InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Dear brother ❯ Transformations from regret and suffering (part 2) ( Chapter 13 )

Dear brother

A/n: It's been a while huh? At least I didn't leave you with a cliffhanger. I've been busy, my have friends been dragging me out every night! At least I get out. Right now we're looking for apartments to move into. So that's my life situation right now

I did manage to rewrite a chapter of my first fiction. So I'm looking for some feedback on that. I think the small intermission helped me improve. I was just burned out. Now we'll see how this chapter looks.

Now for part two; something that you've been waiting for!

Chapter 13: Transformations from regret and suffering: (part 2)

Time didn't pass the same way as it did in the world of the living. Eternity was timeless and what felt like only a few minutes of being dead, was in actuality a few hours to whomever was on the other side, in the world of the living. Time had flown by in a blink of an eye. But to InuYasha, who wept over Sesshomaru's body, it felt like many moments ago.

Kouhei and his mate, Daisuke needed to take Sesshomaru's body to be embalmed and they waited for InuYasha to move, giving up the body of the only family he knew. They understood that letting go was going to be especially difficult for the Hanyou, who continued chanting Sesshomaru's name under his breath while he cried on Sesshomaru's chest. Kouhei didn't wish to rush this. No one in the room wanted InuYasha to shift into his demon form again.

InuYasha's heart had shattered a thousand times over again as the minutes passed and he waited for some life to return to Sesshomaru's body. He didn't understand why Tensiaga hadn't worked. The only possible answer was that he was too weak. This was the reason why their father hadn't left him the sword of life. “Sesshomaru, Sesshomaru, Sesshomaru, I love you… I'm so sorry. I'm not strong enough. If only if only I was strong enough!” he cried.

Irrationally he began to think of other things that had run through his mind from the moment Sesshomaru was expired. Like suicide. It wasn't something he knew that Sesshomaru would approve. But he hurt so badly and he felt as though he couldn't go on any longer. His lungs constricted and he choked. InuYasha knew the thought was selfish. But he wasn't leaving much behind. He didn't have friends he could really rely on. They always had turned out to be users.

If he had had any friends, Kouga was the closest to one of them. Though he wasn't sure how the wolf demon would react to if he actually attempted suicide attempts. “Why does it have to be you!” he cried to Sesshomaru's corpse.

“It was just his time, InuYasha,” Kouga said softly. “Time will ease things for you. You'll see.”

“That's a load of fucking shit! I am not healed from anything from the past. All the shit I had to deal with! You can't even begin to understand. Now the closest thing to “good” in my life just disappeared from me! Shut the fuck up! You have your wolf pack now! Why don't you just go back,” InuYasha growled out. “Right now my only chance at having happiness in my life has disappeared!”

Kouga sighed and shook his head mentally. He didn't say anything more. He knew he'd make things worse for the whelp if he continued speaking, as he knew that InuYasha was most likely right about never being happy again. He was never really happy before. Kouga had a feeling that InuYasha had been happy with Sesshomaru deep down up inside himself right until his death. The tears he had shed for his brother was proof of that. The wolf demon could only pray that something else could make him happy again; something which would come along and redeem InuYasha's loss.

InuYasha stroked Sesshomaru's soft hair, rubbing the silken strands between his thumb and index finger. He continued staring at his eyes, expecting them to open. He had tossed the sword aside, since it hadn't apparently worked. He wouldn't leave his body until Sesshomaru woke, or until he was convinced that he wasn't going to return. He vowed that no one would pry him off of the body.

“InuYasha…” the healer spoke finally after a few hours had passed. No one had said anything as they had let InuYasha say his good-byes. They had gone off to prepare a room for Sesshomaru's body. Now that it was ready and Sesshomaru needed to be taken away, the nurse knew this was going to be difficult. InuYasha wouldn't go down without a fight. “We need to go prepare Sesshomaru's body. I'm sorry but you'll have to let go.”

InuYasha didn't look up. He only shook his head madly. “NO! You will not have him!” he cried! “He's mine! He's only sleeping!” he reasoned, knowing that he wasn't really being rational. “He'll wake up shortly! Sesshomaru! Wake up! Please!”

