InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Cannot Be Broken ❯ Things Not Said ( Chapter 26 )

[ Y - Young Adult: Not suitable for readers under 16 ]

He's here.

InuYasha's shock drained the blood from his face as he whipped his gaze out the window. The bitter dark of the growing morning light revealed the snow-covered fields and the frosted barrens beyond, but nothing else was there. “Where is he? I don't see him….” He stopped short as he felt a cold chill sweep over him. A formidable aura was searching the manor. InuYasha spun around to look at Kagome.

She was trembling uncontrollably as she stared out the window.

“Kagome, block it!” He moved quickly and gripped her arms to force her eyes to stare up at him. “Block it! Hide your aura!”

She looked at him stunned, then shut her eyes and gripped his arms that held her tight as she masked herself, feeling him do the same. She shuddered hard as the icy force swept over them and then away. Her eyes opened in horror as it passed over them again, almost settling on them. All of a sudden a massive horn blew around the manor as the army was called for battle. The aura again passed.

She could hear the kitsune whimper in the corner of the room. “What's going on?!”

Kagome looked up at InuYasha. Her wide violet eyes searched his amber ones in a silent plea. The terror, the innocence, the instinct of survival hit him hard. He didn't need the connection of the necklace to feel what she was feeling. Her very eyes screamed it to him. Above all, her face was screaming for answers. What was she supposed to do?

InuYasha pulled his hard golden eyes from her face to land fiercely onto the baby kit in the corner. “Shippou! Stay here!” He grabbed Kagome's hand and led her quickly to the door.

“Where are you going?!” Shippou scampered to the door and reached for Kagome.

InuYasha snarled. “Damn it, kit! You're safer here! And I'm taking her where she will be safe. Don't cry to anyone!” He yanked Kagome from her room and down the blackened corridor.

“InuYasha?” Kagome choked as she was dragged down the hall. “What are you… we can't!” She struggled only to have InuYasha thrust her against his chest and snarl hotly against her ear.

“I am not leading you out like a lamb to slaughter, no matter what fool thinks you are some sacred jewel! This war is to keep you safe and keep you alive. Sesshomaru told me to get you and to do just that. And I'm going to!” He grabbed her hand again to lead her down the stairs, hiding her in shadow as sentries ran past. He looked down at her fear-tracked face. “Hide yourself.”

Kagome looked up at him and reluctantly nodded. She subdued her aura as much as she could though her emotions were in a state of flux, making her concentration hard to keep.

Soon enough he had her outside the manor grounds. He hid her behind his back as he skimmed along the side of the wall of the manor, looking in all directions for scents and sights of the gathering army. He knelt down. “Get on my back.”

Kagome looked down at him in denial. “InuYasha, I can't! Sessho….”

InuYasha spun quickly, cupping a clawed hand over her mouth and held her back tight against his chest. “Damn it, woman!” He hissed in her ear. “The bastard told me to get you the fuck out of here if Naraku showed up, and that's what I'm going to do, now get the fuck on my back, now!” He crouched again in front of her.

She looked stunned at his back. Sesshomaru told him to take me from the manor? She looked around quickly before climbing onto his back. She barely had time to get a secure hold on him before he leapt over the outer walls and towards the eastern forests.

InuYasha glided quickly over the terrain, ducking into alcoves and mounds to hide their bodies. He sniffed and scoped around them before running towards another zone. He could sense Naraku's aura scanning the territory for the miko on his back, but it did not seem to acknowledge them as of yet. InuYasha held his breath as he gripped tighter onto Kagome's thighs before bolting for the distant tree line. Within minutes he had reached the forest's border. He crashed heavily through brittle twigs and bushes, trying desperately to be swallowed into the branches of the looming trees.

Kagome hissed as the dry cracked twigs scratched her hands and face. She buried them deeper into his clothing and hair. She could hear the hanyou's heart pound wildly as he recklessly leapt and dodged through the mixed wood terrain. But something was nagging her. Why would Sesshomaru tell InuYasha to take her from the manor? Why would her father go through so much trouble to keep her hidden from Naraku, then when he arrives, have her taken from the manor? The one place that was safe. Was this a ruse? To have Naraku think she was there while InuYasha took her to safety? But if that was the case, why were they so adamant to have her control her powers for the war? None of this was making sense. Was InuYasha lying? He was subduing his aura like she was, so she could not sense him or his motives. Yet she knew something was wrong. Her instincts were screaming for her to run, to let InuYasha take her, but her heart bled cold in her chest. She knew she couldn't run anymore. She had to stay.

