InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ A Never-Ending Love ❯ Chapter 4
[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]
By: DragonGrl 
The next morning....How will Rin and Kouga's date go and who's her surprise visitor?
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance / Hentai / Drama | Type: Alternate Universe | Uploaded On: 04.18.2005 | Updated On: 07.14.2006 | Pages: 3 | Words: 4.5K | Visits: 652 | Status: Work In Progress
The next morning....How will Rin and Kouga's date go and who's her surprise visitor?
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance / Hentai / Drama | Type: Alternate Universe | Uploaded On: 04.18.2005 | Updated On: 07.14.2006 | Pages: 3 | Words: 4.5K | Visits: 652 | Status: Work In Progress
Disclaimer: I don’t own any of the InuYasha characters they belong to Rumiko Takahashi.
‘___’ Thought expressions
“Italic” Whisper expressions
Sesshomaru’s arrival caught me entirely by surprise. He wasn’t at all what I expected and left me feeling completely confused. He brought out new feelings in me that I’m sure he never intended to, but his presence alone was more than enough to have that effect. Yet these feelings were what had me confused the most and unfortunately I couldn’t try to find the answers because they were from someone that was completely out of my grasp.
As I walked in, I didn’t look at either one just headed towards the fridge, “Good Morning.”
As I was grabbing some OJ, Kagome replied, “Hey Rin.”
Then Sesshomaru, “Good Morning, Rin.”
When I turned back, I caught a glimpse of Sesshomaru. I swear my eyes widened at the sight of him, he looked absolutely HOT in what he was wearing; gray dress slacks with a navy-blue sweater. But to my luck, the cupboard where the glasses were was right next to where he was standing. So I stood next to him and reached up to get a glass but his scent immediately hit my nose. My eyes involuntarily closed and I found myself inhaling deeply, trying to take in as much as possible. He smelled so damn GOOD but a slight push from him brought me out of my reverie and I turned towards him.
He smiled, “Sorry.”
His amazing smile left me speechless again and made my heart start to thump hard and fast in my chest. I smiled in return since it was all I could do and walked back to the counter next to the fridge. As I was pouring the OJ into a glass, I shook my head slightly trying to clear my mind a bit.
Kagome turned back to me, “So Rin, what were you doing all day yesterday? You went back into your room and didn’t come out at all.”
I leaned back on the counter and sipped some juice, “Oh I was just listening to some music and reading until I fell asleep.” All the while, I tried not to look at Sesshomaru which at the moment it was pretty difficult to do.
“Oh, ok. You must’ve fallen asleep early then because by the time I went to check on you, you were already asleep.”
Shocked, “Well, that’s a first. Since when do you ever check on me?”
She giggled, “I’ve always checked on you but usually you’re asleep by then.”
She walked over and kissed on my cheek, making them heat up, “Kagome, stop that.”
She laughed, “I can’t help it. Oh, I was going to ask you. So you ARE going out with Koga tonight right?”
Nodding, “Yeah, I told you last night that I was remember?”
She leaned back on the counter behind her, “Oh yeah. I just needed to know because Sesshomaru and I are going out tonight and I didn’t want to leave you alone.”
After I took a sip, I tilted my head to one side as I looked at her, “It’s not going to be the first time that I’m left alone you know.”
She grabbed her cup of coffee and took a sip; “I know that but still wanted to make sure.”
Nodding, “Right.”
Suddenly, Sesshomaru interrupted, looking towards me, “So Koga’s your boyfriend?”
I looked at him and shook my head, “NO WAY, he’s just a friend. Although I’m pretty sure he wants to be.”
He slightly nodded, “Oh, so you’re just dating then?”
‘Now this is odd. Why is he so curious about that?’ “Well, you can call it that I guess. But it’s going to end pretty soon.”
That was when he reached over and grabbed his cup, slowly bringing it up to his lips as he held onto my gaze, “Soon? You’re ending it today aren’t you? That’s why you accepted his invitation.” Then finally he took a sip, not breaking the link we had.
At that moment, my breath got stuck in my throat when I tried to answer, making it sound almost like a whisper, “Well, that’s the plan.” He just chuckled at my comment. That’s when I turned away from him and took a deep breath, ‘What the hell is happening to me?’
Looking back at Kagome, “Anyway, I wanted to ask you. WHY are you using MY screen name?”
Confused, “What screen name?”
“You know, ‘Ice Princess’?”
She giggled, “Oh that one, I didn’t feel like switching so I just logged on under that one since it was the first one listed.”
Nodding, “Uh huh.”
Sesshomaru interrupted again and pointed at me, “That’s YOUR screen name?”
I looked back at him and nodded, “Yes, it is.”
Then he slightly tilted his head to one side, curious, “But why ‘Ice Princess’?”
Kagome answered and started to giggle, “Because that’s her nickname.”