Kouhei lowered his ears sadly. “He's not. InuYasha, please let go. Or we'll have to take him from you by force.”

The nurse had prepared a special concoction to knock InuYasha out. She had known this was going to be difficult, so not wanting anything to go wrong; she brought it over to the bed. The concoction was in a powdered form and he would need to breathe it in. Not bothering to tell him she took a handful and with a puff, she blew it in InuYasha's face.

InuYasha coughed and shook his head. He felt dizzy and his head spun rapidly. He didn't know what she had blown in his face but he didn't have enough time to contemplate it as he was quickly knocked out, collapsing over Sesshomaru's chest.

“Let's move his body and clean it up. We'll robe him in new silks and we'll prepare the funeral for two days from now. Clean InuYasha up too, and this bedroom if you will,” the nurse ordered as she packed up her medicines.

Kouga nodded. He would clean up InuYasha along with the bedroom. `What are we going to do now?' he thought as he picked up InuYasha off his deceased brother's body and laid him at the end of the bed where he washed off the dried salt stains on his cheeks . “You'll be alright… I promise.”

 

Sesshomaru's heart ached deeply. He could hear his brother's whispering cries in his mind. He wasn't sure if he was imagining them or not. It tormented him while he sat there on a stone bench across from his father. He didn't speak a word as he looked down at the green luscious tufts of grass.

“I can hear him too,” InuTaisho said quietly as he watched his son's pained expression crossing his face. “It's so strong, yet it's so distant.”

“Why?” Sesshomaru asked. He began thinking that he was in hell with all the pain he felt. “Is this what the afterlife has for me? Is it an eternity of suffering with my brother's cries of sorrow, Father?” Sesshomaru stared over at InuTaisho with piercing gold eyes that cut through him like a sword.

“You're not supposed to be here, Sesshomaru. I don't know why we hear it. I'm sure it's usually not supposed to happen. I don't know why you're still here. All I know is that I hear them because I choose to hear.”

Sesshomaru wanted to hear InuYasha, but he didn't want to hear the heart wrenching cries. “How do I get back? You say that I shouldn't be here, but I am!”

InuTaisho crossed his legs, thinking for a moment. “I'm surprised that the green goblins that take your soul to the afterlife haven't found you here. Perhaps something happened to stop them.” He stroked his chin thoughtfully. He wondered why Tensiaga didn't work when it should have. This had him questioning if something had interfered with its ability. `Maybe Naraku had done something a long time ago to Sesshomaru's sword. . .

“You mean I can never return?”

“Sesshomaru, has Tensiaga ever left your side?” he asked, ignoring his son's concern.

Sesshomaru blinked blankly at his father. He wasn't sure what he was getting at. “I don't use Tensiaga always. I sometimes have it on the wall. I never have any use for it now that Naraku's gone, nor do others come to me seeking its powers often.”

InuTaisho tapped his lip with a finger while hmming, “Well I had been thinking that something tainted it. And I'm thinking that the `who' might be Naraku.”

Sesshomaru gasped; his eyes widened. He had killed Naraku a long time ago. He didn't know how Naraku could have tainted his sword. When he had killed Naraku he had used Tensiaga to help destroy him. He had used it to release all the demons out of his body, which had been made up of them. That had made Naraku weak enough for him to destroy him with his Tokijin. He knew that before the destruction of Naraku, Sesshomaru had not gone anywhere without both his swords at his side. “I don't see how. Naraku's dead. I hacked him to millions of pieces and I'm pretty sure I smelt the burning of his disgraceful hanyou body that InuYasha had burned. I don't see how you could get him touching it long enough for him to taint it.”

His father nodded. “True, but perhaps he didn't touch it, but his blood might have. It might be that which could be delaying you going back to your body,” he articulated. “He might have planned this all out you know?”

“If he's delaying then I should be able to go back soon right? I don't understand why he wants me to be delayed coming back.” Sesshomaru felt on edge at the news. He hoped that it didn't have to do with his brother or anything else. “I've used Tensiaga before, the beings usually come back right away. I can't be delayed much longer. Right?”