She trembled against his back, fighting the nagging doubt that wracked through her, yet it was too strong to ignore. “InuYasha! Stop!”

InuYasha just grunted and leapt over a fallen tree, running as soon as he hit the ground.

“InuYasha!! Stop! Now!” Kagome tugged on his shoulders with her clenched fists.

His white ears flicked back in annoyance but he kept running.

Kagome clenched her teeth and shut her eyes as she let go of his shoulders and let her body fall back.

InuYasha spun quickly around. Snow and debris flew up as he did so as he caught her before she hit the ground. “Are you fucking crazy?! This is not the time to be fucking around! Come on!” He grabbed her arm to hoist her on his back again.

“No!” Kagome wrenched her arm from his grasp and stumbled back to stand a few feet behind him. “This isn't right! I can't do this!”

InuYasha growled as he turned to face her. “We haven't fucking time to argue about this!”

Kagome shook her head. “No, I can't leave. I don't care what my father told you to do, I can't leave them to fight for me alone!”

“They're not alone, woman! They have ten thousand strong behind them!” He reached for her but she stumbled further from his grasp.

She shook her head. “Don't.”

He looked at her in angry confusion.

She sighed shakily as she gazed down at the snow flecked forest floor. “I feel like I've been running for longer than I can remember. And as much as my soul screams for me to run now… I can't!” Kagome ran her fingers through her hair in nervous frustration. “If I run now, I'll be running my whole life. And if he does not take me in this life, he'll try again in the next. I can't do this! I can't live like this! I can't live everyday in terror! I can't live everyday blocking myself from everyone so he can't find me! I can't live never being able to be free to lo….” She looked up at him and her mouth felt dry and her voice cracked. “I can't live that way.”

InuYasha's shoulders sagged and he shut his eyes painfully. “But… you'll be alive.”

She shook her head sadly. “No… I'll just exist… I won't live.”

He looked at her. His eyes that were once filled with domination and power, looked defeated and hopeless. “I'm not taking you back there. I'm not letting them put you on the line against that thing.”

Kagome looked at him in angry shock. “You… I was never supposed to leave the manor, was I?”

InuYasha searched her face, and reluctantly shook his head.

Kagome looked numbly around. “Why did you do this? What if he comes after us? What if he kills everyone?! What if he already has?!” She ran up to him and pounded her fists on his chest and she sobbed in fury. “They said I was the only one who could stop him! And you took me away to leave them there to fight MY fight? You fucking bastard! How could you leave them there to fight without us! Without you! You fucking coward!” She collapsed against his chest and heaved in bitter sobs. “Why…?”

InuYasha stood there in torment. His body stood numbed as it fought both guilt and determination. He lifted his arms heavily as he gripped his claws into her kimono and held her. He lowered his head to breath in her fragile scent. “I had to.”

She lifted her head slightly as she swallowed her tears. “You had to?”

InuYasha closed his eyes as he held her tighter. After a few moments he reluctantly opened them to gaze into nothingness. “Kagome….”

She pulled back slightly to look at his face.

He looked sad and tired.

“InuYasha?” She lifted her hand to stroke the side of his face. “Why did you do this?”

He leaned gently into her touch, cupping her hand to stay on his cool cheek. “I know what you are. I know what everyone thinks you are. But… you don't know how to protect us. You don't know how to fight. It would be insane for you to be out there. I don't care what anyone thinks. You're not ready….” He shut his eyes as he held her to his chest once again.

Kagome held her breath at those words. “InuYasha…I….”

He pulled her back slightly to look down at her. His claws gently skimmed through her hair. “I don't care if I have to hide you, and I don't care if I have to protect you every moment of everyday. I made that choice when I agreed to mate you.”

Kagome shook her head sadly and looked down. “You can't let your honour govern what is right.”

