InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Broken Dreams ❯ Dream On ( Chapter 15 )

Broken Dreams

 

Chapter 15

 

Dream On

 

“Do you feel me Kagome?” Kouga growled, sucking on her lower lip. Kagome kept her eyes clenched shut and didn't answer as Kouga's thrusts became harder. Kagome wrapped her arms around his shoulders and dug her fingernails into his back.

 

“Look at me,” Kouga whispered, releasing her lip so he could speak. Kagome whimpered as he slowed down slightly, the fire in her lower body flaring at the loss. Kagome did her best to open her eyes and watch the lustful youkai above her. Kouga stared back at her, his eyes gleaming, as he withdrew and finally slammed himself to the hilt within her. Kagome's eyes and mouth flew open as the pressure snapped. She threw her head back and screamed, the sound muffled by Kouga's proud howl before he slumped on top of her.

 

Kagome gasped for breath as Kouga licked and suckled her neck out of her view. His fangs slid over his mark, drawing a few drops of crimson blood that he eagerly lapped up.

 

“Kagome,” he muttered. Kagome's half-lidded eyes shot open again as Kouga's voice became choked with despair. Kagome opened and closed her mouth, trying to find the power to speak, as Kouga lifted his head to stare at her. His eyes had shifted to all-too familiar honey gold. Kagome felt warm tears begin to slide over her cheeks. “How could you?” Kouga asked, as his hair lightened to white, then silver. Kagome shook her head.

 

“Please, I didn't want to…” She pleaded. She reached for the man she loved, and her hand went right through his cheek as the hanyou above her turned to smoke. The same accusing question ran through her mind as he left her- again.

 

“INUYASHA!!!!” Kagome wailed.

 

- - - - - - - - - - -

 

Kagome's eyes snapped open, and she bolted out of bed. She stopped when she realized she wasn't in a forest clearing with her friends, or in Youkai's cave. She blinked and turned to see a stunned young man staring at her. Four bangs fell over either side of his face, and the rest of his black hair was pulling into a ponytail.

 

“Are you alright?” the man asked. Kagome nodded.

 

“Where am I?” she asked. The man bowed and smiled at her.

 

“You are in the home of my father Yoshi, headmaster of our village. I am his son Yoko,” he offered. “You were brought here for rest upon the arrival of the youkai.”

 

“Youkai?” Kagome asked, perking up. “He's here.”

 

“Yes. He has gone to see the farmers now, and he expects to return soon, if you wish to wait for him,” Yoko offered. Kagome bit her lip. She looked out the doorway of the rather large hut and looked for the fields. They weren't too far away, but it would take ten minutes or so to reach them. And there appeared to be several fields that Youkai had to visit.

 

“Actually…” Kagome said, drawing her head back in and glancing at Yoko. “I need your help.” Yoko bowed again.

 

“I will do what I can. What can I do to assist you?” he asked.

 

“Do you know the monk Youkai visits when he comes here?' Kagome replied. Yoko nodded and smiled.

 

“I do indeed. The monk Toga is widely revered as one of the greatest monks of the times. He often gives powerful wards to travelers as protection. Why do you ask?” Kagome bit her lip. With a resume like that, telling poor Yoko that the monk was a fraud wasn't as easy as it had been a moment ago.

 

“I need to speak with him,” Kagome said. “Could you get him for me?” Yoko nodded eagerly and smiled again.

 

“But of course. I shall be back shortly.” Yoko stepped past her and jogged down the path into the rest of the village. Kagome watched him go. In her mind's ear, a shrill howl of loss and betrayal still rang. A pair of hurt, golden eyes still stared at her. A pair of claws dug into their palms, drawing blood.

 

Kagome grabbed the sides of her head and shook forcefully. She hated thinking about those dreams. The dreams varied in detail, but the main theme was always the same; if Inuyasha were alive somewhere out there, he wouldn't give a damn about her anymore.

 

Why would he? As far as Kagome knew, Kikyo was still alive. If she had died, Kagome was pretty sure that she'd get the rest of her soul back, and so far, there was nothing. With her undead predecessor alive and well - so to speak - why would Inuyasha want her? He had a beautiful, older, stronger woman he could have. Why risk Kouga's wrath for her?

 

She was ruined. She had been taken. She had a mate, and a powerful one that, in the end, had ultimately overpowered the hanyou and won her for himself. Kouga had taken her mental and physical innocence, and her spirit ripped to shreds as a direct result. She wouldn't be worth the trouble for Inuyasha to save now. Kikyo had been superior to her before, but now…

 

What did Kagome have to offer the hanyou if he was alive anyway? Certainly not her body; Kouga had that on a nightly basis. Not her life; She was bound to Kouga. Her unconditional love? Why would he want her love now? She had promised to always be beside him. She couldn't keep that promise now, she had a mate. In youkai terms, she was married. She had nothing to give now that was hers anymore. She belonged to Kouga is the most intimate of ways. No matter how different her dreams may have been, she was Kouga's.

 

Those dreams were wishful thinking, but they were also partly true. She had betrayed Inuyasha. That hurt in his eyes when he was her with Kouga haunted her ever since her first dream of the hanyou seeing what she had become. She had slept with his archrival within days of his death. She gave herself to him countless times over three years. She had had more sex then some people have in their entire lives. She was the lowest form of whore imaginable.

 

Kouga had seduced her, used her. He drove her to pleasure, sought his own from her, and howled his climax to the sky with her screaming in unison. And she had let it happen. She had allowed a man she hated, a man who had ripped her family and love from her, to make love to her. No. Making love was too gentle a term to use with what Kouga had did to her. What Kouga did was destroy her from the inside out. Kagome's dreams may have had some truth to them, but were for the most part a farce. Kagome's dream had her being saved from Kouga's lusts. That was never going to happen. Kagome wasn't worth saving anymore.