InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Betrayal's Gift ❯ Chapter 30
[ Y - Young Adult: Not suitable for readers under 16 ]
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Hotaru was surprised when she saw all the beautiful Kimono's laying in her room the following day. Fingering them she noticed that the texture under her palm was so smooth and silky it was like feeling liquid under her hand. She picked a light pink one up with dark purple dragon flies on it and held it up against her.
“So you like them?”
Hotaru spun around as she was startled by Inuyasha's voice. He pushed himself off the wall and walked toward her and fingered the robe.
“I'm going to have to talk to her; she made yours a hell of a lot better than mine.”
“These…these are for me?”
She held her hand out and stretched it over the others that were laying there neatly folded.
“It's nothing really; I'm just tired of your stink on some of my older clothes.”
Hotaru smiled warmly as she hugged the light pink kimono closed to her body. She already deciphered that he wasn't really getting on to her scent, that in fact he was all gruff talk and didn't mean it. It was just his way.
“Thank you, no one has ever…I mean…”
Than all of a sudden tears started to fall from her eyes. Inuyasha stood there staring at her shocked.
`Why in the seven hells is she crying?'
“I'm sorry Inuyasha…it's just that…I haven't done anything to warrant such an expensive gift let alone all of these…how can I pay it back for you…I don't come close to having any money to repay you with.”
“Keh, it's nothing really, don't think about it. I wasn't going to be traveling with you this spring with you wearing my clothes, nor did I want for you to wear clothes like a slave or concubine, because out there, they won't respect you and as rules go, your fair game if…”
“I know, I know Ino has been teaching me. But still…”
She walked gingerly up to him and placed a chaste kiss on his cheek and looked down immediately blushing.
“Thank you, I don't understand this relationship of prisoner and captor, it's nothing I've read…but…thank you.”
She then gathered some other things to try them on like a little girl whose parents just bought her a whole bunch of back to school clothes; making her way to the adjoining wash room to have her way in the new clothes she called back.
“Don't go anywhere please, I want for you to tell me how some of them look kay?”
With that she really didn't leave him any room to get out of it; however, even if he wanted to leave he couldn't because he was in a daze.
`Kagome never responded like that, she was never so…sweet and Kagome was the sweetest person I've ever known. I don't understand this girl, she is practically…an angel_ I don't know…but, it seems like my plan of seduction is working. Keh, by the time I'm finished with her she'll be going back home and…'
His thoughts were interrupted when she came out with an orange Kimono with cream colored robes underneath. A red obi and white/silver snowflakes speckled across the dress. A couple of dark purple storks stood under the falling snow on the back of the kimono. However, seeing her in such lavish clothing he was awed by her encompassing beauty. With her amethyst colored hair sticks sticking out from her black hair like two jewels in a black velvet blanket he continued to watch her as she twirled slowly before him showing off every curve and fold of her outfit smiling ever so happily.
“So?”
“….”
“It doesn't look right on me huh, well, it's just as well, I've never had something so luxuriant, but thank you.”
“No, you look absolutely beautiful, like a princess.”
Inuyasha said with such awe in his quiet voice. Hotaru blushed a beautiful shade of cherry blossom pink and began to smooth out nervously at the strand of hair that was left out in front of her face.
`In a way she reminds me of my…my mother.'
“I've got some things to do Hotaru, I'll be back later…well…I'm glad you like them. Wear it to dinner alright.”
“You mean I'm not eating in here?”
Inuyasha turned to leave but not without looking back at her one more time smiling that dark roguish smile of his and winked an eye.
“Keh, don't think anything of it, Shippo will escort you down.”
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Miroku sat up in the bed with sweat pouring from his brow. Kagome feeling the man beside her jolt up woke up groggily.
“Miroku is everything alright? Bad dream?”
Miroku shaking looked at Kagome in the dark she turned to look at him and noticed that he was unusually pale.
“Are you sick?”
“Kagome…I…dreamt about what you wrote…the letter…your vision…I think that I finally…I had a bad feeling, a very bad feeling…things are going to get much worse.”
And then he began to weep. Kagome gathered him up in her arms and soothed his back, his neck, shoulders and he sobbed into the crook of her neck.