Pointing towards Kagome, “According to her friends.”
He started to laugh and shook his head, “Ok, I get it.”
When the sound of his laughter reached my ears, it made my skin crawl and I felt goosebumps all over. ‘This is the last straw. I need to get away’ Turning away from him, “I think I hear my cell phone. I’m going to go check.” Walking back towards my room and quickly shutting the door behind me.
Leaning back on the door, I took a deep breath, “Whoa, that was absolutely weird.” Pushing myself away, I walked over to sit on top of my bed and stared at the floor. ‘I don’t know what to do anymore. I’m totally confused. Koga… well, Koga is a handsome guy but his attitude just sucks. I mean, I like him but only as a friend and nothing else. He’s definitely not someone I see myself spending the rest of my life with.’ Then I lifted my head to look at the door, ‘Then, there’s Sesshomaru. Ever since he arrived, I’ve been feeling different, much different. The weird part is that these feelings only happen when I’m around him and most of the times, I can’t help it. I barely even know him, only for the ONE conversation we had online and it wasn’t very long. I don’t even think it’s considered a conversation. Then Kagome seems to really like him so because of that, I can’t do anything about these feelings because he’s with her. I just can’t explain why I feel like this. Especially, what should I do about them?’ Leaning back on the headboard, I looked up and closed my eyes, whispering to the sky, “Mom, you were always good at these things. Please help me.”
I didn’t leave the room the rest of the day either. I just wasn’t prepared and didn’t know how to handle the emotions that Sesshomaru would stir in me. So the best thing was to stay as far away from him as possible, hoping that it would eventually stop them. So at about 4pm, I began to get ready. I showered and got dressed. Since Koga mentioned to dress casually, I decided to wear my hipster jeans, a cream turtleneck sweater and black leather high-heeled boots. At about 4:45, I was ready and walked out to the living room. When I got there, Sesshomaru was sitting on the sofa reading the newspaper and Kagome was leaning on him, reading a magazine.
They both turned towards me but Kagome was the only one to speak, “Hey there stranger. You look nice. Do you know where he’s taking you?”
Feeling my cheeks heat up, “Oh thanks. No I don’t but he said to dress casually.” Although as I was responding to Kagome, I noticed Sesshomaru looking me up and down but I didn’t pay much attention to him and continued to talk to Kagome. “So, what time are you guys going to dinner?”
“Sesshomaru made the reservation for 7. So a little before then.”
I nodded and looked at the clock, “Oh, well Koga should be here pretty soon.”
“Are you nervous?” She asked.
“Well to be honest, a little but it’s something I have to do.” Suddenly the doorbell rang, “Ah, there he is. Right on time.” Turning and walking over to the door. When I opened it, I was left in awe. Koga looked so different. I guess it must have been the tan, but he looked GOOD.
Smiling, “Hi Rin”, then he pulled a beautiful bouquet of roses from his back and handed them to me. “I brought you these.”
I took them from him and looked down at them, “OH MY GOD, they’re beautiful Koga. Thank you.” Turning back at him, smiling.
Nodding, “No problem.”
Suddenly, Kagome walked up next to me, leaning on my shoulder, “Hey Koga. It’s been a while.”
He chuckled, “Yeah, but you know when business calls.”
Kagome giggled, “Yeah. Oh I want you to meet someone.” She turned over and waved at Sesshomaru. He stood and walked next to her, sliding his arm around her waist, pulling her towards him. “Koga, I want you to meet Sesshomaru. Sesshomaru, this is Koga. An old friend of mine, we’ve known each other for years.”
They shook hands and greeted each other. Koga; “Nice to meet you” then Sesshomaru; “Likewise.”
Koga smiled, “So you’re with this one eh? Well, good luck she can get pretty feisty.”
Kagome interrupted, frowning, “HEY, that’s not true.”
They all laughed and Sesshomaru turned to give Kagome a kiss on her temple, “I think we’ll be ok.” Kagome turned towards him and wrapped her arms around him.
As I stood there, observing them, I began to feel somewhat tense and that same feeling of jealousy start to build up inside me so I had to slightly turn away. ‘Oh shit, I need to get out of here. I’m starting to feel weird again.’ Turning towards Kagome, “Do me a favor Kagome, could you put these in water please?” Handing the flowers to her.
She turned over and took them, nodding, “Sure.”
Then I turned towards Koga and smiled, “Shall we?”
He looked at me and smiled, “Oh, sure.” We started to walk out the door but then Koga stopped and turned around, “I’ll see you guys later.” I just kept walking towards his truck not looking back.
I heard Kagome yell as I reached the SUV, “Bye, have a good time.” Once Koga unlocked it, I stepped in and waved goodbye to Kagome before we headed out to our date.
