARD I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S GOING BUT WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE TO LEAVE US HERE WITHOUT YOU?? THE ONLY WAY YOU ARE DYING IS IF I KILL YOU BASTARD!!everyone was gaping at inuyasha who in turn glared daggers at sesshomaru who was too stunned to say anything the whole thing seemed quite surreal to him he was about to say something when Inuyasha turned to his father and said “Now you will explain to me what's going on and why sesshomaru might die plus why am i always kept away from family meetings?”“Sesshomaru's mate just died two hours ago, he might die because when a mated demon's partner dies the living one has a limited amount of time before he either follows the other into the after life or finds a new mate, and you are not kept away from family meetings this was something that just came up we didn't think she would die sesshomaru had been here only for about 10 minutes before you came and stayed listening out there” said Inutaisho pointing to the door. Inuyasha scowled of course his father would be able to sense him but dammit he thought he was hiding himself pretty well but whatever back to the matter at hand. “Are we having a burial ceremony?” asked yasha sounding way too serious for the first time in his life snapping out of it sesshomaru answered with his usual expressionless tone even though a bit of sadness slipped in between “Yes, she will be buried tomorrow at dawn” after saying this sessh turned and left through the open doors leaving everyone to gaze after his retreating form. “I'm sorry i wasn't of service my lord i wish i could have helped some more i shall go and make the necessary arrangements” said Lirael while rising from her seat and whipping some tears off her eyes then bowing to Inutaisho and giving a slight smile to Inuyasha who just stuck out his tongue at her when she turned and left.”You should give her a chance Yasha that kind of an attitude won't get you anywhere,and what was that about?”
“What was what about?”
“The whole speech or should i say scream you gave to your brother?”
“umm ....uhh just ya know even though he is a bastard i don't want him to die he is my brother after all besides I'm not used to him being so angsty just arrogant and a prick so yeah” said yasha while smiling weakly and avoiding looking at his father's face Inutaisho just sighed and said “I know, he was not always like this and when he met Kagura i thought everything was going to be fine but only a year after they became mates she fell ill. It was later that i discovered it was actually a curse placed on her by her brother Naraku,it seems her family was not pleased with her mating to sesshomaru.”
“But we are royalty why wouldn't they be pleased?”
“They are cat youkais it's considered a disgrace in their clan to mate to a dog youkai”
“oh man how come i never knew about this?”
“you were not even born when everything happened, besides since Kagura fell ill she has been staying in one of the villas, and Sesshomaru has always avoided talking about anything relating to her although I'm aware he used to spend most of his time there.”
“so taking a guess we could say that he is in a lot of pain right now, right?” said Inuyasha feeling a pang of guilt when remembering his thoughts lately towards his brother 'I'm so disgusted with myself right now his mate was dying and and and what? What was i thinking??' he couldn't even bring himself to think about it.
“Yes yasha he might be able to not show it but that doesn't mean he can't stop feeling the sadness, lets go to sleep tomorrow it going to be a long day”
“yes father” Inuyasha bowed and walked out of the room and heading towards his own room. Instead of sleeping he just sat by his window staring at the moon his mind drawing a blank at all the information he had just received, momentarily feeling anger towards himself because he was always too young to understand things and now once again he had been too young to know anything, after the anger came the sadness of knowing that his brother could have been happy and maybe a completely different person if life had not been so cruel taking the only one he had been able to love. It was frustrating and to make matters worse Inuyasha knew that sesshomaru would not even show how much it hurt him, just end up locking his feelings away behind that ice wall he had constructed so well around his heart hours of just sitting there he thought' might as well get some sleep dawn is drawing near and i don't want to be so disrespectful and fall asleep in the middle of the ceremony that would be just another reason for sesshomaru to hate me' at that thought yasha groaned ' i wish he didn't hate me as much i wish we could be normal brothers for once' with that thought he fell asleep eventually dreaming of sad golden eyes that called to his soul for rescue.
