InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Captive Soul ❯ chapter 34 ( Chapter 34 )

[ T - Teen: Not suitable for readers under 13 ]

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chapter 34

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The warmth of Rin's shoulder fell against his arm as she leaned against him, letting out a long breath and rubbing her stomach. "Whew, I'm stuffed. That was good, Sango"

While giving Kirara a treat, Sango smiled. "Thank you, Rin."

The human male, Miroku scooted closer to Sango then reached out to pet the youkai cat. Sesshomaru caught a glimpse of his other hand as it eased in behind Sango's back.

Rin slipped further down, resting her head in his lap. He looked down to see her enjoying herself, eyes closed, smiling. Her giggle tinkled on the wind. "You make a nice pillow."

He quirked a brow. "I have been called many things in my lifetime but I have never been referred to as a...pillow."

Rin raised one hand to cover a deep yawn.

As Sesshomaru let a faint smile grace his lips, the early evening wind whispered against his ear. Almost content to close his eyes and enjoy the serenity as well, he lazily ran his fingers through the softness of Rin's hair.

A loud slap disturbed the quiet moment. Sesshomaru looked over to see a very irate Sango glaring at the human male who now sported a very large handprint on his left cheek.

Rin shook her head with her eyes still closed. "When will you ever learn, Miroku?"

Sango jumped up in a huff then stormed off in the direction of the children's playground.

Sesshomaru watched in amusement as the human male ran after her, spewing apologies for his wandering hand.

He followed the quarreling couple until they disappeared into a stone structure resembling a small castle, which was obviously a playhouse for young ones.

Distant giggles persuaded him to shift his attention to the playground adjacent the play-castle. About a dozen children were running, swinging, jumping and laughing with merriment. Smaller ones, toddlers, were digging in an open sandbox.

Sesshomaru allowed a smile as he observed a small girl with golden curls run up to a little boy and plant a very sloppy kiss on the boy's cheek.

The boy scrunched up his nose, his lips forming an 'ewww' while he tried to wipe the affectionate peck off with the back of his chubby hand. The little girl laughed, her pink lips glistening, then ran to the swings, the small boy chasing close behind.

A long forgotten sadness emerged, a tormented memory from the past. His smile softened, fading somewhat. "Rin."

Rin sighed out a sleepy reply. "Yes?"

"Do you....wish to have....children?"

A hint of despair laced her tone. "Yes, I would like to have children....someday."

The silky threads of her long hair slipped between his fingers. The sadness pulled into ache, twisting into a deep tug of degradation. He looked down to Rin's dozing features. He had told himself he would spare Rin's innocence concerning the darker aspects of his past, but this was something Rin needed to know, had a right to know. He only hoped Rin would understand even if she decided he was not worthy to be her mate. "Rin, there is something I must tell you."

Rin opened her eyes and smiled up at him. "What is it?"

"I...cannot have....children."

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Inuyasha ducked an oncoming book that sailed over his head. It hit the sliding door behind him. "Hey!"

The hanyou looked up only to widen his vision and duck again. "Kagome!?"

The 'mad' woman was tossing books left and right off the shelves. "It's here, Inuyasha! I just have to find it!"

Inuyasha jumped up from his sitting position, skillfully dodging yet another flying object, avoiding a good conk on the head by a wooden scroll.

He stumbled through the piles of books, edging his way towards the crazy young woman. "Kagome, what are you doing?"

Suddenly, the rain of books ceased. Kagome whirled around, a dark brown leather-bound book in her grasp. A bright red ribbon hung down the front cover. She smiled brightly in triumph. "I found it! I found it!"

Inuyasha spoke in a slow tone as if talking to a child. "Okay...what did you find?"

The young woman reached out, her warm hand grabbed his. She pulled him into the living room, close to the late afternoon sunlight shining through the window.

She stopped, dropped his hand then held the dark brown book up between them. "This! This book is going to save my sister!"

The hanyou quirked a dark brow. With a hesitant and skeptical tone, he flattened. "This book...." He pointed to it. "....is going...to save....your sister."

Kagome lightly slapped his shoulder with a playful sternness. "Yes, silly. This is a book of ancient protection spells. It has the most powerful incantations known. In these pages in a spell that will protect my sister while she removes Sesshomaru's restraint!"

Inuyasha raised both brows. "Oh...uh...okay."

Her smiled widened into a full grin. "I will explain it on the way to Rin's."

"Rin's?"

"Yep." she nodded while heading for the front door. "I will explain it while you drive me to my sister's house."

Scratching behind his ear, Inuyasha sighed while following the miko, a small smile playing on his lips.

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Those sweet brown eyes hardened with concerned confusion and worry. "What do you mean?"

Sesshomaru looked away, averting his eyes, shifting his gaze to the rippling water of the small lake. For several minutes he drifted with the waves reflecting the late afternoon sunlight. The dappled splotches of light danced across the surface, a never-ending union of sun and water created by the endless wind.

Rin sat up, her small warm hand grasped his. "Sess, what are you talking about?"

He swallowed hard, the harsh reality of his impending confession weighing heavily on his thoughts. It would not be easy to explain. He wrenched his eyes away from the lake to stare at the green grass. "In my servitude, I have lain with many females. Some wanted a child produced from my services. They were not pleased when our couplings did not result in offspring."

"Rin, I cannot have children......My first Mistress, my first owner. She was angry....She...removed...my ability to reproduce. She informed me that a slave was not permitted to sire a child and any spawn would be an abomination."

A warm fingertip slid across his cheek. "You mean...you can't... How could she....?"

He gave a nod, interrupting, "I no longer possess the ability to give a female a child. She explained that it was justified and necessary, youkai filth such as I did not deserve to procreate, a youkai slave is not worthy enough to have...children."

His mind wandered with his voice, diminishing to a far off distance. "I remember...how long it lasted, how long it was until the pain went away."

Rin climbed into his lap, shivering, as if she were chilled, seeking his warmth. Her voice faintly quivered. "It's okay. It's okay now."

He closed his eyes while burying his nose in her soft hair, his voice muffled against the vanilla scented strands. "Do you still want...to be with me...even if I cannot....give you a child?"

Warm arms encircled his waist. "I want no other, no other."

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