The date actually went pretty well, at the beginning. First, he took me to eat at a local deli that was nearby. The food was really good. Then, we took a drive around the city; showing me new spots that I’ve never even heard of before even though I’ve lived here for a while, which was pretty sad. Honestly, I was actually having fun this time. Lastly, he took me to a really nice park that had a huge lake so we could take a walk. Who knew that in that park was where things would get ugly.
The sky was clear and covered with stars. The moon was full that night and it shone brightly down towards the park. Its light reflecting off the lake giving it a light glow. The view was absolutely beautiful. As we were walking around, Koga and I chatted about different things, but mostly it was he telling me about his most recent trip. We walked around the whole park and when we were walking by the side of the lake, he suddenly stopped and moved to stand in front of me. I was a bit shocked at seeing him walk up to me like that and just looked at him.
He reached up and held my face in his hands, caressing my cheek, “Rin, you know that I care about you right?”
Looking straight into his eyes, I nodded, “Yeah, you told me the day we went to the beach remember?”
He chuckled and looked away, “Oh yeah, I remember.” Then turned back to me, locking his eyes with mine, “But my feelings are much stronger now. Rin, you are an amazing woman, you really are. I think… I think I might be falling in love with you and I want to be able to see you as more than just a friend.”
I lowered my head and shook it slightly. Lifting it, I turned back up to him and reached up to his hands to gently remove them, “Koga, it’s really sweet of you to think of me that way but…”
Suddenly, the bright smile on his face faded away and was replaced by a frown, “BUT?” His tone even changed, from being sweet and gentle it changed to stern with a mixture of hostility in it.
Removing his hands from my face, “But I don’t feel the same for you. I like you, don’t get me wrong but only as a friend.” When I peeled his hands away, I took a step back, giving us some distance. That was when I saw his hands beginning to shake and his eyes filled up with anger, making them almost darken.
Tilting his head to one side, his voice and eyes filled up with anger as he took a step closer, “Are you rejecting me?” Fisting his hands at his sides.
I definitely didn’t like his tone of voice and quirked an eyebrow, “What?”
Suddenly, he stepped in front of me and grabbed me by my biceps, gripping them firmly and pulling me towards him. A gasp escaped me as he pulled me forward and I slightly closed my eyes at the sharp pain coming from his grip. Then he violently shook me, making me open my eyes to look at him, his eyes burning with rage. Shaking his head, “No one has ever rejected me before and I mean no ONE. I always get what I want, whenever I want it and what I want is you.”
He began to tighten his grip and I let out a light groan because of the immense pain coming from it. “Koga, let me go. You’re hurting me.” I started to struggle, trying to loosen myself but it only made him hold on tighter. The look he had in his eyes that moment frightened me, it made it seem as if his eyes could shoot fire from the intense anger they reflected. I turned away, trying not to look at him but he shook me vigorously again, making me turn back towards him.
“Listen to me, Rin and listen well. If you’re not going to be with me, then you’re not going to be with anyone else. You got that? I will make sure of it.”
That was when I started feeling an intense fear. I was seriously scared because he was extremely angry and his threat didn’t make me feel any better either. Although, when his threat finally kicked in, I felt my blood begin to boil because I wasn’t going to let myself get manhandled by a creep such as himself. So I gathered up all the courage within me and pushed the fear aside. ‘Oh hell no. He did NOT just say that to me’ Somehow, I caught him off guard and managed to loosen myself from him. Finally free, I took a step back and fisted my hands at my sides as I yelled, “WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU? Who the FUCK do you think you are huh? I’m not some damn object you pick up and claim as your own, you know?”
Suddenly, he took a step towards me but it only made me take another step back, his voice low and stern, “Don’t curse at me.”
Now THAT was made me even angrier. Frowning, “What? Now you’re trying to tell me what to do. I can curse at you whenever I feel like it. Plus, I don’t give a FUCK if you’ve never been rejected before, that’s not my business and I don’t appreciate you threatening me either. My decision has been made and now I can see I made the right one. You’ve changed all right but I can see not everything changed with you, you’re still a selfish creep. Open your eyes Koga, the world doesn’t revolve around YOU.”
He tightened his fists and suddenly turned around, yelling, “Damn it,” as he punched a nearby tree. Then, he pulled back and looked down at his bloody knuckles, lifting his head to look towards me.
I only gave him an angry look and turned away, “I want to leave. Take me home. I’ve had enough of this.” Turning around, I began to walk towards the truck. Turning my head towards him constantly, keeping an eye on him for if he tried something.
During the drive back, we said nothing to each other. Even though he was driving like a maniac and flooring it. I remained quiet even when he took very dangerous turns; even then I still didn’t budge. All I did was bite my lip the entire time trying not to talk. I just hung on tight to my seat and silently prayed that I got home safe. When we finally arrived to my house, he stopped. But before he even got a chance to speak, I opened the door, stepped off the truck and slammed the door behind me, making my way towards the porch without saying anything to him. All I heard as I was walking away were his tires screeching as he took off. I stopped and turned in the direction he left, making sure that he truly did leave until he finally disappeared.