 

There was a disturbance in the air in the castle. It was a sickening feeling; almost like a miasma. It wafted through the halls like a fog.

It had been three days since the death of lord Sesshomaru. InuYasha had a mental breakdown and Kouga had to keep an eye on for him so he wouldn't do anything too stupid. They hadn't had Sesshomaru's funeral just yet. They were still observing the traditional waiting period that was often held for a demon lord. It lasted for a week or more depending on the deceased's importance. In this case it would be the funeral held in 2 days since 5 days already passed.

InuYasha lay on the bed starring up at the ceiling blankly. He ignored the choking feeling in his lungs that made him feel like he was suffocating. He didn't ponder what it was he didn't care. He felt broken inside.

Kouga sat beside him watching him. He could smell the unpleasantness in the air that made the hair on the back of his neck stand on end. The wolf didn't know what it was that was making the air so thick, and that made him feel like something was coming. Something that made him ill. He got up off the bed and went over to the window to glance out at the gloomy sky.

He wanted to go investigate what was causing such him such uneasiness but he kept to where he was. “InuYasha, something isn't right. I think we should move you to another room or another place soon if it gets worse,” he said softly, coming back to the bed.

InuYasha said nothing. He could feel what the wolf was talking about because it choked him. He said nothing about it because inside he hoped that it would put him out of his misery.

Kouga sighed and went over to sit by the fireplace at a loss to what he could do or say to his friend that would make him better. But he knew that there was nothing to heal such a broken soul…

 

Outside the mysterious fog crept into the room where Kouga and InuYasha were. The purple tinted fog rolled over to InuYasha's bed and crept up over it on covering InuYasha's body like a thick blanket.

`What an odd fog,' Kouga thought as he watched the fog roll in. It made him worry and wonder what was going on. `I thought I heard about this fog moving about in here, I wonder what it's coming from, I hope that it's nothing…'

InuYasha glanced to the thick fog that obscured his view of the ceiling. He felt like something was smothering him. It made him give an instinctive gasp.

`You must feel like your lungs are being squeezed. You can't breath, you're suffering so much. Don't worry, this is nothing…' A voice spoke in his mind. He couldn't identify it. It was as though he was thinking it. As if it was his conscience. InuYasha wasn't sure what to think. He just thought that he was losing it and he kept quiet.

 

The fog rolled back into the hall leaving him alone. It moved in a cloud eerily down a level of the Castle seeking out the body of the fallen lord. This was no ordinary fog obviously. This fog had a purpose to find a host… A dead one at that; it wanted revenge.

It reached its destination in no time, the courtyard gardens where the nurse and the guards had moved the body to prevent the smell of decay from entering the castle and making things worse on everyone while they waited for the embalmment. Sesshomaru's lifeless body rested on one of the stone benches in front of the spring. `Ah, perfect…' a disembodied voice mused as it surrounded the corpse that still held some regal way to it though it looked paste and porcelain almost. `Soon, there will be nothing more of him…'

The fog enshrouded his body and turned into a vapor then it entered Sesshomaru's nose completely.

Sesshomaru's body took a deep breath within moments of the vapor that had formerly been fog entering his body. But, there was no heartbeat…

 

InuYasha laid there after the fog had disappeared. He sat up with some difficulty, and then looked around for Kouga who had been sharpening his daggers out of boredom. The wolf looked up on hearing InuYasha shifting in the sheets, and feeling eyes on him. “What's up?” he asked wondering what got him out of his trance.

“I think… I'd like to go down and see him if that's okay…” InuYasha said distantly, his eyes still swirling with a sadness that tore Kouga's heart out. “I'll hold it together.”

“If that's what you wish, I won't object,” Kouga said and sheathed his daggers in his boots and got up to pick up InuYasha's broken up body. InuYasha didn't make so much as a grunt, being picked up like a child. He kept his eyes down and his body relaxed as Kouga carried him down the hall and down to where Sesshomaru's body was. He expected the worse from InuYasha because of how he had behaved before and yet he couldn't blame him.

