InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Can't Stay Away ❯ Chapter 17 - Time ( Chapter 17 )

[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]

A/N: Hello again, dear readers! I hope you like this chapter. It was written before the first one and so was the next one. Yes, the next one is ready AND it will be good, trust me. So tell me what you think so far and I might update sooner rather than later *evil grin*. Toodles.
Inuyasha was desolated. He felt like the stupidest person to walk the Earth. He thought he was the one who had been betrayed, but he was the one who betrayed. And it wasn't because of his cheating. He betrayed Kagome's trust and that was something he wasn't going to get back anytime soon. Or at all.
He was now certain it wasn't Kagome who had done it. He could see it in her eyes. He should've asked her as soon as he heard about the magazine, he would have seen it wasn't her then. But no, he had to trust everybody else but her. He had to put his feelings first, not hers. He was an ass.
At the same time, he was crushed to see her with Kouga. She really seemed to have moved on now. She seemed to care a lot about Kouga and, as much as it pained him to admit it, Kouga appeared to be good to her. Something he wasn't.
One day, sitting in his office, thinking that maybe he should just let her be happy, he heard his door knock. He answered unenthusiastically and saw Kikyo's fake smile appear behind the door.  

"Hi, Inuyasha".

Kikyo walked in, with the same fake smile upon her face. What the hell is she doing here? Before he could ask her, she started talking.

"I know this seems a little out of the blue, butÉ I'd like for us to go out again, to talk. What do you think? Care to have lunch?"
Inuyasha gasped. "Uh, sure."

They walked to a nearby restaurant and Kikyo started talking as soon as they sat down.

"Inuyasha, how are you doing? Are you still hurting because of thatÉ woman?", Kikyo said.
"IÉ I think so", he said, not wanting to tell her about the recent developments regarding Kagome.
Kikyo sighed. "I feared so. Listen, why don't we start seeing each other again? Maybe it will help you move onÉ", Kikyo said, trying not too sound so cheap.
Inuyasha stayed silent, staring at the table in shock and Kikyo continued.
"I know you think you cared for the girl and you are upset right now. I just came by to let you know that I realized I should've fought for you. I always knew she was a little slut who was only after your money and power. I could see right through her. And when thisÉ scandal happened, I thought 'maybe it's for the best', because now, before it was too late, you know who she is".
Inuyasha tried very hard not to snap and tell her she was wrong, but he couldn't hold it back much longer. "KikyoÉ it wasn't Kagome. Besides, didn't you have a boyfriend?".
"What?! Of course it was! Didn't you read the interview? You were mad at her before! And yes, I did, we broke up", she said desperately, although the last part was said with a wave of her hand.
"Kikyo, you don't know what you're talking about", he said, trying his best to remain calm. "I found out she didn't do it. But she's moved on, she doesn't want anything to do with me, so that's it", he said, still staring at the table.
"Oh, I see. Well, I don't know if I believe that she's innocent, but what's the point, right? She's history, one way or the other. Tell me, do you want my help in trying to forget about her?", Kikyo said, leaning on the table.
"KikyoÉ I don't have feelings for you anymore. I stillÉ care about Kagome".
Kikyo waved her hand in dismissal. "That's not a problem! Look, she doesn't want you anymore, right?" Inuyasha nodded. "So you can't do anything about it, why suffer? Go out with me and, eventually, you'll forget about her and fall back in love with me. Come one, who else are you going to be with? You know I'm the only one who can make you happy. I know you, Inuyasha. WE know each other. We had fun together. Forget about her".
Inuyasha figured she was right. If he couldn't make it with Kagome, who else was he left with? Kikyo was his second best shot, he thought. She had changed and they did have some fun moments togetherÉ before Kagome.

"I don't know, Kikyo", he said, running his fingers through his hair. "I'll think about it, okay?"