Honestly, I felt awful because of all the shit that he’d told me and it shocked me so much that I wanted to cry. But instead, I held it all in. So I lowered my head, crossed my arms and kept walking towards the front door. When I looked up, Kagome was standing at the door. She must have heard the screeching of the tires and gone out to check. Hell, who DIDN’T hear it was the real question.
When I stepped inside, I said nothing to her and noticed that Sesshomaru was looking up at me from the sofa. I just glanced at him and looked back at Kagome as she was closing the door.
“You two are home early, I thought you were going out tonight?”
Kagome walked up and stood by me, “We did but we decided to come home early.”
“Oh.” Then she started to walk towards the kitchen so I walked over and sat on the recliner, waiting for her to come back. In the meantime, I said nothing just stared at the floor, when suddenly I heard Sesshomaru’s voice, startling me.
“Rin, are you all right? You don’t look well.” Looking concerned.
All I did was nod.
That was when Kagome came back from the kitchen and handed each of us a bottle of water, “He’s right. What happened?” making her way to sit next to Sesshomaru.
I took the bottle from her and placed it on my lap, looking at it. Shaking my head, my voice low, “Nothing, I’m all right.”
“Rin, you’re not very good at telling lies. What happened with Koga?”
Since she kept insisting, I gave up and began to tell them everything. About the dinner, the drive we took, about the places he showed me and described the park we went to. But when it got to the part where he confessed and the argument, my voice threatened to break but I held it back and tried to keep as much control as I could. I didn’t want to cry in front of them especially in front of Sesshomaru. Both were left in shock by my story especially Kagome, for she didn’t think that he could possibly act that way and she felt bad because it was HER idea for me to go out with him in the first place. When I was done, Kagome began to say something in respect to the subject but instead of listening to her, I looked down and stared at the floor, blocking her out. I didn’t hear a word she said but images of what happened kept popping up in my head as she was talking. I was so zoned out that I never realized a tear had fallen from my eye until I felt a tickle on my cheek. Immediately, I wiped it and looked at my fingers, finally realizing that it was a tear.
‘Damn, I hope they didn’t see that.’ But it was too late for when I looked up, I saw Sesshomaru looking at me. I held on to his gaze for a brief moment and as I kept looking into his eyes, something about them made me unable to hold it in anymore. I had to leave or I was going to break down there. Interrupting Kagome, I quickly got up and mumbled, “I’ll be in my room” as I walked towards it.
The moment I entered and shut the door, I burst into tears. I walked over to my bed, dropped my things on the floor and sobbed right into my pillow until I couldn’t cry anymore. After a while, I turned over to look at the clock, it was about 3am and I had gotten home at around 11pm.
Since it was already late and I was still in my other clothes, I got up and walked over to the closet to change clothes, slipping into my sweatpants and tank top. Once I was done, I turned to walk back to the bed but when I passed by the mirror, I noticed something weird and stopped. I continued looking and noticed what was on my arms, the bruises Koga left. I looked over to them, seeing them there and tried to run my hand over them. Immediately at my touch, I hissed from the sharp pain that emerged and the skin even felt hot there as well. I sighed and turned over to walk back into my bed. I slid under the covers and placed them underneath my arms. Finally settling myself on my left side, I stared blankly out the window until I was startled by a noise that came from the door, sounding as if someone opened it. Immediately, I closed my eyes making it seem that I was asleep. Suddenly, I heard footsteps inside as if the person was walking towards me. I stayed perfectly still and felt someone sit on the bed right by where my arms were. Since I’d loosened my hair, the sudden shifts of the bed made a lock of it fall on my face. That was when I felt a warm hand remove the lock and tucked the hair behind my ear then moved over and started to lightly caress my forehead. At first, I thought it was Kagome since she’d mentioned that she checked on me occasionally. But I got a strange feeling telling me otherwise and the hand felt much different than Kagome’s, raising my suspicions on who it could be. As I continued to remain still, the hand started to move down my cheek and stopped at my chin, pulling away. Then I felt warm fingers gently move to my shoulder, down my right arm until they stopped right where the bruises were. I guess they had been noticed even in the faint light coming from outside. Suddenly, I felt those same gentle fingers start to lightly touch them. At the sensation, I tensed a little as I remembered that they’d hurt when I’d touched them but when I felt warm fingertips sliding around them, tracing them as if to soothe them, I relaxed. I was actually surprised when they didn’t hurt, on the contrary, the touch made them feel better and the pain wasn’t as bad. Then, the same hand started running down my arm until it reached my hand, covering it. As the person stood up, I felt light caresses on the backside of my hand. Suddenly, the hand moved away and I heard footsteps again but they sounded as if the person was walking away. That was when I opened my eyes, turned over and gasped when I saw who it really was.