InuYasha frowned. “It's not my honour that decided this… it's….” He looked away disgruntled.

Kagome looked up at him sadly. “My aura? It's making you feel like you… you have to protect me?” She tried to pull from his arms.

He held her tighter. “No.”

Kagome stayed silent as she rested her head and hands against his chest, listening to the heavy thump of his heart.

“It's me.” He growled softly. “It was always me.”

She looked up at his distant face. “What?”

InuYasha sighed and let out a low growl. “They were right… about your connection. I wanted to believe that you just abused your power against me, to get me to … feel for you. But that's not what happened. You never forced me to want to be with you. You… just made me see who you really were.” He held her closer. “I spent most of my life alone. I never needed anyone, never wanted anyone. I just became blinded towards everyone, not wanting to know them, not wanting them to know me. Why should I have, when no one wanted me? But you… treated me like… I was… real. I was… real, like you. Your power didn't control me… it just made me….”

Kagome searched his face in worry. “Made you?”

InuYasha looked down into her eyes. “It made me see… see you. No walls, no fears, no nothing… just… you.” He searched her eyes for understanding and he growled in slight frustration. “The day I met you, was the day I knew…you….” He sighed. “Understand?”

Kagome slowly shook her head.

InuYasha growled softly. “I don't know how to explain it.”

Kagome bit her lips then nodded. “I… I think I do.” She looked at her fingers that still rested on his chest. “Like the time I read your soul, in the bath chamber. When I knew how you really felt.” She looked up at him. “But how could you have known me the day we met?”

InuYasha shrugged. “I guess that's what everyone meant when they said your powers just show people what's already there. I just knew because your powers wanted me to.”

Kagome looked down. “Then why did you hate me, after all that?”

InuYasha let her go and looked away. “Because, when I found out what you were, what your power could do, I thought that what I felt was a lie. I thought maybe you were a lie. I didn't… want to know differently. I felt… betrayed.” He looked down at her. “Even though I felt you that time, everything between us was hidden. What was I to believe?”

Kagome nodded. “I know….” She looked up at him. “How can you believe one thing, when everything tells you different.” She bit her lip sadly and looked down. “How can you trust another's heart, when you couldn't even trust your own?” She said softly to herself.

InuYasha's ears perked and he turned his head to look down at her. “How could I trust my own heart, when I couldn't trust yours.”

Kagome looked up at him. “Is that how you feel now?”

InuYasha looked away in annoyed contemplation. He avoided her gaze and crossed his arms. “I…can't say….”

“Oh.” Kagome looked down. “I thought maybe yesterday… I thought I proved to you how I….” She shook her head and looked up at him. Tears filled her eyes. “Is anything different? Is there anything in me that makes you see… me?”

InuYasha flicked his eyes down to the forest floor. He mumbled something incoherent.

“What?” Kagome asked dejectedly.

InuYasha sighed bitterly. “I know how you really feel.”

Kagome's face fell from the sour look on his face. She gripped her chest hard as she looked around dumbly. How could he look so contemptuous with the knowledge that she loved him? It rocked her hard like he had torn her heart from her chest.

Her breath shook as she gazed back toward the direction of the manor. The dawn's light had finally stretched over them and a cold winter morning surrounded them. Though light and sleeping life was all around them, Kagome all of a sudden felt empty and drained. “Take me back.” She stated numbly.

InuYasha shot his gaze up at her in shock then anger. “Damn it, bitch! I thought I made it clear why I can't!”

Kagome looked back at him in confused sorrow then bitter anger. “All I know is that you think I'm weak and unable to fight. And even though you know how I feel, you think my love is…is nothing to you!” Her anger deflated. “Is that what my love is to you?”

InuYasha grabbed her chin, thrusting her gaze up to his. “Kagome… fuck, Kagome! Your love is everything to me! How can you think it's any less?! I'm willing to carry you to the end of the earth, to the boundary of the heavens to keep you with me! Do you honestly think I can live with myself if you should be killed? Knowing full well that I could have saved you?!”

She looked up at him stunned. “But, you said… you looked….” She shook her head and her voice trembled. “You can't even tell me how you feel about me.”

