InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ All That Time Allows ❯ Longing ( Chapter 3 )

All that Time Allows

By mishi

Chapter 3

Longing

 

The next morning everyone was exhausted from lack of sleep, except Shippo. The young fox boy had managed to sleep quite soundly despite Kagome's restlessness. The tension was thick enough to keep Miroku and Sango awake with worry. They were actually up and getting ready to get everyone moving.

 

It occurred to Kagome that Inuyasha really did not sleep much at all. She had seen this in the past, but had never really given it much thought until now. Her mother did warn her that she might feel more sensitive to Inuyasha's presence. Physically her body would start to crave male affection, after all this was the blooming of her womanhood. For the most part she understood, but she was not ready for the affect he was having on her. It was hard enough just wanting him to return her love, but this added more confusion to what her heart had already been trying to tell her. She kept seeing Inuyasha leaning over her as he had been before Kouga showed up. If she managed to get that vision out of her mind she would only start thinking of how he placed his arms around her. Then there was how he licked her tummy the first night she had returned. There really was little room for escape.

 

`Something has to happen soon. I can not keep these thought out of my head. And if I give into them the cramps get worse. My body is going to kill me or I will end up attacking Inuyasha myself.'

 

She tried to think of what this had to be doing to Inuyasha. `He apparently is more dog than he would ever care to admit. That nose of his was just too sensitive for its own good. What if he is really that controlled by his youkai nature? He should be able to tell when I'm afraid. Does that mean he can tell when I am excited? No, how could he?' She looked over at him. He had been quietly watching her, but turned away when their eyes met. `Oh, no…he can!' Her mind screamed.

 

She all but jump out of the sleeping bag then, which startled the still sleeping Shippo. “Hey, what happened?”

 

“We need to get ready to move on, Shippo.”

 

“Why is everyone acting so strange? Is sex really this much trouble? My mom and dad never acted like this.” he insisted, but was ignored simply because no one wanted to go into it at that moment.

 

“Where should we go?” Miroku inquired.

 

“I really would love to have a bath,” Kagome insisted.

 

Inuyasha stood up, “Fine, let's go.”

 

“But where?” she looked at him.

 

“There is a hot spring near that mountain. Then if you want to keep going there is a village not too far from the spring.” He looked to Miroku, “The spring is far enough way from the village that you can leave me in the forest so you can all get some rest.” With that said, he grabbed her backpack and started walking. After a few glance were shot back and forth between the others, they too decided to start walking.

 

****

It took Miroku no time at all to catch up with Inuyasha. He wanted to talk to Inuyasha almost as much as Sango wanted to talk to Kagome. Sango would be keeping Kagome a safe distance back while they talked, and Miroku would try to keep Inuyasha a safe distance ahead. This worked out better then anything they could have planned the night before. Maybe they could help their friends to deal with this since Inuyasha and Kagome were not managing to deal with it well on there own.

 

“InuYasha, why don't you ask Kagome to have sex with you?” Miroku asked calmly.

 

Inuyasha nearly swallowed his tongue. “What?!” He barked as he hit Miroku over the head, which caused then to stop.

 

****

The girls also stopped dead in there tracks. A transformed Kirara, who was carrying Shippo, stopped a small distance behind them. Kirara's job was to keep Shippo amused during this master plan.

 

“Why did Inuyasha just hit Miroku?” She turned to her friend, “I knew something was up when everyone decided to walk in pairs. Sango-chan, what is going on?”

 

“We thought that we could separate you both and talk.”

 

“Talk about what?” Kagome was growing more concerned about the guys now.

 

“We were hopping to figure out a way to...um…to make you both...” She was watching the guys and trying to figure out what to say at the same time. It was just occurring to Sango that maybe this was not the best idea. “It would help if you both get your feelings out in the open, right?”

 

“Miroku is going to explain dating to Inuyasha?” Kagome shot her a disbelieving glance.

 

Sango simply sighed and apologized.

 

****

“Inuyasha, it is clear that you want to. Isn't that way you are both so irritated? You are both in love. You can no longer deny that. Why would you need to?”

 

“Do you ever think of anything else?” He started walking again, “I told you why once already.”

 

“So you are in debt to Kikyou. That is all the more reason that you should not waste the precious time that you have with Kagome.”

 

Inuyasha was actually stunned by what Miroku said. That idea would give his mind something to think about as he walked.