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ON THE MORNING
Inuyasha woke with a start he looked outside the sun was starting to shine it's yellow light 'damn I'm late' he rushed to his closet desperately trying to find something black or at least gray ' why the fuck are all my clothes red?? am i some kind of freak obsessed with red? Never mind that if I'm late i won't forgive myself' finally when he was about to slash everything to pieces yasha spotted a black haori that someone had given to him some years back. It barely fitted but it would have to do he didn't have anymore time Rushing through the hallways he kept trying to find his father's scent 'why didn't i ask yesterday where we were supposed to meet? I'm not going to acknowledge my being stupid but damn sometimes is hard not to' reaching the main hall he looked up and down and finding no one started running towards the main doors.'there they are jeez i almost had a heart attack thinking they were gone already' his father raised an eyebrow at him and when inuyasha looked to one of the side mirrors he almost jumped 'oops forgot to brush my hair' using his claws he did all he could for the mean time to try and look presentable in the end just looking like he had an old broom for hair.
The ceremony went by slowly there were some servants that inuyasha learned had been taking care of the Lady who seemed very sad, most of them crying even some of the men.Also some of Inutaisho's demon friends were present to pay their respects, even a priest came and gave his blessing. Inuyasha had not been paying much attention but when it was time to give his prayers to the Lady his mind went into overdrive because he had not seen her ever before and secondly and maybe unconsciously because he wanted to see what kind of person had caught his brother's heart. When approaching the altar he caught a glimpse of his sessh's face to someone else maybe it was a cold and distant face but inuyasha could see the overflowing sadness in the eyes and the tiredness in the face probably he had not slept. When sesshomaru felt someone looking at him he looked to the side to find his brother's eyes on him inuyasha on the other hand almost started crying at the look on those golden pools it was agonizing impossibly describable by human words just raw pain. Inuyasha's steps faltered but he tore away from eyes that were drowning him and looked on ahead. Then he was there looking at the sleeping corpse of a woman who even in death had a striking beauty and an aura of peacefulness surrounding her. Inuyasha knew that she would be beautiful after all sessh had always been keen on beautiful things and his mate would not be the exception, but when he looked up to her picture he knew what had made her truly a gem. Her eyes they were blood red and the way she looked it seemed she could read your soul with a brief glance, and the mysterious smile that was a simple upward movement of the sides of her mouth was enough to let you know that she was a loving creature.'there is no way he will be able to forget about her' thought inuyasha and that thought caused a bit of pain to spread throughout his chest which he chose not to noticed he turned around and went back to his place next to his father.After
everything was done and the family went back to the castle it seemed no one was in the mood to speak or even be in the same room. Although things were grim Inuyasha knew one person who would be able to lift his spirits or at least make him forget about everything for a little bit so he made his way down to the kitchen sniffing around trying to find the perverted servant found Miroku it was behind the castle the human was resting against a tree reading a book. Inuyasha approached him slowly and quietly it would be fun to scare Miroku he always screamed like a girl. Now standing just a few yards away yasha spoke up “i never took ya for the reading type” the human jumped up but to inuyasha's disappointment he didn't scream.”well master inuyasha if you must know i was bored and with everyone gone i thought that to finish this book would be a great idea”
“I'm guessing that after a while it wasn't that great of an idea since you still look bored and actually about to fall asleep”said inuyasha while sitting down next to the servant.
“you are right about that, by the way how was it?”
“how do you think? Boring, tedious,full of stiff people and with an air of death that made me want to runaway or start slapping all the people around me, i don't know i just never liked funerals”
“and did you see her?”
“yes and well she was beautiful”
“hey you know how about we go to the village? It will be fun and it will get your mind off the stiffness plus maybe you'll be able to score some pretty ladies, black really suits you” said Miroku with a wink.
Inuyasha scowled and said “I can't father would kill me if he found out”
“oh come on like that ever stopped you”
“it doesn't seem considerate to go have fun when my brother's mate just died”
“well it's not like you ever met her and your brother has not been very considerate with you”
“true, ok lets go” both standed and returned to the castle. After grabbing some money,and Miroku telling one of the servants he was going out with the master they made their way towards the gates and then towards the village.