InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ A New Life ❯ Life or Death ( Chapter 6 )
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By: FranklinBe 
Kagome trys to commit suicide but will someone stop her? And who visits her in her dreams? Read to find out and Review!!!!
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Angst / Romance / Action | Type: Other | Uploaded On: 10.21.2005 | Updated On: 07.14.2006 | Pages: 1 | Words: 1.8K | Visits: 1.2K | Status: Completed
Kagome trys to commit suicide but will someone stop her? And who visits her in her dreams? Read to find out and Review!!!!
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Angst / Romance / Action | Type: Other | Uploaded On: 10.21.2005 | Updated On: 07.14.2006 | Pages: 1 | Words: 1.8K | Visits: 1.2K | Status: Completed
Life or Death
Kagome awoke in the morning to Chie gently shaking her from her sleep.
“Ohayo Chie-sama” Kagome said as she stretched her arms up over her head as she got up from the bed.
“You seem troubled child” Chie said as she began unbandaging Kagome’s arms.
“Did you hear anything last night?” Kagome asked as she turned sad eyes towards Chie.
“Hai child, the whole castle did” Chie quietly said as she applied the same cold substance to her shoulders that she had used just yesterday.
“Oh..” Kagome winced as Chie began removing the bandage from her neck that was stained with small droplets of blood. Kagome sat in silence as Chie finished cleaning her wounds and rebandaging them with clean white cloths. Chie left with the dirty bandages and returned with Kagome some fruit and water on a silver tray. Kagome forced herself to eat not wanting Chie to go tell Sesshomaru that she wasn’t eating and make him punish her again.
‘I’m no use dead’ she thought as she recalled Sesshomaru’s refusal to kill her the other night. When she brought a piece of fruit to her mouth brushing her lips with it she remembered when Sesshomaru had kissed her. She then replaced the fruit with her fingers, tracing her lips as if feeling Sesshomaru’s kiss all over again.
‘You liked it.’
‘So what if I did, he didn’t’ she sneered unladylike at her conscious.
‘Are you sure?’
‘Of course, he said so himself.’
‘Maybe he was lying.’
‘I don’t care, he only sees me as a tool’ tears pooled in her eyes once more.
Meanwhile Chie was trying to bring Kagome from her daze by shaking her shoulder but without result.
‘I will not get Sesshomaru this time, he will only hurt her’ Chie thought as she once again called Kagome’s name.
“Kagome!” Chie said a little more forcefully this time awakening Kagome from her stupor.
“Daijbou? Kagome” Chie sat by Kagome on the bed, as she could smell the unwavering salt water from Kagome's eyes.
“Iie, all I will ever be seen as is a tool that is only good once, then thrown away” Kagome threw herself at Chie and cried uncontrollably in her chest as if it was really her mother that was comforting her.
“Shh child everything will turn out alright in the end, you’ll see” Chie soothed as she continued rubbing her back as she would a small child.
“Arigatou Chie” Kagome said as she pulled back from Chie and wiped her face with a white handkerchief that Chie provided.
“Your welcome Kagome.”
“You said my name” Kagome said shocked.
“Hai, as long as Lord Sesshomaru does not know then everything will be alright” Chie said before pulling Kagome into a hug then exiting the room with Kagome’s empty tray. Kagome sat on the bed smiling that she had made a new friend in such a lonely place. Her thoughts returned once again to Sesshomaru and how he had kissed her so passionately then said that it meant nothing.
‘That was my first kiss’ she thought touching her lips.
‘I knew you liked it.’
‘Not you again.’
‘Yep, it’s me.’
‘What do you want?’ Kagome asked slightly exasperated.
‘For you to admit that you’re starting to like Sesshomaru.’
‘What? There is not way that I will ever like that arrogant, pompous, bastard!’
‘Deep’ her conscious stretched the word.
‘Onegai leave.’
‘Since you said please then I’ll leave…for a while’ her conscious said then snickered at her sigh of annoyance.
Kagome turned once again back to her normal senses and began thinking of her family on the other side of the well.
“Father I will be joining you soon” Kagome sobbed with tears welling up in her eyes. She threw herself on her red silk pillow and cried uncontrollable. She knew that what she was about to do was the most pathetic way to get rid of her pain but if it stopped the pain from flowing through her then she would gladly do it.
