InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ A Sorrow Filled Love ❯ Anger, Sorrow, and Regret ( Chapter 11 )

A/N: Hey guys I'm updating again, I'm glad my last chapter was liked so much. Okay I think I'm going to get this story back on the road and away from Kaede's village for once. I'm going to put some action in here for a while so things between Sango and Inuyasha aren't going to really go anywhere for about two chapter cause I want to keep going with the plot and not have it only focused on what's going on between Sango and Inuyasha that would just be unrealistic. On with the chapter enjoy!

 

Disclaimer: I don't and sadly never will own Inuyasha…*sigh* what a shame.

 

Warning: not much just some attitude on Inuyasha's part, which means some bad language of course.

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Chapter 11: Anger, Sorrow, and Regret (Revised)

 

 

 

`It has been two weeks…two weeks that I haven't felt her soft skin. Two weeks that I haven't felt her heated gaze scorching my skin. Two damn weeks since I haven't gotten 15 feet from her before I went flying.'

“Argh! I can't stand this…it's driving me crazy not being able to get close to her.” Inuyasha said growling in obvious frustration.

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It had been two weeks since Kaede put those beads around Sango's neck. When Sango had gotten back to her full strength, everybody had expected her to take the beads off, before they left to start back on their journey to collect the jewels of the Shikon no Tama, but she hadn't. Even when asked by her companions, she gave no reason or explanation for not taking them off, she just fell quiet with a thoughtful gaze staring at Inuyasha, as if she was asking herself the same question.

There was a hostile air around the traveling group. Everyone tensely awaited the explosion that seemed to hang in the air. Inuyasha walked ahead of the pack as always. His eyes stared straight-ahead, determination lined his features. His ears where flattened to his skull, revealing the discomfort he was in.

Kagome, Miroku, and Shippou all walked together in the middle talking every now and then, but never uttering a word to their two silent companions.

Sango dragged behind the group, Kirara perched on her shoulder. She had a thoughtful expression on her face. She walked straight and proud, her huge weapon strapped to her back and her slayers suit still on. For some reason she refused to take it off. Everyone noticed it was the same one she had worn the night her brother had been killed. The huge tear on the right shoulder was evidence enough. But no matter how hard anyone tried to persuade Sango to change or to at least fix the suit, she wouldn't. It was as if she was trying to hold on to something.

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“When do you think they'll get back to normal?” Kagome asked Miroku glancing back at Sango.

Miroku sighed and lowered his eyes to the passing ground beneath him.

“I don't know, I just wish that they could work things out…I hate this tension in the group…everybody has to walk on eggshells around those two…and I'm getting tired of it.”

“Yea well if you're getting so damn tired of it then either tell her to take those damn beads off of her or get the hell out of our group!” Inuyasha snarled from the front of the group.

Miroku froze and stared at Inuyasha in surprise, but then his violet eyes narrowed and his face took on a cold attribute.

“I don't appreciate you eavesdropping into our conversation; I was not talking to you so keep your comments to yourself.” Miroku said dryly.

Kagome shuddered at the icy tone Miroku had just used and she could sense the coming danger.

“Inuyasha…” She said a warning present in her tone.

Inuyasha huffed and turned back around, walking further ahead.

Sango watched the scene between the rest of her companions, and felt guilty for causing it.

She looked down at the beaded necklace that hung around her neck. Her hands snuck up to the necklace and she fingered each individual bead.

`Why don't I take this thing off?'

She glanced back up at Inuyasha grumpily trudging in front of the group. Her lips curled up into a slight smile, and her eyes sparkled in amusement. But then her lips tuned back down into a frown and her eyes dulled.

`I haven't been close to him for weeks or has it been longer…'

Sango sighed, her eyes staring at the hanyou walking ahead.

`I think I still wear this necklace to stop myself from being drawn to him. What happens if, or when I do take these beads off? I can't face him. I'm scared I'll be to weak too prevent my emotions from taking over my judgment again.'

Sango looked away from him even though she yearned to drink up every bit of him; she refused to let her feelings control her.

`I can't form a bond of any kind with him, no matter how much my soul yearns for it…its just…'

Sango sighed and readjusted her weapon across her back. She looked back up and found that Inuyasha was staring back at her with narrowed eyes.

“Are you gonna keep staring at me, cause it's really starting to tick me off. If you got something to say, say it!”

Sango jerked to a stop. She stared at him in surprise and then she looked down at her feet and started to walk again.

Her fingers still played with the necklace and she looked back down at it.