InuYasha exhaled an exhausted laugh that was hollow and heavy before his face grew serious. His molten eyes searched deeply into her twilight ones. “Damn it, Kagome… that's because no words could ever say how I feel.”

Kagome's heart jumped as his lips pressed warmly onto hers. Her eyes fluttered closed as she leaned against him, feeling his lips move gently against hers in a bittersweet rhythm.

He instinctually moaned against her mouth as his hands fisted into the back of her kimono, drawing her deeper up against him, surround him with her scent and flavour. Eventually he broke the kiss, sighing shakily against her swollen lips.

He looked down at her and saw everything he'd ever hoped he would see on her face. Such devotion and love he never thought would ever grace him. He closed his eyes in painful desperation and rested his forehead against hers. “Kagome, I can't lose you. You are… everything.”

Her breath rushed from her in relief and love. She lifted her face and kissed him softly on his lips.

He moaned as he kissed her back. It was soft and sweet then more desperate. He gathered her up against him tasting her lips and mouth as if it would be his last drink of heaven.

He let go of her lips to catch their breath. He cupped her face with his clawed hands and again rested his forehead against her own. His eyes were shut in need and anguished hopefulness. “Kagome…?”

“Shh… don't speak. Just feel.” She whispered.

He nodded and swallowed hard as her whole being, body, soul and mind, answered him.

He groaned in relief and want and again attacked her mouth with a vengeance. He delved his tongue against her soft lips and licked the opening to allow him in once more. She complied with a soft sigh as he flicked his hot tongue against her own, caressing it and tasting it in soft laps and subtle licks. She shyly copied his actions and soon they were exploring each other's flavour in slow succession, trying to remember every curve and dip and taste of their mouths.

InuYasha slowly dragged her to a small grove between some snow capped coniferous trees. Scented pine needles cushioned the ground and kept it dry, and the overhead branches protected the ground from the winter's snow. He ducked into the comfortable copse, pulling her in with him. He laid her gently down on the dry surface, and he rested his body over hers, warming her.

She looked up at him from where she lay to see him silhouetted in the tree spotted daylight. His white hair shone like a halo of light from the winter sun intermingled with the white aura that covered him. He looked down at her with hazy gold eyes. He seemed hesitant and opened his mouth slightly to speak but was silenced as she smiled up at him, tracing her thumb over his lips. Her eyes spoke volumes. She bit her lower lip nervously as she leaned up and kissed him softly, sucking on his lower lip gently and subtly before resting below him, waiting.

He smiled softly and removed his red kariginu and white under kimono, leaving on his hakama. He spread both articles of clothing over himself, creating makeshift blankets to cover them as he lay above her. Making sure she would be covered and comfortable, he looked down into her stormy eyes.

Both looked deeply at each other. Though uncertainty and opposition surrounded them, this was the first time that there was nothing between the both of them. Here it was, just them, their truth, and their love. Here it was finally perfect, if only for the moment. InuYasha smiled tenderly and leaned down to caress her lips with his own, barely touching and sending torrents of pleasure through both of them. His white hair cascaded down around them and she sighed in wonder of the glowing curtain of his soft hair framing their teasing kisses.

InuYasha's hand traced softly over her jaw line, down her neck and arm to finally rest on her waist. He looked down at her as his fingers tugged her obi and the sash opened, loosening her kimono.

Kagome arched her back, pushing her soft chest against him, which caused him to moan heavily as he pulled the obi away. She smiled knowingly and reached up to pull him down on top of her for another long deep kiss. She felt his hands tangle into her hair to pull her lips harder against his own as he took control of the kiss. She moaned huskily into his mouth and could feel his demon heart begin to pound around them. She could also sense his fear as he eased up on the kiss and was about to pull away all together. Instinctively, she lifted her leg to hug his hips tighter against her, making his lower body thrust against her. His hardening desire pulsed at the friction on her mound and his body trembled at the building waves of pleasure she caused in him, relaxing his fears as she readily accepted his growing lust.

His removed his lips from hers and trailed hot licks and sucks along her jaw line and neck, resting on the sensitive juncture of her neck and shoulder. He dragged his tongue up and down the area, tasting her arousing salty, sweet perspiration as her body heated in longing. He traced his tongue down the neckline to rest between her collar bones, where he dipped his tongue into the hollow of her throat, making her gasp and arch her back. He chuckled huskily, his voice deep and guttural.