Sesshomaru was standing on his large balcony watching his numerous warriors with their sword practice. He sighed inaudibly as the scents of the earth and life swirled around him in an exotic dance of time. As he breathed in deeper he caught the strong scent of salt water and he could also sense a large amount of sadness and grief coming from the room next to his. Curious as to what caused the human he was housing cry he formed his youkai cloud and landed onto her balcony where he opened the door silently and entered her room. His heart lurched in an emotion that he wasn’t familiar with as he saw Kagome streached out on her bed with a pillow tightly clenched in her arms with her nails digging into the thin fabric leaving thin lines of streaked red silk in its wake. Tears were pouring from her eyes like a warm spring day when the rain continued to fall in sheets.
‘You made her that way’ his youkai conscious sneered.
‘I did’ Sesshomaru seemed completely unaware to his conscious as he continued watching Kagome.
‘Apologize to her’ his conscious said in a commanding tone.
'Hnh..’
‘What, the Lord of the western lands not sure?’
‘Leave.’
‘Fine’ his conscious left.
Sesshomaru contemplated on this new feeling that left him feeling sorry and disgusted with himself for seemingly causing Kagome so much pain.
“Father I will be joining you soon” he heard Kagome say. He was shocked as she pulled a thin knife from under another pillow and sat up in the bed with a depressed and determined expression on her face. Her tears continued to fall as she turned her hand palm up and slid the knife across her wrist where blood began pouring from her wound. She repeated the same process with the other wrist as Sesshomaru stood in shock from her attempt at suicide.
After his shock passed Sesshomaru with his youkai speed tore the knife from Kagome’s hand and threw it towards the opposite wall. He turned his attention to Kagome whose wrists were pouring blood profusely. With desperation he brought her wrists up to his lips and licked the blood from them closing the wound in the process with his youkai healing saliva. He leaned back on the bed panting slightly for the feelings that had surged through his veins when he tasted her blood. It was a sweet tangy scent that held all of her emotions mixed in that left a sweet metallic taste in his mouth.
He turned his eyes to Kagome who had her eyes tightly closed and was erratically bringing in air through her mouth as if she couldn’t get enough breathe. Sesshomaru crawled up the bed until he was beside Kagome and slowly brought her hands up to his lips and kissed each one of her knuckles. After what seemed like hours to Kagome she was able to regain her breathe and fell into a fitful sleep from exhaustion. Sesshomaru moved a lock of raven hair from her eyes as he studied Kagome in her sleep; he was slightly surprised when she began talking in her sleep.
Kagome was in a beautiful meadow where small animals were frolicking with each other in a playful manner. She heard a male voice call to her from behind her. She spun around on her heel, when she saw who was standing behind her she stopped breathing feeling as if a ton of bricks were on her chest, shutting her lungs down.
'Kagome’ the man said. He was a tall man with raven black hair and blue gray eyes that were almost identical to Kagome’s.
“Otou?” Kagome began breathing once again as she realized that she was holding her breath. “What? How..”
“Daughter I don’t have long, I will need to return to tengoku” her father stepped closer to Kagome not wanting to frighten her.
“Otou!” Kagome launched herself towards her father and grasped him in a bone-shattering hug as if she would never let go.
“Kagome” he reluctantly pried Kagome’s arms from around his waist.
“I came to tell you something. Kagome you will not try to attempt suicide again. Suicide is the easiest and weakest way from your problems. Your life in the future will be better that you can ever remember, someone will love you, but I cannot reveal that. You are the protector of the Shikon no Tama and it is your duty, your responsibility to restore the Jewel to its original luster. Keep that in mind my daughter and remember that some people that you least expect will love you. I must go now, I love you, always remember that’ her father began fading away as a large gust of wind whipped past her.
“No Otou don’t go, I need to ask you something” she yelled as she tried to grasp his hand that was fading away.
‘Remember what I said, goodbye my Kagome’ his voice floated on the wind until it was carried away into nothingness.
“Bye father” Kagome collapsed to the ground with the wind whipping around her in a typhoon of dust as the wind picked up its speed. She cried for that was the second time that her father had left her without her being able to say what she wanted to.
Kagome awoke from her dream with tears running down her cheeks in silence. She jerked away when she felt a large hand lay on her shoulder trying to pull her towards them. Kagome looked up to see Sesshomaru looking at her with worry in his golden eyes. More tears spilled from her eyes as recent events came back to mind, without caring she pulled herself up against Sesshomaru’s silk clad chest and cried while he whispered soothing words in her ear that she couldn’t decipher through her sadness. Once her tears had stopped flowing she shifted until she was looking up into Sesshomaru’s golden eyes that seemed like pools of liquid at that moment.