As they came into the area, it felt as though something changed. There was something far different in the air then before, which made the hair on the back of Kouga's neck stand up. It also seemed that InuYasha didn't notice this. Looking around Kouga noticed that he didn't see Sesshomaru's body that had been placed on the stone bench that was straight ahead of them. `Did they move it again?' Kouga wondered.

“Where is he?” InuYasha asked, tensing, as he followed Kouga's eyes to where he assumed that Sesshomaru's body was supposed to be.

“I don't know… Maybe they moved him. Do you mind if I sit you down and I'll go ask?” Kouga said going over to the bench.

“Yeah, I can wait here,” InuYasha mumbled as Kouga set him down. InuYasha wondered where his brother's body had gone off to. He knew that they hadn't done anything to it just yet. He knew that it shouldn't have been moved without his knowledge.

“I'll be back in a flash,” Kouga said, heading out of the gardens in order to find someone who would be in charge of the body.

InuYasha watched him leave, and then looked around wearily. He did have a sense of uneasiness about him. His skin prickled with goose bumps, and he had the urgency that he shouldn't be there. InuYasha wanted to call Kouga back but he knew that Kouga was out of hearing range by now. “It's probably nothing,” he told himself quietly. “I'm just overreacting after that incident in the village.”

There was a stirring of the bushes close by causing InuYasha to jump slightly. It wasn't the breeze either that caused this stirring. It was something else. InuYasha could hear the thing coming closer. He held his breath as he saw a bit of white and red reaching forwards. For now the hanyou could only identify it as white and red silk.

“InuYasha…” the voice called. It was a bit raspy and rough, like a parched mouth. “I've been looking for you everywhere. Where have you been?”

InuYasha's color paled instantly. It was a ghostly sight viewing him. Tall pale in color, his lips were white and his skin was drained of color. Even his markings were almost translucent on his paled complexion. InuYasha would have jumped over to him, but his limbs were in casts; still being injured.

“Ses…Sesshomaru…” he stuttered, his eyes grew large, watery and they almost popped out of his head. “Sesshomaru…” he said again. InuYasha's mouth became very dry. He didn't know what other things he could say.

“Yes, it is me,” Sesshomaru said with a stiff nod. “I've been waiting for you for quite some time little brother.” Sesshomaru's body was quite stiff in movement as it approached him sluggishly. InuYasha didn't really think about it. He had never really seen the results of Sesshomaru's sword work. All that he knew was that this could just be a side affect from being dead so long.

“Did… it really work?” InuYasha asked his heart beating rapidly in his chest as Sesshomaru came to stand before him. “You… look so, so… pale.”

Sesshomaru gave a small spine-tingling cold laugh that really didn't feel like Sesshomaru. “Yes, my dear… It did work. I'm standing before you am I not?” Sesshomaru said. Sesshomaru knelt slowly so he could look his brother eye to eye. “I know… I'm very cold, InuYasha.” Sesshomaru's hand came up to cup InuYasha's slightly bruised face from the days before. The bruises were fading but they were still visible. “I need you…”

InuYasha shivered as the cold marble-like hand cupped his cheek. He wanted to nuzzle it affectionately, but something felt wrong about it. He wasn't sure what it was either, but it just felt entirely wrong. “Sess… it's been so long. What do you need? I can try to get it for you, maybe Kouga, he'll help you.”

Sesshomaru's almost lifeless eyes flashed to an angry red. “No!” he snarled. “I will not have him touch you!”

InuYasha was taken aback, “Gomen…” he whispered, averting his eyes. He felt like everything was his fault still and he wanted to help Sesshomaru, but he felt like everything that rolled out of his mouth angered him. “I won't ask then… What can I do for you?”

Sesshomaru gave a small grin. “I need to warm up. I need your blood,” he replied. `And your life,' he thought. “I would like your body too.” He brought his face closer, breathing in his intoxicating scent. “You're still in heat.”