`Maybe I should take them off…I will never earn respect if I hide behind these beads all of my life.'

Sango lifted her other hand to the beads and was about to lift them above her head but stopped.

She looked back up at Inuyasha and then down at the beads and dropped them back down onto her chest.

`Tonight…I'll talk to him tonight and that's all I'm going to do…just talk.'

She promised herself.

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Soon the sun started on its decent and the world around the group started to darken. Kagome finally insisted that the group stop, and after an exchange of words between Inuyasha and her, she finally got her way and they set up camp in a large clearing nearby.

Sango helped set up the campfire and her bed, and after she was done she started looking for Inuyasha. When she couldn't find him she went over to Kagome who was making dinner at the fire.

“Hey Kagome, Um… do you know where Inuyasha went? I need to talk to him.” Sango asked awkwardly, avoiding Kagome's big brown eyes.

“Um I think I saw him go off in that direction.” She said her hand pointing west.

“He said something about getting some space.”

“Oh okay thanks…I'll be back later, I need to…talk to him.”

Staring at her, Kagome slowly nodded her head after a minute. Then she turned her attention back to the steaming pot in front of her.

Sango turned and headed in the direction Kagome had directed.

She walked slowly thinking about what exactly she wanted to say and how the hanyou would take to it.

`I do have feelings for him…my heart always races when those golden eyes touch mine, my body burns with his every touch… BUT I have to fight these feelings.'

Sango soon reached a small clearing with a steaming pool of water to the far side of the clearing.

Sango saw Inuyasha sitting by the hot spring and she stopped.

She could feel her heart start to speed up and her hands begin to become sweaty. She took a deep breath and was about to take a step closer but then was stopped by Inuyasha's voice.

“Don't come any closer unless you want to send me flying on purpose.” He growled.

Sango winced at his tone and gulped.

She reached up, and gripping the beads in her sweaty hands, she slid the necklace over her head and threw them onto the forest floor.

Inuyasha didn't move a muscle except for his twitching ears.

Sango quickly made her way to his side and sat down next to him.

Inuyasha didn't even glance at her but just kept staring at the full moon above them.

“Inuyasha…” Sango began but was cut off by Inuyasha.

“I stayed by your side…day and night I stayed by your side…I took care of you…I gave you comfort through your nightmares…I can't understand why you push me away… why do you feel threatened by me?”

Inuyasha stared at her with genuine confusion in his eyes.

“I don't know…I came here to tell you that I didn't care for you…to tell you that I could never care for a person like you…I wanted to push you away, as far away as I could get you before hatred set in…but now I realize that I can't…I can't, my heart won't let me…no matter how much I will it, my heart always stops me.”

Sango turned and looked up at the moon.

“But…”

Before she could get another word in edgewise she was caught in Inuyasha's trembling embrace.

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Inuyasha watched as her eyes dance in the moonlight that made her skin glow a creamy white. He could smell her scent and he closed his eyes in pleasure. She was quiet for a while and his urge to hold her grew every passing minute until he could hold back no longer and he pulled her into his lap.

He nuzzled his face into her soft hair and breathed in her scent. He felt her stiffen but then melt into him. He moved his clawed hand to her hair and pulled out the small cloth that held it in place. Sango's long silky tresses fell down her back and he streamed his fingers through it.

`I've yearned to do this for so long…to touch her…to have her in my arms again, to feel her heart beat strongly against mine, to feel her warm body surround me.'

But then Inuyasha's eyes widened in shock and confusion when he felt a sharp pain in his chest and he looked down to see Sango's katana lodged to the hilt in his chest.

Inuyasha looked up into Sango's face and saw her eyes dull and lifeless and saw a cruel smile play across her face.

“Hello Inuyasha”

Inuyasha gaped when he heard His voice come from Sango's throat.

“You bastard what have you done to her!” Inuyasha snarled pulling the sword out of him and stumbling away from Sango's still kneeling body.

“I have accomplished what I wanted tonight.”

Then Sango's eyes steadily became colored with life and she gasped for air. She looked up at Inuyasha and stared in horror at the hole in his chest and her sword lying on the bloodstained grass in front of her.

She stared down at her hands, horrified to see Inuyasha's blood staining them a deep scarlet. Then she looked up just in time to see Inuyasha's golden orbs roll back in his head and him start to fall.

 

 

A/N: Hey guys! That's it for now I hope you liked this chapter. I'll try to update Sunday. Also thanks to all the fans that reviewed my last chapter. See ya!

Sapphire