“I know Miroku…but there is nothing to stop it. This is…this is our punishment, my punishment for hurting those that we loved.”
“But why…”
“I can't answer that which I don't know.”
“There has…has to be something…something Kagome…we can't…I can't…”
Kagome sat back from him and looked him in his tearful lavender eyes. She shook her head in the negative.
“This is our fate Miroku.”
With determination in his eyes he grabbed at her hand.
“No, I refuse to believe that after all this, after all the suffering we have been through that we will not be forgiven. The gods would not be so cruel. No. No Kagome…we will do what we have to do.”
“You forget one thing.”
She looked up at him and held his hands in her small ones now.
“You can't stop what is to happen Miroku.”
They held each other in silence, one wondering how he could use his own knowledge to change the course of events that was going to happen, and the other making peace with her fate.
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“So, tell me Shippo, are you marrying this woman?”
Shippo chuckled.
“Something like that, I guess by mortal standards yes.”
“So she's your life partner, you won't have any concubines or anything like that?”
Shippo smiled rather roguishly.
“Now I can't say that. I take it that all your time here you either still haven't figured how things work or you're just stubborn. It's been at least three months since your residence here.”
Hotaru smiled and cast her jeweled eyes down.
“I don't get it, but I guess I'm a little stubborn too. Please explain this to me once and for all in plain language please.”
“Alright, the girl I'm going to marry she will be my wife, but…she won't be my mate, nor my concubine.”
“What is the difference between wife and mate?”
“Well, the difference is with my mate…well…she will bear my youkai mark and all will know that she is mine til death do us part, however, for a wife, well she will sport a tattoo that states that she belongs to me. I can choose to share her or not.”
“But don't you love her? I mean won't you get mad if someone else had her?”
“Well, I can choose to keep her to myself. I do love her, but…I don't think I care who else wants to sleep with her. Hell, if that person wants to make her his mate, then I'd free her and my tattoo marking will be cleansed from her skin.”
“I still don't see how this is fair or justified to the women here in these times or dimension or whatever this place is.”
Shippo shrugged nonchalantly and responded.
“That's just how it is here.”
Hotaru turned to look at him her eyes sparkling with wanted justice for the women.
“Alright…so, what happens if your mate or whoever wants to choose a lover of their own. I mean, if you're not going to be faithful to her than why should she be faithful to you. You say that it's your choice to share her or not, why should she sit and wait for you to desire her huh?”
Shippo frowned.
“What are you saying exactly?”
“I'm saying what if while you're having sexual intercourse with a concubine or some other female she was getting it on with some other male servant or whatever?”
Shippo shook his head.
“Well, that won't happen, she is female and doesn't have those rights, it's ludicrous, most female youkai would be punished severely though I don't believe in the practice of beating them or torturing them well, I can demote her to slave and than she can have anyone she chooses once I sell her.”
Hotaru opened her mouth in shock.
“Your…you must be…Oh god please let me go home soon to civilization and female rights!"
Shippo frowned at her now. He didn't wish to have Kagome's daughter upset with him, it's just that living amongst the youkai and learning how they work, well, as a youkai he needed to conform to that way of life. When he lived with humans, no he should say when he was with Kagome, he learned to be considerate of the female emotion, and even though he was sympathetic to their feelings, he was still a male youkai and needed to act as such.
“I really don't understand why you are so upset Hotaru, I mean, human males do the same thing in other parts of the world. In the desert lands of the Middle East they believe in harems full of women that only the one man can touch, in Europe they have plenty of concubines they call mistresses. And those are mortal men.”
“Well, in my time in free countries, if a man wants to sleep around his woman can do the same and the men and the woman are equal in that sense.”
“Well you're from the future…and besides any youkai with enough sense would mate you and only you because you're worth it including myself.”
Hotaru looked at him, his green eyes showing honesty. She shook her head and laughed nervously.
“Well, I would have to turn you down Shippo, I want a one woman man. Call me selfish or whatever but I don't think I could share what I think is mine.”
“I would give them all up and be the man you wanted if you so wanted Hotaru, you're a rare gem.”
Hotaru stopped walking and looked at him blushing.