InuYasha nodded. “I'll do anything for you, Sesshomaru.” InuYasha had to admit that he was still in his heat phase. Though it was slowly simmering down with his depression over Sesshomaru, however, now that Sesshomaru was alive again his body was firing up slowly. “Yes,” he whispered. “I haven't touched a soul since you went away.”

Sesshomaru smiled, his thumb stroking the soft flesh of InuYasha's cheek. “I'm glad.” He moved to kiss him, licking at the dried lips before taking in the bottom lip of him. Sucking on it ever so gently, it caused InuYasha to moan and start to harden. Sesshomaru's tongue parted his swollen lips further, wriggling his tongue into him.

InuYasha was very confused as to his actions. His mind wanted more of this and so did his body, but at the same time he wanted to push Sesshomaru away from him and get as far away as he could. He didn't know why he felt that way but he was so happy that he had done the right thing reviving Sesshomaru that nothing mattered anymore. He wanted nothing more then to be happy again. The hanyou's mind failed to think rationally and chose whatever it could to believe that this was the real Sesshomaru.

Sesshomaru could only give a mental smile. He was going to do it. He would have the filthy hanyou and then take his life. Then everything would fall into place. The castle and InuYasha's power, and Sesshomaru's, would all be his. No one would think much of him. He'd dispose of the hanyou's body and tell the others that he had sent him away for good. After all, their relationship wasn't quite built up just yet. “I want you so bad,” he whispered, breaking away from InuYasha. “I've waited for you forever, why don't we just mate… we'll never have to worry about loosing each other.”

“Anything you want…” InuYasha said. “I never want to be abandoned like that again.”

“You won't be.” Sesshomaru turned around looking around suspiciously. He knew that Kouga would return soon. He would have to take InuYasha elsewhere. “Come with me, Kouga will know where you are soon enough.” Sesshomaru picked InuYasha up and went out the other exit in the garden; heading down the hall and out of the castle. All without being seen, he headed out of the castle grounds by some unguarded gates.

“Where are we going?” InuYasha asked, feeling a bit worried now that they were leaving his castle behind.

“Somewhere were we can't be bothered. Don't worry, we'll come back here soon enough,” he assured him as he took him to a secluded area a few miles away, deep into the thick of the forest.

InuYasha only nodded and buried his face into Sesshomaru's chest; breathing in his scent that seemed too has also changed. It smelt so familiar to him, yet he couldn't place it. `Maybe it changed because he was gone for so long…' he thought as they came to a stop.

`Alone at last… now no one will hear his screams of pain as I take him, and then take his life!' Sesshomaru thought as he set InuYasha on top of a pile of leaves. He disrobed from his burial silks, revealing a pale and scared complexion. His body still showed the signs of being cut open from his chest down to his belly. Nothing really looked like it was healing now that he was alive. It seemed to InuYasha that he didn't notice or care either. `It's a bit funny how he doesn't even notice this body's heart beating in its chest… how blind he must be.'

InuYasha swallowed nervously, wondering what he'd do next.

“I'm going to need your blood to warm up my body… it's still a bit sluggish,” Sesshomaru said, and then got down to his hand and knees, crawling over to him. InuYasha wore no clothing on his chest, leaving him free to be sampled. Sesshomaru unbuttoned the pants and pulled them down past his knees, and then finally off of him; tossing them aside into the bushes. “I will try to be as gentle as I can,” he murmured and his cold hand grasped his brother's erection that had growing steadily.

InuYasha shuddered and moaned as the cool hand grasped his aching heat. “So… cold,” he breathed.

Sesshomaru nodded and licked the tip of his dick, sucking on it momentarily to sample the warm honey that dribbled out of it. “I couldn't have imagined that you would taste so sweet. Like ambrosia. Or honey,” Sesshomaru breathed heatedly. He sucked a little more on it; InuYasha's cries of pleasure reaching his ears. He could see InuYasha's body twist and contort with just this mere action. It was as though he had never had one of these before. Which might have been the case of this reaction to his sucking, “So, tell me… have you ever been with another?” he asked.

InuYasha moaned and grasped what he could with his stiff arms. “No, no one but you, Sesshy,” he panted out as he bowed his body.