“Sesshomaru.”
But by then, the door had been closed.
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“Italic” Whisper expressions
Sesshomaru’s arrival caught me entirely by surprise. He wasn’t at all what I expected and left me feeling completely confused. He brought out new feelings in me that I’m sure he never intended to, but his presence alone was more than enough to have that effect. Yet these feelings were what had me confused the most and unfortunately I couldn’t try to find the answers because they were from someone that was completely out of my grasp.
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The next morning I was woken up by some commotion that was coming from the kitchen. So I got up and noticed that I was still wearing what I had on from the night before. ‘Damn, I fell asleep in my dress clothes.’ I looked myself over in the mirror and fixed my hair a bit. Then I slipped on my slippers and headed out. When I walked into the kitchen, Sesshomaru and Kagome were cooking and laughing together.As I walked in, I didn’t look at either one just headed towards the fridge, “Good Morning.”
As I was grabbing some OJ, Kagome replied, “Hey Rin.”
Then Sesshomaru, “Good Morning, Rin.”
When I turned back, I caught a glimpse of Sesshomaru. I swear my eyes widened at the sight of him, he looked absolutely HOT in what he was wearing; gray dress slacks with a navy-blue sweater. But to my luck, the cupboard where the glasses were was right next to where he was standing. So I stood next to him and reached up to get a glass but his scent immediately hit my nose. My eyes involuntarily closed and I found myself inhaling deeply, trying to take in as much as possible. He smelled so damn GOOD but a slight push from him brought me out of my reverie and I turned towards him.
He smiled, “Sorry.”
His amazing smile left me speechless again and made my heart start to thump hard and fast in my chest. I smiled in return since it was all I could do and walked back to the counter next to the fridge. As I was pouring the OJ into a glass, I shook my head slightly trying to clear my mind a bit.
Kagome turned back to me, “So Rin, what were you doing all day yesterday? You went back into your room and didn’t come out at all.”
I leaned back on the counter and sipped some juice, “Oh I was just listening to some music and reading until I fell asleep.” All the while, I tried not to look at Sesshomaru which at the moment it was pretty difficult to do.
“Oh, ok. You must’ve fallen asleep early then because by the time I went to check on you, you were already asleep.”
Shocked, “Well, that’s a first. Since when do you ever check on me?”
She giggled, “I’ve always checked on you but usually you’re asleep by then.”
She walked over and kissed on my cheek, making them heat up, “Kagome, stop that.”
She laughed, “I can’t help it. Oh, I was going to ask you. So you ARE going out with Koga tonight right?”
Nodding, “Yeah, I told you last night that I was remember?”
She leaned back on the counter behind her, “Oh yeah. I just needed to know because Sesshomaru and I are going out tonight and I didn’t want to leave you alone.”
After I took a sip, I tilted my head to one side as I looked at her, “It’s not going to be the first time that I’m left alone you know.”
She grabbed her cup of coffee and took a sip; “I know that but still wanted to make sure.”
Nodding, “Right.”
Suddenly, Sesshomaru interrupted, looking towards me, “So Koga’s your boyfriend?”
I looked at him and shook my head, “NO WAY, he’s just a friend. Although I’m pretty sure he wants to be.”
He slightly nodded, “Oh, so you’re just dating then?”
‘Now this is odd. Why is he so curious about that?’ “Well, you can call it that I guess. But it’s going to end pretty soon.”
That was when he reached over and grabbed his cup, slowly bringing it up to his lips as he held onto my gaze, “Soon? You’re ending it today aren’t you? That’s why you accepted his invitation.” Then finally he took a sip, not breaking the link we had.
At that moment, my breath got stuck in my throat when I tried to answer, making it sound almost like a whisper, “Well, that’s the plan.” He just chuckled at my comment. That’s when I turned away from him and took a deep breath, ‘What the hell is happening to me?’
Looking back at Kagome, “Anyway, I wanted to ask you. WHY are you using MY screen name?”
Confused, “What screen name?”
“You know, ‘Ice Princess’?”
She giggled, “Oh that one, I didn’t feel like switching so I just logged on under that one since it was the first one listed.”
Nodding, “Uh huh.”
Sesshomaru interrupted again and pointed at me, “That’s YOUR screen name?”
I looked back at him and nodded, “Yes, it is.”
Then he slightly tilted his head to one side, curious, “But why ‘Ice Princess’?”
Kagome answered and started to giggle, “Because that’s her nickname.”
Pointing towards Kagome, “According to her friends.”
He started to laugh and shook his head, “Ok, I get it.”