 

“Hey, Miroku,” Inuyasha turned his head to look at him as they walked. “Kagome thinks that Sango likes you. Why don't you stop being such a lecher around her so you can find out?”

 

Miroku's shoulders tightened up and his eyes narrowed, “What do you mean? She doesn't seem to want my attention.”

 

“Feh, that is only because you can't keep your hand off her butt.”

 

“Do you have a better suggestion?”

 

“It was Sango's idea for me to put my arms around Kagome yesterday. Maybe that would be something that she would like you to do to her. Hasn't she told you before that you needed to learn to do something else with that hand?”

 

Miroku hunched his shoulders even more as his right eye started to twich. “Are you enjoying yourself Inuyasha?”

 

“Yes,” he said with a big grin on his face as he looked at the road ahead. After a moment of silence the grin faded. He turn his face back to Miroku and asked, “What's mood?”

 

****

 

“Kagome, do you want to be with Inuyasha. I…I mean…do you want to have sex with him?”

 

Kagome blushed, “ Sango-chan, we haven't even kissed yet!”

 

“Well, would you turn him down if he tried to kiss you?”

 

“Of course not.”

 

“Well, what if you kiss? Would you then?”

 

“Maybe. I don't know what I would do.” She looked down at the bike that she was pushing with a strong impulse to jump on it and make her escape back to the Bone Eaters Well.

 

“Do you want to?” Sango pushed.

 

Kagome took her time before answering. She thought about what it might mean if she were to have sex with Inuyasha. Then she realized that she did not really know what he even thought about sex or what it would mean to him. For her it would mean that she would be with him for the rest of their life. Yes, he did not like how Miroku responded to women, but that did not tell her how his mind really worked. Then there would be Kikyou. How could she expect to be with him as long as Kikyou walked in this world?

 

“I don't know enough to give you an honest answer. I think that I might want to if he ever asked me, but wanting and happening are always complicated things when it comes to Inuyasha.”

 

****

 

At last they were at the spring. Kagome could finally have the bath that she wanted so badly. Sango was more than happy to join her. Inuyasha was contented with the idea of going off alone into the forest for firewood. Miroku only thought was of resting. He chose to stay behind with Shippo, who would make sure that Miroku let he girls have their privacy.

 

It was not much of a surprise that they had discovered a small hut that had been abandoned. You could find several as you wandered the countryside. War and youkai had left many homes empty in this time. It would shelter them for as long as they wanted to stay.

 

“Oh, this water is great.” Kagome said as she sunk into the water.

 

`I really needed this.' She let the water surround her. `I hope that Inuyasha is okay. I need to talk to him, but if he plans to spend the next few days in the forest by himself we will never talk. Maybe he will come to me if I give him time.'

 

“Sango-chan, you asked me if I would have sex with Inuyasha. If Miroku were more serious about it, would you have sex with him?”

 

“What?” She asked, trying not to act embarrassed. “Why would I want to have sex with Miroku?”

 

“You're not in love with him?”

 

“I don't know what you are talking about.”

 

“Sango-chan, you talk about me and Inuyasha. You don't have to lie. You can tell me.”

 

“Miroku is too much of a playboy for me. Beside, he has too many problems with his personality.”

 

“Other then being obsessed with women, I don't think that there is anything wrong with his personality,” Kagome looked at her, “He has some good qualities. He really doesn't like to see a female suffering. He can be brave and very kind.”

 

“He is charming when he wants to be, isn't he?” Sango looked down at the water and tried to fight back a smile. “Miroku would be wonderful if he wasn't such a pervert,” she giggled and splashed Kagome with water.

 

****

 

Inuyasha grumbled as he roamed the forest. The fact that he was so close to the spring would not leave his mind. He wanted to go closer, but fought the idea. He had actually seen Kagome naked twice before. He recalled each both incidences. He thought about how things had changed during the time between first time he had seen her and the second time. Kagome had changed to him. He had changed also.

 

The first time he had seen her naked, it had not meant much to him. They had just met and he could only think of her as Kikyou, whom he had convinced himself that he hated. She was taking a bath in the river near the village. He had been trying to find a good opportunity to swipe a shard from her since she was distracted. Her body was half out of the water by time she had noticed he was there. At that moment he was only looking at another body.