“Hm… perfect.” Sesshomaru smiled and nibbled on the tip of the aching shaft, sending shudders up InuYasha's spine. “I'm glad you're like that… I'll be deflowering your cherry tree.”

InuYasha felt the heat rise in his cheeks. “Sesshomaru…” was all that he whispered and bucked his hips up into Sesshomaru's heated mouth.

“Ah, yes,” he breathed and licked down his shaft to the balls where he licked and sucked with a small nip or two, and then moving on to the puckered hole not far away. “You're so ready for me.” He licked around the hole, rimming it and dipping his tongue into it before he took his dry fingers and roughly shoving them into him.

The unprepared hanyou cried out in pain. “Ah! Stop..!” he wasn't expecting that. He had thought that Sesshomaru was going to go slow and easy for the first time around. He didn't think Sesshomaru was going to change his mind about it all and take him hard. “Please, that hurts!”

Sesshomaru scoffed. “It's supposed to.” He grinned and gave a small moan as his fingers were clenched. “Ah, you're so perfectly tight. How long have I been waiting to take you…” Sesshomaru thrust another two fingers up him stretching him a little farther. “I'm going easy on you. I haven't fucked you yet.”

“You're going too fast,” Inu whined in pain.

Sesshomaru merely gave him a grin as he removed his fingers from him. “Now I shall show' too fast',” he said parting the other's legs apart, earning himself a small cry of pain as the injured legs were hurt more. “You won't be complaining about that now after this.” Sesshomaru positioned himself at his entrance while he leaned down and bit down on his neck at the same time he thrust his large organ into him. He silently sang in pleasure as InuYasha screamed and tried to shove him off with his body weight. Sesshomaru only deepened his thrust and gnawed his teeth deeper.

“Sesshy, please stop! It hurts!” InuYasha cried. “I thought you loved me more? What… happened to the words you said earlier?” InuYasha wept no longer enjoying the moment with his eldest brother. He wasn't sure what had gotten into his brother, but it was beginning to worry him. No. Scare him.

Sesshomaru didn't reply; he continued drinking down Inu's life force and thrusting into him harder and harder, pushing him across the forest floor; sticks and stones pushing into his skin uncomfortably. They were even cutting into his flesh. However, Sesshomaru refused to heed his brother's pain. Blood continued to flow out of InuYasha and into Sesshomaru, and onto the forest floor.

InuYasha could feel that there was something wrong now. Something inside told him that this couldn't be his Sesshomaru. This Sesshomaru had a whole new feeling. He didn't seem forgiving and warm like Sesshomaru had. This Sesshomaru didn't seem like he was sorry for the mistreatment either. In fact, it seemed to InuYasha that he wanted to make things worse and not make up for the things that he had done in the past. It made InuYasha wonder where things had gone wrong in the revival of his brother and the mate that he wanted. He just knew now that he wanted his old Sesshomaru back.

“You still hold an erection for me, my love,” Sesshomaru said pulling up; blood dribbling out of his mouth. “I think that you're enjoying this lovemaking a lot.” Sesshomaru smiled and pumped InuYasha's erection as he went down to bite him again, this time on his other side.

“This… isn't love making.” InuYasha cried and arched his back as his body failed him again. “Just stop; what's wrong with you? Where is my Sesshomaru?”

`Dead, that's where he is. Six feet under if I didn't have his body,' he thought malevolently. Drawing deep gulps of the blood, he took as much as he could before replying. “What are you talking about? This is me. Who else would I be?” he grunted out.

InuYasha felt lightheaded with the loss of blood as he looked up at the blurred head of Sesshomaru. He couldn't see the paled complexion or the beautiful of the brother he once knew. All he could see now in his delusion was a monster. A monster which frightened him.

Sesshomaru smiled down at him and then leaned down kissing him with his bloodied lips. “I love you so much,” he said almost sarcastically. He gave InuYasha's a painful squeeze, and then he grunted thrusting rapidly as he approached his climax. “Nnngha… I'm coming! Oh InuYasha, feel my hot cum in you. Can you feel it? Does it feel good?”

