InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ A Lot About Love ❯ Matters of her own ( Chapter 14 )

Chapter Fourteen

Matters of her own

 

He was officially a coward. C.O.W.A.R.D. Lying in his hotel bed, he sighed.

 

 

Looking at the address scratched in his hand, Inuyasha glanced up at the house before him. It was definitely her house, no doubt about it.

 

However, he couldn't do it. After a whole year, he felt himself seizing up and feeling sick to his stomach.

 

Starting the car again, he drove off, swearing at himself for not being able to go up to her house, knock and see her again, to bring her back with him.

 

Pulling up in the hotel parking, he bought a room.

 

 

That's where he lay now, feeling like a complete idiot. Now that he was here, he didn't know what to do.

 

“Why…?” He asked himself as he pulled a hand over his face and sighed. “I'm such a dick, leaving her for a year then not being able to come back…”

 

Pulling his shirt off, he tucked himself into bed, maybe a nice sleep would do the trick. Seeing, as it was already nine at night, he fell asleep as soon as his head hit the pillow.

 

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`You can do this…' He repeated to himself as he walked up to the house, `You have to do this…'

 

Taking a deep breath, he knocked on the door.

 

I'll come back for you…I promise.

 

His words came back to him, reminding him that this was important. Inuyasha had to do this or it would haunt his life, his nightmares forever. Or worse, he would forget about her again.

 

His breath hitched as the door came to a creaking stop, the door fully open. Standing in the house was a young woman, not too much shorter then he.

 

“Hello?” The woman asked with a raised eyebrow.

 

“Hi, I'm looking for a Kagome Higurashi?”

 

“Oh, just wait.” The girl suddenly smiled, “Kagome, the door's for you.”

 

The girl smiled at him then started walking away, “She'll be right here.”

 

Again, he was waiting.

 

“Who is it?” Inuyasha felt his heart stop when he heard her voice, “Hel--” She stopped in her tracks.

 

“Hi.” Inuyasha said shyly.

 

“Inu…yasha?” Kagome stood in shock as she stopped toweling her hair dry, “What…why?”

 

“I…came back.” Inuyasha smiled.

 

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“What brought you back to America?” Kagome asked as they sat on a small bench at a near by park, both deciding they needed a walk.

 

“I guess…well…” Inuyasha shrugged, “I found that letter, the one you hid in my car, the other day.”

 

Kagome furrowed her brows in confusion, as she tried to remember the letter, “Oh, that one…” a blush rose up on her cheeks as she remembered.

 

“Yeah.” Inuyasha returned the blush.

 

“So you came back just to tell me that?” Kagome asked a little annoyed.

 

“No I…I wanted to say that…” Inuyasha sighed, “I feel the same way.”

 

Kagome let out a gasp, “No you don't.”

 

“How can you say that?” Inuyasha glared at the girl beside him, “You can't say how I feel.”

 

“No, you don't love me, you can't.” Kagome whispered.

 

“Why not?” Inuyasha demanded.

 

“Because it's too late…”

 

“What?” Inuyasha asked, confusion lacing his voice.

 

“Because…” Kagome whimpered, “I'm engaged.”

 

Inuyasha slumped back in the bench, not wanting to believe it, but it was true, as he finally realized the small diamond on her ring finger.

 

“I'm sorry, I should've told you.”

 

“It wouldn't have made a difference.” Inuyasha said. Kagome winced at the cold tone.

 

“Yes it would have, then you wouldn't have had to fly all the way here for nothing.”

 

Inuyasha got up to leave; he didn't want to hear anymore.

 

“Wait.” Kagome shouted.

 

“What now?” Inuyasha growled.

 

“Souta, you can stay with him for the night, before you leave.”

 

Inuyasha thought about it then nodded, as she scribbled down his new address.

 

“I'm sorry Inuyasha.” Kagome whispered as he left, tears in her eyes.

 

Inuyasha didn't know why, but he felt sorrier for Kagome then he did, himself.

 

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“Inuyasha, what the hell are you doing here?” Souta said, half laughing.

 

Inuyasha sighed and pushed his way through.

 

Souta stared at the wandering hanyou as Inuyasha sat down at the couch and held his head in his hands. Then everything made sense, why he was here, everything.

 

“You went to see Kagome didn't you?” Souta whispered.

 

“I'm an idiot; I should've known she would move on.” Inuyasha almost cried out.

 

“No you aren't.” Souta grumbled as he sat down across from the hanyou, “You're planning on staying the night, right?”

 

Inuyasha nodded.

 

“I'll go get some blankets and a pillow then.” Souta stood and left the room.

 

He felt defeated, sad, pissed off. Inuyasha didn't know what to feel, anger at Kagome, or sadness that he hadn't come earlier; or even jealousy or embarrassment for even coming, not being able to move on like she had obviously done.

 

“Here.” Inuyasha said a small thank you then took the blankets from Souta, “So, what took so long?”

 

“What do you mean?”

 

“I mean, you were back Tokyo forever.” Souta shrugged, “What were doing that was so important?”

 

“I…well; my brother and his nephew were in a serious car accident…” Inuyasha sighed, “Then everything just played out from there, I got more into working for my brother and…”

 

“You forgot.” Souta interrupted.

 

“I didn't want to, but…I did.” Inuyasha shrugged.

 

“It's okay, I forget sometimes too.” Souta smiled sadly, “So, when did you see Kagome?”

 

“Just now.”

 

Souta sat back down, “Want something to drink?”

 

“No thanks, I think I'll get to bed, and then I'll leave tomorrow.” Inuyasha smiled, “Thanks for the place to stay.”

 

“So you're just going to give up?” Souta said abruptly.

 

“What?” Inuyasha sat back up.

 

“That's not what the Inuyasha I knew would do.”

 

“What do you mean; I am the Inuyasha you knew.” Inuyasha growled.

 

“No, Inuyasha would've been back with my sister and yelling at her until she came back to him.” Souta smiled, “He would be thinking up a plan to get her back from whoever she's with.”

 

“I can't, I used to think I could, but…” Inuyasha shook his head.

 

“You still can.” Souta whispered, “The bastard that Kagome is marrying, he's a complete bimbo.”

 

Inuyasha laughed, “That's her decision.”

 

“No.” Souta frowned, “You didn't see how depressed she was…when you left.”

 

“Yeah, and now she's over it.”

 

“She's not over it, she never will be.” Souta yelled, “This is more of a rebound then anything.”

 

“If it's a sleazy rebound, then why is she marrying him?” Inuyasha demanded, “There must be love there if she's engaged.”

 

“This is hopeless.” Souta tossed his hands up in the air and started leaving the room, “You are definitely not the man my sister fell in love with a year ago.”

 

Then he was alone.

 

 

 

 

Yes, it is the beginning of the rainstorm before the rainbow. However, remember this: There `will' be a rainbow after this is done.

 

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Disclaimer: I do not own any of the Inuyasha characters, anime of manga. Rumiko Takahashi does and I'm glad she had the imagination to create such amazing characters to play with.