When the sound of his laughter reached my ears, it made my skin crawl and I felt goosebumps all over. ‘This is the last straw. I need to get away’ Turning away from him, “I think I hear my cell phone. I’m going to go check.” Walking back towards my room and quickly shutting the door behind me.
Leaning back on the door, I took a deep breath, “Whoa, that was absolutely weird.” Pushing myself away, I walked over to sit on top of my bed and stared at the floor. ‘I don’t know what to do anymore. I’m totally confused. Koga… well, Koga is a handsome guy but his attitude just sucks. I mean, I like him but only as a friend and nothing else. He’s definitely not someone I see myself spending the rest of my life with.’ Then I lifted my head to look at the door, ‘Then, there’s Sesshomaru. Ever since he arrived, I’ve been feeling different, much different. The weird part is that these feelings only happen when I’m around him and most of the times, I can’t help it. I barely even know him, only for the ONE conversation we had online and it wasn’t very long. I don’t even think it’s considered a conversation. Then Kagome seems to really like him so because of that, I can’t do anything about these feelings because he’s with her. I just can’t explain why I feel like this. Especially, what should I do about them?’ Leaning back on the headboard, I looked up and closed my eyes, whispering to the sky, “Mom, you were always good at these things. Please help me.”
I didn’t leave the room the rest of the day either. I just wasn’t prepared and didn’t know how to handle the emotions that Sesshomaru would stir in me. So the best thing was to stay as far away from him as possible, hoping that it would eventually stop them. So at about 4pm, I began to get ready. I showered and got dressed. Since Koga mentioned to dress casually, I decided to wear my hipster jeans, a cream turtleneck sweater and black leather high-heeled boots. At about 4:45, I was ready and walked out to the living room. When I got there, Sesshomaru was sitting on the sofa reading the newspaper and Kagome was leaning on him, reading a magazine.
They both turned towards me but Kagome was the only one to speak, “Hey there stranger. You look nice. Do you know where he’s taking you?”
Feeling my cheeks heat up, “Oh thanks. No I don’t but he said to dress casually.” Although as I was responding to Kagome, I noticed Sesshomaru looking me up and down but I didn’t pay much attention to him and continued to talk to Kagome. “So, what time are you guys going to dinner?”
“Sesshomaru made the reservation for 7. So a little before then.”
I nodded and looked at the clock, “Oh, well Koga should be here pretty soon.”
“Are you nervous?” She asked.
“Well to be honest, a little but it’s something I have to do.” Suddenly the doorbell rang, “Ah, there he is. Right on time.” Turning and walking over to the door. When I opened it, I was left in awe. Koga looked so different. I guess it must have been the tan, but he looked GOOD.
Smiling, “Hi Rin”, then he pulled a beautiful bouquet of roses from his back and handed them to me. “I brought you these.”
I took them from him and looked down at them, “OH MY GOD, they’re beautiful Koga. Thank you.” Turning back at him, smiling.
Nodding, “No problem.”
Suddenly, Kagome walked up next to me, leaning on my shoulder, “Hey Koga. It’s been a while.”
He chuckled, “Yeah, but you know when business calls.”
Kagome giggled, “Yeah. Oh I want you to meet someone.” She turned over and waved at Sesshomaru. He stood and walked next to her, sliding his arm around her waist, pulling her towards him. “Koga, I want you to meet Sesshomaru. Sesshomaru, this is Koga. An old friend of mine, we’ve known each other for years.”
They shook hands and greeted each other. Koga; “Nice to meet you” then Sesshomaru; “Likewise.”
Koga smiled, “So you’re with this one eh? Well, good luck she can get pretty feisty.”
Kagome interrupted, frowning, “HEY, that’s not true.”
They all laughed and Sesshomaru turned to give Kagome a kiss on her temple, “I think we’ll be ok.” Kagome turned towards him and wrapped her arms around him.
As I stood there, observing them, I began to feel somewhat tense and that same feeling of jealousy start to build up inside me so I had to slightly turn away. ‘Oh shit, I need to get out of here. I’m starting to feel weird again.’ Turning towards Kagome, “Do me a favor Kagome, could you put these in water please?” Handing the flowers to her.
She turned over and took them, nodding, “Sure.”
Then I turned towards Koga and smiled, “Shall we?”
He looked at me and smiled, “Oh, sure.” We started to walk out the door but then Koga stopped and turned around, “I’ll see you guys later.” I just kept walking towards his truck not looking back.
I heard Kagome yell as I reached the SUV, “Bye, have a good time.” Once Koga unlocked it, I stepped in and waved goodbye to Kagome before we headed out to our date.
The date actually went pretty well, at the beginning. First, he took me to eat at a local deli that was nearby. The food was really good. Then, we took a drive around the city; showing me new spots that I’ve never even heard of before even though I’ve lived here for a while, which was pretty sad. Honestly, I was actually having fun this time. Lastly, he took me to a really nice park that had a huge lake so we could take a walk. Who knew that in that park was where things would get ugly.
