InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Cerulean Sins ❯ If Only... ( Chapter 3 )

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Oh and yeah this one is also on FanFic.net but I wont update there only here (: and I could use a little help with this story. Any idea's on where it should go?
-Nuala

Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Action | Type: Crossover | Uploaded On: 08.13.2008 | Pages: 1 | Words: 1.9K | Visits: 149 | Status: Work In Progress

Cerulean Sins

Chapter Three: If Only…

Features: Hello my name is…(General thoughts/or diff. person talking)

Hello my name is…(Emphasize words/or talking)

It was almost typical that it would rain tonight. The victorious night of my escape would now end in the devious beginning of my death. I was cold and this white dress did little to warm my broken body. I sighed, leaning against the willow tree, somewhere in the forest where my memories actually meant something. At least for a little while. I held Inuyasha's sword in front of my body. A seemingly facile attempt to scare off any demons who would otherwise have plans for me. I kept Kagome's arrows close to my heart, trying to smile every time I thought about her.

God…I hate it when she dies.

She watched the fire, her head sitting upon her hands. She seemed so lonely when Inuyasha was gone. Honestly, she seemed lonely even when he was here. I smiled at her and she smiled back, looking down at the sleeping kit in her lap. How she loved him. I let Kirara lay still on the floor beside me and watched as Miroku slept peacefully. It was amazing, his ability to do such things. Everyone knew what tomorrow was to bring and here he was in his deep sleep dreaming.

Kagome sighed and looked up a the sky, bringing my attention back to my best friend. He'll come back. I tell her, and she knows it's true. What hurts the most is how he looks at her… One day, he'll see Kagome for all she is worth and then it will be to late.

I know he will. Hey look a shooting star! She pointed up at the night sky and I saw the flash of white go over my head. Star light, star bright, first star I see tonight. I wish I may I wish I might grant the wish I wish tonight. I had listened to her speak those words before but tonight was different. She had said them with such meaning and power. It didn't take a rocket scientist to know what she had wished for because I had wished it many times before this.

Are you going to sleep tonight? I asked her, in hopes that maybe she said no. my nerves were on fire and closing my eyes might mean that I would never wake up. It was foolish thinking, but I couldn't help myself. She smiled at me.

It would be pointless for me to wait for Inuyasha. Laying down on her side she watched the fire with an almost morbid fascination. So yes, I suppose I will. Goodnight Sango. I smiled at the beauty before me, never faltering. I didn't want her to know that I didn't want to be alone. Everyone is aloud a moment of weakness and I'll just have to deal with mine in my own way.

Goodnight Kagome…

Kagome…

I twitched. I had felt the soft touch of a finger poke my side and I sighed. Did this mean that I was caught? I didn't want to open my eyes, because if I did I would stop dreaming. In my dreams Kagome was still alive and so was Miroku. In my dreams I believed us all to be happy even if we weren't. Wakey, wakey! The sound of a little girls voice stung my sensitive ears and I slowly opened my eyes. Casting a glance her direction I put a face to the voice. This was Rin, the human possession of the Great Lord of the Western Lands. I felt very fortunate that they had found me. Less walking that I would have to do.

Hello. I whispered, my voice nearing on empty just like my stomach.

Lord Sesshoumaru! Look she's awake! I was surprised to see that Inuyasha's sword was still within my hands and not Sesshoumaru's. Did he perhaps know that I had been using it as an emotion crutch? Even if he did I doubt that he would care, and it only hit me afterward. Sesshoumaru could not touch this sword without being burned. I smiled. That was somewhat reassuring but at the same time a downfall to my plan. Standing to my feet, I used the sword to hoist me up properly. Rin jumped around me happily.

Using what strength I had I threw the sword to Sesshoumaru's feet. He looked down at it from the corner of his eye and yet made no move to touch it. I took a deep breath and keeled over onto Kagome's bow. I was growing weaker by the second and I had not taken the time to care for myself. I'm giving that to you. I told him, looking over at Rin. You should be able to touch it with Rin in your possession. It feeds of the power to protect that which you care for and I know you care for her. I felt unsteady when his gaze connected with mine.

I'm going to assume that this means my baby brother has finally passed on… I looked away from his cold hearted gaze. The way he said `baby brother' was almost sadistic and it hurt me to hear. Inuyasha was special…despite his flaws.

You catch on quick. I told him softly. Inuyasha died five days ago, not that you care. I have no idea what his wishes would be for that sword but since he's gone I'm deciding for him.

How noble. Sesshoumaru mused, his eyes still locked onto mine but his mind was always connected to the Tetseiga. I suppose you think that I am going to thank you for this but you'll find that you are wrong there as well. I could have retrieved this sword myself.

I smirked, falling back on my butt. So suddenly Rin had stopped her movements and looked at me softly. Take that however you like Sesshoumaru. I'm merely doing what I need to do to find some sense of peace before I go… It was Rin who had looked distraught. She was so young, probably unable to comprehend the second meaning in my words unlike Sesshoumaru. However, she was no fool and had quickly come to realize that I was in pain, and unlike most, she cared.

Sesshoumaru watched her take a seat beside me and place her head on my shoulder. I looked over at her, unused to the feeling of kindness in a child. She was special and she never ceased to amaze me. She was a puzzle to be reckoned with and I was never able to understand why she would stay with Sesshoumaru. He was so cold. Perhaps he was different with her… I'll stay with you. She told me and I felt my eyes burn with unshed tears.

For an unknown reason I had gathered the little girl in my arms and held her there as I cried. She had a heart like Kagome's and I was so jealous. Jakken looked over at Sesshoumaru and sighed. She probably wont last through the night milord. Looking down at the sword before him Sesshoumaru realized that Jakken's words were probably true.

And for the first time today, my heart had finally accepted my death with open arms. It was satisfied just so long as I was not alone when I left this world.