“S-Sesshomaru?”
“Shh, I’m here” he pulled her back against his chest.
“Sleep” Sesshomaru commanded as he lay down on the bed with Kagome lying on his chest and pulled the covers up over them. Sesshomaru stayed up the rest of the night watching the woman that had gradually been melting the ice around his heart.
Kagome awoke in the morning to Chie gently shaking her from her sleep.
“Ohayo Chie-sama” Kagome said as she stretched her arms up over her head as she got up from the bed.
“You seem troubled child” Chie said as she began unbandaging Kagome’s arms.
“Did you hear anything last night?” Kagome asked as she turned sad eyes towards Chie.
“Hai child, the whole castle did” Chie quietly said as she applied the same cold substance to her shoulders that she had used just yesterday.
“Oh..” Kagome winced as Chie began removing the bandage from her neck that was stained with small droplets of blood. Kagome sat in silence as Chie finished cleaning her wounds and rebandaging them with clean white cloths. Chie left with the dirty bandages and returned with Kagome some fruit and water on a silver tray. Kagome forced herself to eat not wanting Chie to go tell Sesshomaru that she wasn’t eating and make him punish her again.
‘I’m no use dead’ she thought as she recalled Sesshomaru’s refusal to kill her the other night. When she brought a piece of fruit to her mouth brushing her lips with it she remembered when Sesshomaru had kissed her. She then replaced the fruit with her fingers, tracing her lips as if feeling Sesshomaru’s kiss all over again.
‘You liked it.’
‘So what if I did, he didn’t’ she sneered unladylike at her conscious.
‘Are you sure?’
‘Of course, he said so himself.’
‘Maybe he was lying.’
‘I don’t care, he only sees me as a tool’ tears pooled in her eyes once more.
Meanwhile Chie was trying to bring Kagome from her daze by shaking her shoulder but without result.
‘I will not get Sesshomaru this time, he will only hurt her’ Chie thought as she once again called Kagome’s name.
“Kagome!” Chie said a little more forcefully this time awakening Kagome from her stupor.
“Daijbou? Kagome” Chie sat by Kagome on the bed, as she could smell the unwavering salt water from Kagome's eyes.
“Iie, all I will ever be seen as is a tool that is only good once, then thrown away” Kagome threw herself at Chie and cried uncontrollably in her chest as if it was really her mother that was comforting her.
“Shh child everything will turn out alright in the end, you’ll see” Chie soothed as she continued rubbing her back as she would a small child.
“Arigatou Chie” Kagome said as she pulled back from Chie and wiped her face with a white handkerchief that Chie provided.
“Your welcome Kagome.”
“You said my name” Kagome said shocked.
“Hai, as long as Lord Sesshomaru does not know then everything will be alright” Chie said before pulling Kagome into a hug then exiting the room with Kagome’s empty tray. Kagome sat on the bed smiling that she had made a new friend in such a lonely place. Her thoughts returned once again to Sesshomaru and how he had kissed her so passionately then said that it meant nothing.
‘That was my first kiss’ she thought touching her lips.
‘I knew you liked it.’
‘Not you again.’
‘Yep, it’s me.’
‘What do you want?’ Kagome asked slightly exasperated.
‘For you to admit that you’re starting to like Sesshomaru.’
‘What? There is not way that I will ever like that arrogant, pompous, bastard!’
‘Deep’ her conscious stretched the word.
‘Onegai leave.’
‘Since you said please then I’ll leave…for a while’ her conscious said then snickered at her sigh of annoyance.
Kagome turned once again back to her normal senses and began thinking of her family on the other side of the well.
“Father I will be joining you soon” Kagome sobbed with tears welling up in her eyes. She threw herself on her red silk pillow and cried uncontrollable. She knew that what she was about to do was the most pathetic way to get rid of her pain but if it stopped the pain from flowing through her then she would gladly do it.
Sesshomaru was standing on his large balcony watching his numerous warriors with their sword practice. He sighed inaudibly as the scents of the earth and life swirled around him in an exotic dance of time. As he breathed in deeper he caught the strong scent of salt water and he could also sense a large amount of sadness and grief coming from the room next to his. Curious as to what caused the human he was housing cry he formed his youkai cloud and landed onto her balcony where he opened the door silently and entered her room. His heart lurched in an emotion that he wasn’t familiar with as he saw Kagome streached out on her bed with a pillow tightly clenched in her arms with her nails digging into the thin fabric leaving thin lines of streaked red silk in its wake. Tears were pouring from her eyes like a warm spring day when the rain continued to fall in sheets.