A few weeks had passed. Inuyasha continued working non-stop, eventually meeting Kikyo for a drink or dinner, although he was clear about not wanting anything serious with her. She listened to him, something that she didn't use to do before, and she had agreed to abstain from sex, for now. He was glad he had a friend, other than Miroku, that knew him well and that he could talk to.
But still, his feelings for Kagome remained the same.
He didn't know anything about her current situation. He tried asking Miroku about her relationship with Kouga, but he remained tight lipped, first, because Sango would beat the crap out of him if he said anything, second, because he didn't really know anything important, since Sango wouldn't tell him about Kagome, knowing he would eventually say something to his friend.
As for Kagome, she was at a loss. She was still seeing Kouga, but the more she tried to forget about Inuyasha, the more she couldn't. The anger that had been plaguing her thoughts about him dissipated and she would only think of him with longing and heartbreak. She still cared about him and there was nothing she could do to change that.  
So time passed, a year more or less, and Inuyasha and Kagome's lives were the same as before they met. Inuyasha and Kikyo were together and Kagome was single, after breaking up with Kouga over his overzealous attitude and the fact she couldn't move on from Inuyasha. Except neither Inuyasha nor Kagome could stop thinking about the other.

Inuyasha was having dinner with Kikyo one day, and she was babbling about the engagement ring her friend just got, while he thought about Kagome. Engagement ringÉ KagomeÉ marry KagomeÉ have a family with KagomeÉ

"Inuyasha? Are you paying any attention to what I'm saying?"
"Huh, what"?"

Sighing, Kikyo explained what she was talking about while he was drifting off.

"So, don't you think we should start talking about it?"
"Sorry, about what?", Inuyasha said, confused.
"Well, duh! About taking it to the next level. You know, getting married?"
"MARRIED?! What are you talking about?!", Inuyasha yelled.
"Calm down", Kikyo said, in a patronizing voice. "We were already in a relationship, before she came into the picture and allured you. She was a bump in our road and now she's gone, and we are back on track. I know you love me, I've known it since we first started going out and I know you still do, after we got back together. Now, why don't we admit to ourselves that our relationship is the real deal and that it's about damn time we got married?"
Inuyasha felt his head spin. "I-I don't know, Kikyo. I think we should take it slow, IÉ"
"NO! It is NOT the time to take it slow, Inuyasha. I've waited long enough. I've always been there for you, I was the one who took you out of your sulking, I did EVERYTHING I could to make you feel better. Now you're telling me to take it slow?! We were practically living together before that whore took you away from me! You know I love you and I know you love me, so why can't we be happy together? You know you'll never find someone better for you than me!".

Inuyasha suddenly realized she was probably right. If not even Kagome was the one for him, then who was? Maybe getting married to Kikyo wasn't such a bad thing. She cared about him, she wanted him. Maybe they could be happy together, eventually. He had thought about marrying Kikyo before meeting Kagome. The only thing that stopped him from proposing was the fact he knew that she didn't want to be married to a hanyou. Now it looked like she changed her mind. He had always wanted a family, a wife, children. He wanted so badly to have that with Kagome. But now he couldn't. All he had left was Kikyo. Maybe she could make him forget Kagome.  I really want to forget Kagome.

"You're right. We should get married", Inuyasha said dumbly.
Kikyo squealed. "WHAT??? ARE YOU PROPOSING TO ME?! OH MY GOD!"

Everybody in the restaurant stared at them. Inuyasha wished the floor would open and swallow him.

"YES, BABY, YES! I WILL MARRY YOU!!!"

Everyone started clapping when Kikyo threw herself to Inuyasha's arms and kissed him on the lips. He felt uneasy, but thought that he would probably enjoy her touch eventually. What am I doing?, he thought.
News of their engagement reached the media, causing uproar, and in no time everyone knew about their engagement.