InuYasha cried out as he was squeezed painfully. “No… please… stop. It doesn't feel good.” He could see that Sesshomaru no longer cared about him coming. It was apparent that he only cared for himself as he shot his hot cum into him making InuYasha gave a small mental moan of somewhere between disappointment and relief that it was over.

In InuYasha's mind he couldn't believe the tears that he had wasted on a brother who had nothing more to offer for him in love. Sesshomaru had fucked him without any care of his well being or happiness. He didn't know where it went wrong, but inside his heart was broken. He could only lay there and look off into the darker part of the woods which were blurry. “Are you done?” he asked his voice hoarse and filled with sadness.

Sesshomaru only could give a small smile, looking down at him. He wasn't breathing too hard but he had worked up a little sweat. “You sound ungrateful? Did I not satisfy your heat?” he asked mockingly as he gave the hanyou's limp penis a suggestive stroke.

InuYasha still could feel the fire in his loin's that didn't stir his erection but that left a remaining itch that wasn't satisfied. He wished that he could have come but his body had refused. It hadn't felt right, and thus nothing had happened, surprisingly. “No,” he whispered.

“Hm, well then,” Sesshomaru said, pulling out. `I think I've had enough of this, its time to put an end to this worthless life,' he thought with a grim smile that reached his dull eyes that were looking eerie with a plan to rid the final member of the Inu clan of Saigoku.

“I don't understand you… You said you loved me,” InuYasha cried. “Then now you treat me like shit? What's wrong with you? I thought that you wanted to take me as a mate and all our past transgressions towards each other would be gone. I thought that you wanted to live together and love each other? What happened to those words you spoke not long ago? Are you just playing with me?” he said, turning his head back to look at him. Trying to focus his eyes on him, he failed as they were burring more while tears flowed from them and the lack of blood made him see in double vision. “You asked forgiveness… now I see that you really don't deserve it.”

Sesshomaru gave him a mocking hurt look. “Oh… I'm so sorry! I lost control!” Sesshomaru leaned down so he was nose to nose with him. He wiped away the salty tears with a finger. “I think it is time to end this mess I've created. The western lands of Saigoku shall be mine.” Sesshomaru gave him a chilling smile. “I will tell you now. I am not who you think I am. I don't feel as though I should say who I am because you're going to die now anyways. Thus, my name will no longer be important when you die. But at any rate, say hello to Sesshomaru for me, will you?”

InuYasha trembled with realization. He should have known that this wasn't Sesshomaru! He should have known that it was someone else. But who was he? All that he could think of was Naraku right now. Naraku was dead, though. They killed him. What was going on? He had not had time to think, though; he had heard the words that he was going to die. He had to fight back somehow. The healer had put a strong cast on his arms and on his legs too. He couldn't run. He couldn't crawl away. He was frozen like a deer. The most he could do now was cry and call for help. What use was his voice in a forest no one really entered because it was so thick? There would be no one to save him now. `Sesshomaru, looks like we'll be together in the afterlife after all; I've failed us all.'

Sesshomaru grinned. “No other words?”

InuYasha stared blankly up at him. At least he could call for some help. “HELP~! KOUGA! ANYONE!” he screamed. And wiggled underneath his brother whose body was taken over by something he didn't know what. “Fucking let me go!”

“It's too late for you cry for help now. No one is here to save you,” Sesshomaru said, raising his razor-sharp claws. “I'm afraid this is the end.” Sesshomaru said; as he jerked InuYasha's head back and slashed open his throat with his claws tearing it open and letting blood poor out. “Better not let this blood go to waste now,” he laughed and sank his teeth down into his neck; drinking as much as he wished before he was filled. Even then he tore the flesh from his throat leaving InuYasha gurgling for air.

He got up and looked down at InuYasha who looked up at him with fading eyes. “You're not even worth a full-blooded demon's time. I don't see why he would even want you. Worthless half demon…” he said disgustedly as he adjusted his hakamas and headed off towards a spring to wash off.