‘You made her that way’ his youkai conscious sneered.
‘I did’ Sesshomaru seemed completely unaware to his conscious as he continued watching Kagome.
‘Apologize to her’ his conscious said in a commanding tone.
'Hnh..’
‘What, the Lord of the western lands not sure?’
‘Leave.’
‘Fine’ his conscious left.
Sesshomaru contemplated on this new feeling that left him feeling sorry and disgusted with himself for seemingly causing Kagome so much pain.
“Father I will be joining you soon” he heard Kagome say. He was shocked as she pulled a thin knife from under another pillow and sat up in the bed with a depressed and determined expression on her face. Her tears continued to fall as she turned her hand palm up and slid the knife across her wrist where blood began pouring from her wound. She repeated the same process with the other wrist as Sesshomaru stood in shock from her attempt at suicide.
After his shock passed Sesshomaru with his youkai speed tore the knife from Kagome’s hand and threw it towards the opposite wall. He turned his attention to Kagome whose wrists were pouring blood profusely. With desperation he brought her wrists up to his lips and licked the blood from them closing the wound in the process with his youkai healing saliva. He leaned back on the bed panting slightly for the feelings that had surged through his veins when he tasted her blood. It was a sweet tangy scent that held all of her emotions mixed in that left a sweet metallic taste in his mouth.
He turned his eyes to Kagome who had her eyes tightly closed and was erratically bringing in air through her mouth as if she couldn’t get enough breathe. Sesshomaru crawled up the bed until he was beside Kagome and slowly brought her hands up to his lips and kissed each one of her knuckles. After what seemed like hours to Kagome she was able to regain her breathe and fell into a fitful sleep from exhaustion. Sesshomaru moved a lock of raven hair from her eyes as he studied Kagome in her sleep; he was slightly surprised when she began talking in her sleep.
Kagome was in a beautiful meadow where small animals were frolicking with each other in a playful manner. She heard a male voice call to her from behind her. She spun around on her heel, when she saw who was standing behind her she stopped breathing feeling as if a ton of bricks were on her chest, shutting her lungs down.
'Kagome’ the man said. He was a tall man with raven black hair and blue gray eyes that were almost identical to Kagome’s.
“Otou?” Kagome began breathing once again as she realized that she was holding her breath. “What? How..”
“Daughter I don’t have long, I will need to return to tengoku” her father stepped closer to Kagome not wanting to frighten her.
“Otou!” Kagome launched herself towards her father and grasped him in a bone-shattering hug as if she would never let go.
“Kagome” he reluctantly pried Kagome’s arms from around his waist.
“I came to tell you something. Kagome you will not try to attempt suicide again. Suicide is the easiest and weakest way from your problems. Your life in the future will be better that you can ever remember, someone will love you, but I cannot reveal that. You are the protector of the Shikon no Tama and it is your duty, your responsibility to restore the Jewel to its original luster. Keep that in mind my daughter and remember that some people that you least expect will love you. I must go now, I love you, always remember that’ her father began fading away as a large gust of wind whipped past her.
“No Otou don’t go, I need to ask you something” she yelled as she tried to grasp his hand that was fading away.
‘Remember what I said, goodbye my Kagome’ his voice floated on the wind until it was carried away into nothingness.
“Bye father” Kagome collapsed to the ground with the wind whipping around her in a typhoon of dust as the wind picked up its speed. She cried for that was the second time that her father had left her without her being able to say what she wanted to.
Kagome awoke from her dream with tears running down her cheeks in silence. She jerked away when she felt a large hand lay on her shoulder trying to pull her towards them. Kagome looked up to see Sesshomaru looking at her with worry in his golden eyes. More tears spilled from her eyes as recent events came back to mind, without caring she pulled herself up against Sesshomaru’s silk clad chest and cried while he whispered soothing words in her ear that she couldn’t decipher through her sadness. Once her tears had stopped flowing she shifted until she was looking up into Sesshomaru’s golden eyes that seemed like pools of liquid at that moment.
“S-Sesshomaru?”
“Shh, I’m here” he pulled her back against his chest.
“Sleep” Sesshomaru commanded as he lay down on the bed with Kagome lying on his chest and pulled the covers up over them. Sesshomaru stayed up the rest of the night watching the woman that had gradually been melting the ice around his heart.