InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Can't Stay Away ❯ Chapter 12 - Suffering ( Chapter 12 )

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Chapter 12 – Suffering


A/N: I just got engaged!


Kagome woke the next morning feeling as if she was hit by a truck. Her body ached. She had spent the night crying and curling into a ball. She felt devastated, like she had lost a family member. She was mourning her relationship with Inuyasha.
She tried getting out of bed and just couldn't make herself get up. She sat on the bed numerous times, to only lay again and cry a little more. She thought she would dry up from all the tears.
I know I shouldn't be suffering like this. I was never the kind of girl who suffered for someone who doesn't give a shit about me. I'm smarteR than that. Why can't I at least get out of bed?
After spending the whole day in and out of the bed, only to use the bathroom and drink some water, she decided tomorrow she would push herself to go out and look for another job.

Inuyasha kept thinking about their moments together. What did I miss? Where were the signs that she was a lying whore? No, I can't even call her that in my thoughts, I can't grasp my mind around the fact she's a lying whore. But I know, for certain, what she didÉ I need to stop thinking about her as an innocent. She's everything but.

He would go to work early in the morning and left as late as he could. He was angrier and more irritated than ever and none of his employees dared to speak with him. They would only abide to his commands and bring something up when it was absolutely necessary. His friends, mostly Miroku, were worried about his physical and mental health. One day, about two weeks after his breakup with Kagome, Miroku decided to confront his friend.

"Inuyasha, do you have a minute?", Miroku said, while knocking on the door.
"What do you want?", Inuyasha said without taking his eyes off the computer screen.
"Well, you see, I'm kinda worried about you. We all are. We know you're going through a difficult time, butÉ"
"I'M FINE! NOTHING IS 'DIFFICULT' FOR ME! I'M OVER THAT BITCH! DON'T YOU DARE BRING HER UP! SHE'S GONE!", Inuyasha shouted.
"I'm sorry Inuyasha, but I have to disagree. I know you cared about her andÉ"
"YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT I FEEL OR FELT ABOUT HER! AND IT DOESN'T MATTER! SHE'S A LYING BITCH AND SHE'S OUT OF MY LIFE! IF YOU DON'T WANT THAT TO HAPPEN TO YOU TOO I SUGGEST YOU GET THE HELL OUT OF MY OFFICE RIGHT NOW!"

Miroku decided it was still too early to talk about Kagome and everything that happened, so he left. When he got out of Inuyasha's office, Keiko and the others who were around stared at him, scared.
"Miroku, that was nice of you to try and talk to him, but now I'm even more worried", Keiko, the secretary, whispered. "I feel like someone should do something. He can't go on like that. He doesn't talk, doesn't eatÉ all I see him drinking is scotch, all day, everyday", she continued, with a concerned look.
"Keiko, I know, I'm very worried about him too. But I don't think there's anything to do now. We just have to trust his good sense, if he has one, and wait it out. He's a grown man, and an old one, he should be fine, eventually", Miroku said with a small smile.

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After a month, Kagome had found a new job and was almost functioning normally. She managed to get out of bed everyday, eat breakfast, drive to work, stay there for as long as she had to, drive home, eat dinner and go to sleep.
Her family was worried. She seemed like a robot. She looked nothing like the old, happy, cheerful, feisty Kagome. Her mother tried her best to lift her spirit. Her brother tried convincing her to go out with him, to see a movie or even take a walk. Her grandfather talked to her about purifying "that evil demon". Sango offered to get her some blind dates.
Kagome was also trying her best to get better, but she just couldn't. Her mind would always drift off to Inuyasha. She wondered what he was doing, how he was, if he had got over her already. He probably did, especially because we didn't have sex during our relationship. He's probably fucking a different bimbo every night. Or maybe he's already in another relationship. God, I miss him. But I don't want to know anything about him, it's better to just stay awayÉ but at the same time I want to know how he's doing. Maybe if I hear he's doing great will make it easier for me to move on.

"Hey Kagome! I'm so happy to hear from you!", Sango said after picking up her friend's call.
"Hey Sango. I'm sorry I haven't been a good friend lately. I just needed time to get back on my feet, literally".
"That's okay, no need to apologize. I know that you've been going through some tough times. These things take a while to heal. But I hope you are doing a little bit better?"
"Yeah, I guess I am. I've got a new job, so I just try my best to keep my mind occupied. If it wasn't for the nights, when I get home and have time to thinkÉ", Kagome said, with a sigh.
"Oh Kagome, I'm so sorry. You don't deserve this. He's a bastard. He should've treated you better, you know that, right?"
"I guess you're right, but you know I cared a lot about himÉ it's difficult moving on and getting angry. I'm just sad. Speaking of angry, I think you could help me with that".
"What?! How?!", Sango asked, surprised.
"Well, I think I would feel better if I was angrier at him. If you could tell me how he's doing, and I know he's much better than me, maybe that would give me an energy boost, something to make me want, even more, to get better".
"Kagome, IÉ all I hear from Miroku is how awful Inuyasha is."
"W-what?", Kagome said, startled.
"Yes. He stays at the office for about 15, 16 hours a day. He doesn't eat, he's drinking way too much, he doesn't speak with anyoneÉ he's a mess, basically".
"Oh my GodÉ then why? Why did he do that to me? I thought that's what he wanted, to get rid of me, so he could forget about me and move on. IÉ I feel bad hearing that, even though he's the only one to blameÉ Sango, why isn't anyone doing something about this?"
"They tried everything, Kagome. He doesn't wanna hear it. He gets so angry whenever someone brings up your name. Even Sesshoumaru went by his office to try and get him to go to lunch. His father is always calling, but Inuyasha won't even pick up the phone. His mom goes there almost everyday, but he refuses to talk about it with her as wellÉ she leaves the office crying. They are all worried, but there's really nothing to do. Just wait". Sango didn't want to tell that to Kagome. She didn't need to know the person she cared about but who also made her suffer was a wreck. But she asked and she was always honest with Kagome.
"SangoÉ should I try to talk to him? Maybe he would listen to me nowÉ", Kagome wondered.
"I don't know, KagomeÉ I really don't know if that's a good idea. But I think it would be better if you waited a little longer. He's still very angry".
"You're probably rightÉ ok, I'll wait. But I do wanna talk to him, see himÉ even if it's just to try and make him feel a little betterÉ God, why do I even care?"
"Because he was special to youÉ you liked him more than any other guy you dated. I can see that", Sango said.
"You're rightÉ okay, I have to go to bed. Thanks for being honest with me, Sango. You're a good friend", Kagome said, smiling.
"Anytime, sweety", Sango said.

Kagome didn't like what she heard. She was feeling worst. She wanted to see and talk to Inuyasha more than ever. But she knew Sango was right. She had to wait.

Inuyasha dreaded going home. Even though her scent was gone, the place brought too many memories. He thought about moving, but he still wasn't ready to let go. To let her go. Why can't I just forget about her? She's an awful person, she betrayed me!

After getting home one night, he decided enough was enough. He had to do something. He picked up the phone and dialed a number.