“Did I say something wrong?”
“I don't want…I mean…don't get me wrong…but…”
Shippo laughed. Though his pride at the moment was crushed he loved her in a platonic way.
“Keh, don't worry, I was just kidding. You're more like a sister to me in a weird way. You remind me of a mortal woman I knew a long time ago.”
“Oh Shippo I didn't mean…I mean…I…really…I am not interested in anybody.”
Shippo turned to look at her a dark auburn red brow raised.
“Not even Inuyasha?”
Hotaru blushed deeper and began to twirl her hair between her fingers.
“It's not like that. I'm his prisoner that is all.”
Shippo smiled half heartedly. He knew what Inuyasha was up too and he could tell that she was starting to like him. She still didn't trust him, but, he could smell the confusion floating off of her. To change the subject he decided to make a joke and she laughed.
Inuyasha was sitting down at the head of his table speaking with some of the youkai there. He was talking to the new bride albeit bored with her when he looked up. He already had the scent of Hotaru tickling his senses. When he saw her smiling on Shippo's arm something in him stirred and he growled low. The female sitting beside him looked in his direction and than back at her husband to be and noticed the beautiful mortal woman on his arm. Than she looked back at her current master and smiled sheepishly.
Hotaru was wearing a lavender Kimono with silver butterflies sewn into it fluttering in a delicate way over her curves. She wore a silver robe underneath and a dark purple obi with red ruby leaves floating on it. She wore amethyst drop earrings and red ruby sticks in her hair. When she looked up at Inuyasha and smiled his heart had missed a beat he was sure of it. He stood up and motioned for Hotaru to sit by him as Shippo bowed low and took his seat by his new bride.
Deva nearly ruffled her feathers with envy dripping from her. She picked up the drink bottle and put it on a tray along with some of the other cups to pass out to the people sitting at the table.
`How dare she come down here dressed as a princess! I mean look at those clothes, those clothes are like royalty.'
Inuyasha stood and took Hotaru's hand and helped her to sit down beside him on the cushioned floor. He introduced her to some of the people that sat at the table. She knew some of them already Ino being one that was the closest of being her friend.
They ate some appetizers and drank some light rice wine when the tattooing ceremony was to begin. Shippo stood up and helped his wife up and chanted a dialect in a language that Hotaru couldn't recognize. Ino offered to tell her what was happening. Though he was speaking in a different tongue Hotaru was mesmerized by the magic of it all. There was no other word she could use. Swirls of color floated above them as he took a quill and began to break her skin on the back of her shoulder. The colors filled the pen and he began to draw his tattoo marking her as his property and no longer Inuyasha's slave.
Ino informed Hotaru that because she was his wife only that this marked her as his, but that if he were to make her his mate he would proceed in biting her between the junction of her neck and shoulder blade where a special mark would appear in youkai that would forever link them til death did them part.
“With this type of marking, she is now known as his property and that she is no longer a slave, but a free woman so to speak. Lord Inuyasha would sign a paper stating that she is no longer to be a slave.”
“This is all so…so…different.” Hotaru said in opened mouth wonder.
Inuyasha looked at Hotaru and wondered what was filtering through her mind.
`Would she accept these ways? Keh, what the hell am I thinking, it doesn't matter if she accepts them or not, I'm going to get my revenge and then be done with it all, be done with her.'
However, his youkai began to growl at him mentally.
“Your lying to yourself you know.”
`Oh shut the hell up what do you know?'
“Suit yourself.”
Inuyasha looked over at Hotaru again after signing the papers and saw her curious look across the table at the new bride.
“Surprised that she's happy?”
“Excuse me?”
“You're looking at the bride and wondering why she's so happy.”
Hotaru blushed is she that transparent.
“I don't get it; I don't think I would be. If I were his wife…I'd demand that…”
“Demand what? That you be the only one in his life? Keh, come on, she has been upgraded to free woman; she is no longer a slave. The only one she has to cater to now is Shippo and their child.”
“And how do you call that free? She is still a slave to him and if he gets a mate, well than she would have to cater to her too, so how is her status any different?”