He moved softly down as he kissed and lapped the sweat between her breasts, moving his hand between the folds of her kimono to rest on her soft, toned stomach, before he slowly moved the folds away to reveal her warm, soft breasts topped by hard copper nipples. He closed his eyes and groaned as he felt his need beat hard between their bodies, begging him to ease the aching pain for release. He wanted it to be slow. He wanted the seconds to pass like hours. He wanted eternity for this perfect moment with her. He opened his eyes to see her watching him in her depths of hazy deep twilight. She arched her back to bring her breasts closer to him, inadvertently causing her thigh to press against his throbbing heat.

He inhaled deep as his mouth captured a cool nub in his mouth and he sucked and flicked his tongue over and around it. He let it go regretfully to lavish her entire breast with deep hot licks around the nipple and into her sensitive curves. His ears flicked forward to hear her pants and moans, and they strained to hear more. He quickly moved to the other breast, playing with the nipple, making it wet and tingly, before lapping up the flavour of her skin around it. His hand traced ever so softly over the flesh of her neglected breast, causing gooseflesh to rise over her flesh, and her nipples tightened more, aching to be touched. His thumb teased and flicked over the nipple he just suckled as he brought his mouth down once more to the breast he last tasted.

Kagome cried out in pleasure and arched her back, pushing against him once again. He growled as his control was slowly breaking. He flicked his tongue hard over one nipple, then the other, grinding his hot need against her thigh. His growls thundered against her sensitive tits, and his claws scratched lightly down her vulnerable sides.

She hissed involuntarily and sighed out a soft moan. Instinctually, his nose twitched and he followed the aroused scent of her heated core. She smelled heavenly. Her musk was sweet and tangy, and her body cried for him to join her. He closed his eyes and his claws dug deep into the forest floor, tearing it up in his struggle to keep control. He breathed deep and rested his forehead against her stomach. Tantric tingles coursed through them as his rosary rested on her mound, adding more to their already joined connections, save one.

He flicked his ear as something tickled it, only for the tickle to be turned into a caress, then a seductive stroke. He leaned his head into her hand so her fingers could rub and pull as much as she desired. Soon his other ear was getting the same treatment and his whole body hummed in pleasure and ease. He nosed between her thighs, and she opened them, allowing him to see the pink flesh of her womanhood. He growled/moaned softly at the sight and dragged his tongue from the untouched opening to the hardened clitoris, lapping up her flavour like it was sweet ice in an unending desert.

She gasped and bucked against his mouth, her hands pulling and rubbing harder on his ears, making his body tremble and pulse. He reached his hands up to pull and massage her nipples, as his tongue flicked up and over her clit, loving each gasp and cry she emitted as he did so. Her wetness got thicker and heavier as well, and he grew greedy. He sucked at the hot nub, easing away when she bucked hard or tugged his hair or ears desperately. He would then lick away her wetness. Desperate for more of her flavour, he thrusted his tongue into her and revelled in its tight embrace. Kagome cried out in shock then pleasure, rocking her hips against his exploring tongue, while pulling and rubbing at his sensitive ears.

Her breath was now soft cries and moans, her body was flushed and pink, and her eyes were closed in dream-like ecstasy. She looked perfect. His own body felt stronger, and he could feel the demon in him coursing though him in waves, but his mind was here, with her. She was keeping him here with her. Kagome, his amazing, beautiful, and powerful woman. She was everything he could ever dream, and she was right here, waiting for him to be with her.

She opened her eyes to look down into his red tinged ones and she smiled in sweet trust and readiness. He crawled up to rest above her again, looking down at her, questioning. She closed her eyes and leaned up to kiss him. She dragged her hands down his sides, to trace the curve of his hips, lowering his hakama in the process. He lifted his hips slightly as her fingers rolled back up and then dipped to the downy soft fur of his need. Her fingers graced the velvet shaft and ran lightly over the sides of his aching balls. He groaned heavily against her mouth, pushing her head back to the ground as he kissed her heatedly. She cupped her hands around his burning manhood, and gently pulled her hands up, releasing him from the confines of his hakama. She stroked her fingers timidly along his shaft's sides making it jump with each caress.