The sky was clear and covered with stars. The moon was full that night and it shone brightly down towards the park. Its light reflecting off the lake giving it a light glow. The view was absolutely beautiful. As we were walking around, Koga and I chatted about different things, but mostly it was he telling me about his most recent trip. We walked around the whole park and when we were walking by the side of the lake, he suddenly stopped and moved to stand in front of me. I was a bit shocked at seeing him walk up to me like that and just looked at him.
He reached up and held my face in his hands, caressing my cheek, “Rin, you know that I care about you right?”
Looking straight into his eyes, I nodded, “Yeah, you told me the day we went to the beach remember?”
He chuckled and looked away, “Oh yeah, I remember.” Then turned back to me, locking his eyes with mine, “But my feelings are much stronger now. Rin, you are an amazing woman, you really are. I think… I think I might be falling in love with you and I want to be able to see you as more than just a friend.”
I lowered my head and shook it slightly. Lifting it, I turned back up to him and reached up to his hands to gently remove them, “Koga, it’s really sweet of you to think of me that way but…”
Suddenly, the bright smile on his face faded away and was replaced by a frown, “BUT?” His tone even changed, from being sweet and gentle it changed to stern with a mixture of hostility in it.
Removing his hands from my face, “But I don’t feel the same for you. I like you, don’t get me wrong but only as a friend.” When I peeled his hands away, I took a step back, giving us some distance. That was when I saw his hands beginning to shake and his eyes filled up with anger, making them almost darken.
Tilting his head to one side, his voice and eyes filled up with anger as he took a step closer, “Are you rejecting me?” Fisting his hands at his sides.
I definitely didn’t like his tone of voice and quirked an eyebrow, “What?”
Suddenly, he stepped in front of me and grabbed me by my biceps, gripping them firmly and pulling me towards him. A gasp escaped me as he pulled me forward and I slightly closed my eyes at the sharp pain coming from his grip. Then he violently shook me, making me open my eyes to look at him, his eyes burning with rage. Shaking his head, “No one has ever rejected me before and I mean no ONE. I always get what I want, whenever I want it and what I want is you.”
He began to tighten his grip and I let out a light groan because of the immense pain coming from it. “Koga, let me go. You’re hurting me.” I started to struggle, trying to loosen myself but it only made him hold on tighter. The look he had in his eyes that moment frightened me, it made it seem as if his eyes could shoot fire from the intense anger they reflected. I turned away, trying not to look at him but he shook me vigorously again, making me turn back towards him.
“Listen to me, Rin and listen well. If you’re not going to be with me, then you’re not going to be with anyone else. You got that? I will make sure of it.”
That was when I started feeling an intense fear. I was seriously scared because he was extremely angry and his threat didn’t make me feel any better either. Although, when his threat finally kicked in, I felt my blood begin to boil because I wasn’t going to let myself get manhandled by a creep such as himself. So I gathered up all the courage within me and pushed the fear aside. ‘Oh hell no. He did NOT just say that to me’ Somehow, I caught him off guard and managed to loosen myself from him. Finally free, I took a step back and fisted my hands at my sides as I yelled, “WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU? Who the FUCK do you think you are huh? I’m not some damn object you pick up and claim as your own, you know?”
Suddenly, he took a step towards me but it only made me take another step back, his voice low and stern, “Don’t curse at me.”
Now THAT was made me even angrier. Frowning, “What? Now you’re trying to tell me what to do. I can curse at you whenever I feel like it. Plus, I don’t give a FUCK if you’ve never been rejected before, that’s not my business and I don’t appreciate you threatening me either. My decision has been made and now I can see I made the right one. You’ve changed all right but I can see not everything changed with you, you’re still a selfish creep. Open your eyes Koga, the world doesn’t revolve around YOU.”
He tightened his fists and suddenly turned around, yelling, “Damn it,” as he punched a nearby tree. Then, he pulled back and looked down at his bloody knuckles, lifting his head to look towards me.
I only gave him an angry look and turned away, “I want to leave. Take me home. I’ve had enough of this.” Turning around, I began to walk towards the truck. Turning my head towards him constantly, keeping an eye on him for if he tried something.
During the drive back, we said nothing to each other. Even though he was driving like a maniac and flooring it. I remained quiet even when he took very dangerous turns; even then I still didn’t budge. All I did was bite my lip the entire time trying not to talk. I just hung on tight to my seat and silently prayed that I got home safe. When we finally arrived to my house, he stopped. But before he even got a chance to speak, I opened the door, stepped off the truck and slammed the door behind me, making my way towards the porch without saying anything to him. All I heard as I was walking away were his tires screeching as he took off. I stopped and turned in the direction he left, making sure that he truly did leave until he finally disappeared.