At this time Deva and Faye come out with dishes and served them to the party. As they sat the plates down and everyone was eating some of the male youkai already having had plenty to drink started to grope and massage the females body parts and Hotaru blushed when she spied it. Immediately she looked down at her food and began to eat hurriedly.
Deva smiles at Hotaru's obvious discomfort and pulls out of the youkai's lap.
“Now now Hiroshi be a good boy. Don't you see I'm working?”
He smiled handsomely and licked his lips at her.
“You'll see me tonight right?”
Deva walked up to Inuyasha and poured him some more of the sweet liquor. Encircling her arms around him to do so she pressed her chest against his back and looking at the other youkai said:
“Well, that depends if my master doesn't need me.”
Inuyasha smiled and patted the female on her backside as she continued down the table refreshing drinks.
`Who the hell does she think she is? Oh god what am I saying, she's his concubine, slave whatever. And look at him sitting there smiling and enjoying her slutty attention, my god, didn't he even see her practically having sex with that guy over there?'
Hotaru was sitting there getting red in the face. She was getting upset and she didn't understand why.
Inuyasha felt her waves of anger and took a look at her. Had he not known who she was he would have sworn it was Kagome sitting beside him ready to sit him.
`God she could look like her mother at times. What the hell is she so mad about?'
Hotaru sat there and began to pick at her food that was placed in front of her and drank a considerable amount of the sake poured to her. Soon Inuyasha found that every time Deva came up to him and flirted she would get upset, and when he realized that he would've kicked himself for his own stupidity. She's mortal and from the future of coarse she wouldn't take so kindly to some flirting between concubine and master.
Deva sat herself on his lap and smiled giving Hotaru an evil black eye as her juicy red ruby lips puckered into a kiss for her master. Inuyasha removed her from his person and scowled at her. Hotaru turned the other way and nearly chocked on her food when she saw two youkai mating in a corner of the room. Inuyasha turned to see her turning shades of purple and patted her back.
“Are you alright Hotaru?”
Coughing she responded.
“Yes, I'm just…well…I'm just getting tired.”
Deva being peeved at having Inuyasha remove her from his person snidely retorted.
“Oh poor thing, embarrassed by a playful romp?”
Hotaru blushed but she looked the female youkai in the eye. She was tired of this particular person getting in her face all evening and was ready to put her in her place.
“Embarrassed yes, because I find myself to believe that that behavior is for two people to do in privacy. So, excuse me if I find myself affronted by such whorish conduct.”
Deva hissed. She wanted for the life of her to peck this mortal wenches eyes out and eat her wagging tongue.
“Lady Hotaru is what you call yourself? Well, a whore is a whore whether it be in privacy or not, so stop acting like your so proper, when really your no better than one of us `whores', rumor has it that you were pregnant and lost your child, now tell me, where is your mate? Oh, you don't have one do you?”
Inuyasha seeing the hurt that cut across Hotaru's face smacked Deva in the mouth causing blood to trickle. He was about to strike again when Hotaru stayed his arm. Everything in the room stopped and feeling that all eyes were on them Hotaru whispered.
“Don't Inuyasha, I shouldn't have judged her, this is not my place…I…I'm going to go back to the room now…I'm sorry.”
Than looking up at the frown on the new bride face obviously being offended by what she had said, because there must've been countless times she had to romp around in front of every one and the worried expression Shippo had on his face she hurriedly found her way to the portal that led to the eating chamber and she made her way to the room.
Faye watched as the girl ran up the stairs and felt pity for her. She knew she was supposed to follow Deva's plans but, sometimes her mind fluttered with other thoughts and because of her nature she just couldn't stand to see someone hurt.
She followed after the girl and found Hotaru crying in the hallway.
“Oh, don't worry about Deva. She is well…she is a very jealous person. She only wishes to become Inuyasha's mate. You know…she said that once she becomes his mate, she'll make sure that I become his wife and then the two of us will live like queens.”
The butterfly youkai sat on the floor next to Hotaru. Hotaru looked up and smiled weakly at her.
“I'm afraid that I offended Shippo's new bride, I'm afraid I offended everyone in there who…who had to…well…you know.”