InuYasha lay there bleeding to death, suffocating and drowning in his own blood. He wanted to cry for help. His voice was gurgled out by his blood, blood that he couldn't even cough up to save himself. He struggled to roll to his side, which he finally managed, but it did not help as the blood continued to pump out of him. The hanyou's vision was pricked with darkness. He knew that it wouldn't be long until he would be gone for sure. `Maybe this is a good thing. Maybe he's doing me a favor. It'd save me from the pain in the future that I'll have to deal with. At least, this way… I'll be able to see him again. I'm so sorry for being so weak though. I can never forgive myself for not even making much of an effort to fend him off. Why must it end like this..?' he asked himself silently as he watched the Sesshomaru impersonator walk away from him. It left him breaking up all over again. Even though it wasn't Sesshomaru, just the looks caused the disillusion of the figure actually being him `Gomen.'

InuYasha tried to lift his head from the ground, but his body was heavy, and he no longer bothered. He closed his eyes and rolled weakly back to his back. He'd accept his death. In his last moments, he could only think of memories of the past. `I guess it's true about they say that life flashes right before your eyes as you die...' InuYasha thought to himself. He gave a small shiver as he felt cold. `Wait for me brother, I'll be there soon.'

 

 

A/n: Guess you didn't see that coming did'ja! LOL Cruel I know… but don't worry, I'm not ending this story yet! I still haven't given up on writing it. I swear! Everything will work out, and everyone will be happy with the outcome.

I did throw in a lime for you! Aren't you proud of me?! I thought it lacked something but um, it'll do. I wasn't really going for much in that part; I have a BIG plan coming in on this! I think you'll enjoy it.

Keep pestering me with reviews ^^ I love it. I haven't got much, so I guess I lack updates… >_> * ahem* so anyways I must go update the next story! Sorry if this is too short! I wanted to get it over and done with anyways… *kicks self to shut up* …

 

Other fictions if you're interested in my work:

 

The sun and the moon: First fiction. NC-17. InuYasha/Sesshomaru: MPREG, Torture, Body Modifications, Incest, Aghast, OOC.

 

Summery: InuYasha is captured by Naraku who is seeking further power, and wants to kill off the InuYasha clan one by one. If he can't accomplish that, he'll plague their dreams and their lives until he does.

 

Dear brother: NC-17 Incest, Possible MPREG, Aghast, OOC (just a bit)

InuYasha/Sesshomaru

 

Summery: Sesshomaru sends a letter of reconciliation to InuYasha, and InuYasha must decide what will happen to their future.

 

 

Soul Mates: Yu Yu Hakusho Kurama/Kuronue

Yaoi, Body modifications, Bondage, Aghast, OOC, MPREG (maybe)

 

Summery: Kurama fled to the human world seeking to recover from his loss and ordeal in the spirit world, where he lost his partner. He seeks to get over the loss but things come crumbling down when he catches a glimpse of his partner. “But didn't he die?”

 

Intensifiers: Sesshomaru/InuYasha:

One shot -Christmas special, Heavy BDSM and hard-core lemons, Incest, “drugs,” CBT, AU.

 

Summery: InuYasha gets locked out of the house and becomes frozen! He manages to get in, but he needs some warming up. Sesshomaru brings home a special present to fix InuYasha's problem of being cold.

 

Crimson skies: My original characters: Crimson/Koda/Vosh (Not sure yet, but we'll see how it goes)

Warnings: M/M M/F (?), Bondage, Bisexual, Sex bending (unisex) some other goodies. You'll see if you keep reading it.

Summery: Vosh- a dragon/panther hybrid- is Crimson's best friend, and ex boyfriend. Crimson is a Fox/phoenix/ vampire hybrid who has lived for ages and he had finally taken a human mate; Koda.

Vosh was never fine with this; though he acted cool about it. Everyone knows that he wants Crimson for himself, but Crimson said no over and over again.

But what will happen if Crimson goes into season, and Koda isn't there to satisfy his needs? Who will? What will Crimson do? Will he finally give into him after all these years? What will Koda do?

 

Fan group: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/ CrimsonInHumanBlood_Fictions_etc/ (remove the spaces)