Honestly, I felt awful because of all the shit that he’d told me and it shocked me so much that I wanted to cry. But instead, I held it all in. So I lowered my head, crossed my arms and kept walking towards the front door. When I looked up, Kagome was standing at the door. She must have heard the screeching of the tires and gone out to check. Hell, who DIDN’T hear it was the real question.
When I stepped inside, I said nothing to her and noticed that Sesshomaru was looking up at me from the sofa. I just glanced at him and looked back at Kagome as she was closing the door.
“You two are home early, I thought you were going out tonight?”
Kagome walked up and stood by me, “We did but we decided to come home early.”
“Oh.” Then she started to walk towards the kitchen so I walked over and sat on the recliner, waiting for her to come back. In the meantime, I said nothing just stared at the floor, when suddenly I heard Sesshomaru’s voice, startling me.
“Rin, are you all right? You don’t look well.” Looking concerned.
All I did was nod.
That was when Kagome came back from the kitchen and handed each of us a bottle of water, “He’s right. What happened?” making her way to sit next to Sesshomaru.
I took the bottle from her and placed it on my lap, looking at it. Shaking my head, my voice low, “Nothing, I’m all right.”
“Rin, you’re not very good at telling lies. What happened with Koga?”
Since she kept insisting, I gave up and began to tell them everything. About the dinner, the drive we took, about the places he showed me and described the park we went to. But when it got to the part where he confessed and the argument, my voice threatened to break but I held it back and tried to keep as much control as I could. I didn’t want to cry in front of them especially in front of Sesshomaru. Both were left in shock by my story especially Kagome, for she didn’t think that he could possibly act that way and she felt bad because it was HER idea for me to go out with him in the first place. When I was done, Kagome began to say something in respect to the subject but instead of listening to her, I looked down and stared at the floor, blocking her out. I didn’t hear a word she said but images of what happened kept popping up in my head as she was talking. I was so zoned out that I never realized a tear had fallen from my eye until I felt a tickle on my cheek. Immediately, I wiped it and looked at my fingers, finally realizing that it was a tear.
‘Damn, I hope they didn’t see that.’ But it was too late for when I looked up, I saw Sesshomaru looking at me. I held on to his gaze for a brief moment and as I kept looking into his eyes, something about them made me unable to hold it in anymore. I had to leave or I was going to break down there. Interrupting Kagome, I quickly got up and mumbled, “I’ll be in my room” as I walked towards it.
The moment I entered and shut the door, I burst into tears. I walked over to my bed, dropped my things on the floor and sobbed right into my pillow until I couldn’t cry anymore. After a while, I turned over to look at the clock, it was about 3am and I had gotten home at around 11pm.
Since it was already late and I was still in my other clothes, I got up and walked over to the closet to change clothes, slipping into my sweatpants and tank top. Once I was done, I turned to walk back to the bed but when I passed by the mirror, I noticed something weird and stopped. I continued looking and noticed what was on my arms, the bruises Koga left. I looked over to them, seeing them there and tried to run my hand over them. Immediately at my touch, I hissed from the sharp pain that emerged and the skin even felt hot there as well. I sighed and turned over to walk back into my bed. I slid under the covers and placed them underneath my arms. Finally settling myself on my left side, I stared blankly out the window until I was startled by a noise that came from the door, sounding as if someone opened it. Immediately, I closed my eyes making it seem that I was asleep. Suddenly, I heard footsteps inside as if the person was walking towards me. I stayed perfectly still and felt someone sit on the bed right by where my arms were. Since I’d loosened my hair, the sudden shifts of the bed made a lock of it fall on my face. That was when I felt a warm hand remove the lock and tucked the hair behind my ear then moved over and started to lightly caress my forehead. At first, I thought it was Kagome since she’d mentioned that she checked on me occasionally. But I got a strange feeling telling me otherwise and the hand felt much different than Kagome’s, raising my suspicions on who it could be. As I continued to remain still, the hand started to move down my cheek and stopped at my chin, pulling away. Then I felt warm fingers gently move to my shoulder, down my right arm until they stopped right where the bruises were. I guess they had been noticed even in the faint light coming from outside. Suddenly, I felt those same gentle fingers start to lightly touch them. At the sensation, I tensed a little as I remembered that they’d hurt when I’d touched them but when I felt warm fingertips sliding around them, tracing them as if to soothe them, I relaxed. I was actually surprised when they didn’t hurt, on the contrary, the touch made them feel better and the pain wasn’t as bad. Then, the same hand started running down my arm until it reached my hand, covering it. As the person stood up, I felt light caresses on the backside of my hand. Suddenly, the hand moved away and I heard footsteps again but they sounded as if the person was walking away. That was when I opened my eyes, turned over and gasped when I saw who it really was.
“Sesshomaru.”
But by then, the door had been closed.
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