“Have sex? Psft, it's not that bad and in fact I love it. I get it where I can and who I can. I mean god some of these men sure know how to work it. And master Inuyasha well; whew I don't blame Deva for wanting to be his mate.”
“It doesn't bother you that he sleeps with other women?”
“Why should it? He is my master and I'm treated good here. I'm not being whipped and I don't have to have sex with a slimy slug youkai; ever been with one of them?”
Hotaru looked shocked and bit grossed out.
“No.”
“Ah, you wouldn't want too, it's gross.”
“I could only imagine… My name is Hotaru and I'm sorry for what I said.”
“Hi I'm Faye and don't worry that pretty noggin of yours ok.”
They both sat quiet for a minute before Hotaru shyly spoke.
“Do you like your position?”
“What do you mean?”
“Your status, a slave don't you want to be free?”
Faye thought about it and smiled wistfully.
“Let me tell you something mortal. From what I noticed here no woman is truly free, whether she be a slave, concubine, wife, mate or whatever. Whether she be mortal or youkai a woman has a certain place among men. Men are the rulers and the women stand by. Men go off to war and women stay home waiting for their return with children. Women raise and care for the children and home and could be abused by their mates or cherished, but whatever situation she has, it's up to her owner to make all major decisions good or bad and she has to live with them. I don't know where you come from, or how women are treated there but honestly tell me is there a big difference?”
“No, I guess your right. Even though we have what is called equality, I guess it isn't all that equal. A man can still take dominion over a woman against her will…I'm really sorry I called you and your friends whores. I really didn't mean that, I was just mad at that girl for throwing herself so shamefully at Inuyasha after only flirting with the other men at the table…I don't know where it all came from.”
Faye looked at Hotaru with her head cocked to one side.
“You know, if I were in the room all the time with my master and he's a good looking master, I would fall in love too.”
“What do you mean fall in love…I don't love Inuyasha.”
Faye all of a sudden squealed while her pink eyes flashed with high school girl mischief.
“You love Inuyasha? Wow, don't let him hear you say that, the last girl who said she loved him he sold.”
“I didn't say that I was…”
“Oh, it's so obvious, well, I gotta go and do my whorish thing now, you know go and entertain the men, ooh how I love me some good romping, you should try it sometime, it makes you feel….free for when you close your eyes…your in control, they wanted you and you rule their world for just a few hours or moments.”
And with that she fluttered off all her wisdom seemed to have vanished as her innocent humming echoed through the halls.
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Inuyasha opened the door and found Hotaru sitting in front of the fire place he had in his room. Her hair was combed out and sitting behind her as the ends of her hair was lying on the cushion.
“Hotaru I…”
“No, please don't…I was wrong. I should have never…never insulted that woman. She was doing her job; it's not her fault she's in that condition.”
“Keh, so what are you saying it's mine?”
“Well, it's not my place to say now is it? Besides, men control everything and women have to stand back and except it. In every walk of life, in every country, being it free or not women are the weaker sex and men just take advantage of that.”
“What are you all upset about now, are you mad at me or the whole damn male population?”
Hotaru sighed who was she going to be mad at? It's just how things are.
“Well wench?”
“No, I'm not mad at anyone, I'm just mad that…it's all unfair. If a woman cheated on a man, lets say for example you…if a woman cheated on you, you'd hate her forever, sell her, kill her exact some kind of revenge, but look, by your society alone you can have any female you want to because your male and you're a lord, what rights does a woman have? Basically, you have to be a slave in a good slave owner's home to have the freedom to have sex with anyone you want because your owner is having sex with your best friend or something. Faye is right there is no equality.”
“Hey, don't think like that, when an Inu youkai mates he mates for life that one person. All the rest well…they can continue to be slaves but an Inu youkai wouldn't touch them anymore.”
Hotaru looked at him anger flashing in her eyes.
“And you expect me to believe that? Whatever, dogs go with any bitch in heat. The only canine that I know to be faithful is the wolf.”
“Hey, you're looking at the animal, not the youkai. Wolf youkai and dog youkai hold the same standards when mating.”
“Oh, alright, then explain this. Shippo took a wife, what if he mates, what happens to the female he just tattooed?”