InuYasha pulled his mouth off of hers as he gasped for air with each pulse her sensuous touches caused. His lust filled eyes looked as if they were heavy with auburn honey as he lowered his hips down on hers. Her hands again lifted to his hot tipped ears, gently massaging them as he positioned himself on her. Resting on his elbows above her, he again searched her face. Her deep purple eyes looked trustingly up at him, while her mouth opened slightly as she breathed in ragged pants. Her beauty and her love shook him to the core, making him close his eyes as he felt the tip of him enter her wet core. He shook as he struggled to keep it there and not pound it deep in her like his youkai screamed for. He kissed her again, tenderly and lovingly, as he slowly inched it further in. The tight, hot wetness embraced him, and his eyes flashed open at the realization he was fully in her. He looked down at her in slight panic only to see her biting her lip in pleasure as she grinned happily up at him. She felt no pain. Of course she wouldn't. She had absorbed his youkai as well, but what made him most awed was the deep love she held as she looked at him. There was no fear, no pity, and no regret. She was just….real.

“K…Kagome.” InuYasha breathed as he kissed her over and over, thrusting his hips slowly, feeling the wetness coat him.

She moaned in his mouth and delved her fingers into his long tresses, rolling her hips up to meet him, basking in the feel of hot and hard inside of her. His pelvis rubbed harder and faster against her clit as he sped up, thrusting harder and deeper into her. Her face looked as if she was in pain as the dull ache in her pelvis grew, tightening and thundering in her. She opened her eyes and gasped as the copse of trees around them were no longer visible as a blinding white light flowed out of them. She could not see InuYasha, but could feel him all around her and hear him as he panted and moaned. She could feel a sudden change in him. There was a tight pull in his body that matched her own. She could sense he felt it too; the combining of their souls and emotions in one large ball of power that beckoned to break over them. Their auras were flooding out of themselves and into each other and it rushed around them like a celestial fog. She could feel his emotions rock through her, and she never thought it was possible to be loved so deeply, nor did he, as they shared this power beyond all reckoning. Kagome shut her eyes as the combined pull intensified, causing her to arch and thrust against him hard until the pull snapped. She cried out as her energy was pulled from her in all directions, whirling her into the black place she had forgotten. Her only connection to the outside world was from the man above her.

InuYasha gripped the ground hard as the pull of power strained against him, quantifying his pleasure and love. He thrusted and arched his back with her as he felt the power plunge around them. His eyes tightened shut as he felt her tight walls pulse and suck on him. He cried out at the intense feel of it and from the shock as her aura pushed within him in a blast of power, pulling him into a place he never wanted to escape from. He let out a guttural howl as every power within him gushed in repeated pulses from him into the woman below him. With one last thrust he collapsed on Kagome. He panted hard into the nape of her neck, listening to their breathing. Slowly, he lifted his face to look down at his mate's and his eyes widened.

“Ka…gome?”

Her eyes were as violet black as the heavens and she seemed to be looking up to the sky.

InuYasha's ears flicked back and his head whipped behind him as his brother's howl echoed over every part of his domain, and ten thousand voices followed after. The war had begun.

“I have to go back.”

InuYasha spun his head to gaze down at Kagome. Her eyes had now focused on him, and she looked… calm.

“Kagome…no….” InuYasha breathed. But he had felt it. Her power. He felt it all along. When he had told her he knew what she felt, this is what he meant, but it was not this intense. And now that she felt it, it meant that she was ready. And he hated it. He hated it because it would take her from him, take her to a place he knew he couldn't follow. “Please,” he begged as he tucked his face in the nape of her neck, “no…please no.”

Kagome held him tight against her and tears leaked out of the corner of her eyes. “I have to.”

InuYasha lifted his defeated gaze to look down at her. He wiped his thumbs over the corner of her eyes, drying the tears from her face. Their eyes met, and hearts screamed to the heavens. One more moment, one more… please, God, one more.

InuYasha shut his eyes to block the pain of the denial of his request. He nodded and kissed her softly, tenderly and with as much love that he could show, knowing deep within him that this kiss would be their last.