 

As he though of the second time, he stopped walking and closed his eyes. He could see her in his mind as if she were standing in front of him. They had both thought each other to be dead. He was so glad she was alive, his Kagome. The joy of seeing him alive was there in her eyes. That was the face, and the body, that he couldn't get out of his mind.

 

He opened his eyes to realize that he was at the edge of the spring. If he had not stopped walking to think of her, he would have left the cover of the trees and been discovered by the girls. He pushed himself closer to one of the trees. He turned away just a Sango was about to leave the water.

 

“I am ready to return to the camp,” Sango announced as she left the water. “Aren't you coming?”

 

There was little more than an hour left before twilight. After night fall she would have no choice but to be around everyone. Right now she really didn't want to be around anyone. She did not want to do or think about any thing except the relaxing warm water. This was the first relaxing moment she had had in a long time, and she didn't want it to be over so soon.

 

“Inuyasha is in the forest, I am sure if there were any youkai around he has gotten them already.” Kagome sunk even lower into the water, “I just want to set here a bit longer. I promise that I will be in camp before the sun drops blow the trees.”

 

Inuyasha watched Sango leave. It only took him a few moments to decide to step out of the trees. He had to admit that he did not get many chances to be alone with her. `If I'm going to honestly consider Miroku's advice I need this moment. Maybe I can control myself enough to talk.'

 

“Kagome,” he said softly.

 

She was clearly startled, but relaxed when he did not move any closer. She had to force the words to come out of her mouth, “Why are you here Inuyasha?”

 

“I thought that we should talk. I didn't plan on coming to you here, but this is where I ended up.”

 

“I guess this is a good place.” She looked around for a place that she could be closer to the edge of the spring, “I can't get much closer to the edge. It might be hard to keep our voices down.”

 

“Turn around. I will undress and come in.” He started to take his outer kimono off.

 

“Huh?!” She was alarmed now. This was not something she would expect form him. She didn't honestly know how to react.

 

“You should know that I wouldn't hurt you,” he looked so defeated as he said it.

 

As he turned to retreat Kagome rose from the water, “Stop Inuyasha.” He turned back to her and she instantly dropped back into the water. “I will turn around while you undress.”

 

`Oh God, what am I doing?' Her mind was racing. Her heart was pounding. `He is getting undress behind me.'

 

His hands were shaking so bad that he could barely undress. `Get control of yourself. You are only going to talk. It is not like you are going to…' He stopped the thought and stepped into the water. He was trying to move as slowly as he could.

 

“Kagome, you can turn around,” he said as he placed his hand on her shoulder, gently turning her around. He was on his knees in the water now, and he could smell the fear and the excitement coming off her body.

 

Her eyes were closed as tight as she could manage to get them. The fact that he was touching her was not helping her to make up her mind about what she should do. `I can't look at him. He is naked right here in front of me and I have no idea what I want.'

 

He released her and move back, “Kagome, look at me. I can't say what I need to say to you if you don't look at me.”

 

She opened her eyes, and tried to look at everything else around her. He was relieved that she did not know what to do. He was confused himself too, but he couldn't take his eyes of her.

 

“If Kikyou hadn't been returned to this world by that old witch, do you think you would be with me right now?”

 

“I am with you.”

 

“You know what I mean,” he said softly as a touch of red appeared on his cheeks.

 

“Inuyasha?” this was not what she was expecting from him.

 

“I don't know how to tell to you what I want to say. I haven't had any practice with this sort of stuff. I couldn't be like this with anyone else, but you.”

 

“What does sex mean to you, Inuyasha?”

 

For the second time that day, he add nearly swallowed his tongue. “What do you mean?” He was starting to fidget.

 

“Does sex mean that you are with someone forever or is it just something that people do?” She could see that the question was strange for him. “What do you know about sex?”

 

“I haven't…I've seen the animals. I have an idea of what to do,” he insisted as he looked down at the water. The red covered more then his cheeks now. His voice grew soft, “I haven't thought of anyone else this way.”

 

“Not even Kikyou?”

 

“I never got the chance to know her the way I know you. It all happened to fast. Besides, I know that I couldn't have trusted her the way I do you. I've given you more of myself then I could've ever given her.”

 

“I'm glad it means something you. I'm glad I mean that much to you.” She was very relieved and it showed. She let her body relax, which made it less difficult to be naked with him.