“That's different, it would be his choice to either keep them both or give her to another who can be her husband.”
“That's absurd! What if she loves him?”
“What is love exactly? The last time a female told me she loved me she was fucking with someone else, so who the hell cares about love?!”
Inuyasha was in her face now and breathing heavy his eyes were molten gold with the fire light dancing in them. Hotaru looked him straight in the eye and just as heatedly she shot out at him.
“Your right, what is love, for I don't believe in it either. The last person who said they loved me raped me. The last person who said they loved me died, the last person who said they loved me slept around with whores and the last person who said they loved me tried to purify me, so what is love?”
Hotaru looked down and with tears brimming her eyes she said.
“I don't know why I keep searching for this `love', or keep hoping in this `love' for it isn't eternal, it isn't all things, it doesn't…stay. I wish I could just…I don't even know what I want anymore. I just wanted someone to love me for me.”
Inuyasha sat next to her and looked in the fire. He remembered when he was in this same state of mind, years ago when he found Kikyo, years ago when he learned to trust again with Kagome.
“Love hurts.”
“Well how do we make it stop hurting?”
Inuyasha looked into her eyes and saw his own raw emotions looking back at him. He pushed a tear away from her eye and gently kissed her mouth.
“I don't know. I've been trying to figure that out myself.”
He kissed her again more passionately this time drawing her head closer to his, pulling her body closer to his and she couldn't help but encircle her arms around his neck.
“Make my pain stop Inuyasha, make it all end. I'm so tired of being alone.”
“So am I Hotaru.”
They kissed again and this time Inuyasha ran a smooth hand up her neck and into her robes pulling one shoulder down and kissed on the silkiness of her bare skin. Pushing the material down further he grabbed one perky nipple into his mouth as his other hand cradled her head that was falling back in pleasure.
Biting softly he heard her moan and licked his way up to capture her mouth. His other hand than sought the heat between her legs and circled the wetness there until she nearly screamed.
Laying her face down now on the fur rug that was beneath them and propping the pillow under her hips he continued to examine her body. He couldn't help what her aroma was doing to him.
Hotaru didn't know what she was doing, or why she was allowing him to do this to her, but, she was tired of fighting, she was tired of being alone and he was making her forget that last bit with his kisses and his touches. She barely noticed him turning her over and kissing the back of her neck or lifting her hips up. All she knew was that the sensations that he poured on her were mind numbing up until…
“Hotaru let me…let me make love too you.”
Hotaru opened her eyes and then realized what position she was in and felt the velvet tip of his head against her puckered core and then she began to panic. She froze beneath him not breathing as flashbacks hit her hard, flash backs of pain in a car, flash backs of utter embarrassment the next day at school and she noticed that he wasn't moving. Her heart was beating madly within her body.
He didn't move because he smelt the change in her mood. Confused he said quietly, “Hotaru?”
She began to cry and started to shake her head as she bucked under him fighting madly to get away.
“Please no, please get up…don't…no…please…don't…don't…no… ;not again…not like that…no…no…no…”
Immediately he got off her and scooped her in his arms and began to rock her as he smoothed out her hair and whispered words incoherent into her ears. It seemed like an hour passed until she stopped chanting her mantra to calm her nerves and fell asleep still shaking involuntarily.
His heart was hammering in his ears; he was upset that his plan of seduction didn't work. `Damn it all to hell, she must've been raped in that position. I'll kill him if I see that damn bastard. I'll kill him for hurting you Hotaru.'
He covered her up and placed her in the bed and held her close to his body, hoping that she would sense him near and know that she was safe. While his mind sought out ways to make her over come her fear of intimacy.
`There has to be a way to make her come to me, I have to have her love me in order for me to exact my revenge, but damn it how?'
He felt her shift beneath him and place her ebony head against the side of his chest. She was in fetal position
Meanwhile….
Out in the white snow under the moonlight a huge white owl was pecking at it's prey mercilessly and when nothing was left but bones only then did the owl transform back into it's humanoid form.
Deva licking her ruby red lips smiled evilly and made sure that the snow washed away any of her scent that lingered on the body. She sauntered her way back into the castle for she had a plan and it was bound to work, she was a wise owl after all.