"WHY THE HELL DID YOU PROPOSE TO HER?!", Miroku yelled.
"I didn't! She kinda proposed to me and I agreedÉ", Inuyasha said.
"WHY, Inuyasha, WHY? I know you don't love her! She's not right for you! You know that!", Miroku said, pacing back and forth in Inuyasha's office.
"Miroku, no, I don't love her. But maybe I will. What I know is, there's no better person for me to be with. I'm tired of being alone and suffering. Maybe getting married to someone who cares for me will be enough. I've always wanted a family. I wanted one with Kagome, but that won't happen and we both know it. So why suffer any longer? People have been getting married without love for such a long time and it's worked well inÉ I don't know, some cases, most cases? I just know I don't have anything better to do".
"But Inuyasha, how can you do that? One does not get married just because they 'don't have anything better to do'! You're crazy!", Miroku shouted, banging his head on the wall.
"Miroku, enough. I've made my decision. I'm getting married to Kikyo".
Miroku sighed in defeat, deciding he still had some time to dissuade him before the wedding happened. "Alright, alright, I'm sorry. ButÉ do you really think you'll be happy?"
"I think it's the best shot I got".
"Fine. Let's go get some pancakes".

Sango knocked impatiently on Kagome's door.

"What??? What happened? Are you alright?", Kagome said after opening the door and Sango barging in.
"I'm fine, but I really need to talk to you, before you hear it from someone else".
"O-okay... Let's sit".

Souta was sitting on the couch, zapping through the TV's channels. He suddenly stopped to greet Sango and then they heard the voice coming from the TV:

In entertainment news, Takahashi Consultants' CEO, Inuyasha Takahashi, has just announced his engagement to his girlfriend, Kikyo Asai(1). They had been together for a year, before breaking up when Inuyasha started dating his employee, Kagome Higurashi, but that relationship lasted only a few months, and recently Inuyasha and Kikyo rekindled their romance.

"Oh noÉ Kagome, I'm so sorry. I wanted to tell you first. I'm so so sorryÉ"

Kagome stood in the living room, looking shocked and with her mouth slightly opened for a few moments, before finally managing to recompose herself.

"It's okay. As long as he's happy." She said, sternly.
"Kagome, are you sure? I know you still care forÉ"

"It doesn't matter, Sango. He never loved me. He wants to be with her, so let him be with her. I'll get over it. I just want to be alone right now, ok? I'll go to my room".
Kagome left for her room and Sango went home, figuring she wouldn't get anything out of her friend at that moment. She decided to call her later to check on her.
Kagome laid on her bed, staring at the ceiling, feeling numb. All she could think about was what she heard on the news. She couldn't believe it. Inuyasha is getting married to Kikyo, of all people. Can I finally forget about him now? Oh God, please help me forget him. I can't keep going like that. He never cared about me. He was probably in love with Kikyo while we were dating. I was probably just a distraction for him, until he was ready for that type of commitment with Kikyo.

A week had passed since the news of the engagement were heard by Kagome. She was still determined to move on with her life and forget Inuyasha was ever a part of it. It seemed easy at first, but time proved it wasn't. As much as she wanted to forget everything, she couldn't.
One day, one of her coworkers, Ryo, came by her cubicle. They chatted a few times before that, but never exchanged more than a few pleasantries and small talk.

"Morning Kagome, how are you doing today?", he said, smiling.
"Morning Ryo, I'm fine, thanks", she said to the good-looking man. He was tall, lean and had short, black hair, with brown eyes.
"I was thinking, maybe you wanna go have lunch with me today?"
"Sure, sounds good", she said smiling.
Ryo smiled broadly. "Great! I'll come by at 1pm, then."
"Great!"

At 1pm, Ryo came by and took Kagome to a small diner nearby. They ate and talked about themselves, mostly about their work and family life, waving bye to each other as they got back to work. Kagome had a good time. It was refreshing talking to someone new, someone who didn't know about her past, someone she could start fresh with. Especially, someone who didn't know about Inuyasha. Ryo was very pleasant and even funny, and that was all she needed at that time.

As weeks went by, Kagome and Ryo got closer, going out on dates. Kagome enjoyed Ryo's company and he seemed to enjoy hers, so they saw each other often.
Inuyasha and Kikyo were still engaged and, while he wasn't looking forward to the wedding, as he still thought about Kagome all the time and wasn't enjoying the proximity to Kikyo, his bride kept busy making arrangements for the ceremony.