 

“My mother only had my father. I mean, as far as I know, she was never with anyone else until she died. I don't know if my father truly loved Sesshomaru's mother. I know that he loved mine. He had the Tetsusaiga made to protect us both from his enemies. Myoga makes it sound like they only wanted each other. I sorta got the feeling that once you mated, it was forever.” He stopped to take a deep breath. He kept his eyes fixed on this finger as it made swirls in the water. “If you want to mate…I would like to have you as my mate.”

 

“You want me to be your wife?”

 

“Yes, I do,” he was puzzled that she had to ask. “You knew that I was attracted to you. Miroku made it sound like I was the only one who didn't know I was in love with you. You honestly thought I would have you any other way. That is why this has all be so difficult.”

 

“You are in love with me?”

 

“Yes, but do you understand that I have to protect Kikyou? Even if it costs me my life. It is not something that I want to do, but I owe her that much. It is not fair of me to ask, but can you live with that?” He reached out to her. He placed his hands on her upper arms as he moved closer to her. Without words he was begging her to understand what he really didn't want to understand himself. Understanding would mean that he would have to face it. He would not be able to run away anymore. Or worse, he could loose Kagome completely.

 

Her silence worried him. He had to make her understand. “Kagome, if Kikyou doesn't belong in this world than I don't either. I was supposed to die a long time ago, but I was given the chance to be here with you. It was your tie to Kikyou that brought you to me. Remember how much I disliked you when we first met? I was afraid of you. Now I am afraid of loosing you. I can't find any other explanation other then we were created for each other. No matter how short the time is. I was made to be here with you. You were made to be here with me. Kikyou had a part in bring us together. How could I not be grateful to her for giving me you?”

 

She was surprised that he had thought about it so much. How could she argue with this after he had put so much thought into it? After all, she had not thought about it that much. She just knew that she wanted to be with him. Nothing else mattered beyond that fact.

 

“If I can accept this then I'm your wife?”

 

“Yes.”

 

“I accept it,” she said softly, looking up into his eyes. “I love you. I told you a long time ago that I want to be here with you. I want to see you smile. If I have to except this to make that possible then I will.”

 

It took a moment to sink in. With his hands still on her shoulders, he pull her forward. “I love you, Kagome.” He brushed his lips back and forth against hers. He was not sure how fast he wanted to move. He had waited so long to kiss her. Her lips felt so nice against his.

 

“You are driving me crazy Inuyasha. Kiss me now or I am going to loose my mind.”

 

He pressed his mouth to hers. On impulse, his lips parted so that his tongue could trace her lips. It tickled her, which made her open her mouth enough for his tongue to slip inside. She raised her body out of the water so that she could press herself against him. His arms slipped around her back. Then he stopped. He had noticed that she automatically crossed her arms over her chest when she lifted herself from the water.

 

“Don't cover up, you don't need to now.”

 

She removed her arms from her chest, but wasn't sure what she wanted to do with them. Suddenly he pulled her up and forward to set on his lap. The sudden movement startled her and she gasped. His mouth went to her right breast. She had let out a moan that was brought on by the surprise of the movement and energy coming off him. She had a moment to wonder why the top of her body was not chilled. The sun was going down. It should have been a little cold. Then a moment to wonder why that thought had even crossed her mind.

 

One of his fangs brushed against her nipple just before his tongue pushed against it. Her fingers were woven into his hair. His fingers were flat against her back as he held her in place. He was not sure of what he was actually doing, but he knew that she liked it. He liked what his instincts were telling him to do to her.

 

She could feel his penis rubbing against her. It was so close to entering her. It was making her crazy. If she were to press her hips forward, he would slide inside her. Her mind went blank and she let out another moan. She tried to cover her mouth to hide the sound.

 

“Stop that!” He stopped long enough to pull her hand away from her mouth. “If you are enjoying this I want to hear you.” Couldn't believe he was so calm about what was happening. Her face was beet red. She didn't say anything about it, instead she did what he asked. She didn't want to do anything that would make him stop what he was doing to her..

 

Then they both heard a gasp that was not coming for either of them. The rest of the gang stood at the edge of the spring staring at them. Suddenly water was flying everywhere.

 

“I see you finally figured out what mood was.” Miroku called out. He was too cheerful for his own good.

 

“Hey, that is not how you take a bath,” Shippo yelled gleefully.

 

“Run,” Inuyasha grawled he scramble to reach his clothes, “Because I am going to kill you all!!!!!!!!!”