"Keiko, you have no idea! I found THE perfect wedding dress! It is extremely luxurious, it is a ball gown with a tight lace bodice and a huuuuuge trail! It has embroidery all over it, sheer panels on the sides andÉ", Kikyo gloated to her fiancŽ's secretary, who stared at her trying to look interested.

Inuyasha was seating at his desk, trying not to listen to the conversation.

Kikyo finally gave the poor secretary time off from all the babbling and stepped inside Inuyasha's office.

"Baby, when are we going to set the date? I can't wait to get married! Everything is almost ready. I have the dress, the location, the catererÉ we just need a date!"
Inuyasha cringed. "We just got engagedÉ why the rush? Let's wait a few more months, maybe a yearÉ?"
"A FEW MORE MONTHS? ARE YOU OUT OF YOUR MIND?", Kikyo said, shouting.  "All my friends got married, like, three months after getting engaged! Do you not want to get married to me?! What is the problem?!". Kikyo started crying, although Inuyasha couldn't help but think it was fake.
"It's not that, I just thought we could wait a little longerÉ ok, if you want to, we can get married in maybe two months?", he said, hoping she would lay off of him for now and stop the annoying cry.
"OOOHHHH BABY, I LOVE YOU!!!". She threw her arms around his neck and started kissing him forcefully. Then she got to his neck and started kissing, while moving her hands to his chest. When she went lower, reaching his belt, he stopped her.

"Not now, Kikyo".
"Why not? You've been avoiding me since we got engaged!", she said a little too loudly and irritated.

That was true. After they got back together Inuyasha did everything he could to avoid being intimate with her. He almost managed to avoid her altogether, except for one time, when she gave him a blowjob after throwing a fit. She didn't seem too bothered by it. It was almost like the only reason she was frustrated for not having sex with him was because of her pride. But after they got engaged, he still couldn't even think about doing something with her.

"KikyoÉ I think we should wait until after the marriage, don't you think? It will be special", he said, trying to come up with anything to get off the hook.

He loved having sex. He would do it with Kikyo almost everyday. Before Kagome, that is. With Kagome, he discovered that whatever he used to do with the others didn't seem good enough. Their times together were always filled with passion, desire, longing to be as close as possible to each other, never wanting to let go, even though they had never gone all the way. He knew he would never feel like that with someone else. He knew, from now on, that sex was supposed to be just a source of stress relief for him. He would never enjoy it as much as he used to.
He didn't even feel the need to do it with Kikyo. He had no desire for her. Even when he got to see her naked, it didn't do it for him. It was like Kagome had ruined sex for him.

Kikyo finally decided to stop arguing and sighed in defeat. "Okay, Inuyasha, I'll wait. But after we get married, we'll have a one month honeymoon and even after that I'm not letting you out of our bed that easily, mister", she said, grinning.
When Kagome heard from Sango that Inuyasha and Kikyo had set the date for their wedding in two months, she felt her heart sink. Of course, they were engaged, but engagements can end, right? Nothing is forever. But setting the date made it all more real.
Ryo took her to the movies one day and when he dropped her off at her door, asked her if she would be his girlfriend. Kagome was surprised but had thought about it before. She always thought she would say no, feeling it was unfair to Ryo, since she still had feelings for Inuyasha. But after hearing the news of his wedding date and deciding she was a fool for still not being able to forget the guy even after all this time, she decided she should give her relationship with Ryo a chance. She said yes and they kissed, before saying goodnight.
After being boyfriend and girlfriend for about a month, Ryo invited Kagome to an annual banquet at the Mayor's mansion. Ryo's parents worked at the Mayor's office and were close friends with his family. Kagome accepted, looking forward to a gala event, something she didn't get to go to often.

That's going to be so much fun!





(1): Asai means shallow well. Get it, huh? Hee hee.